The most important part of this for future records is that I am (as formally as one can in this medium), recording that I will unambiguously file allegations of: 1) medical malpractice and scientific misconduct in human subject research for at least the period from Sept 2011- the present and going forward against a) my former employer/the Hospital there/Google; b) the city and the state at the time; c) every hospital, tech company (Tata for one/SBI card) or other institution in India that exploited my home/devices and me in this period; d) criminal harassment allegations against all the humans who used my street between 2021-the present/going forward and any accessories/bystanders/data scientists and researchers; e) my present city/state/anyone involved at the centre.

If my alma mater and first postdoctoral school were involved, with the exception of my mentors/a colleague at the NIH (who is nothing like this and like my mentors not at all this creepy, exploitative type of scammer), at the very least they should be rebuked for such graceless, greedy and above all..this is the part that grates on me the most..brainless behavior.

No one seriously believes that you are motivated by safety and health concerns about addiction/mental illness, when you classlessly jump into bed with data miners, ai companies, sleazy and parasitic mobs/swarms/vacant internet sleuths (this is not democritization of a goddamn thing - these people have no self awareness and no life. I used to have a life. Hell is these people.)

I apologize for this next part as it sounds ott. Though it was true. I will be alleging that, I was stalked, bullied, extorted and harassed using the narcotics war and kept out of the loop for refusing to cooperate with this exploitative race to the bottom immigration strategy that treats the NIH postdoc like slave labor and sweatshop work. It was and is psychological torture and a serious human rights violation and theft.
I never had any mental issue that was not directly caused by this breathtakingly stupid enterprise.

It is different that I have a type of fennel weed like mercurial resilience (which I discovered thanks to this daft shit! I hate victimhood. Otoh these people are punishingly stupid. I have wished for Steve Chu or Yan Lecun..I can probably even survive evil. These guys are not evil. They are really stupid).

I have had to reinvent myself as Ol’jfz9580m in some sort of reaction since it seems to mirror the Ol’Orlick level of brainpower that must be the norm in this astonishingly stupid crew.

I imagine them as a combination of two of the most repellant characters in “Great Expectations” -Ms.Joe and Ol’Orlick, but somehow also sleazy, creepy, tacky, cloying and nauseating, which in fairness no one could say about Ms Joe/Ol’ Orlick, who were better than these guys.

I do not have a not absurd or not mocking reaction to these dunderheads. The script that they launched requires a woman to be this annoying cliche in response to these mindnumbingly stupid people.

Like see..kayfabe works when a sleazebag joins this choreographed (and daft) thing and except mockery, after finally exiting this hellish headspace yesterday, I don’t have a serious response to this totally self-serving, creepy and sleazy dance. You really disgraced yourselves.

And worst of all I reflexively used these dumb internet grievance scripts when my main grievance is that all these people are really stupid and apparently no one informed them of this glaringly obvious fact. And they might need that info to at least work out who to and how to sell these totally lame scams.

I am very grateful to my medical mj co and small pharmacy for having been the only truly useful help. I will be alleging that these methods are horrifyingly stupid and should be nominated for the Ignobel before being defunded and taken to the police etc.

It should be considered especially vile when moral abominations like mass incarceration and the failed drug war are exploited anew by these shady and unscrupulous groups to pitch this criminal trash as “prison reform”, “mental healthcare”, a metaphoric “vaccine”, “traffic studies” etc. The information must nit

As of this date I have not yet formally escalated it to criminal malpractice and criminal misconduct, but I don’t rule it out.

The sheer exploitative, sexist and above all stupid (this is the part that gives me hope) nature of it kills brain cells.

MysI am still formulating a response for real. I kind of recovered in stages. And well it is a very unfortunately unpleasant conflict, but it is not personal. But almost all these guys are a genuine threat to the public and shockingly masquerading as responsible.

This is why rather than an ever larger jury and etc of these fucking idiots (man the cloying rot I was regurgitating outside of my life decoupled from these scammy, corrupt brainless guys..)

I don’t get offended easily. But this was offensively stupid.

The following people are exempt from complaints I file: My last mentor/lab/the pd counselor/my external shrink and therapist/ the first and last families I rented space from and, this one male scientist (who whatever his shortcomings, was not stupid at all and in this crowd of dimwits that stands out..as stupidity is what I will always remember. It is not even a very competent scam. It is a cliche they put no thought into. Instead of the nightmarishly stupid cs and google crowd, ask Steve Chu to say with a straight face that these creeps care about health and that their mapping, music and traffic studies are not depressingly daft..I would wager half my savings he would agree it is stupid and scammy. These are daft people.)

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(These posts are a work in progress. I formally request MIRT/EarlG/elad to alert on or delete any that cross any lines and I will try to figure out which specific piece of hateful, kooky, extremism was an issue. I am throwing every tool I have at this now. Sadly writing is easier at the moment than work or a healthy lifestyle. I am serious about this. So now I must move fast to finish my paper, complete writing and start the process of complaint initiation with as much pushback as was warranted given how horrific this was. I am at least still alive to tell how fraudulent safety/mental health concerns imperiled me).

I have pondered with disgust and some fascination this entire collection of greedy, self-serving, solipsistic narcissistic candidates for the Darwin Awards going back to 2011.

It was late in the September or early October of 2011 that I realized that what I had assumed was a routine and respectable job was instead the exact type of sleazy bullshit I have avoided all my life and filled with the types of Indians, Americans, men and women I would take a plane, train, boat, bicycle, bullock cart etc to get as far away from as possible.

Nobody has to even be particularly cynical to see that these people don’t care about prison reform, mental health, open science, dreamers or undocumented immigrants. They do not have Christian or humanitarian concerns. They care about one thing and only one thing. Their own professional and personal advancement at any cost to other humans, the planet, civil society, democracy, science and medicine.

It is complete bullshit to be a clearly mediocre shrink who uses their perch at some ghastly spook hell (just a hypothetical) to shill sobriety propaganda with a muscularly mercenary agenda exploiting Reefer madness driven prejudices to force VR and garbage therapies while assiduously fellating (if you will pardon my contemptuous vulgarity - I am a poet! Artistic license!) data mining giants, defense contractors, assorted scummy surveillance capitalists and private equity giants who would make the “scurrying little men” from 1984 look like noble, upstanding citizens.

Actually, I should not suggest that those people copiously gratify these miserable mordern day mobsters. What would my mother say? Seeing as she is dead I cannot know. She would probably be shocked at the language and ask me to refrain from posting such things online.
I alarmed my poor mother sometimes. You see I take after my dad as well, something I tried to repress throughout. However, it fits the needs of the hour.

Hold on, I have to go and look up what constitutes libel and defamation legally. Poor EarlG and elad. I just got my first post removed in 19 years and 8 months on DU last week for “Hateful, Kooky and Extremist Content”.
In fairness, a totally valid description of Ol’jfz9580m’s content.

I was highly amused by that. Man I hope I am not annoying the hell out of EarlG and elad. I am not a loose cannon. I actually felt sorry for my last mentor and even more so his wife, a decent woman who reminded me a little of my own mother, who was also a hard scientist who liked literature.
Believe it or not, these profanity and veiled aspersions filled bouts of lyrical prose are actually a statement of support for them. It is also a statement of support for EarlG and elad, whose forum I use where I could never have a creepy little Facebook account, a blogspot (Google), wordpress (some guy who owns it..wait..let me go and look up what constitutes libel).
As I spit on my hands and get down to an important task I have delayed for 14 years, 7 months and around 3 days to be precise (precision rants! To match precision medicine!), it would be wise to have an idea of what constitutes libel and defamation.

Okay so these definitions of libel, slander and defamation are totally shackling and unfair.

Free speech! So much for wanting to be inclusive of people and such. What about my right to with lots of justification malign the professional integrit

I am the little guy! I mean I actually totally am!
I am trying to be supportive here for real. There is no way, a person of above average intelligence would believe me (I am generally a MeToo supporter, but I always found their language..unrelatable) if I tried to reivent myself as a woman who says various insipid things. The first feminist book I was ever enthusiastic about was Valerie Solanas’ “Scum Manifesto”.
There is a broader point here of what happens when the left is forced to use language that has been carefully curated by managerial
consultants, litigation obsessed lawyers and sundry bad actors.

The so-called social justice movements of the last 15 years have lead to a noxious form of dialogue with neat boundaries about whom to attack and how that is no doubt very lucrative, but it is heartless, callous, gutless, witless trash.

It is not feminist or egalitarian to spend all your time policing language and existing in state of perpetual offence while defanging the people who might say things (at the risk of libel) such as “those corrupt and mediocre dick-suckers and dicks of Google, Facebook etc are engaged in a shocking

I have grudgingly decided to pullback complaints against Substack since pretty much everyone whose work I respect writes over there.

Hi Dave (EarlG), please email me if I am becoming too much of a nuisance and I will dial it down. I was being satirical about free speech. I am not actually irresponsible.

I intend these for the open web, obscuring only personal details. I am filing a criminal case myself here in India* and I am not enthusiast of the web. But as a hedge strategy (as distinct from a sleazy hedge fund)

But as Ed Zitron said about Dudesy, what distinguishes these rants from something a pathetic ai, data mining, cryptography or lame orchestration racket (not that such things exist! That would be wildly paranoid! And fodder for those grotesque agents that man - in an act of supreme restraint I shall stop calumning stray bloggers however contemptuous I am of conniving humblebrags that shill subpar ai by feigning alarm over drivel- who


For me anyway.



I am not sure that for instance saying: “those insipid, mediocre parasites at Google and Facebook have never had any talent that did not come from theft at scale

*: I lost my mom. This isn’t a joke and none of it is ai or bullshit. I have no mental illness and I am responsible. That is why I am filing a criminal case. It is about negligence and deregulation at scale. This was torture. But it would be impossible for me to represent myself as entirely sane and awake throughout this nauseating experience. And as many of my targets are not the usual suspects (don’t get excited you meninists. This is about being hounded out of the left and feminist areas when rather than regurgitating a pale immitation of someone else’s ideas and experiences, that before ai, was done by the kinds of humans these societies have for very long feted while covering their own tracks wrt their own indebtedness to

I do not know what a disaffected white or any male who is not a creep is like. But I do know what disaffected feminists - a term I am reclaiming as women’s libber is more typing. Efficiency!-are like.
I have only one voice in my head and its my own and I attribute to all real human influences and consider ai a joke.

I have not been myself for a long time. I realized on Friday that what makes me seem a little off is trying to roleplay this irresponsible woman who makes peace with this entire slew of people I cannot excoriate adequately. They can go to Yasha Levine or my mentor’s wife and if they get 100% approval from both of them I will pull back my complaints.
As is I have forgiven and tolerated two intensely annoying labs in which save for one male scientist whose judgement I question in both working in that hell and befriending me (that didn’t last long),

This is not about capitalism or any ism. It is about common sense, honesty and not lying to yourself all the time.
I am dubious about these things I do. I doubt that my mentor’s wife, the one woman in this I would trust and take cues from, would approve. But she is white and in another country and a legitimate honest elite.
I cannot compliment people except inadvertently. Because I have never had a bullshit job or lived in a real dictatorship.
This isn’t a dictatorship.

This is exactly where some small amount of actual intellectual or academic or hard science muscle is coupled with a catastrophically stupid set of sleazy strategies.

Survival of the fittest as a mobster, robber baron or a voluntarily prostitute sees it is not survival.
The only time I pull back anything is when it might endanger the few businesses I engage with.
I bore the brunt of the risk in this.

And yes clearly Ol’jfz9580m is a oppressed and mild woman, because or else, these absolutely corrupt women and men would represent me as a bullying thug myself.
I cannot excoriate what passes for left or liberal or feminist these days enough.
It is just mobbing, but in a different way.

I do not bully people. But I cannot go around saying everything is white or male supremacy. Where it is those people are so voiceless, they are not online meting out clapbacks and getting hearts and likes.
I would be upset and disappointed if I ever evoked any response beyond “gulp..ummmm..”.

And that is not internet toughness. I am so disappointed in all of you. You are a joke of a species.

I am not angry with you. I did think you were too brainwashed to even talk to honestly. But if I had to, I would say that you sit around faking concern online (brainlessly more than maliciously) but I don’t buy you. You are bullies.
Your power comes from other people or actual wealth and power.

Mine comes from a monstrous experience that was and remains torture every day. This is not the life I wanted.
But if this had to happen, I owe you as a society, a paper, unvarnished feedback and a criminal case establishing a legal precedent.
This was no less monstrous than Theranos.
But the risk was distributed and I shall find all the culprits.

I use the pen - the common woman’s tool and rely on EarlG’s graciousness. Whatever I say about all these companies or people, I am not so solipsistic that I would make idiotic purity demands during such a uncertain and insane time.
Hell..I have made some feeble and unconvincing attempts to theoretically placate Shyam Sankar, Josh Hawley and Stepfanie Tyler - an odd assortment of presumably conservative people who..lol..

If I didn’t have a sense of humor, I would be dead. It was the TikTok ban wrt Hawley. That thing really should be banned. I am not violating DU’s TOS. I would be a malicious bot if I thought in my specific position weighing in on American politics was not the type of thing that is truly ill-advised.

Besides most things I say are truthy and satirical and it would be ill-advised to take them at face value (except as in Part 3 I laid out what I will allege and file at least in India and in the last state I worked in). Do you think I do this for a job? It is not about being stuffy. But that would be so depressing. If a woman like me was desperate enough to do something that uncharacteristic. That would be a warning sign that no alarm bells are left.


Billionaire outreach! Not really. But I didn’t shed a tear for Gawker. I wish it had taken that foul Jezebel with it. Celebrity gossip and bullshit “feminism” that allows those brainless meninists like Peter Thiel (is that libel? I mean yes he does sound pretty stupid, but clearly you cannot actually exist without a brain. So that is a euphemism).

Now, I like the venerable Fox News, do my best to be fair and balanced with our sleazy billionaire class. Otoh my balance here is skewed due to the reality that this was not an explicitly conservative male driven thing, but the result of what I consider a genuine mindless cancer on the left.

Now yes, I was mildly nauseated to see a fraudulent “eclectic” mix of that person Yoshua Bengio (damn libel laws), Steve Bannon, the disgraceful Ralph Nader (I knew some Naderites in grad school - totally self centred, attention seeking morons. They were not voting their conscience. They did not live in a war zone and find themselves unable to not feel hurt. But they did like to view themselves as …they were well-heeled, contemptuous of other humans and not people I remember with any affection or respect. Ol’ jfz9580m has a brutal worldview she was trying to mask. I think I am a failure and a disappointment. Why would I like people with even less self-awareness who had far more resources invested in them than I ever did. Mine have been poached and parasitized).
Honesty is the only way out. I have no delusions of grandeur but these guys do.

I would throw even Elon Musk a bone - one of the bones Ol’jfz9580m is notoriously stingy with and say that it was a failure of msm that covered up some scandals involving sexual violence against and grooming of women. But I am not a beagle or a Thai boy in a cave.
This is the real world. My being online is a sign that things are as broken as it can get.
But Musk does try to shutdown small left wing outfits and I would rather EarlG banned me outright than risk that. That is the closest I have ever come to transactionalism.
I may need reputation management after this. Musk and DOGE are awful. My parents were public servants and I was shocked at the treatment I saw of federal workers.

But these street mapping and other projects where our corrupt communist govt has conducted them are vile harassment. And generalities and specifics are different. I have no compunction for any of the people involved.

But when these people (who are grifters who would be disliked by most everyone who knew them) are self destructing, it would be foolish to pile on and hobble Ol’jfz9580m where whether you are the home team or across the aisle, Ol’jfz9580m is engaged in pest control and tumor degrowth. This is not healthy growth.
But Ol’ jfz9580m is no one’s fool and never a bully, though a mawali, whatever that is..some kind of thug I think. These guys are creeps and attention seeking brainless parasites.
I shall find them all and press charges and file malpractice and misconduct allegations as well as report any scammers who tried to use this to game their way ahead.

This is a situation like Theranos where there is no left-right angle and yes a legal precedent checking this must come out of 14.5 years of psychological torture that left one person dead.
The utility of my resilience is not to enable this and I am no fan of Ayman Al Hirsi. I can see all sided stupidity without being like grifters like Musa Al Gharbi and bought and paid for faux contrarians.

This society has enough trash labeled left or right that is grift and focusing on that is more important than pursuing ideological goals or continuing to self promote (just from a new cult..I am angry because this was dishonest, grifty and corrupt and I learnt and an exiting now as it will get worse. But this happened and that is why we are here).
I have expended all my policing instincts on self-policing while this vile trash proliferated all around me. I tried to buy into these endlessly sleazy and nauseating both sided garbage things. And I finally realized, my mom’s death was because of this.
It is unfortunate this is on the web. It will confuse your brain into thinking it is kayfabe/a game/a show/ if you are really stupid, madness or a growth or sleazy cottage industry opportunity. I understand this perfectly.
I did from the start. And I am no longer cowed by that hardcore bullshit.

But this is a communist state filled with Private Equity giant bought hospitals that no one left or right would sympathize with.
Let Ol’jfz9580m avenge herself! Legally and non violently. My brain could not process this as I am very averse to histrionics.

As those various brainless girlbosses (specifically that sleazebag Wynn-Williams - I don’t think that is libel and in a kind of twisted compliment, she at least would have the sense to not make herself ridiculous by suing me) would say, I am mission-focused! These platforms are a cancer. They make a stupid society even stupider and set off a fraudulent cottage industry of bullshit tech criticism. I do this for free!

My ex says it is a bad idea to give me ideas like the Bill Maher v President Trump thing. Speaking of which I wonder if after all this Yasha Levine would be Orwell to my Wodehouse knockoff in hell. I totally exploit Yasha for left wing cred and reputation management. The only kind that (like true hard science cred) ever strained me.

Yasha will last the test of time. He cares. I love Yasha. If I had had a brother, he would have been annoying. But if I could have had one I chose, it would be Yasha.

You and your family always have a home here with me in India Yasha..though I hope it never comes to that. Should I sign up for that foul Substack again? That thing sucked away so much money. I am not gullible and this lame experiment was so easy to see through and such a joke. But I do like supporting Yasha and Chris Ketcham. I shall make a list of the only people whose work I support and all forms of conflict are on the table wrt abyone else.

