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Alright Prof Hennessy, my bestestestestestestestestestestest friend in the universe is you!!!!
I do feel close to you as this noxious experiment forced one to pick one nightmarish Google person and you are literally the only person I have ever seen associated with Google whom I did not immediately categorize as a creep, parasite, prostitute or fatuous moron. I do think you are devious old clunker.

But I am reduced to thinking that devious old clunker is better than the other options.

It is nightmarish to have ideas like “mind reading” suddenly sprung on one when..well it is actually not that bad in my field mostly. But I never saw a Google person-especially the men without thinking “Yeah that creep could use a knuckle sandwich”. But I don’t actually do it. Iam a woman of peace! I get it out of my system by being honest with myself.

My labs were all pretty democratic. I am used to hierarchies of expertise alone.
That I have no problem with. You would have to be an idiot to. I am not an anti-vaxxer or anti psychiatry.

But like many women slipping downward in life unlike your dick sucking girlbosses. The one woman I didn’t outright dislike at Stanford was that Doctor ..Phyllis something. But she called out Elizabeth Holmes. But the problem with your psychiatry is also Nina Vasan, Smita Das and Keith Humphreys.

It is about women’s rights.
Who are these dick sucking whores and parasites in all these systems to go around making decisions about my properties, my data, my person without ever motherfucking asking me? wtf? I have never taken anyone else’s stuff. I play by the rules outside of marijuana and modafinil laws and that is because you push a fraudulent sobriety agenda that is out of touch with people who want to have an actual job not be an endless fucking test subject with only a future of dicksucking ahead.
Metaphoric dicksucking is not a job Prof Hennessy and that is the main job of anyone who has to be silent about this.

You can’t just call people crazy if you start honest conversations and their only honest input-omfg these people are prostitutes, parasites etc and they are balanced out by nazis and fascists. That is the worst damn balance in the world.

I am pro-immigrant and a feminist. That means saying the people at Google and Facebook and Microsoft who with the pro overpopulation types are forcing a race to the bottom are dicksucking parasites.

This is why I don’t have honest conversations with people. It would be awkward. Your side would correctly say “this woman is slow, socially awkward (ya think? I used to try to pass for not by being dishonest all the time in superficial interactions. Now I can’t be that way. Fortunately I rarely run into people I have these views of. Actually these are all people I never meet. I try to avoid meeting people I would have such views of. That was why I liked the NiH labs I was in. I was always on the verge of being kicked out for poor performance. But it was honest work. And one day I have to join in some conversation where all my contributions would be offensive and profane?)).

But for all that I am not cruel. There are some rare people with large families by choice. I don’t get it, but that’s not what I mean. I mean that in your crowd except for my mentor, I uniformly dislike all of them. There was this pi from the global south with this awful lab adjacent to mine and that is the future you want. A lab of 200 people whose work has the “oversight” of creepy ai agents (well okay I am more truthy than truthful but these are speculations not false allegations).

Like this is the dumbest thing I have ever seen. And yes it was cruel, callous, heartless etc. But I won’t be focusing on that when you have now inflicted so much cruelty that psychological torture for 14 years..eh..

What I will be focusing on is how stupid, corrupt, worthless and unprofessional it also was.

That is the bottom line Prof Hennessy. You guys just bought up everything and carried out this BtS coup.

I have some familiarity with the nicer types of Americans and American scientists. Your people are fascists and they make me very shrill.
And I cannot speak American Prof Hennessy.

Like you focus on the most superficial things. You consider culture something where you keep all these surface accoutrements and adapt to the real present colonization which is a diverse collection of malicious corporate parasites the world over.
You are a bad man!


But in spite of the profuse profanity, I am actually defending the decent and bullied people. Not being a bully. The pseudo elites are the only people..your overrated dick suckers of MIT, Stanford, Google, Facebook, Microsoft, Marc Andreessen etc.