This is not the wild or UFC. After I saw at a heavy dose and sped up what the reality is of these trashy and worthless non industries (I had a real job..I know what real work. I know what real activism are. Those are bullshit jobs. After all this, if this trash is normalized exceot for that pathetic venture capital crowd out of ca, this society is doomed and that is okay. But it won’t take Ol’jfz9580m with it).

And hopefully the real left (Yasha/Ketcham) like me is savvy enough to decipher this pathetic form of communication and see this information stream and these games for what they are since humans unlike bots have an understanding of these ugly minds across the board. These are ugly people. On the inside at least.

Critical thinking has been on the wane. I just find it depressing when so called left of centre people embrace those platforms or trot out that ass Haidt’s (that’s not libel! And he is in the Epstein files at least according to the version of Wikipedia I see. At the very least that justifies the label “ass”) bullshit.

I find these libel laws shackling..

Seriously though, BTS these guys are less crazy than they seem. And it is adequately clear now this is not in my head. I don’t work in groups and it is time for draconian pushback but I would have to do it.
I have never been in these things.

And I have changed. Not because of this. I attributed every real influence and they were all low tech and from books I read etc. Ed Zitron and Nathan Robinson are the only people I have only followed online.
I usually take things at face value. I don’t think 5G kills birds, but conspiratorial rot helps these sleazy, mainstream in hell gatekeepers (you will all be judged by history for what you are doing today and what you have done. Pot and now libel 🙄 laws aside, I am not worried.
I was worried. i was very worried: Now I am not.
But don’t come to me with a sobstory and don’t try to bully me again. As you sow, so shall you reap.

And don’t keep hobbling me wrt information flow either. It won’t serve you.

I told you the only response going forward..”…”.
You can gossip among yourselves. I am used to it. Ignored it all my life. I don’t even have anything lurid.
I have no interest in sex or men. It is useful in this situation as it helps to hone this:

I never understood people. They all seem so stupid except I guess Steve Chu, Yan Lecun and my mentor/2 friends in the hard sciences and Yasha/Ketcham/Nikiforuk/this one girl from my main lab..and a few others.
Idiocracy it is..

Ol’jfz9580m is now resigned to writing as a part of her duties as a (frigid) straight cis-woman. Is there any other overshare required here? Ol’jfz9580m thought most women were tbh and like my mom solitary breeders upto 1-2 kids plus a job.

But Ol’jfz9580m doesn’t lie and taking a cue from the last 14.5 years will out every piddling embarassing thing, to buffer herself in court.
I am filing a criminal lawsuit about the last 14?years in my state. And all necessary malpractice and misconduct allegations.

Indian behavior patterns eh..I recently read about someone local I took an instant liking to.
So many Indians one comes across (aside from the nice locals..Ol’jfz9580m really likes all the people who come to Ol’jfz9580m’s house by invitation. That is not many people. Mostly people we require for delivery services, my pharmacy helper who is very cool, electrical services etc. It is the people who drove down the street..I have forgiven “s****u* from _ Nagar. I got the allusion as a one off.

I generally protest how information flows through this. But as one-offs and in rare specific instances I shall permit this Frankenstein’s Monster to be aborted without causing needless ubiquitous diarrhoea. That is not local. Locally there is no compromise on the table except with the parts of India that I am originally from. This will not be a thing.

It is friendly and cooperative and btw it is totally shameless (a few of you in between should be ashamed of yourselves for reading Ol’jfz9580m, a person with a lot of mystique who is not at all a clunky and mechanical thinker!) I protest that description because it was very accurate and now I know the source of the non-scammy accuracy in this.
Nothing! I am elegant!

Wtf? I had no idea this sort of bullshit even existed. And don’t get all snooty. You don’t know the life I lead. You never had to deal with this much stupidity with these stale left and feminist scripts which are why we are here.
I always hated them. They are so clunky. And combined with Ol’jfz9580m’s organic clunkiness it was so painful.
These people are all idiots and those wags who quite possibly filtered through whatever a chapotraphouse etc are should remember Harjinder Singh.
I will only allow it where I allow it.

You see, I am a zealot as well. Not about idiotic things and what are possibly the worst jokes- they are also a redflag! A different kind.
This is useful for the Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda type of actually feasible art. They would not be stupid enough anymore than I ever was to be exploited.
And I do not take one criminal lawsuit threat off the table as that would be the end of the most respectable parts of the Indian middleclass to which I belong.

Do you understand?
But Ol’jfz9580m is filing a case against every creep and sleazebag who knowingly walked and drove down this street.

The Google traffic

I am grateful to whoever finally worked out that Ol’jfz9580m is not someone to mess with.
I was prostrate by grief. This will not ever be a product or movie. Historians are as far as I shall unbend.

Do you know why? Because this was one of the legitimately worst things I ever saw spelling the end of everything worthwhile as we know it.

There is no need to find it blood chilling how Ol’jfz9580m views men who sexually or otherwise harassed her. This is not a movie.

Ol’jfz9580m is not a Final Girl. What global society is it if these parasitic and worthless memes and stale jokes from another country recycled pathetically locally become a thing. Have some pride in your country man. Or even more grotesquely and sleazily woman.
I am not a nationalist. But I am a proud Indian.

I was not. But I am now. For various reasons you need not know tied to what I consider stupid (about 90% of the “entrepreneurs” outside tech and a 100% in tech. Oh suck it up).

And I am a feminist. Beyonce and Taylor Swift shall not steal that label from me and my mom and my nieces. It is a misunderstood word.

I shall post all my loathing of the so called left media culture after this because it is not a joke when you don’t use your brain and then gloss over it. It is not terminal if you can change.

I earned the right to these screeds. But that is not why I post them. Ol’jfz9580m sometimes looks at a situation and notes redflags. It isn’t offence or trauma or tough sassy sense.
These things could come back and bite Ol’jfz9580m’s life in the real world, the only place Ol’jfz9580m can exist as an actual human female (really shitty) scientist in her field.
Having to combat these loathesome algorithms and bots and all the very human thought out there that is a disgrace to the human ability to think taught Ol’jfz9580m many bitter lessons. Your collective stupidity, avarice and lame trend chasing and faux austerity plus real low quality destroyed Ol’jfz9580m.

My mom is gone. I an buffering myself against the anger, shock and grief the details will bring. There are forgivable errors and unforgivable ones. You were entrapped if you participated in this after Dec 2011 and not the way I have seen people who where they are confused, alarmed and angry at first..and then they start adapting.

I am pulling the plug on this with the criminal lawsuit that is needed. If you do not even gain from this and you won’t without my explicit consent and permission (I am not expressing any of you you idiots..I see the pile of rot thrown at me ..this is torturing the data..except I am not data).
Back to Tejas Thackeray. I liked him. That is the India I am a part of and they are not easy people. Not because they are kayfabing, bloviating “nationalists” who sell out their own country to Reliance/Tata/Bollywood/Mollywood/Sports trash/Edtech/Facebook/Google/Microsoft/the most corrupt parts of the local state and the centre/Pegasus/the NSO group/Alex Pentland etc.
And I despise the Indian left and avoid the Indian right. I am on the left. I know what left is especially when you have to non robotically factor it in..

Btw a note to some people I will want a word with about this cut and paste etc 😤. Terrible.
I am not hard to communicate with. I am impossible to communicate with.

There is no way I could have pulled off ..I see physicists who would be a good fit for real world models of ai. Adam Becker, Chet Miller..at my most mechanical in 2024 I was drearily gaping at Chet Miller on Physics Stack Exchange and dully thinking mangling Nicholas Carr’s human brain’s actual way of thinking by thinking..”I should give up if I cannot have a classical education” like Miller.

I will never migrate anywhere except visit for work and always return because I do love the parts of India I am from. And there I can exert real leftist muscle as exactly who I am-a middleclass Indian female scientist who is not at all tough and no nonsense and does enough pot to sink a ship or two, but does not suffer fools. Because alcohol is at least worth the dreary buzz..such a lame buzz. Pot is better for you and better. Fuck this anti-pot shit.

I don’t need libel online when I am filing the harshest possible malpractice and misconduct allegations I can against my former employer.
But there is good news!

For the two extremely annoying labs I was in.
I was adjacent to a lab whose pi seemed like an honest scientist..(🤮 ..this might well be love or a facsimile anyway. I could not stand that guy, but I wish these two pis (a male and a female who are cool) well and ..See what I do for you? That guy struck me as the type of person who both reads The Atlantic and even worse The Jacobin non-ironically and worst of all is a secret admirer of Elon Musk.
I never got the original democratic enthusias for Musk. But I can throw him and some others a bone provided it is not misused. Because at the point I will take them back.
Trying to mess with Ol’jfz9580m.

No I always saw through Musk and I don’t say things like that greasy Burnham guy I will need PR from Yasha Levine and EarlG for to ever be trusted again by the real left I depended on for insights and which should not be perverted by this really bad local shit.

Tejas is correct. Everything in nature and the best human systems works together and it is evolution. My attention is such shit I can barely follow more than a snatch (fuck off..Ol’jfz9580m has a friend who is really funny. That was a very funny piece from

Don’t lose your shirt over this swamp. I cannot see it becoming a lake and it is not worth it.
Its utility is complaints. I will have support.

It not this nonsense from Substack-an execrable thing that is advised to retreat. These things are all a cancer and they can be a cancer away from me or the precious bones I have to hand out to the disaffected and whiny..

Seriously..You code and you thought you could take on Ol’jfz9580m who has millions of years of evolution and a protective allele against schizophrenia that was severely challenged by this worthless trash?
But I saw a doctor - a cancer survivor years ago.

Yes I use my imagination but in my pal Stepfanie Tyler’s defense (whoever is using that site owes that poor woman if it is not these scammers. Or pseudo clever ones and I post under EarlG/elad and Mirt’s guidelines and..don’t try any cute shit on this end or that one).

I am not embarassed at using human imagination since this is an emergency if these guys cannot be caught and brought to justice and this aborted, condemned etc.

I fully support my mentor and take a leap of faith on those two scientists working for that annoying Elon Musk fan type. His kids are cute though and..my dad ..well okay my dad is nothing like this. But foreign countries are hard.

An honest conversation about immigration would not sound like this “Immigrants make America Great!”
Immigration is hard and dangerous even when legal and high-skilled when the worst goddamn corporations and spooks took learnt from the plot against FDR that was foiled and slowly took over your country making a joke of democracy and pitting you against each other and attacking or confusing anyone who objects.
Today I have not Marian Budde in my head but Stephen S Hall who I will forever associate with pest control services by Sen Hawley against TikTok. But it was my best friend’s voice in my head.
I am very fond of my two best friends..my ex husband and my best friend I had a crush on and would follow around insisting he should go out with me. He declined that, but we became best friends. He is married to another extremely respectable female scientist and I try not to think about them.

I am not offering you bones out of fear. What sustainability would be there in a democracy like that? But I can no longer hide how much I despise a lot of so called left discourse

And I shall explain why and that is sustainable for me and honest industry and honest public sector. It is not sustainable when you are stupid.

It is even more egregious to try to use this perverted ai bullshit for general intelligence. Yan Lecun is correct. Demi Hassabis is an idiot and a good fit for Google (is that libel?)
It will be funny if in the end it Swifties who finally dox me not the meninists and it is libel laws not marijuana laws.
I hate talking! All my troubles were because I was goaded or could never pull off Pulp Fiction’s comfortable silence as somehow despite the proverb “better be silent and taken for a fool, than speak and remove all doubt” the yawning silence between one and other people..

But that one doctor should help these idiots whom I am not filing complaints against. He should pull a Warren Hern. I never even talked to him and it isn’t the gross crap. He looked interesting likr Andy Nikiforuk or Joe Bageant.
I don’t really go up to and talk to people. But I am interested in people where there is zero possibility of: 1) being groped (zero tolerance) and 2) mindnumbing stupidity. The two are connected.
What I saw prior to 2011 merely looked very annoying but harmless and clueless more than greedy or malicious.
Just bad instincts wrt science.

Google is just a trashy advertiser that buys stuff up - I don’t even know if they have any hardware or cybersecurity (which sans endless bullshit white hatting) is the sole area of CS other than the most plain fare computer or phone crap I consider useful.
This will be destroyed and reported.
My brain works better without phones or internet. I won’t be easy to find after this and anyone who claims this was them is lying.

Only those who need to find me will and I will need copious explanations and permits and oversight etc and I don’t want your money or your pathetic loans or pages or radio. I need my properties to be under my control.

I am not a girlboss. I am probably like my dad’s grandma. She was a matriarch. She had only one kid..very rare for the time. And she doesn’t sound like someone who suffered fools.

Don’t steal and be an idiot. It annoys people. I liked..Oh yeah..loaves and fishes.
The high point of Ol’jfz9580m’s chequered career was not breaking a shared use instrument in 2010.
The Ol’jfz9580m’s instrument, her brain, broke under the strain and it was not innate or anything. It was this worthless trash/

I hate phones. Why the fuck would I want to hear from people, this totally bulshit use case aside that has limited acceptability only because it will be coupled with a draconian criminal law suit I file:

This is not a game world. This is the residence of an Indian Navy Veteran who doesn’t bullshit about serious things. You are lucky to deal with me and not my dad.
Well you are not. But either way, this isn’t a edtech sweatshop or a bad joke factory or ai in the wild. This is not the wild. It is a residential area.
This better be clear. My mom was very kind. Look what happened to her. My dad is a martinet and that is appropriate for this.
I am an evolved woman, but the only emotion I felt was expressed by poor Christian Bale and that is not a meme nor a statement on race and gender.
I fell into this originally via a USAF prank on the IMDB I was trolling along with various other people for Batman Begins. I used to post there as balehead. It makes some sense now.

Complete sense. I have to go give my dad his breakfast as our far from ill used housekeeper (who is family and for whom I have to provide a pension for taking care of my grandmother and us) is away. She doesn’t like it if I mess around in her kitchen. And keeps trying to feed me fish. Good luck putting her in an exploitative Gita Gambhir bullshit doc about Hindu Supremacists who exploit household help..
It would be kinda funny if they went to her..
As funny as representing me as a housecat at the NIH. I demand a reprieve from this awful diet!
I love reading and what embittered me most (common sense again)..Troy Farah is cool actually (that is called a schizophrenic tangent!!!) was not being able to enjoy a simple recreation in Ol’jfz9580m’s life that doesn’t involve mind altering substances.
While shilling this trash as marijuana law reform etc.
I hope that doctor helps with aborting this and he can heart Josh Hawley in his own home..better than Rand Paul. Prof Lecun is cool. If you are doing crazy shit understand human nature as Matt Stoller recommends.
And China is awful.
They would totally out the disreputable, non-artist and non-blogger who will risk libel forever more, in prison. At least I stayed out of prison and got my resources destroyed by this disgrace.
Okay..I have to start work today at least.

This is just beginning and it will be as ugly for many as it was for me. My mom is not a disposable..Next up! All of Ol’jfz9580m’s mildly cringey private behaviors.
Again coupled with a draconian criminal lawsuit to drive home why humping Retractionwatch and excusing data science and ai misconduct on this scale is a bad idea.

Incidentally since I am filing serious misconduct allegations against Google, I emailed Prof Hennessy who I can buy is some sort of human computer and so I forgave him.
But not the rest. Especially women who were in this while being wealthy and stupid.

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No part of this is a joke or a game. I take things at face value largely because I do not go to shady websites and channels.

If DU did not exist I would be writing diatribes on paper. I value the few rare people and things I like they are rare and not produced herding.

This experiment in the wild has angered me intensely. And my govt and state govt and possibly some day yours will hear from me.

No need to panic. Except with these locals who orchestrated this and used my street and these corrupt hospitals, tech cos who I promise will be held criminally liable since you won’t bring that trashy tech and sports culture here and change the meanings of “janitor”, “homelessness” etc.

To be a unique and respectable human takes resources and effort. I will not let these parasites destroy a specific type of Indian middleclass with real stem jobs like mine was - I am not unemployed - I won’t look for work where such substandard norms are accepted.

And for invasion of my home and street and causing the death of my mom, criminal liability in non-negotiable. SIL’s stunt won’t work.

14.5 years of illicit human experimentation and torture are no laughing matter.
I laugh because I am myself again and pushing back harshly.

I am sure I will prevail in this case. You know why? I compromised repeatedly and when I did, it wasn’t just bad for me. It was bad for eveyone connected to me and even for the creeps. That holographer who was a serial sexual harasser with a Lockheed Martin contract could have tried to think. But he did not.

Now I will be bashing everything extensively because it is not a joke that across the board your collective human stupidity killed my mom and ruined my resources and life.

But I am indebted to EarlG (much as I am to my medical mj co and this vegan lady and the few people who tolerate me. My parents were public servants who had healthy pensions and benefits and they are frugal and we have land. That is why I could buffer this with only such indignity as was forced by this shameless, largely Indian crowd, in 2 countries).

They do not represent any Indians I would know. I am not colorblind etc. But we are largely all middleclass douchebags safely away from war zones. What are you always so aggrieved about? And you force scripts that I despise.

But I would never offend or insult EarlG and elad above all, but broadly DU and I thoroughly disapprove of these methods.

I march to the beat of my own drummer. I like Indian DUers. This was none of it planned and designed. I have picked up on patterns here thinking much to paraphrase Willie Keith in The Caine Mutiny - another book my late mom - read to me, mostly thinking reflexively “How would I think if I were a fool?”
It was the hardest shit work I ever had and society will broadly hear from me for a long time about it!

Because ai is trash. But so is this type of desperate human behavior. No respect or understanding of the past. Forcing disgusting connections - 2014 was the worst - male or female, I met no one I would not avoid. Except for one Prof from a small liberal arts college far from California.

These methods are an outrage and abomination and an insult to honest science, honest humans, any honest labor and intelligence everywhere.
You have not tapped into a deep vein of lyrical prose. It is not perceived. It is how you think. Don’t argue with me.

But regardless, I would never insult the left, EarlG, elad, skinner, anyone I follow online on the left by using this to bash their beliefs. In fact they have helped me and as someone who is more a lurker than a participant and not in your creepy ways (I am just curious and okay not entirely to see how it could help earth. It is like a shameful secret or something. So impractical! I tried to conceal that more than drugs and being a lousy scientist, since in your worlds if a greenwashing scam is not tacked on, it is wildly loony).

But this is a personal emergency for me and after years of clunky mechanical crap Ol’jfz8580m has decided to take matters into her own hands.
Coupled with a muscular criminal and malpractice complaint I know is essential to check dangerous parasitic growth.

This should be a cautionary tale, whatever muscle you have “bro” (presumably..Is that jot your language 🌽 ?
I am not your ventriloquist’s dummy just because I have sensitive senses and can unfortunately now pick you up all the way over here.
It was all entirely malicious.

I won’t deny one thing I said I did. I have at no point..not once..used racial or other slurs. I have referenced male and female reproductive organs etc. Just going with the flow.

That is called acclimation! I adapt and acclimate!
But I am nice and only pick on people my own size.

But I will not turn EarlG/elad’s message board into a Republican propaganda outlet anymore than weigh in on democratic politics.
I try to only risk libel/slander and defamation charges and even there I only attempt to make people look ridiculous where they are having a horrendous effect on drug policy and are truly worth ridiculing male or female.

Do you know how painful it was to try to reinvent Ol’jfz9580m, the wildly unpopular online troll as some sort of nice Indian lady?

And there continues to be no permission to use this to make a nuisance of yourself. I follow community rules because the internet is not real and this is a community not a toy and it is really nice of EarlG. I remember Dave from way back.

You had to screw me over a lot to misrepresent Ol’jfz9580m. I am unpredictable, but never a bully or jerk. I am for this going out where identifying info is redacted or transmitted as needed and no more.
I am not actually a troll. I am not interested in anything you bring to me I would, like the only Current Affairs writer I dislike and have little respect for Yasmin Nair’s hero, throw around yelling “Its rubbish! Its garbage!”

I don’t like these methods. This better not be low paid gig work. The damage done to my home and street will need to be fixed at the expense of these companies and the parts of the state that were bullish about this shit.

Who do you think the average honest and intelligent householder who doesn’t want influencer creeps and a race to the bottom back? Without a Facebook bs thing.
I am on DU. That is a compliment to DU.

Not these local creeps who will be reported. They can go through the NIH or the state but they won’t get away with it. This whole thing was real. How stupid are you?

I was not sure it was till recently since these sledgehammer trickle east infonomics are weird and well..I don’t like this sentence (not a double entendre).

The use of language by these humans and these machines disgusted me. I still despise David Brooks and David Frum.
The sole area where I unabashedly take liberties with bashing people is this ship jumpers who jump solely to save their rears and then want to take over the place.

I have never jumped ship. May have sunk a few erroneously..
People who behave like that are jerks and hated.
It is not strategic to have a policy of only attacking public figures and celebrities, with appropriate levels of caution. The caution is mostly from reflexive adaptation to men like my dad. One’s parents are influences one cannot and should not ignore when they were as supportive and cool as mine were.

He is conservative - he is a military vet. But he is really sharp and a good man and way more feminist in any real sense than most.

I am an animal rights supporter for factory farmed animals and to a lesser extent wild animals (not much interest in companion animals) because I am sensitive to unhappiness and humiliation where it isn’t thoroughly deserved, but left or right merely for being a little annoying in one’s views. When you are just an internet denizen. We are all people and many of you go around cheerfully getting posts removed, which is new to me.
It is different when you are in the media or an influencer. You have a responsibility and you failed. Sadly I do not follow the right enough to fair and balance my bashing. That is itself why I am on the left. And by now I would worry about any spyware that is not already riddling my spaces that I will be taking to experts to identify the origins.
Haaarumph. Putting creepy spyware on Ol’jfz9580m’s comp. I never expected to end up entrapping these many all sided scammy creeps in all probability.

I only try to ingratiate Hawley so the GOP does not attack the organic small, wild web part of the web that is DU. All said and done, he is an elected official. Democracy is the only system I recognize.
This was mainly about total deregulation and lack of accountability in tech.

I am sure I can prevail because this is not overnight thing. Nice instincts throughout btw. Where is this deceitful and brainless Calvinism from? Have none of you met any real scientists, doctors or talented humans?
This only worked because of the old NIH.

And I am civil about Prof Bhattacharya. Though Ol’jfz9580m is civil but not easy to control.

That was pure hell. I was so dejected, but I am glad I am myself and this specific unique human world thing is falling into place.

Trying to con Ol’jfz9580m. Completely brainless. Ol’jfz9580m went damn near ..not insane..but like a dreary robot trying to find a script for some situation from hell that cannot force Ol’jfz9580m to fit its stupid vision.

It will be forced to fit Ol’jfz9580m. I mean the criminal lawsuit will happen as will the medical malpractice and misconduct targeting private sector cos, not the NIH.
I better post a song as an olive branch to Prof Hennessy. I sent him some rude emails which he should recognize as a scientist as less scary unnatural behavior than what went before. But still not good. That guy Nir Eyal is an idiot and continuous media are garbage.

I am generally suspicious of music but it seems popular with people and Beyonce/Taylor Swift/whatever a Bad Bunny is (shut up and sing!) aside, not earth destroying in any obvious ways above the usual. But the only music I want in my home is wildlife rhythms uncorrupted by anthropogenic noise. Go ruin your own home. The street traffic, lights etc will end badly..I said I filing a criminal case. Continuing this way will ensure it escalates. I saw how this goes. I don’t like being taken advantage of.

It is ending I think..Yay!
I won’t back down an inch or hold back any criticism. I actually liked my postdoc school. These fuckers soured that.
That is the reality of bullshit connections as shallow human or ai as it gets.
And I misunderstood nothing.
💪
I follow signs a safe distance awayfrom DU, Yasha, Ketcham, Evgenia, Nandita Bajaj, Matt Stoller and off and on even Current Affairs, but that is a more mixed bag..
So nice to get my own damn home back.

I hope the top creeps do hard time much like Elizabeth Holmes. Trying to scam and intimidate and coerce Ol’jfz9580m!
That is stupidity..
These people will not only face consequences. They will be held up as models for stupidity and crassness forever.
Now I must finally go work,

I will keep writing as a second chore. Its aim is to clear a path for Ol’jfz9580m to kick out all worthless earth and brain destroying properties from Ol’jfz9580m’s properties and reinforce good science and governance only etc.

So this will be aborted wherever it touched my life between 2009 and the present. This is not the right way to do things.

There is no escaping a criminal probe and lawsuit in this creepy little communist state I am in in India at this point. Any hospital/tech company/ai company etc that was involved and used the airspace above my home/the two other properties, contiguous areas and the street for traffic studies, street mapping, homecare, ads, nudge theory studies (I will explain in another post) etc, will face harassment, psychological torture, attempted commodification and exploitation of human life, medical malpractice and misconduct in data science, the tech sector broadly.

Who else remains to be seem.

Further with the not actionable stuff that was still a huge strain, there is no need for this type of mindboggling crassness and stupidity. You can train your nurses and doctors without sticking cameras everywhere mildly to not gossip and violate patients’ personal boundaries whether it is data or personal space. There are simple ways to stop misconduct and malpractice and without it being those mindless sexual harassment corporate seminars. And no. I am filing a criminal case and posting this online on du.
It is fucking missing the point.

You know I usually feel really stupid in science-physics, math, biology (I am a total duffer at it and it is one of the most challenging sciences - it is so damn vast), chemistry (just no..that field is too hard..analytical chemistry is okay..).
But in this period of exposure to the private sector, I realized I am bright compared to these people.
I needed help from the left I could find online..mostly men. I am the MeToo woman in this and it was..it was so stupid. I will always remember the stupidity..I have not seen these many sleazy, brainless, self serving humans cooperating together to produce the ugliest and most useless scam imaginable. These days I have started laughing again and relaxing. Man..that was so fucking awful and in both countries..
I used to get angry, but now I think I am out.

I am easy-going. That is what makes this so outrageous.

This was a horrible experience. There was one Indian data scientist in my last lab whom I in retrospect liked. My oncologist is cool. If any of these idiots came through a local channel-do not tell me it is all dark web or Pakistan etc.

Or Elon Musk or Palantir. Do not do things that insult my intelligence. They are awful, but they are new. This was mostly Google and Facebook and Tata. In the random nightmare parts I met a sexual harasser who may have had a contract from the local state. He was so fucking dumb. He had the quality of that thing in Guildea. And huge complexes. All about colonization and how he is dark skinned and discriminated against. I used to dully listen to it like a good American returned brainless liberal, ignoring my gut instincts that this was a sleazy and indecent man. My dad took an instant dislike to him. Oddly there was a man there (whom he didn’t like) who was also as dark-skinned to whom I took a liking. He was cool. Everyone else there was a nightmare, but this man was getting a PhD under this creep and I liked him and he had no such complexes.
Yes ..sometimes bigotry works so people hate you for things you cannot control, including being organically unable to embrace certain political orientations.
I grew up as a military brat and when I was young I was very..I had an Indian military man’s daughter’s politics. And my mom’s Green and animal friendly and generally compassionate instincts. People can dislike Arundhati Roy etc and still have innate left instincts that are not being tapped into. My mom liked Medha Patkar and Jean Dreze. She didn’t like bullshitters and I don’t like people who swing between stoking divisions more nor insipidly and cluelessly forcing a type of brainless harmony, with an undertone of forcing your anti-abortion and anti-family planning or sobriety and coercive psychiatry and illicit testing and observation type of religiosity.

I respect Pastor Marian Budde and the BroadView Church as in the spirit of Jesus Christ. My ophthalmologist is a Christian. I don’t know him well, but he is the type of person Ol’jfz9580m instinctively turned into a human being around even in the hell years. I like his son too. Who looked mildly alarmed the last time I went there.
And I haven’t gotten new glasses since…lol..damn you all.


Ol’jfz9580m is getting out Right Fucking Now (DU humor), before Elon Musk and Palantir etc. entrench on the American side of this. I had to lie through my teeth to endure Google, Microsoft, Tata, Netflix, Amazon, AirTel, Apple, SBI and Facebook. I just don’t have it in me for this same hell now in this phase.
Ol’jfz9580m is exerting herself!

As for tech cos, I would not allow Reliance Industries anywhere near me. My dad uses their services. I would not attack a techie at Reliance unless he was a creep or she was a sleazebag (real world statistical knowledge! I do have serious criticisms about some of the ways in which a type of liability centric language came to represent social justice. That is why these braindead managers and lawyers care. They have that cynical a view of workplace harassment etc because of some entitled douchebag who is offended. That is the worst effect. That they simultaneously like my last employer which was so disgusting and which is why it will be facing misconduct and malpractice allegations targeting the legal people from back then and the psychiatric dept and whoever was in charge of that disgusting “bioreactor model”-hyperlibertarian, sexist in serious ways (do you really need an explanation for why that was a hostile, demeaning and invasive work environment? And I am easy going. Which was then a reason to tarnish me-Ol’jfz9580m! An individual much beloved - by Ol’jfz9580m..still..that totally counts..You guys do need a less nightmarish culture that knows what things really mean offline. And don’t steal my insights-hard won by years of hell, if you were not me. These are totally Ol’jfz9580m’s insights. I lived through a uniquely nightmarish experience you couldn’t begin to imagine when coddled into this hell which I was just tossed into without a paddle and seriously absolutely no meaningful support. I learnt from it. But it was harsh).

They treat their techies horribly and drive them hard. All for what? Some worthless scammy ai, bullshit cottage industries of scam “research” these local creeps would shill?

I have a lot of negative feedback. Since I was mainly in academia (and with a fraudulent type of laughably sleazy and callous “woke mental health concern” and equally sleazy work copping that was to its right), it is inaccurate to portray that as a place where historically right wing worldviews prevail. They are definitely not left or liberal except the actual scientists who do not talk much and neither have that sad Peter Thiel bogus academic’s never ending meninist grievance complex nor the excruciatingly stupid language that managerial types sell as..Ketcham covered it.

I saw an article years ago and the peak of this stupidity: Justine Sacco, Tim Hunt, Amy Cooper (the MeToo stuff was real for the most part. I generally believe and support women focusing on the high priority genuinely screwed over as I was and isolated, introverted women like me would find it harder with this mobbing.
In the real world, if as I have seen so far you continue to behave as shallowly as you do online, that is a problem. I will admit it never really agreed with that style of left. Which doesn’t change the deep rationales for being left. I like Yasha Levine because he is deeply compassionate. That is relatable).
But this article quoted the type of white male I used to have sneaking sympathy for. They were renaming manholes in Berkeley personholes..well no..maintenance holes. This man who was a carpenter I think said “Is this really the most important issue?”. It was 2016 or so.
And in 2026, with Roe v Wade laid to waste and so much more, it is hard to not conclude that that bullshit played a real role in driving a perception of academia, the left etc that is not just untrue (except where it is..not people I knew..not even the most annoying people I met..actually I guess they weren’t precisely annoying..they certainly wouldn’t be like this).

But this shit that if glossed over hastily- there is nothing wrong with learning from mistakes - that is evolution.
The way to respond to encroaching levels of surveillance, in addition to kicking it out wherever it is not the legitimate parts needed for national security, for cyber security, is to use it to clean up all the shit in your ways. Or double down and commit to them. But not where it is in my spaces or life.


This is an exercise in critical thinking. I am hastily exiting the old thing.

And locally, I do not want this. It has to be aborted as I see fit. But it has to be cleaned up properly. There is no way around complaints. But if you have a case that I would be sympathetic to, you will have to go via the few people or spaces I engage with and will now organize.

I shall state my case in detail, sketching out various issues with perceptions of the world that embattles and endangers even reasonable and honest people like me.
And it is never..0!!!! No ♾️!!! It is not this complicated.
I learnt a lot from that because it was pure hell.
Last week I think was the last week of hell.

I have decided there is no option but seriously draconian pushback. But I remain kindly Ol’jfz9580m though I feel every damn thing that made me select, of all things Ol’Orlick

And at another time despite this copious explanation, a type of paranoid person (it is understandable if you work with abused women..but then you have to realize that to a hammer everything looks like a nail).

Much like to Ol’jfz9580m sitting in isolation listening with increasing indignation about chatter about being fed to kraken etc eventually…I thought..why should I be fed fo kraken. I want to be kraken! lol.
I will draft some more guidelines and notes.

I am freestyling this. But at least the mean understanding some, exactly where is less clear, that is not the stuff I am pressing charges over, there is clearer mutual understanding is my hope.
Let this such as it is be one of the less conflict filled things.

I started interacting with some people I like or seeing them at least recently. My doctors here are cool..and none of the physical health doctors ever pushed useless stuff.
Psychiatry will have to contend with the misconduct and malpractice allegations that were..to use a favorite word of the Google creeps..”inevitable” when you shill scams like Woebot (that thing deserved to die..it represented perfectly the sheer brainlessness of Stanford Psychiatry. They cannot sue me for libel given that I am filing misconduct and malpractice allegations against a distant affiliate of theirs).
This will be aborted and I will need to be extremely harsh especially about the psychiatry and addiction bullshit and ai forcing and monitoring and the worthless agents.
It is all going to be really bad for Google and the private equity owned hospital that almost certainly was involved and the hospital where my mom died which was just greedy by then.

The very limited and select new things I will allow if any of this is salvageable subject to draconian environmental, privacy and consent guidelines I establish. This is my home:
It is a military veteran’s home.
You don’t just come here and “Duuuur ..I am with Indigenous CreepTechnology Inc”..lol..there was a funny Indian data scientist I met ..at the time I was indignant. Lol..

We have a saying here “Arre bhai dhung say karo”. I know Hindi! I barely passed it in 10th standard..60 something..I did well in english, math and general science!
So you don’t just come in here with the worst and most trashy Google and Facebook Microsoft Reliance Tata and Indigenous CreepApp NSO group Blackstone Inc and try to be pathetically funny or serious when..

I liked this one vegan lady and the marijuana people. They all have actual high (pun unavoidable) produce without some sad athletic celebrity, influencer, Tollywood/Mollywood creep and some disastrously stupid “anthropologist”. There is a sexual harasser called Alencier who is “anti-imperialist”. I swear, if I was a conservative those are the people I would amplify as “the left”.

And these disgraceful ship jumpers like Mitt Romney (I am a solid Hawley fan! I hate TikTok)- it is a joke EarlG. Another criminal street creep who fails to get it. The last time it was a creep at 2:50 pm when I was dubiously considering throwing a peace offering about the

Whoever could give me the names of all these harassers locally without a quid pro quo when they were not even involved will be happy to the extent that no one would like these guys. And because they are these really creepy guys in a corrupt and shittily administered communist state, they are probably communist in some cases. But the centre had to know.
And whichever side it was-you can ve sure they will all face harassment charges at this point.

Or what future in real ways..not important shit like personholes..what future do women have in this state and in my hometown which is my forever home. I may travel, if some not low rent job in my field was available.
Ol’jfz9580m bends to no one!

I actually am glad I came back. I feel at home and I will have done this state a real service not a bullshit conflict free one and at least done my part to communicate left critical thinking.

You can always change wrt minor stupidity but not if you don’t get it.
And “Main tumhaari behen nahi hoon samjhe. Main ek Mawaali hoon! 🤺” what is a mawaali?
From the contexts I have heard it used in it seemed to fit..lol..No..look, I am not a pill.
But you are not going to just come in and pull shit like this and it cannot be wished away.
Lol..no..no games and celebrities and bollywood and web crap.
Wherever this ends up Ol’jfz9580 is a person all shall learn to fear! None shall pass 🤺!

But i was starting to seriously feel like the Black Knight after I lost my mom..
So..don’t force your views after all this.
You will be the worse for it where unlike these street harassers and the avaricious, incompetent and negligent hospital clowns when my mom died, the shit that stalked me at the grocery store when i was nursing my mom.