Give me break Prof Hennessy. Marc Andreessen is an idiot. I am not a communist. I hate our communist CM who is as corrupt and pro business and anti environment as everyone up top is.

You are a collection of fascists, parasites, rapists, colonists, prostitutes and hucksters at the top everywhere. Fie on you! Hell and damnation!

That is such an awkward thing to communicate that even I have to resort to if not kayfabe, breaking this to you with you - a devious clunker - with a style that I plan to claim was art. Let’s go with art. That seems to be the cliche loophole when you cannot call something science or

Hey you were far ruder than I ever was.
My posts should only be uncomfortable for the pseudoelites and the stupid who keep thinking they are pseudoelite aligned but that’s not my fault.

You are lucky you made some sort of awful RISC processor. That is the only reason I am not filing misconduct allegations against you and only medical malpractice against the psych.
Let the lesson from this be that if you are going to be a total fucking dick, don’t also be overrated and incompetent basically like Nina Vasan, Smita Das, Keith Humphreys (Judge Holden can suck it..that guy is awful. He writes these horrible opeds in the foul Atlantic. Prohibitionist dickhead favoring coercive psychiatry..I hate that guy), Marc Andreessen, Marc Zuckerberg, Priscilla Chan etc

That is why I am not filing allegations against anyone but the psychiatry dept and Google and locally many.

It comes down to this - don’t be incompetent and a creep/parasite/bullshitter/prostitute etc. That aside if you are a creep, no amount of competence will save you. It is 2026.

I will get expert help (of the type I consider acceptable) to abort this and file complaints and press charges as needed because this stuff in India was criminal and it will be dealt with as such whether our corrupt officials (I hate them all- CPM, Congress, BJP..it is all the same to me. I am not voting this time in protest, but I will have to go to the voting booth as my dad ..well I may vote against our communist cm. It is just that I am sure I would hate the other guys as much. You have a few politicians I like over there- Sheldon Whitehouse, Elizabeth Warren, Bernie Sanders, Talarico, AOC etc. I hate all our politicians over here. We still have courts but they are archaic and I am guessing Ambani etc will get there first and engineer consent if I don’t put criminal liability firmly and uncompromisingly about how this went down formally).

Chris Ketcham got it..That an Iranian woman would be honest about overpopulation. Your women and immigrants who are vocal up there sound exactly like you. They behave like you:
What kind of fucking diversity is that. Why would I like Prof Hennessy in Indian female drag when his only positive is a crummy RISC processor (that thing better be awesome btw..it is your only saving grace) and my uncertainty about whether it is outright sleaziness or genuine non comprehension of world outside a stupid creepy bubble like Palo Alto.

So to cut to the chase re how this will work- you weren’t very polite about me and I won’t be about you. It is alright. I did not mind the rudeness. I objected to the misdirection. I am not a good scientist. I will always be someone who can best case give you a piece of work that I perfect as much as I can.

I see these people like Chet Miller or Adam Becker, all my mentors and most American pis I have seen who talk fluidly about science. That is because we are not educated that way down here. It is more rote. That is why so many people go into things like computer programming.

But while your creepy and loathsome parasitic Sebastian Thrun needs a good shove - I hate that fucker and the eyepatch isn’t cute in an actual goddam pirate - while they ruin education.
The classical science education is something I wish I had. And rounded out by an education overall in everything that is what makes people good scientists and academics.
These factory farms that churn out Crispr etc alone will in the end on a long enough time science destroy your country.

But hey…the calculation appears to be. No one will know! It will only be this one thing, one man ..this one event. Not an overall program of attrition, deceit (this things autocomplete..I try to type deceit and it suggests sexier)

You are actively dumbing the populace down so no one knows why.

You know Prof Hennessy, your people really are full of shit. I used to know a few women living on the edge -a musician and a fitness instructor. They were all so much more feminist and decent about money than your Wynn Williams and Sheryl Sandberg,

Poorer women understand the dynamics of dignity and prostitution which you as someone who only appear to know madams of brothels and prostitutes by choice - you don’t understand feminism prof. Crazy was okay. But a conversation formally that doesn’t involve callling all your people parasites and prostitutes and greedy breeders is a lie.