This started feeling like that time.
I will work through this and based on what I saw, my slim tool set can beat this Theranos style incompetence plus grandiosity and too many people who spin cover up etc

This will be aborted and I assure you I will be fair but strict and harsh as needed. I operate under only the direction of Ol’jfz9580m.
Lol…

Except as perhaps an academic exercise in critical thinking for web-addled humans re the real world and the net (this experience forced me to use the web. As much as I love DU and hope something decent that is not a police case results, that again is why i hate Si Valley), none of this is relevant to US electoral politics except the vaguest left-right stuff. And I keep it neutral and focused on honesty etc.
I don’t bash the left more. I bash the “left” which probably took more liberties since I am left, Don’t forget that all the bad actors used to claim to be liberal like that sleazy Pichai.

I shall edit the writing in the earlier posts to make them more legible. And clean up my journal.
Tomorrow I would like to finally start normal life, but with this chore a part of it finally.

I can say that I am finally sure that a lot of stuff was and is real and as I thought at first, totally deregulated, harassing etc. It is unambiguous misconduct, malpractice, previously psychological torture (calumning a sane person’s sanity is experienced as torture; implicitly assailing an honest human’s character is as well; and extensive isolation after confusing info and in a milieu where save for Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham, Andy Nikiforuk and a few people like that, the communication barrier for someone of my views is clearly hard to overcome when even the sciences and medicine had so many of these fucking assholes I am reporting. I grudgingly support the two labs - I can’t say I like those people. Who could like such assholes? Still, grudging but full support is support. Arguably it is more valuable in some ways than the kind where one may be less clear-sighted due to any actual liking rather than tolerance alone, reasoning “well okay -they are not unprincipled; they are honest and they are good scientists and in context not stupid”. Though why anyone exists in such contexts, insisting that such stupid shit is inevitable etc, beats me. But however cold I feel towards those people as humans for the most part, such as they are, they are about as acceptable as scientists of their ilk. And I hope at some point we can resolve this. So I can file malpractice and misconduct allegations against Google/the school, the city and the state, while leaving out those two labs, the two families I stayed with, the external psychiatrist/shrink, the pd counsellor and first lady from HR I met and the admin as the least daft CS type I have seen.

Here I will file complaints against the state, the city, and all the other entities (especially these street harassers, whatever else it all was).

To start the new phase of getting this trash out of my home and preparing a legitimate way to do this not these sweatshop methods full of Indians I avoid.

The Indian Govt is going to have to fix this. Obviously they knew. The state and this city I have given up on. They cannot be accessories to this. I would only be okay with Tejas Thackeray wrt the wildlife aspect. None of this ai, sensors, biometrics trash.
I am filing criminal misconduct charges.

I am the only scientist on this street and early forced participant in this garbage. I barely accepted the two labs I was in. Though the Indian data scientist in the lab was actually someone I trust. Not some yimby guy with a degree in birds, a street mapping cab driver etc.

I will file the harshest criminal charges I can and get them to stick wrt the sound engineering, all the local malpractice, traffic studies, street mapping, light and sound pollution. I will press stalking and harassment charges.
What did you think? At no point would someone who pushes back and instead goes and shits in front of Google’s cameras solemnly telling themselves “this is clearly inevitable and the future”.
Seriously prostitutes with no class. You should not need a motherfucking primer in why this shit was and is creepy and isn’t “well it is already like that! It is inevitable!”

This is being a follower or this same type will next say..Okay I will be Amish!

The way these parasitic creeps frame things is as if the shittiest creepiest most low rent implementation or nothing as they have no products, services and this is obviously not feasible.

I am not kidding around. And one solitary human brain that isn’t this..”Yes! Looks good! More! “ I really wish Prof Lecun or Prof Steve Chu…these are stupid people and these gate kept narratives that..
Steve Chu would understand. He is actually intelligent. Very uncommon at Stanford..where the dumbest fucking followers, frauds and a collection of insane Calvinists who embrace miserable working conditions for unclear reasons..yeah. 15 years ago there was no reason to be that creepy and sleazy and now here it is not viable.
So the Indian Govt will have to start to clean this up.

I will raise hell saying that with the involvement of some corrupt nris with no pride and no standards and the creepiest and most corrupt or clueless locals an abomination was rolled out in a military veteran’s home (and Indian influencers and our trashy press better get that Ol’jfz9580m is not a person to mess with. I do not suffer fools).
Henrik Mouritsen, Madhav Gadgil, Peter Hore, Tejas Thackeray are people one can trust on the most important aspect - the earth sciences.
Prof Ryan Williams and Prof Yan Lecun are the only profs I have seen in CS who did not immediately make me reach for pepper spray as is my usual reaction to what passes for a computer scientist these days. My onc is fine for the medical part. The best shrink I had was my first shrink in 2009 who prescribed Adderall and I am filing medical malpractice against my last employer over IRB free, informed consent free (to be clear there is no consent and no means no..I tried to humor my mentor then. Today that would just be dishonest feedback

I will push for the most draconian charges for this “boys will be boys” shit. Don’t orchestrate such rot.

I am okay with these posts with some clean up. Abortion ahoy! This was a rape like methodology and obviously not viable however much tragedy of the commons logic, plausible deniability and torturing data to fir bad models is
Its a conflict of interest to attack someone’s private habits and coping strategies for this modern reality with bs about “addiction!”

And whether it is optogenetics, magnetoreception, quantum computing etc, with an original mistake this undemocratic, crass and brainless…no.
It needs to be aborted, taken for malpractice, misconduct, psychological torture and criminal harassment charges filing.
This is my first step toward that.
Now tomorrow I can start working on my paper and start exercising, eating well etc again.
I have organised this some.
This last Friday was the first time in years, after I decided to file a criminal complaint that I finally felt at peace.

I have never actually gotten past the first few chapters of Babbitt or the first page or so of “The Jungle”, but I can quote from the internet with the best! That is almost as good as reading a book right? No? Oh well..
These are educational, insightful, inspirational (a bridge too far?), aspirational little life lessons with no undertone of vicious spite that the (probably braindead if not a DUer - if you can get past MIRT and EarlG/elad okay..that is why this is a community that has TOS I support as a non-American who mostly comments on creeps not directly American politics) reader -quite possibly a corrupt shrink or scammy technologist or garbage ai..lol..-might pick up on.
What vicious spite? Paranoid much?

Just because I explicitly say the vicious spite is real doesn’t mean it is! I could be another one of these boneheads, I mean elite Machiavellian strategists, who try to sell the dumbest people anywhere on the notion that you can exploit truthiness (I came up with that word! All me! Oh wait! I am not a criminal, thieving piece of garbage ai built by a Google or Facebook parasite with no talent, but lots of ties with politicians and industrialists who cuts deals with corrupt universities and hospitals owned by Blackstone…artistic license! I snarl traffic because I am a sleazy attention whore without a life! And Google approving of my worthless “art” rather than getting on the phone with their lawyers to ask how to evade criminal liability is a sign that I am not crazy but authentic! Steven Colbert came up with that!
Hey I have an idea! Like my creepy phone service AirTel! Why don’t we repackage 20 year old rants by Steven Colbert/Christian Bale/random news articles and internet posts as some sort of sleazy meme and use it to champion “women entrepreneurs”!)

Where was I? Yeah..
So here is the deal..an authentic! Real! person who had some sort of respectable existence they were falling at on multiple fronts is not going to work with some creeps to make internet art and come to a table full of such disingenuous conversation that you would have to have a mental disorder to participate in. That may even be lawyer recommended for the Google and Facebook creeps.
I am sorry! I was influenced into scamming and robbing society and trying to take random women hostage while telling them it is for their own mental health and not at all suggesting that a marijuana (and Modafinil! From a small mom and pop pharmacy with no ties to any lf this but who cares! The all seeing (creepy) eye knows! This is benevolent!) user should be grateful.
And a Hindu Fascist like Ol’jfz9580m is obviously oppressing various salt of the earth communist friendly corrupt businesses like the ones that laid waste to the Western Ghats

I am better at balance than Fox News! I don’t bother with fairness. Fuck em all. Except for the people I alerted last week or ones with no connection to this bullshit at all, YOYO! Like I was! Poor oppressed, slandered, bullied, traumatized 🤭 Ol’jfz9580m. She has battered woman syndrome! From constant worries about

I am not slamming the left casually. I don’t pay attention to the right. Most of us have some pragmatic instincts and some instincts that determine our politics. I am not conservative. It is up to conservatives to figure out how to deradicalize and educate their side. The most I can do is strain EarlG’s patience by agreeing that TikTok should be banned and that “defund the police”, “open borders” are terrible slogans and that I do not agree that left cancel culture is imaginary, because I don’t buy that this shit is “left” that you see online.

The most left leaning people I met aside from Yasha/Ketcham and the usual suspects proudly displayed as proof that Ol’jfz9580m is not a total misanthrope were hard scientists and doctors. They are rarely right leaning since science has a reality based bias (I came up with that! I am ChatGPT! No Steven Colbert again..I attribute! I have ethics!)
Behold thd hypocrisy of the reproductive organ based slurs of the loathesome RetractionWatch (probably..I just remember them as this thing scientists grovel to in order to convince various bullies they are honest. The ORI is free to directly contact Ol’jfz9580m. RetractionWatch/the internet/that ass Kent Anderson/Russell Poldrack (full coverage! Fair and balanced in every dispute! Also the safest position! Safety!) are invited to go fuck themselves.
After all that bullshit about plagiarism (often targeting international students, pocketing whose tuition is a good idea, but simple mentoring to explain concepts unfamiliar to foreign students without a scammy internet shilling worldview as well..we are all way too connected..it is a disease at this point..DU is the only internet part I support and old school..plain text is fine by Ol’jfz9580m..
Yasha Levine had a very funny piece ..funny thing about Yasha ..without any scammy “Google telepathy!!!” I know exactly how he, Evgenia and Chris Ketcham, Ed Zitron etc think..why would one need anything but the most basic and utilitarian phone and net tech for that? I can find people by typing in topics of interest..yeah I guess you had to start out with a personality and some self other than…what is every other creep out there doing/thinking or shilling? With the smallest seeds you can find in the real world I can observe and see things.
Why do I need a pervert soup of information that is mostly..Weeeeeeeeee..weeeee are all scammy, stupid, egotistical etc?

But they are overworked …the scientists and doctors (they are all probably unemployed increasingly so it isn’t sycophantic anymore to extend real support)..and like any of who see these cancers not as an opportunity!
To (like Rush Limbaugh) bloviate into the void casting truckloads of asparagus in all directions, risking libel/slander and defamation without being clear that this is a precursor to a criminal lawsuit since I think that only that will wake these people up.
And after you lose your mom and find out that the hospital you always tried to convince yourself is not totally sleazy (competent and decent doctors..and too mild..why are all the nicest and most competent people so mild? I liked Tejas Thackeray. I used to look at Madhav Gadgil and think..yeah that might not work..my vegan lady friend rescued me and anyone who calls her a “female entrepreneur” is a prick. We need a new language. Crooked Timber got it and then something loathesome called Reid Hoffman Media Studies..the entire internet is a parasite now..this will be grabbed and defanged by ai so some person who writes on a thing called Shamblog can use it to spread bogus ai safety humblebrags for these pathetic shitware agents..and all sorts of idiots will say “ooooooo..ai is so dangerous”).
Where was I?

So this is hopefully something perceived as sane human written and a precursor to a criminal lawsuit here in India and medical malpractice and misconduct in human subject research allegations and harassment charges over the use of a private citizen’s residence in India coupled with constant intimidation, coercion, stalking and bribery attempts.

I wrote to my medical marijuana company and my vegan lady friend and expressed full support in case this all-sided scam tried to lure them or worse cut into their honest profits the way Substack etc do bogus white hatting/crypto etc and keep information from flowing so people cannot collaborate and cooperate seriously and honestly.

The Sinclair Lewis quote can be paraphrased to point out that when corruption with autocratic instincts becomes more current, it will shill worthless therapies, space grabs and finally harassment as care, community and probably art. Democritization!
What is so left about always failing in the face of overt corruption and thuggery?
How is it not distasteful to see what is clearly written by an angry and harassed woman who copes because some of us cannot be easily victimized..that too by a collection of mindnumbingly stupid people?
I am lucky this is such a stupid society. Otoh I would not be in this position else.

They are going to destroy the public sector in India and jobs like my parents’ and force thid trash labeling it “development” or “uplifting women” , a teaching moment!
No..i am pressing charges as a marijuana user.


I can go to the local police right away and explain to them about my marijuana use and how it helped me and the only racket is not coming from delivery boys/basic services/my
specific 2 ayurvedic doctors/my MJ company but something from inside trying to take society hostage to sell a surveillance state as the new form of existence.
WE!
“I sexually harassed lots of women and committed fraud and misconduct and knowingly participated in this trash! Ol’jfz9580m was kind of a slacker who used pot and inundated every available digital tool with confusing drivel for 15 years! We! We are all in this together!

I will drop dial down my trollish tone for this post alone.

Lol..this was a side of me no one ever saw except my mom (and sundry creepy people online who scrape data and try to understand someone whom they do not know and never will). My mom knew me better than anyone else ever did.

Sometimes I scared her because I have very battle prone instincts if I am messed with. She iused to say “I was the biggest influence in your life growing up and yet you are all him.” He being my dad. Well this is and was a nightmarish conflict and repressing what I inherit from my dad and trying to channel my mom, a genuinely kindly and decent woman, did not work out. It made me seem odd. Further my mom is dead. My dad and I are still alive. Maybe it is true that only the good die young. Despite my self-destructive tendencies when confronted with this much stupidity (the worst mode of survival), I have strong survival instincts myself. The shitty Google associated hospital from Jan-Feb 2012 I am filing malpractice and misconduct allegations against wishes I was suicidal. One reason I knew they were so lousy at psychiatry was the constant pushing of scripts like that. It is a sign of incompetence. The shrink outside they had me see was not that bad.

Like many people who had or have a futile hope that Ol’jfz9580m would be a little more tractable, humble, mild etc, he tried to make Ol’jfz9580m conform. That didn’t go well…He should at least appreciate that out of respect to him and my mentor I tried more than I would.

Seriously it is asking to be reemed in my position to be all that..he was cool.. but he was white and male. I avoid this crazy Tyler Durden type of male. But the civilized type of white or majority group male or female or human in a better position cannot comprehend how survival works for someone in my position.

It has become too unsafe for me to have any stupid or fake behaviors. Oh btw if this TL, no one fucking asked you to read this so buzz off.
It is not for you, whiny whiner..It is to start posting as the human woman I am in the specific (deeply stupid) context I am in.

This isn’t the usual masturbatory wank fest of share. My mom would not recommend posting such stuff online, but I am done pretending to appease fraudulent pearl clutchers, let alone pretend that I am risking “outrages” to my (non-existent) modesty (yeah that language needs updating) by coming out!

I make it viciously clear with mockery where I stand on these pathetic men who are eternally titillated by every damn thing..Anything that “emasculates” this perpetually horny Andrew Tate adjacent lobotomized at birth type works for Ol’jfz9580m..I am a poet!
🍆🤺🔪🍆🗡️🌽🤺

So much for modesty..Seriously..being harassed and groped by these pathetic bullies and having to sit there and take it as their corrupt and parasitic male and female enablers in two countries tried to cop only Ol’jfz9580m has finally emancipated Ol’jfz9580m into shucking the mask. The creeps were not as painful as the so-called respectable people and standard-bearers, a collection of hypocritical parasitic nincompoops who disgrace every professional or other group they lower every bar in.



I don’t like talking. But hey I was forced into this. I thought it was all about “authenticity” and conversations? I tried to negotiate and compromise over and over and I sounded deranged. Because you cannot try to sound like a person you do not understand in a real crisis or mimic people.

And now this is on the internet. I always tried to in this period and generally have many layers of ordinary distance between myself and other humans in engagement in the past.
I am an only child and a loner and maybe most important a lover of books - not that stupid digital thing which that ugly creep who makes his employees (truck drivers etc) pee in bottles for efficiency sells. Ol’jfz9580m has learnt to avoid libel.
I only share who Ol’jfz9580m is so you don’t make the mistake again of messing with me or at least demonstate your stupidity in the process. I have no use for fake muscle.
What is so impressive about having a tonne of money, power and mobs behind you.

Ol’jfz9580m who is in a fair way to reinventing herself now as not just a committed troll, but also a cult leader..I am going to start my own religion!
Lately I cannot stop laughing as I post these.

If this was an income source or a pathway to anything but a criminal lawsuit and malpractice and misconduct complaints, I wouldn’t be able to do it.

My friend Chris Ketcham and a random oped in Current Affairs about a romance scam involving some adorably leering woman made me glumly almost log off. But then times change and when women are online overtly signalling that a muscular criminal is on the table if you fail to get what this is - not hateful, kooky, extremism.
But something new I have not seen online yet because I was never seriously online before.

I used to think the internet was largely garbage and DU and work aside and without any ai…I shall never bend to ai..fuck that trash..it is so..lame.

I loved reading and tried writing in my youth. But it was always stilted. I have no natural talent as a writer and to the extent that the various influences on Ol’jfz9580m would not recoil in horror saying “Okay I am not responsible for the effect I had on that woman”..the thinking person’s usual response to Ol’jfz9580m. I think it is unlikely that some of the biggest influences on Ol’jfz9580m - Yasha Levine, Christopher Ketcham and Evgenia Kovda may not distance themselves in alarm and despair.
But pretty much anyone else who tries to pretend to be respectable by the standards of this outrageously stupid society would have to.

The first thing I ever tried to write was when I was literally around 13 or 14 (for the Epstein contingent 🔪🍆🗡️…of course they could be into that..you never know with these perverts) and called “A justifiable homicide” oddly.
Not that Ol’jfz9580m, who lots of weed aside is entirely law abiding, thinks homicide can be justified.

This is in the “writing” forum because that is the correct place for these not the Activist HQ where mean-spirited and horrible persons 😤 could justifiably compare these to other streams of consciousness.
While these are intended for this criminal lawsuit and misconduct and malpractice complaint I will be filing (Ol’jfz9580m doesn’t bullshit around..You think I would sit around boring people if it was not for a purpose like a criminal complaint. Why would I do that?)

I am not contemptuous of people who are making a living any which way they can, where it is not truly, irredeemably degrading society. Evolution is the ability to change.

But it would not be a natural behavior in me. Now (since specifically around mid-day Friday the 6th of March, 2026 - I shall explain why in the next post).

My writing flows easily and without “cringe” (a sensation I am informed by the internet is experienced by self-conscious people who seek approval from randoms online 😤 . There is vicious mockery and teasing.
I have like Frankenstein’s Monster observed you all from afar online and offline as you never made any sense.

It would be nice if like the sole hopeful moment in “Don’t look up” you could put your differences aside. And stop and think more deeply. Because this entire crew of narcissistic parasites for whom I cannot afford compunction anymore - it is not personal or emotional- it is learning. It would be genuinely unsafe. All those people whom I ignore and do not address in the abstract even (I shall in my next post layout all the people

If I could have swung it, I would have been a professor in my field. Or at least a researcher.

Prior to this

I do think there is real and lasting value in these posts. While I eschew false modesty since living on one’s knees (vulgar double entendre contemptuously intended..hey pervert..
🔪🍆🗡️..settle down..based on this one story of pervert in Germany, even that may have a “market”, a final indictment of the market), the reality is that as someone who cannot survive as the past proved in spaces owned by billionaires, their lackeys where unhappy scientists (the depression may have been a projection by my mentor) with the kind of sense of duty that only truly elite parents have are exploited, but not respected.
Not being elite I had no wish to hang around in a place where I knew things would go badly.

It is the time-honed version of the same instincts that bring me here. I am not solipsistic so a blog where I rant into the void with no community, however dubious about Ol’jfz9580m’s future path as a new entrant into these foul frays.

I don’t get into skirmishes with colleagues, my physicians or DUers. But I cannot afford to not be honest anymore.

And since I am filing malpractice, misconduct, harassment charges and a criminal lawsuit in due course or dying trying, I don’t mind unmasking. It still grates on me as a formerly unnatural behavior.
But these are not normal times. What I experienced was ott in ways you cannot comprehend.
You are here today with an understanding of tech that is current. I had a Blackberry when I was thrown into this in 2011 and that purchased grudgingly. I like flipphones, the old internet etc and I will get there eventually because damn everything, I will get back to my field and pick up where I was in 2011, when this happened.

I am not insecure outside my field. Hence, the emergence! of Ol’jfz9580m. Why should I be? i am an honest and decent woman. What is so great about constant low self esteem?
Coupled with chest thumping bullshit.

I derive my self-esteem from the commun sense intelligence that tells me that Apple is a phone company and price gouger, but DU is a community. The only reason I ever dial the sugar down is that I prefer you to remain your combative selves..lol..
I don’t believe that humans can be hectored, bullied and shamed into changing. If anything that is what is wrong.
Because I tried to change like that and I didn’t, but I became someone else. Someone I despised.

I repeat myself a lot and go off on tangents because I am not a gifted writer. Writers and artists face challenges as is with this trash ai. I have loved reading all my life. I do listen to music and watch movies and shows. But I love books. I really love books.
In the end this draconian pushback will have been due to three things: 1) my mom’s death and my finding out last week that the sleazy hospital I tried to believe was an actual institution of care is now owned by Blackstone Inc. Dr Clayton Dalton, someone I respect (the Upaya Zen Centre is kinda weird..strange the things the most unexpected people are into..but hey I am reinventing myself here as a cross between an evangelical preacher and a riff on Ol’ Orlick..who am I to judge..my last mentor was a bit like that..he was this cool scientist..but then who would follow the dalai lama..I found out two years ago that in addition to reading The Atlantic and shockingly admitting to that online, my best friend is a secret poet..you think you know people..it is not a weave! Ulysses rights! I would like text alone to be distinctive enough to convey a human author with no ai or other noxious influence..I pay homage to all my influences on my profile), has written about it. I indentified him as a potential ally in helping some of these idiots in this exit with some grace..I would prefer it that the smallest number of culprits especially in academia/medicine and science ended up implicated. I have even decided to lay off an uncouth nurse whose unprofessionalism made me not realize how gravely ill my mom was. That hospital used to offer reasonable quality care at a decent price prior to the pandemic. Just a year before when I took my mom there it was a respectable hospital and then during the pandemic greed took over and unbelievably yet again, a hospital, with severely ill people like my mom was this disgraceful mess of kayfabe and gaming adjacent behavior. My onc left soon after. I make sure to stay connected with my onc. I would be furious if he or I or my mom’s overworked onc nurse who used to offer us home care as just this nurse my onc works with were calumned by parasites who offer no services or care but just want money. You will notice a theme emerge as this goes on..which about human social contracts and what drives them and what is trash; 2) my one recreation that does not involve mind-altering substances or junk consumption like most internet surfing prior to these last few years and tv; 3) how much harder work became. That one really angered me and for what? This tech parasite driven brain and street mapping. Some prostitutes funded by parasitic basketball billionaires doing brain science and “prison reform” and Zuckerberg’s kept woman? Banging Zuckerberg is no doubt a job and a chore. It is not an immigrant success story.

I won’t add how much harder being healthy became because in fairness my health strategies mostly involve pushing it and trying not to die but with legitimate attempts off and on to be healthy. There is no point is portraying the type of nightmarish type A that measures their own farts with smart underwear at Stanford or records their wet dreams as that pathetic loser Brian Johnson does (that can’t be libel and besides that guy is too stupid to not see any mention as an ad) as the blueprint for health. I would never say there are not healthier behaviors like plant based diets without junk food (the one thing I will stick to) and avoiding alcohol (I am done obstinately protesting AA and sobriety by drearily forcing myself to drink at times..yuck..foul habit with no positives and such a lame and self loathing buzz and a carcinogen. That is probably a better health PSA than anything that ever came out of those reproductive organ based slurs at Stanford..God I hate that type..).


But this is the important point. I remember DU from way back and I will keep apologizing when I grate on DU or anyone nice as chew the scenery and wreak the lord’s vengeance on these parasites.
Because it is unambiguously not you. You got past EarlG/elad/MIRT and I take you on the system of trust. And you have all been influences at some point or other..most of all when you write about your views or human experiences whether I agree or not.
I do tend to skip screenshots from Twitter etc
Those are not people the way you or I are in my book and I mean them no harm, but I don’t see them as a part of my life.
Grassroots and human..distinctly human. Often even the most laconic posters here have distinctive personalities.

The reason I have to say these things is I do feel obligated to..mainly to myself, my mom and dad and my best friend and my ex-husband and my main mentor who is family not a colleague - I was always very fond of him. He is the only person who ever invested in me and so much. He invested in all of us. It is an indictment of America if he leaves and goes to Europe. And finally my onc.

My dad and I have at times had a rocky relationship, but we are very close now.
Ol’jfz9580m gets overloaded by human contact easily. Sadly, my mom leaving us has made me closer to my dad.

The reason I am not a solipsistic narcissist is I do believe in community. I could never sell this unambiguously loathesome and foul experience.
I found Frankenstein’s Monster very relatable.

Because unlike these spooks etc, I always watched the world and used to get angered and frustrated. But I still feel a pang when I hear of someone passing.
And it is also self serving! If that counts!

That means that is one more person gone leaving me with Blackstone Inc, Google etc.
I think earth is overpopulated and I am not anti-natalist never being an extremist. But going forward it is kinda selfish to have more than 2 kids really and cruel to the kids.
We should value and take care of all the humans already on earth before endlessly adding more people.
That aging society stuff is bs.

I have noticed it here in India that where human life is overabundant, human life loses its value and empathy fatigue and resource depletion set in. Only these parasitic hoarders at the top want more and more people beyond the replacement level of fertility (“hum do hamare do…we are two, we have two.,the best PSA the Indian govt ever had and then neoliberal economists who don’t give a shit about humans or earth came in).

or feel it enough where the madness does not drive to distraction and a shrug, the impotence of goodness and compassion versus all- that other stuff ruling the world like a brothel master, what can we accomplish to get rid of this brief period of civilization? The solution offered by Christianity is to mind the next life by TRYING to build it here, but accepting that the power to do so cannot be violent, money based, humanly socially possible, and even the concept of human justice limited if not inaccessible. Hence the cross to bear in this corrupted life. I would like an alternative. Non-violent ones have been offered for a few situations, but not any for the roots of the problem.

Practical research on actual election evils and solutions have been posted about on here. Probably about as many trolls have seen and twisted them to their further advantage as any professional party activists. This is where we have arrived today as JFK said with the most savagely ironic imagery- a trajectory now revealed a very long term plutocracy corruption than leads to the destruction of both modern parties, the shedding of service to the electorate, and inevitable dictatorship. The decline inevitably involved a LOT more enforced stupidity, shortsightedness and blatant crime than cynical prognosticators could ever conceive. Dictatorship bypassed(so far) the military for key club rich guys, dumber than bricks, limbo-ing successfully under the low bar of American politics in its indefensibly worse state ever.

For two years I watched my wife succumb to disease. I could weep with the energy of the sun for all suffering now and the future, but I wept for the loss of hope that she could win a bit more life during our brief victories and endurance. Still do.

I had my rants as far back as Nixon, maybe Eisenhower but that was my father fuming at the televised GOP convention. Nothing as madly apparent as watching the repeats of American history rotting and decaying against all otherwise progressive potential into a swampy soup of mixed rants, violated ideas, ideals, and no objectives. And it is the predators who really lash out! That terrible perverted energy. Those unregulated dragons. Those wasters of the Earth. Those happy few.

I have been experimenting with my writing lately. Around Feb 26, 2026, I stopped worrying about trivial embarassments. That was the date I found out from a cousin I trust that a sleazy local hospital is indeed as sleazy as I suspected. Good doctors, well run on the surface, totally creepy admins. It is owned by Blackstone now:

These are the last people I would share medical or webuse etc data with.

Writing is one way to monitor influences on your thoughts. Nothing can really influence my spending or voting or other serious decisions, but it is the day to day war of economic attrition via attacks on one’s mood, temper, confidence etc which are the troublesome were it stuff below the threshold of active perception..Some of that is probably bullshit and the real roots as you mentioned being different. I thought the Facebook emotion contagion experiment was overhyped bs and the pearl clutching deflection from the real problem, which is an Idiocracy where Facebook, Kim Kardashian etc are taken seriously at all, just because they make money exploiting the lowest common denominator in human taste.

I always thought Facebook was garbage. I read trashy celebrity magazines as a teen but outgrew them by the time I was in my twenties and moved on to other slightly less trashy garbage online (I am a woman of taste and culture 🧐 )..actually not that trashy. Mostly personal blogs, which aren’t quite as bad. But still in no way part of any academic or activist portfolio. But I always found it grating how industry managed to label middlebrow trash from Oprah to Facebook somehow more refined if it is profitable enough. Give me Jerry Springer and something honestly without any redeeming value any day over this bs of claiming Facebook has a point followed by some kind of phony sense of betrayal.

Of course Zuckerberg will be sleazy if you let him..absent a lobotomy I would not trust any of those creeps. I trust EarlG and elad though.

But yeah it is hard to balance work, complaints and monitoring these things, but I must start.

I am sorry to hear about your wife Patrick? How is she? I remember your post in the thread about that old ad where the little girl is playing and it was about nuclear warfare?

Would you know which one I mean? This is one of the few places where I am one of the younger people ..

Simple, short, devastating and effective. Goldwater whined about that being a cheap shot convincing people he would blast away that little girl without blinking in a nuclear war. But he created that opening with his tough talk at the GOP Convention. I am not sure if Goldwater would even have been stupid enough to keep us in Vietnam, but then he was an oddity as were all conservatives to the left of the John Birch society and the oil barons. Now they are a species in deep decline as the now extinct "liberal" Republicans- and the long extinct reform(when reform really meant progressive) Republicans who dissolved into the Bull Moose Party of 1912. Still, simpler times. Chaotic, dumbed down gibberish. Whites only noise. No one to bell the cat. War crimes and crimes against the Constitution galore.

I am burying my dear wife next week.

I hope you have someone to support you.

I used to alarm my poor mother. She thought my sleazy former employer would send me to prison for sending them the cartoon version of this (some image I found online of a guy who looked like that Bob Genius guy extending a middle finger)..I fully agree with that today, but then I felt histrionic.
Here is the same exact thing. But that is my finger! And see…those are sanitary pads!
Shows like “Big Mouth”, probably those loathesome Judd Apatow movies and the internet have informed me that long discussions of one’s periods, breast feeding, bowel movements, temple entry for women etc are these high priority issues for women from the left just as contributing to “female entrepreneurs ” with bullshit jobs (they didn’t add that part) is what the nice people on the right (both no doubt agreeing that a straitjacket any which way) recommend at the cost of my daily peace so this worthless trash can grow.

Well this talk of art gave Ol’jfz9580m an idea. I believe that sadsack Jonathan Haidt’s wife makes “menstrual art” as he writes shitty tech commentary.
Only Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda and Chris Ketcham write worthwhile commentary on anything..
Sovietski Yah! Nastikoff bah!
Seriously though..that is why they don’t have a slot with the ugly NYT famous for downplaying Hitler and modern scourges. And why Substack can use stuff sleazily (Eminem would comment about the prostitutes at Substack: “Someone mentioned me!”)
The projection of the types of people who do this as a representation of human thought/behavior etc would be self-loathing and cynical. Prof Hennessy (damn him) aside who but such people would work at Google? Or any of it?


I remember thinking about Haidt and that lady..now that is a match made..somewhere..and as an elegant lady I do not say things like metaphorical brothel or whorehouse. Most of our “elite” are not elite.
Even Current Affairs calls these Wynn-Williams types “elite”.
I would argue that ever having been stupid enough to try to pretend that “Facebook will connect the world!” Something I saw immediately as some kind of scam by people who like to waste time online.
Ol’jfz9580m wasted tonnes of time looking at trash online. Ol’jfz9580m never thought it was anything else.
And then one day these parasitic whores show with Amazon pee bottle austerity copping you (open science! Dilligence!) and Facebook/Google/Blackstone bullshit (healthcare!) and take Ol’jfz9580m hostage. And then probably use Ol’jfz9580m as a model of some foul thing called GladOS and blackmailing agents.
There is no blackmail. I am going to the authorities. Well the not corrupted and tainted by this ones..there is no negotiation..and I tried to warn the public finally overtly and that is this and I will press charges. (The art think is mockery of these rancid douchebags)

What disease is this of hardcore insanity about real science coupled with calling any grifter who can figure out how to grift by at least metaphorically blowing these criminals in tech first and then grifting from it with fraudulent whistleblowing and snark after?
Ol’jfz9580m may not be morally bankrupt, but at this rate she will be if not ever bankrupt strained more and more. I have to go work. Fuck this shit..I will serenade Prof Hennessy (huge fan of his instincts! His OnlyFans page has only one fan! Ol’jfz9580m! I don’t think he will sue me for libel. Actually Priya Ramani could help. She was sued by that pervert MJ Akbar. She seemed okay.. But Tejas was not very internetty and my views on internet, connection and communication are best left copiously spewed. Except DU. I support EarlG mostly for being trustworthy without idiotic levels of pointless verification. I am wary of people who seem sociable beyond the sort of Fight Club level but with the internet still gettign the info that is needed to understand and check this so only the creeps who want this have to enable it. It won’t happen here. But since this did happen, a criminal lawsuit I file is the only forward and I don’t kayfabe and I learnt from these things.

Dr.Fauci was elite. Symbolically he is only reason Ol’jfz9580m tolerated this..at all..
My last mentor and his families and a male scientist who for unclear reasons..yeah what is with real scientists who didn’t show these Google etc creeps the door? He wasn’t even that mild. Why do people buy into these computer creeps?

Well I cannot afford that..Rufous treepie (12:28 pm ist. I should record these on BirdNet, the only software I trust completely) aside from ImageJ which is NIH.

But Dr.Fauci is excessively civilized. Ol’jfz9580m is not civilized. I tried being civilized around barbarians and there is no point. What is the point in more talk except to send a clear, unadulterated, non kayfabe message to these bullies, perverts, parasites and their dupes I cannot do anything about.
Jesus Christ was crucified because he was too nice. I am not nice and I see no point in going to prison, getting groped, crucified etc.
Who does that serve? What message does it send?
I am not the DU version of whatever a Blippi is.
You want spectacles..fine? But they have to serve me and not wrt futuristic reputation management to ♾️ because you much like your shit ai have no idea what anything is..
Yan Lecun is the sole ai scientist I trust:
Sovietski Yah..Nastikoff Bah
I read that in book!
This isn’t a pile of sad internet mene fodder because a reason I like Carr and one of the main reasons for this criminal complaint and I shall viciously post them all..is I really love reading. It is my one solace and I could not enjoy even that. This isn’t prison reform or healthcare.

It is taking your employees, patients, students and postdocs hostage because you cut deals and blew some Google and Facebook creeps and parasites as admins. Not the few people I know whom I support..who..I am not Calvinistic enough for this.
I already factored in how expensive we are as a species at every point. Degrowth of junk and lies and worthless shit is my goal. This is a metaphoric cancer that has killed one human with literal cancer and I don’t want to be casualty further without muscular pushback.
Taking Ol’jfz9580m yes a cis-female who isn’t a hacker and ignores computers bare utility to Ol’jfz9580m, not the community of creep rights fans..Ol’jfz9580m is a mawaali! A hooligan! Not..lol..
I like Evgenia..she would make short work of a creep..I respect that..priya ramani too.. But I like a space between the inside and out with the least number of additional stupid people than this crowd I am metaphorically barricading in..(I think Priya Ramani would be a good fit re someone to get help from. I like the MeToo Movement, but their language-like a lot of lefty language always confuses me. I find people I agree with who communicate in ways that have made me question information transfer is possible. I can see now how deep an influence Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert were early in life. The way it is different people now.

Anyway this is a vague comment on Jonathan Haidt:

Was an extended middle finger (I am low class! That should protect me..It is the Idiocracy and these assholes threw me out there) and my desktop etc.

I have to go work and I will ignore this and work and health will help me pushback viciously and file a criminal lawsuit..
When I think of the years I spent ignoring my instincts because I would seem “crazy”, “a loose cannon”, “a vapid distraction”.
As this trash lays waste to everything..
Today it is hard to look at most of the net and continue to whinge about democritization.
Democracy doesn’t mean “Stupidity Rights!”
And don’t invert that ever again with me because you sit around in California with a sad degree or not in Quantum mysticism, Mandarin and Interpretive dance..which I saw an execrable and distasteful example of
I have an imagination not the loose associations of schizophrenia.