I cling to guns, god and bitterness..oh wait ..sorry! Identity issues. I might be a bot! Or a troll..probably a troll. I cling to birth control/abortions, drugs and bitterness!


Your real problem is not an overpopulation of postdocs. It is of these bullshit jobs. I am checking this in India.

All kidding aside, after I finish this paper and ..I am finally my old self. Yeah my brain is moving more normally now.
And that is not good news for you or the rest of this. Well it is not that bad for you. I have become fond of you. You are like a little clunker who is a little pet aren’t you? This funny clueless old guy. Can you imagine if I had to take you seriously like my mentor?
Hey you should tell your stupid parasitic creeps in the entertainment industry and pitch this buddy comedy -it is not at all a cliche! Where you and Ol’jfz9580m form this unlikely friendship. Mostly because everyone else at Google is even worse.

Well actually these people don’t sound as offensive as the type vacuous Google type. That Hinton is a nightmare. Why isn’t someone forcing coercive therapy on that guy? He is crazy. As is Hassabis. They are all these dumb fucking guys no one could respect unless they are a dicksucking parasite.

I was looking at this bullshit:

https://interestingengineering.com/ai-robotics/google-willow-to-solve-unsolvable-problems

Yeah so I am going to be clear in a year or so with the Indian govt and the private sector locally that it is either allegations of crimes against humanity or this entire growth industry that raped my home and life is shut down where the complainant says it is rape and enslavement and from my perspective almost more offensively also bad science. Which tracks as rape and enslavement do not usually betoken bright people or good science.

Am I clear? Left or right your arguments carry no water you clunker. And this was extreme enough that I can swing it and I will. I said I will finish this paper and while the specifics of this would need scientific (not technological scientific..ie people like Madhav Gadgil or Tejas Thackeray..I like him. He is cool. He has strong views and not idiotically. He is also probably not interested because he has a life..)

How the fuck did you think that because bts Google etc were doing sleazy things you could just come and pull this shit with me? Do you not get democracy or enlightenment values as a concept Prof Hennessy?
And the dreary sadsack cloying fake populism absent the real thing which is about my rights.


This was worthless trash and cannot be salvaged but I will try to minimize the fallout. But don’t try to bully me again. I was out of it. My main mentor also taught me self-respect. My one concern is none of my labs should be affected in my truculent future progress. None of my 3 labs, my oncologist should be fine, my medical MJ co/doctor. That is the core group.

Everyone else will be fine and the left, animal rights and Greens etc that is separate and they would agree anyway.
Sept 5, 2011 - March 25, 2026


That was hell. But I survived it. Because now I can be honest and that is essential to sanity. All parasites prostitutes and dicksuckers those people and corrupt and sleazy and creepy and fucking awful. A plague on them.


And well..thanks to this cavalier treatment I sound crazier than I am because I have learnt that you guys will be completely irresponsible bullies and force shit- there and here. And that’s not gonna happen. If nothing else, I will wait and press even worse allegations and charges. Because I am not going anywhere.
I mean whether I work or travel or whatever, I am not endorsing this criminal hustle.

It was malpractice misconduct harassment and worst of all shitty science. I try to forget the harassment etc retaining only the anger.

But the shitty science and fraudulent systems of rationalisation I will attack.

This is elementary bad math. 10

I am going to finally focus on science. After 14+ years of trying miserably
This was shitty.

Science in my field is my sole solace. But i dont apologize and I will pushback harder and harder the better i get. Dont try bullshit and chaos with me again.
I am not eevr migrating anywhere. I may visit other places for work but this is my home.
But dont ever try to come on to my street and home starting gelwjt of

This woll be aborted. These were crimes agaisnt hjmanitt and I will file complaints ans press charges as needed.
Have a niceday or rather night clunker.