That is a snapshot of Ol’jfz9580m’s work desk I took yesterday for posting here.

I write these for myself alone.

I laugh at my own jokes so I have finally returned to my native state of if not solipsism, a state where a few lapses into vaguely menacing noises aside (an undertone throughout), “performing” for an audience of only one as is the norm for Ol’jfz9580m. That one being Ol’ jfz9580m. I must say I derive a certain satisfaction in the Biblical oratory style. A book mom and I loved, Georgette Heyer’s “Blunt Instrument” had a very funny character PC Glass, a rigid policeman who would speak in this manner.

It is an emergency. I would never willingly share these very private things. It would have confounded mom. But these are for the web and for EarlG/elad, as I could not have expressed myself alone. And I must as this is not a joke. I would hate to lose my anonymity because I would hate to lose my anonymity.

Going forward I shall refer to myself in third person as Ol’ jfz9580m in satirical non homage to Ol’ Orlick from Charles Dickens’ “Great Expectations”.

My mom and I used to find a particular line from the book very funny: “You was favored and Ol’ Orlick was bullied and beat”. You would have to read the book to get why it is absurd.

To quote P. G. Wodehouse, another favorite of my mom and I, “to make it clear to the meanest intelligence”, Ol’ Orlick was not a meek victim. He was some sort of dim-witted thug. Hence, clearly an affinity of Ol’jfz9580m.

I suppose much like Winston from 1984, I write these for a distant future I will never see. I have no descendants either, a couple of nieces I am very fond of aside. So Ol’jfz9580m has to communicate to the distant future about what life was like.

In that image, future human from 2568, in the corner you can see a sheet of 10 mg cetzine tablets, some tinsel that my 200 mg and 100 mg Modafinil tablets were wrapped in (I should clean my desk at some point), a cake of soap proving that I do have an understanding of hygiene whatever asparagus may be cast my way on that head possibly occasionally with some legitimacy (I have been preoccupied! There is a doctor who recommends never showering fwiw? No. Oh well..), and my medical marijuana prescription that contains both THC and CBD.

It is a nice snapshot of human existence in India in these troubled times as I owe the people whose produce of bonafide utility I relied on in this difficult time.

I am indebted to a small local pharmacy for these, since the local mental health services have been unhelpful or worse. They have been known to us for over 20 years and Modafinil is a safe enough medication that they do not insist on a prescription. My life would have been far harder without Modafinil.

I am very grateful to my ayurvedic doctor and my medical marijuana company for my marijuana presciption as well. It has helped me quit alcohol which I really should avoid given how much cancer there is in my family.

There is no data I am willing to share for medical or any research now or wrt the last 14.5 years. It was not always the case. It is today. I found out last week about Blackstone Inc and am preparing for conflict on all fronts.

The Texas cadaver scandal is one I noted with interest. Toronto shutting down Sidewalks Lab was also a relevant news story.

A third news story that is perhaps most relevant involves the Serum Institute of India throwing a draconian retaliatory lawsuit at a volunteer who dared complain and sue them for a modest sum of 5 lakhs. In a society with good critical thinking skills that would be construed by no one as an attack on vaccines, but rather on the type of human who thrives in this world as it accelerates to hell disregarding collateral damage and they bully and scam their way ahead. SIL filed a 100 crore lawsuit or something ridiculous as a form of serious intimidation. That is one side of India. A small but significant one.

And as someone who does not grasp notions like kayfabe, if I formally place criminal liability on the table for some things I have seen, it is neither insanity nor theatre. I have no use for theatre and I have seen more than enough.
One person is already dead - my mom. And I lost 14.5 years of my life. The only things in my life or those of anyone connected to me ever that could be used extortionately are depicted there. Tata keeps flashing 0000F5D7 on my screen and malicious scoundrels of the worst kinds -male and female have flooded my street between 2021 and the present as I grieved over the loss of my mom.

And as I push this scourge back, as someone who has no intention of spending even a day in prison and is not fool enough to risk such things, this is based on a serious pragmatic calculation.

I would not be writing this were it an ordinary situation. The rest of what I write is for a future I hope exists some day.

A parasitic private equity company called Blackstone Inc has been buying up some of the already fairly sleazy local hospitals since 2023. The doctors here are always good - physical health doctors anyway. My oncologist is a gem of a man. Overworked but then it is easier to overpopulate earth and force parasitic bullshit jobs offering no serious goods or services as a form of “GDP Growth”, than to train highly skilled doctors with expertise and experience.

My mom’s oncology nurse was also very competent (and overworked and as nurses typically are, underpaid). Blackstone Inc however does well. Hence, the title of the post.

As someone who will never work in anything but publicly funded science and is a complaint forced to use the web as a Citizen scientist would, I have no reason to lie and I will not any further. The last 14 years have taken a real toll on me and my family and friends and doctors and colleagues at various points.

The forces affecting our lives are hidden and indirect and chaos and confusion make it hard to identify precisely every culprit. But I do speculate about some.

For some reason I have had pastor Marian Budde in mind as I write this.

I am nominally Hindu, the doctor, the ceo of my medical marijuana company, my pharmacist at a small mom and pop local pharmacy, its owner etc are Hindu, Muslim, Christian etc.
They are all Indian men and very decent and kind men.

There are few Jewish people or Sikhs in these parts or I am sure they would have been an important part of my real life here as well.

As we say in these parts, “Hindu, Muslim, Sikh, Isai milkar Janagan gaate hain” (though I can’t remember offhand where that is from..Ol’jfz9580m has always had a lousy memory. Mainly thanks to never have trained attention and memory early on. Ol’ jfz9580m’s metacognition works somewhat differently than some people’s).

There are four books I purchased with poor grace from one of those ugly giants displayed there - each significant in its own way. I would have preferred a small bookseller, but those do not exist anymore online anyway.
As this mad rush for the most parasitic forms of growth prevails, that can be expected.

My residence however is very much my own as is the street outside and the sky above. We have lived on this piece of land for over a 150 years. That is not that long. But it is long enough.

The title of the post derives from one of the books pictured, Samuel Miller MacDonald’s “Progress”. It is a good book and I like Sam.

But I disagree with the problem he identified. Firstly it is never possible to identify one concept alone (as he has done) for such a mess. But were I to pick one, I would choose Adam Becker’s allusion to “the limits to growth” as closer. In the rest of this, I will make a simple set of rhetorical arguments based on genuine pragmatism for why I do not buy this and clarify (not that tacky Stanford optogenetics rubbish - those people are idiots) why I back my own worldview over this pointless drivel I was forced to endure.

Future human, except to the dumbest people anywhere, do I seem like someone who wants to do podcasts or educate etc? With rare exceptions, I have no idea what drives any of these guys and I have realized it is futile to try. The slender array of archetypes and stereotypes in use by such baffle me, left, right and centre. Btw I mostly just considered the web a way to waste time when stuck at work, with rare utilities off and on. Now I wonder if even those are worth it at this rate.

I have been plagued as most people are these days (whether they are aware or not - I was not 14 years ago) by something directly insidious.

While it is not any one thing, parasitism (with cruelty, bullying, misrepresentation, coercion, intimidation and slander as needed to support parasitism and by large crowds of truly endlessly clueless humans who to this day do not get it) is a far bigger issue than any in my own life as well as society broadly.
Earth and its animals who do not vote and are not cute companions have faced the brunt of this parasitism in 200 years of industrialization. That the euphemistically titles “ventilation shutdown” - a moral abomination that most veterinarians disgracefully back -refers to “efficient culling” of animals by burning them alive after factory farming them in cages too small to allow even the most meagre amounts of comfort tells one a lot about the zeitgeist of this society.

In such a landscape war and poverty are expected not surprising and sports style blame allotment and chess moves cannot change that. I feel rather Biblical these days..Not like a theocrat. But as a human who cannot conceal their disapproval any further or indulge in meaningless twaddle and drivel.

I have no positive things to say of my state however. This is shameless all around.

To be continued..

I want to be clear on something here. This was hell and torture. It made me unemployable by forcing something worthless. Whatever it is, I will not allow it and you will figure out how to decouple me from this and I will not pull back even one complaint. Not even if Yasha Levine said I should.
You are not a child. You all knew what you were doing. I already have had to forgive two super annoying labs in the US.

I know she was old and past her sell by date, but I was fond of my mom.

It is not a good idea to encourage economies like these. It is not that I am sneering at influencing etc.
14 years after I first told these people I want nothing to do with this, nothing has changed my mind and to me my mom was as important as other people’s families are to them.

This was so parasitic and somehow I am less sympathetic to women who participated in this. I cannot tell with this dim-witted male contingent how these assholes think.
I am not flexing muscle as a joke.

I am going to the police and if I didn’t you would bully me and after having been tortured by this, next I would..lol..be one of these assholes that is next going to shill this?

No and I am a terrible liar. And I am not crazy. This was greed, malpractice and stupidity. At any point between 2011 and now you could have not gone around saying I am a bot and crazy.

As is I am working overtime to soothe this in ways that will only affect those who should do hard time for this.
I cannot huge we thing. You are welcome to pit your million people mob or not.

You can save yourselves or continue with histrionics about team work and cooperation and no. Don’t try to tell me this was not torture and exploitation with no use case.

If..if I could cover for you, I would. I cannot. I had to keep roleplaying this dumbass woman to not pretend that this was sleazy, creepy..

This is not how humans think. It is not relevant what your face is like (that ass Kosinski), what noisy sledgehammers you use, what emojis, fart sprays, these disgraceful lie and emotion detectors like that Aaron Elkins and

I cannot do anything about people who become suicidal etc after doing all this. Don’t do all this. Unemployment is better than participation in something that is undemocratic and where you had to know..

I know how women who are not sleazy or stupid think and well okay if you are married to one of these male zealots shilling this trash.
Okay I will admit it..My last mentor’s wife was the only woman in this I had any sympathy for. Maybe she buys into this trash too..good god.

But this is blind zealotry.

Here is what I am saying. It is not all that bullshit that woman Haugen etc shill.

Look Yan Lecun would never look me in the eye and say that for most people, with the kind of education common everywhere, except maybe in Germany (that is in this instance not a Nazi reference

If you are a pot using guy, different deal from being some girlboss mom who calls everyone an addict after barging into their spaces.
Yes data should be treated as the Texas Cadaver scandal.

I am not a luddite. Except the destruction of information and muddying with deepfakes etc sold as metaphoric vaccine to cover the rears of these creeps into infinity..
There is no “we”. There is using pot when you don’t even drive and there is pretending to care.
I harm reduce. I don’t need the validation of people who are this dishonest, pettily clerical and

Look you will figure it out. But I refuse to be scapegoated if you suffer the consequences of your own actions. We all do and my time is up and I never did anything this cruel and shitty and there is a time..
You may lose your job. If this goes on you will go to prison.
I cannot help it that you are sleazy and unsympathetic.. That is karma.

I can only vouch for people I trust and engaged with. This sort of collectivism is the cancer.
I would be giving you bad intel if I dialed this down and as Matt Stoller put it ignore human nature.

I have been in this parasitic hell for 14 years. The way to pushback against polemicists and bad actors is not by justifying and continuing to force this.

It will keep going lower and lower and more and more desperate. You had no reason to shill all this.

The actual real labor nor recreation I sign up for or enjoy works with this.
So I am going to the police..the shit on my street was the last straw.

I am not going to extort or go and suck up. I don’t talk to the people in this and I won’t. It is not my problem. But for the few people or things I do care about I extend olive branches to people who were never a part of this and not the types to perpetuate this.

The gist is human labor is slowed and worsened for a collection of worthless buggy tech and nonexistent products and services.

I kept incriminating myself as a lousy scientist in this. You know why? Because I am a lousy scientist and it is not to impress you with my humility etc. YOU CANNOT NEGOTIATE AROUND REALITY.

I took and take my lumps and so can I. And don’t bullshit to me about these trashy “studies”.

I will finish my write up coldly and deliberately and log off for a long time. I don’t want to push it with EarlG and elad, who I am grateful to for being trustworthy enough to engage with.

I can’t do this anymore. Fortunately no one I really care about is anything but skeptical about this shit and that is why I care about them.

Edit: There is exactly one exception to this since this is about informed consent. There was one male scientist I met at my last job in this super annoying and awful lab. He was the only person I met in that place, who like Yasha Levine, had some genuine natural talent and instinct for these sciences that was at all legitimate. But that is a strict one off and these creepy and local or online knockoffs can suck it. That is a one off, because he wasn’t stupid and corrupt like all the rest. Everything else, especially locally is pure misconduct and malpractice.

Originally Posted in the Music Appreciation Forum on March 8:

It is a joyous occasion! Ol’jfz9580m is filing a draconian criminal complaint about tech overreach and parasitism in India and medical malpractice, misconduct in human subject research dating back to 2011.
But a single olive branch (my lab from the time, an adjacent annoying lab headed up by an Elon Musk Superfan (is that libel?), two families, some of HR etc did nothing wrong..they took me for a different person maybe? It is not cool. But I have no wish to smite them with plagues of hellfires & locusts and such) is genuinely extended to Prof Hennessy who I forgive for being the sole Google associated person I will not be including in my complaint.
He isn’t stupid, but like a human computer. That must make life hard. Prof Lecun is more like a normal human.
I think Prof Hennessy is probably unfairly slandered by Marc Andreessen as the “Father of Si Valley”. And what passes for the left (Ben Wray, The Jacobin, Betsy Hartmann, Teen Vogue, Naomi Klein, celebrities is legitimately awful).
I am filing a criminal complaint locally.
But this is to explain the world to Prof Hennessy as someone who likes a peaceful life of dignity in India, not crass, deregulated rot.

It is even that creepy YouTube!
But it is my favorite song to the extent that I have one. I am generally suspicious of music..(except wildlife rhythms uncorrupted by junk like streams of human vapidity that must affect the web of life badly, as much as they anger Ol’jfz9580m). It is a comment on all our problems as the testing the limits to growth leads to criminal charges (and not for marijuana, but male on female harassment here where stranger danger/acid attacks and gang rapes are not imaginary and creepy, stalkerish traffic studies, herding etc were such a terrible idea). But I wish Prof Hennessy well.
And well..this is expected communication if you know Ol’jfz9580m at all and thought this would end any way but in criminal charges I file:

I don't really understand the Indian Americans I see. For the most part, the people I have casually inspected seem like many people in being completely self-obsessed and lacking any interest in climate change, environmental issues, economic issues and totally hung up on culture.

It is like this guy I really dislike called Jay Kaspian Kang, who had an interview with Wayne Hsiung and with the usual throwaway reference to civil rights, spent the rest of the interview pathetically snarking about a serious issue like factory farming, a barometer of societal sociopathy that a less shallow person would get. He has written some book about being whatever he is in America.

I have always seriously wondered what is gained by a multipolar sociopathy of self-obsessed cultural chauvinists who casually throw bumper sticker politics on, but don’t give a shit about anything.

Then I saw that Kaspian Kang had cancer and well..then I felt sorry for the guy. But he still remains an example along with Miss Al Gharbi, Yasmin Nair of a type of leftist whose main thing seems envious snark.

Mechanical plaints about the “brown people”, “the working class” etc rings kinda hollow. It drives people to grifters like Joe Rogan, as these guys have destroyed education and then they shat on human gut instincts.

I don’t buy that ass Harriri’s “story telling” (should I be complaining about people about people who mostly only attack things/people? I also totally support things/people and not performatively..you can’t have one without the other), but some combination of stats and logic and like Bishop Marian Budde or journalists who without editorialising actually wrote about the lives of struggling people ..It is never easy nor formulaic.

But you should eschew narcissism. Hamilton Nolan was correct journalism is not narcissism.

Now it is interesting to hear about the lives of Yasha Levine or Dr Fauci. Why are there are so many stories about people who are generic grifters? What is gained from the experiences of generic grifter. It teaches people to aspire to be generic grifters.

Yasha Levine’s writing has a specific purpose that is not at all narcissistic. It is very tied to understanding how people who think think.

Wayne Hsuing anyway is one of my people! Animal rights green. He is a little flamboyant which I don’t quite trust..but he does seem to genuinely care.

You can tell that Alec Karakatsanis cares. And caring isn’t just this emotional nightmare of another kind. I used to bleakly look at the world you see online and go “why god why”?
The net really makes one despair that anyone is sane. But then offline people don’t know and it is hard to know how they will go.

“Don’t Look Up” which was savaged by the very people whom it satirizes, though they come together for a concert or something in the end before the world is destroyed, depicts that online dynamic. I have never followed superficial people. Not worth it. Dressed up as contrarian or standard issue froth.

I support ExtinctionRebellion and DX etc but I realized during a very troublesome period of my life that I don’t think the internet samples the real left that truly goes underground against these forces. This Guardian review of Barn 8 made me recognize those people as “Ah..those guys get it.”

Except I am so atomized, I am back online hacking away at some sort of vague guerilla warfare. Why would anyone attract attention?

I get not going so underground that now it is some sort of dark web of corruption and conspiracy theory. And that is again pro libertarian.

But at least a mid-space from where to manoeuvre with a slender tool palette, mostly attacking the assaults on the human instinct for fight these societies are driven by.

I mostly have three communities I consider myself a part of - the Greens/AR (minus those EA types..shady lot that. The AR people should totally take their money and not get mired with them); scientists/doctors (minus half of psychiatry based on my experiences..Reefer Madness shills 🙄 ..mind you none of the geniuses I dealt with would dare force coercive psychiatry on those dimwitted billionaires..why are these people so helpless? ) and the left broadly. My point is that very shallow identities seem to mire the modern human).

Except an Si Valley cultist or so, my nephews and nieces are not that bad. They seem to think about stuff that is not entirely self-centred and “All about me!” and pay attention to the world with the non-narcissist’s lens.

Honestly, how is any narcissistic worldview that different from any other type of cultural chauvinist? If you believe that we are all more the same than not, more equal or even playing ground starts to highlight personality differences more than others. I will round out the thing by attacking “my” people and in less stereotypical ways than that merely slapping on a label means much.
I agreed with this Indian woman who wrote in The Atlantic that she is not that different from Usha Vance, though a democrat. I agreed. They seem more or less the same.

I met one of my nieces a couple of years ago. She is the reason I would be extra angry if I cannot remain anonymous. She is very private and savvy. She helped me a lot with reminding myself of who I was and am.

She is a worried young person. I came back to India, but apparently because one person from the family somehow ends up being over there, she is now there as a tuition paying student.
I have very mixed feelings about it. But it was too late to do anything to dissuade her.

She is a good kid. I am very fond of her and worried that she is there. One of many ongoing worries.

She is pretty left leaning (but she is dismissive of bullshitters) and a real chip of the old block. Yeah on the whole I am sorry I met her. I am not a good person for any young person to be associated with. I know that though I cannot feel it as much as I know I would if I could see.

The Indians and Indian Americans typically in these things don’t represent my family or me I find, which is sort of more underground and suspicious (not paranoid) of these noisy, yapping types. And the Americans I liked were similar. Not going around attracting as much attention as one can from morons.

It is with extreme annoyance and increasing irascibility that I am outing myself in bad grace as the human I am. As it has become impossible to allow this to grow around one.

My niece has the normal prudent facade of civility which I no longer do.

She is a good kid. She is like a quizzical little bird. When I first met her, I took an immediate liking to her and was friendly and I could tell that she was not precisely wary, but confused about this random aunt who is so gushy. Those are good instincts over jumping into all sorts of random things. My other niece is more open and friendly, but she has no intention of ever going to America and in the spaces she goes to her instincts are good.

It is hard to have sane cultural anthropology when the only people who engage do so under duress and while strategising about protest to avoid getting sucked into more spurious market and theatre driven bs over serious conflict when you don’t trust the instincts of these loud or scheming types.

Bah..all bullshit..

A lot of these left and right labels are so superficial. Or rather the left part of it. The grifty right is a very real right. Besides that is not how humans think. All humans have some conservative instincts and some lefty ones. It is what you make of them, rather than slapping on a label and going “Go Team” or crafting an identity that is purely contrarian, purely sugary or something ..that is so empty and ossified wrt adaptation to changing nuisances.

I was rather pleased when my niece said something I have always thought about those Indian Americans who go on and on about their “culture” ( the counterpart to this other type that “assimilates” by myopically mimicking the dumbest and shallowest people they can find)..

She said “what are these guys always going on about ‘their culture’ for? There is a country of a billion plus people (constantly breeding..I added that part) right over here.. their ‘culture’ isn’t going anywhere”.

What is going extinct is hundreds of millions of years of biological evolution. And any people who ever gave a shit about something without weaving it into this bullshit parade as “inevitable!”. And I am sick of these narcissistic parasites not even waiting till I am dead to grab my resources..bloody disgusting.

Shallow narcissists all..and making life hell for people in “their group” by collective stupid decisions that affect people whom they don’t know and never will because no group is a monolith and this is the tip of the iceberg re the extent of this net-based shallow monoculture of vapidity taking over everything. Maybe all will go that way but some won’t. And messing there is a bad idea.

The people I know get worn down and like me back in the day, don’t grasp how bad it is. But they wouldn’t really agree.. because it is stupid and short sighted.

But these shallow people who are in shallow waters on all levels..they are hopeless and they should all-white, nonwhite, Indian, not Indian, male, female etc stay in their scammy, loud, frivolous “Kim Kardashian is a feminist!” “my culture of bullshit is more important than mass extinction and factory farming! I can walk and chew gum-except I mostly just chew gum! I am vaguely a hair different from the average self-absorbed male ass on Fark! I am a lefty liberal!

And their sleazy, parasitic “hardcore” grifters in some stem field they are disgracing are worse. If that crowd is annoying, this thieving and extortionate “meritocrat” huckster is outright criminal. Only standards in data science and generally will fix it.
This is in every way an assault on human livelihoods and life and it’s being sold with more of this criminal “smart city” propaganda.

Those guys are balanced out by their fellow narcissists who are more honestly self-absorbed, douchey right wing nutjobs.

Christopher Ketcham is too kind wrt clown car.

(I mean that is probably how they think. That was what I roughly gathered was in those emtpy heads. With the obligatory - “I do real hardcore work in the real world”. Bollocks.).

Bah..all humbug..most probably anyway..I question these pugilistic admissions.

Such bs..nationalistic puffery and kayfabe along with selling off the country and people’s livelihoods and homes to the lowest bidders (“a race to the bottom is inevitable! It is math! The hell it is..what kind of fascist math is that?).

And there is no such thing as “brand India”. And beef is not left. Empty-headed twaddle.

Or “leftism” that screws over women, poor people etc and again hands over everything to Ambani, Adani, creepy “little guys!”

I know a little Hindi..10th standard bare pass! (i repeat my jokes because these fuckers repeat their stupidity) and I was thinking
“Apne Maa Baap ka Ghar Samjha hain kya? Main tumhaari behen ya beti nahi hoon! Main ek mavaali hoon! Sharm nahi hain Kyan? Yeh creeps ka agenda implement karte?”. I shall mangle communication in two languages henceforth. A third would disrupt even the facade of ..
And not learnt from Bollywood/Garbage GPT, but various Kendriya Vidyalaya Hindi textbooks.

I come back from another country because those fuckers there are going crazy and then put up with this shit here.
Unbelievable.

It is as if there is no one here..
What was the topic? Oh yeah Indian Americans …yeah..Indians or Indian American or any other group. I don’t trust any of these fuckers.
And they never get that barely veiled with humor “personas” doesn’t mean that the real thing is not real. I hate dealing with daft people.

Like President Trump, I am running on pure bullshit here only without support (unless one of my cats counts..even with them, I was only able to get one on board and probably because my cat speak is garbled. No doubt she will sue me for libel/slander and defamation and false advertising in the future). But we have slightly different goals.

President Trump and I, I have noticed share some common features.

Neither of us have any talent, knowledge, skills, circumspection and fly by the seat of our pants and have weaves filled with tangential rambles and boring, inconsequential and infuriating anecdotes. We both aim to confuse the brain so we can..there we diverge..our delusional grandiosity has different ends.

Like Colbert was a huge fan of HW, I am fascinated by President Trump. At least the imitative faculty of parrots should eventually mimic something better than a groveling hostage in some sort of unclear and no doubt stupid “Prisoner’s Dilemma”.

I am a huge fan of President Trump. I really am in a way. It is somehow easier without even a basic sop to sanity when bts it is this fucking lunatic. This is a decades long project of chipping away at all working parts of human society for some sort of noxious pyramid/ponzi scheme.

Prof Steve Chu gets it. He is not stupid - an enconium he no doubt is unused to . A rare attribute in even true elites. He was not a good businessman. Different skill set that. He is from Missouri. Interesting guy.
Can’t he do something? Anything?
What are they all doing?
Sitting around going “I 😻 Zuckerberg (“left””💗+🧠”)/Musk (RIGHT”💪”+🍆 ”. Seriously that would be their taped together disgraceful, unintelligently designed Frankenstein that is shilled Theranos style, built on stolen garbage repurposed as garbage to sell. I mean..many shots in the dark. But some must hit a mark or two.

Goddamn computer maniacs miring everyone else. I hate Stanford, Berkeley and MIT. I have to go draft something about criminal liability…

Going by this experience, I would guess that the large number of silent lurkers out there are people whom one knows little about.

Sure I had a DU page back in 2006 where I used to try to dully post clunkily about the environment. I did post in the MIRT forum about my marriage and with a picture on Photobucket (I am already evidently in this stalkerish system so if people with legit access like EarlG/elad and MIRT identify me or my old schools, including that last one, okay.. I hate hackers..it is not a service to society to put info about people who are private out there and it makes you look like an ass..).

(Originally Posted in the Music Appreciation Forum on March 9, 2026.)

This at the very least applies locally in India..no it is okay..Rammstein is lefty! Not your kind of German professor. That is a joke!
And solidarity with the YouTube ceo creeps, those sleazy Wojickis etc!
Oh wait..the Wojickis, Kim Kardashian, Zuckerberg’s moll, Sheryl Sandberg, Wynn-Williams/Frances Haugen (bogus both side grifting, strategically ship jumping astroturf “whistleblowers”) are female..oops..nm..that means it is tinged with misogyny! I am sure Harvey Weinstein and Reid Hoffman/Mark Cuban etc funded “gender studies” will dissect Ol’jfz9580m and worst of all misrepresent Ol’jfz9580m to people who actually work with victims of male violence against women and pretend to not get who is being viciously mocked. There is no influence professor..
Well one..that is from an album named Mutter..
I can’t feel it anymore..but I remember somewhere and anyway trash is ongoing..which is stupid. Not one byte of data should be erased, but it should be aborted asap and I am taking the whole thing to uncorrupted authorities and the police.
I forgive you professor..despite your rather blase and negligent administerial style I don’t actually blame you..you seem like the fall guy..
But the rest are and were engaged in misconduct and malpractice that cannot be wished away. This is not how you quickly and secretively determine data standards.
Funny thing, my grandad was instrumental in bringing the metric system to India.
I think criminal liability and legal precedents are essential. I have seen enough.
You won’t just hustle forward. It is not a scam but an outright lie. It is okay. No need to panic Prof Hennessy..but do you even know any non sleazy people?
Times have changed..scripts change
But I am a dinosaur who thinks a bunch of microplastics contaminating every bloody thing is not progress.

(Originally posted in the Music Apprection Forum on March 9, 2026)

Mind you, those sad memes, your corrupt and creepy ai, posting stuff like this itself - those are forms of theft unless those specific artists get the credit and not some shitty ai creep or YouTube or any junkware or Theranos 2.0 wannabe.Frauds in Ai and data mining are harder to out than even Theranos as it is in so many hospitals, this stuff has sadly been normalized by this point in time and it is all over society. These corrupt and parasitic wealthy would be social lepers in any semi sane society (with apologies to humans suffering from leprosy..that, unlike whatever ails these creeps, is an honest affliction. The platform driven or algorithmic dynamic promoted by these guys makes digression into that unavoidable however unlikely it is that it would be anywhere close to the biggest priority for people with such problems that someone called some billionaires social lepers. I would clearly be sympathetic to any underdog type over ever ridicule or humiliate anyone (well except the billionaires - that is okay. They will probably live in spite of occasional vicious anonymous rants online). But I was pointing out Prof Hennessy that the constant and as I finally clearly see, liability conscious, policing of language by these parasites you no doubt admire, is not just a distraction..it makes society look inane enough to make people give up on the ability to organize..worse the most committed useful idiots of the left then give the Welcome party corrupt faux moderates a
reason to represent themselves as non-sleazy and sensible when they are just sleazy and tacky…also people you like..is that libel?..That dymamic is destroying everything worthwhile).

I noticed something about you professor..as the only person with possibly a functioning brain in that crowd you run with, the things you promote and admire tend to neatly take out anything or anyone that/who may pose a real threat to this ugly and extractive machine that your computer advertising creeps, economists, celebrities, billionaires and assorted hucksters are building for reasons that can only connotate complete stupidity. I am not familiar with whatever The Illuminati are, but wouldn’t they need to competent enough to not force a slow suicide on the rest of us that I will eventually take them down as well?

I saw what ended up happening to me..front row seat! Not at all fun! Still not fun! But if I seem like the kind of woman you 🫵 Professor or at least your henchpersons would represent me as, the morons would assume I am insane, the perverts and parasites would assume I am weak and easy to harass, rob and bully.
I wasn’t and am not.

I just had no response that was not..as Yasha Levine who is a brain saver..specifically Yasha Levine not some random creep who is robbing Yasha and three minutes ago was all “I am almost like Yasha Levine!”
No..Ed Zitron got it with Dudesy.

Your pathetic agents are not even a joke. The only humans they may be brighter than Prof are the specific people you tend to know: grifters, bullies, sycophants, people with no self or reality awareness.
It is not a kayfabe “we knew all along!” joke professor that your shady Google creeps go around shilling agents that capture a human’s entire personality in a two hour bullshit interview.

Indeed the people you know Prof Hennessy will continue to disgrace themselves by trying to keep up with people they steal from like my mom and I. You have an army of brain rotted and mostly malicious bullying thugs to whom something like “At this late date have you no shame?” would not register. And that is not in any way a support of my thoroughly creepy local communists. Hell as long as they don’t try to come and build rubbish here, I have put together a strange and absurd shortlist of degrowth potential conservatives where at least they don’t benefit who are least untrustworthy (who would trust Bill Ackman or Elon Musk): Shyam Sankar (no building or creating shyam..some places will be control sports with angry householders..who don’t want this shit), Stepfanie Tyler and (🤮..I am so annoying to EarlG right now..Josh Hawley. He was elected..and in that part of the world.
No one elected these assholes.

What is the point of my addressing an echo chamber professor? I am already various things that are woke..I just tried not to be woke in a way calculated to annoy anyone within earshot.
Can you see why someone living in a rural area of a red state and confused not just by theocracy but also various sleazy celebs and tabloids and race and gender baiters (and I say this as a woman who has been harassed to the hilt by men, but I look at root causes professor and you are not one precisely..I kinda like you..it must be hard to only know the people who would except in a personal and worldwide emergency talk to you) constant invoke white and male supremacy when this collection of pathetic human beings with no talent but grift come out of si valley or at least exploit your race to the bottom style of migration and shit everywhere:

Suhail Doshi, Mitesh Bohra, Ragy Thomas, Vincent Palathingal, Shalab Kumar, Vinod Khosla, The Wojicki sisters, Wynn Williams, Balaji Srinivasan, Chamath Palihapitiya, Lucy Guo, Alexandr Wang,

These are stupid, mediocre self centred douchebags professor and they seem to be the people you launch at everyone. It causes cognitive dissonance.

The fix is not whatever a Bad Bunny is saying canned shit like “immigration made this country grate” (well..okay with the way I spell it..)
You go around and destroy birth control in Latin American countries..your Betsy Hartmanns and Ben Wrays and “development” economists..my mom used to hate this piece of shit called Aravind Panagariya who wanted Indian banks privatized. She found physics hard at the PhD level and unenthusiastically went into banking and she would always tell me she would have been happier as a high school physics teacher. But the pay was better. But while crypto is even worse garbage, she always found banking unfulfilling and she thought it was a job where there was too much political influence. She knew (and your science influencers who are replacing far too many valuable things are turning science and medicine into a gladiatorial and histrionic piece of trash) that physics does not work like that..But in economics a new govt with a new worldview upends everything. She found that the neoliberal bullshit destroyed the few parts of the job she enjoyed and it became more of this shit..conversations..but back then at least it was bullshit not spectacular bullshit.


She didn’t like her job much but she always told me that it is why she encouraged me to be a scientist as a meaningful and fulfilling job in science was worth more than mere money. But physics is hard and getting harder.
One of the last things she said to me before she died-thanks to this worthless trash in india-was she wanted me to be a scientist.

That seems far but I owe her a criminal lawsuit with real teeth not a nauseating malayalee or hindi or bengali or other movie made of the creeps, by the creeps and for the creeps..French revolution reference! Or sad memes.
I will not be a variation on Blippi professor.

I have never been suicidal professor (though a trashy Google affiliated corrupt hospital asked me that so many times that I started to wonder if it was a hint? Why would I be suicidal? They were in the wrong). And I am not liable for any violent dimwit who may read this and act out after these technologies created a crazy and stupid population that instead of going and reading a book or taking a nature walk or learning to appreciate earth or science without shilling a damn channel or edtech scam, goes and is violent or suicidal.

But I do have more sane self destructive impulses..I absolutely protest all this and I am already atomized and I like it. It is not the nuclear family, women’s rights or family planning that are the problem professor.

It is insisting the only the stupidest possible take on any concept that net builds this worthwhile trash machine is the real or inevitable implementation. I use some tech..that is of use to me.
Every person I value and found..I found via the routine dull internet and these creeps in between try to take credit.
I like that Prof Ryan Williams..he studies algorithms. I gift him and Prof Lecun this pile of worthless junk and you! You were kind of mandatory. But them I actually chose.

Some internet morons were mocking Prof Lecun who I assumed was another one of your standard people..and then I looked him up and realized he is not that bad..he is not stupid or crazy. Well no..I shouldn’t say that about Prof Lecun. Yasha likes Norbert Weiner.
Your field is such a nightmare of vapid people with coding skills, one looks at it in (I will be driven out of the few places that do not still view me as a threat to employment) in despair going: creep, sleazebag, moron, just no…

You know my mom did not like her job but she went in autos to various shitty but at least honest workplaces and saved enough..we are comfortably middleclass here..but the tuition of a shitty tradeschool in the US is pretty steep and I made a mistake and went to an EECS dept that pocketed some 25-35 k and did not bother with any guidance. I drifted into a field I liked..very interdisciplinary (physics math biology biochemistry) and found it interesting but very hard. And then my postdoc was with my main mentor whom I consider family.

I never contact him as I am doing this shit and avoid people who may still be fortunate enough to be employed in this environment without making menstrual art as your best friend Jonathan Haidt does..
This is all your fault Prof Hennessy.
And then your awful Insel etc type creeps shoved me into the dumbest hospital that destroyed what real savings and learning I had and broke my brain, heart and gut and then I came back and was extorted, scammed and harassed by the worst kinds of Indian men and women.
You are not getting away with labeling stuff “in the wild”, “janitorial work” (thats real work..thjs can best case be called minimal community service after so much stupidity, cluelessness and shamelessness in concert..no not your stupid music).
I respect Hatebeak which I heard of via Current Affairs ..Poor Prof Guildea’s parrot. I am sick of pretending to be a parrot or influenced by this garbage..it is overhyped rubbish like the Facebook emotion contagion thing.

What was a real “influence” was being shut out of a path to using MY OWN DAMN HOME AND RESOURCES TO IMPROVE MY WORK.
That is not a lame friends meme about sandwiches and that sandwich thrower. That will be the thing that flourishes.
Sad lame jokes like dudesy -human and ai and clapbacks and throw downs..all with no idea what anything means.

I don’t have that ass Tyler Durden inside my head professor. He is a movie character and your pathetic VR or shitty clarify or metaphoric trains or buses or whatever the bs of the day is, is not needed to train a gullible and garrulous woman like Ol’jfz9580m in how to not be naive online. Not in 2005 and not today.
You make people feel like shit professor and for such ridiculous rot and you want most people to ground down to complain or act out in the worst ways so an excuse for more surveillance and monitoring of people who have not and are not doing anything wrong and you can all cover your rears except for the last remaining people with any sense or integrity which is those two labs..well some of them..the people at the NIH..who will be strained by all this and needlessly feel guilty when it is clearly directed at completely different people.

This is the only music i like:
Uncorrupted birdsong..I would not choose Tejas Thackeray sans any ai, sensors etc for studying the existing abomination as it is aborted. I don’t need this shit.
I wi return the favor with a monologue from my side that cannot be treated as another one of these sad pleas for attention or viral trash.

https://xeno-canto.org/species/Dryocopus-pileatus

I once heard a pileated woodpecker while walking in the woods with a friend in a red state in the US. It was primal and wild and beautiful.
It also had something that is gone from the birdsong I used to love in my home:

I used to love my home..It is not fancy or fashionable but I loved it..no eastern mysticism, intelligent design or creationism haunted my thoughts then..
koels mating or territorial calls..rufous treepies without some human bullshit which is bs whether it is human indigenous folklore and human language etc or intelligent design.
Animals exist for their own reason.
Not to be sown into this parasitic rot that will be politicized by nazis or mercenaries if i did start flexing enough muscle.

I have no guns or friends. I cannot take these idiots on in hand to hand combat and worse this is so tacky and histrionic my brain used to mock me..it would snigger “sherni” (as I glumly continued to predict “how would a stupid human see this?”)
A frumpy middleaged catlady with no ties to this worthless trash finally pointing out that sicj an obvious for a criminal harassment and misconduct and malpractice lawsuit (i dont need any money and my parents’ pensions are not welfare..understand? Bloody parasites and prostitutes and creeps….a full hand…dont embed this worthless shit and call the security issues it will unambiguously create, a reason for piling on more).

No I have not been thinking of that silly ass Tyler Durden but the long suffering and very funny and nice professor who used to manage the microscopy facility at the school that I hope doesnt go the way of this one.
But any which way my home and street wont
And no one will take liberties with me like this again.
Total idiots..

Solidly middleclass Nimby Indian fighting the global race to the bottom driven by: human overpopulation, human overconsumption, low effort hedonism coupled with hard science denialism & finiteness denialism by the better off and transmission of those wretched/suicidal values to everyone including the worst off, human stupidity, the straining of the limits to growth, the rejection of stability/homeostasis and brainless divide and rule politics/celebrity wordhip.


All opinions/perceptions are mine and infinitely superior to yours.

Harry Harrison’s “Make Room! Make Room!” or “Barely avoided getting nuked and working towards a paved over parking lot+malls overpopulated hell” should not be the sole futures.

Mediocre scientist on extended sabbatical finishing a paper started in 2009 along with self-directed voluntary shit work combating angering and hobbling garbage nuisance tech (Ai agents/voice assistants/llms/physical ai and other deregulated trash shilled as “ai in the wild”). There must be criminal liabilty for illicit traffic studies/street mapping/light and sound pollution/exploration and exploitation of residential spaces at the risk of damage to the delicate web of life perfected by millions of years of evolution and not to be disrupted by crass ai and data mining robber barons and defense contractors who cannot distinguish between pseudosciences like Intelligent design and creationism and real science like evolutionary biology. Economics is a corrupt soft science muscling out the earth sciences as the result of an overpopulated, undereducated earth engrossed in celebrity culture, culture wars and memes as climate change, human overpopulation, out of control greed, materialism, deregulation ravage our only real home.

Daughter of a military vet (IN) from a matriarchal clan. My hometown is in a beautiful state destroyed by a corrupt and parasitic communist government which never saw a corrupt business it would not get in bed with. I lost my mother to cancer during the pandemic though she had an excellent oncologist/nurse. The physical medicine doctors in my city are competent and cool. But a sleazy private equity giant (Blackstone Inc) is destroying hospitals in the state.

Medical marijuana user. Environmentalist. Valerie Solanas style feminist (minus any gun or other violence aimed at second rate artists or other generally annoying people).

Gloomy (not depressed) curmudgeon/martinet.


Educational resources:

Compassion in World Farming:
https://www.ciwf.org.uk/

Ace is a good group (although effective altruism is generally garbage):

Animal Charity Evaluators/The Humane League:
https://animalcharityevaluators.org/charity-review/the-humane-league/

A rare respectable AI safety group (Timnit Gebru, Emily Bender etc affiliated):
https://www.dair-institute.org/

MeToo Movement:
https://metoomvmt.org/

Nandita Bajaj, who says things I would not have dared to:

https://www.counterpunch.org/2025/08/01/progressive-pronatalism-is-an-oxymoron-how-arguments-buying-into-the-low-fertility-panic-fail-women/

Andy Nikiforuk on Stupidity:
https://thetyee.ca/Culture/2025/07/25/Triumph-of-Stupidity/

Christopher Ketcham:
https://www.counterpunch.org/2024/03/08/clowns-to-the-left-of-me-fascists-to-the-right/

Evgenia Kovda on the Commodification of Dissent:
https://www.nefariousrussians.com/p/from-a-nefarious-russian-to-a-cam

Ed Zitron on why most Ai is junk with no use case & shilled by business idiots:
https://www.wheresyoured.at/the-era-of-the-business-idiot/

Yasha Levine on Noam Chomsky (“MeToo hysteria” is a redflag. No wonder the guy is in the Epstein Files):
https://www.truthdig.com/articles/noam-chomskys-split-personality/

Yasha Levine the only tech critic Ol’jfz9580m truly trusts. Tim Wu, Shoshana Zuboff, Evgeny Morozow are okay. Not bad. But Yasha is as peerless wrt tech journalism/general social criticism as Christopher Ketcham and Andy Nikiforuk are wrt environmental journalism/commentary. Sovietski Yah. Nastikoff Bah. Only anyone I like is awesome!

https://thebaffler.com/salvos/all-effd-up-levine

Marina Bolotnikova, the only decent human writer at Vox and a generally awesome human (unlike the rest of you malcontents out there..bah), on Ai and Animal Rights: What if Ai were to treat humans the way we treat animals:
https://www.realclearscience.com/2023/09/09/what_if_ai_treats_humans_the_way_we_treat_animals_978444.html

Sam Miller MacDonald on Nathan Robinson’s Current Affairs:
There Are Many Threats to Humanity. A Low Birth Rate Isn’t One of Them

https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/there-are-many-threats-to-humanity.-a-low-birth-rate-isnt-one-of-them

(“Hum Do Hamare Do” (we are two, we have two) was the most responsible advertising campaign the Indian govt ever undertook. However, with Private Equity like Blackstone Inc buying up hospitals and trashing care, overpopulation is probably more lucrative. More disposable humans).

Broadview Church which (like Bishop Marian Budde) appears to actually follow Jesus Christ’s teachings - a piece on why harm reduction is compassionate care:
https://broadview.org/why-harm-reduction-is-actually-compassionate-care/

Matt Stoller on how the Epstein class started a war (Arab princes, Western bankers, Silicon Valley AI guys, and Israeli hawks are all part of one blob. And they just started a war)
https://www.thebignewsletter.com/p/monopoly-round-up-the-epstein-class

Dr.Suleiman on how to resist anti-Muslim bigotry:
https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/how-to-resist-islamophobia-in-us-culture-and-politics

William J Astore on what a genuinely progressive military would look like:
https://www.salon.com/2023/10/15/beyond-the-rights-woke-slurs-what-would-a-progressive-us-military-really-look-like_partner/

The wounds you cannot see:
https://www.military.com/feature/2026/01/29/wounds-you-cannot-see.html

Troy Farah interviews Dr. Warren Hern:
https://www.salon.com/2023/08/05/are-humans-a-cancer-on-the-planet-a-physician-argues-that-civilization-is-truly-carcinogenic/

Dr. Clayton Dalton on what private equity (an example of which is the sleazy Blackstone Inc buying up hospitals in my corrupt communist run state) does to care quality/cost:
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2023/oct/25/us-health-care-for-profit-emergency-rooms-physician-turnover

The only ai scientist Ol’jfz9580m (satiric non-homage to Ol’ Orlick from “Great Expectations”. I am old-fashioned! I learnt English from books! Not that grotesque GPT thing which is an abomination and a scourge) trusts - Prof Yan Lecun:
https://www.technologyreview.com/2026/01/22/1131661/yann-lecuns-new-venture-ami-labs/

Chris Ketcham interviews Dr.Adam Becker, who is very cool:

https://www.truthdig.com/articles/the-mad-religion-of-technological-salvation/
https://www.bostonreview.net/articles/grand-delusion/

Nicholas Carr ridicules the metaverse and that ass Andreessen:

https://www.roughtype.com/?ref=codebldr&paged=2

Prof Henrik Mouritsen on bird compasses:
https://www.quantumbirds.eu/

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/how-migrating-birds-use-quantum-effects-to-navigate/

Separation of fact from drivel wrt birds and magnetoreception:
https://www.audubon.org/news/no-5g-radio-waves-do-not-kill-birds
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/noise-from-our-electronics-and-radio-signals-disorients-migratory-birds/

Ol’jfz9580m has never suffered from any mental illness that was more than the learned helplessness and despair induced by exposure to mindboggling levels of human stupidity, narcissism and self-absorbed solipsism in action. Ruth Cain’s piece is the best one Ol’jfz9580m has ever read on the topic:

https://theconversation.com/how-neoliberalism-is-damaging-your-mental-health-90565
https://www.newyorker.com/science/maria-konnikova/theory-psychology-justified-torture

The very cool Dr.Fauci who was demonized by the Idiocracy that wants to rehabilitate Elizabeth Holmes:
https://www.pbs.org/newshour/show/i-had-that-dna-of-caring-for-people-fauci-discusses-new-book-and-life-in-public-health

Bishop Mariann Budde’s speech on mercy on DemocracyNow! Interviewed by Amy Goodman:
https://www.democracynow.org/2025/1/22/bishop_budde

Stephen S Hall on valuing snakes on Earth Day. Ol’jfz9580m has reinvented herself as a preacher possibly budding cult leader:
https://time.com/7279027/earth-day-snakes-lessons/

Nathan Robinson on an abomination called Blippi and on that ass Steven Pinker. Robinson suffers from excessive civility and doesn’t point out that Pinker is also stupid:
https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/2020/08/the-dead-world-of-blippi
https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/2019/05/the-worlds-most-annoying-man

Sarah Silverman gave the only good TED Talk
ever. She is a comic not cruel - she was mocking TED’s hypocritical pearl clutching. Ted is for people who would cheerfully let the embattled starve in this stupid and callous world, while policing language performatively. The target of vicious satire (by any thinking and feeling human) is always those mediocre, wealthy parasites and blowhards, not anyone having a hard time. TED represents everything wrong with the pointless fount of parasitic, mediocre, insipid, creepy dreck that is Si Valley:
https://www.thedriftmag.com/what-was-the-ted-talk/

Paul and Anne Ehrlich on the Population Bomb revisited. The Ehrliches were unfairly slandered and Julian Simon is a douchebag. These Ehrliches etc are all too fancy, civilized and scientific. Ol’ jfz9580m learnt from watching the world. Instead of having carefully scientifically whetted arguments with blatantly sleazy and disingenuous bad actors like Julian Simon, they should have given him a metaphoric shove and said “You are a sleazy charlatan in a fraudulent field beholden to special interests and putting earth on a suicidal path. Be quiet!” Julian Simon like most economists driving this brainless, useless cancer like growth has had a net effect that is anti-human as well as anti-earth. Guys like him are frauds and should be dealt with as such. Ol’jfz9580m miserably tried to comply with this parasitic type for 15 years almost and finally learnt on March 7, 2026 that it is madness to engage honestly with this type and the entire criminal crew I dealt with in India and the malpractitioners in the US circa 2012:

https://mahb.stanford.edu/wp-content/uploads/2012/08/2009_EhrlichPB-REVISIT-1.pdf

A cool person. I do like Alec Karakatsanis/Briahna Joy Gray
and think it is a misunderstanding, but I agree with Matt Stoller. I personally think “Open Borders” and “Defund the police” are terrible messaging & dissecting John Muir and Margaret Sanger, takes attention away from Google, Facebook, Amazon, Microsoft, Reid Hoffman, Mark Cuban, Vinod Khosla, Marc Andreessen and other brainless, parasitic billionaires, which is very CATO/Koch friendly:

https://www.economicliberties.us/matt-stoller/

Prof David Golumbia on that other rubbish faux industry crypto. Prof Golumbia was also correct about the bullshit narratives purveyed by frivolous and sleazy people like Joy Buolamwini (the MIT Media lab is uniformly all about sleazy bullshit. From that creep Alex Pentland to Neri Oxman to Rosalind Picard). Lie detection/emotion detection etc are not worthwhile science anymore than Michael Kosinki’s bs, Ben Waber’s rot, Aaron Elkins’ rubbish. And this rot will displace all honest publicly funded science from all idiotic sides with what medical research is left administered by Zuckerberg’s moll, parasitic sports billionaires/reality show parasites faking concern over the justice system (e.g.: parasites like Kim Kardashian and Clare Wu):
https://thebaffler.com/salvos/zealots-of-the-blockchain-golumbia


Coleman Spilde is cool:
https://www.salon.com/2026/03/11/why-oscars-season-in-trumpworld-makes-us-so-mad/


Tejas Thackeray seems like the rare thinking human. I like how he thinks:

https://www.theweek.in/theweek/specials/2024/05/04/tejas-thackeray-shares-his-passion-for-wildlife-conservation-and-photography.html

A rare sane piece of writing:

https://crookedtimber.org/2022/12/08/your-platform-is-not-an-ecosystem/

Memory Good:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/let-their-words-do-the-talking/201712/looped-linear-thinking

https://www.quantamagazine.org/for-algorithms-a-little-memory-outweighs-a-lot-of-time-20250521/

Chauncey DeVega on John G Roberts:

https://www.salon.com/2025/10/31/john-roberts-betrayed-america-for-donald-trump/

The thing is, it is rarely only about the Louisiana frog.
https://www.courthousenews.com/supreme-court-revives-battle-over-frog-habitat-in-louisiana/

The Niemollar poem has rarely been applied to our treatment of earth, factory farmed animals etc, but the logic is the same. A species (aka humans) that doesn’t give a shit about anything or understand anything will cannibalize itself eventually, starting at the bottom and working its way up to the top.

Quite shameful how we treat animals, especially given what we now know about the depth of animal cognition and it’s diversity. All for some foul artery clogging, bowel gas producing fast food and fugly malls full of cheap plastic crap made in China or other sweatshops the world over:
https://www.steelsnowflake.org/post/animal-ethics-three-philosophies-animal-ethics

Emergent Stupidity by Lucien Greaves (the reference to Galton is unlikely to be a nod to eugenics and likelier to be about critical thinking and side-stepping thought terminating cliches or that is my guess. I would take it down if it was in support of eugenics, ironically a stupid idea and way of thinking, mean-spiritedness aside. But how it plays out on an overpopulated planet that pays lip service to the sanctity of human life while behaving exactly opposite to that is another matter. The Satanic Temple helps women get abortions and that is pretty cool):

https://luciengreaves.substack.com/p/emergent-stupidity

Certain people should not be trusted, but Chuck Palahniuk is unlikely to be one of them:
https://chuckpalahniuk.substack.com/p/ephemera-the-ordeal-cont

On Uncertainty by Dr. Clayton Dalton:
https://www.salon.com/2025/05/20/dont-fight-uncertainty-embrace-it-2/

Quantum Darwinism:
https://www.quantamagazine.org/are-the-mysteries-of-quantum-mechanics-beginning-to-dissolve-20260213/

Neural Darwinism, Maurice Edelman & Peter Putnam:

https://nautil.us/finding-peter-putnam-1218035
This is cool:
“It’s easy to say why someone is wrong, Putnam said. The hard part is figuring out why they’re right. And everyone is right. Everyone has some central insight, hard won by the consistency-making mechanism of the brain, built of past experiences, cast as motor predictions, a pattern that repeats, sustains itself in the chaos. Our job is to pan for it like gold, sift it into our own nervous systems, reconcile the resulting contradiction, become something new.”

In Defence of Wodehouse - George Orwell
http://george-orwell.org/in_defence_of_p._g._wodehouse/0.html

A creepy early piece writing breezily about what was then an emerging creepy PanOpticon. I used to read it in anger, disgust and disbelief back in 2015:
https://www.cnbc.com/2015/08/17/data-crunching-is-coming-to-help-your-boss-manage-your-time.html

This otoh was a more reassuring piece wrt faith in one’s instincts:
“What Do Corrupt Firms Have in Common? Alison Taylor
https://scholarship.law.columbia.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1076&context=public_integrity

This struck me when I looked up Barbarian on Wikipedia. It has sadly become an unexpected survival aid I had not expexted to need in this day and age.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Gift_of_Fear

I used to read this a bunch too:
https://www.newyorker.com/science/maria-konnikova/theory-psychology-justified-torture

Troy Farah on Climate Change:
https://www.salon.com/2025/12/31/against-trumps-climate-sabotage-a-different-future-is-still-possible/

Quantum Entanglement:
https://www.quantamagazine.org/computer-scientists-prove-that-heat-destroys-entanglement-20240828/

Hugh Everett’s Many Worlds Theory:
https://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/manyworlds/
https://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/manyworlds/orig-02.html

Apophenia:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/reality-play/201207/being-amused-by-apophenia

Cryptography, Avi Wigderson, 2023 Turing Award Winner:

Nicolas Gisin and Intuitionist Math:
https://www.quantamagazine.org/does-time-really-flow-new-clues-come-from-a-century-old-approach-to-math-20200407/

Carlos Rovelli and Time:


Infinity & Zeno’s Paradox:

Central Limit Theorem:

Homeostasis:

Limits to Growth:


Puzzle Solving Games: Baba is You

Found via John Naughton’s Memex - “Machine of Second Hand Ideas”:
The Machine Stops - E M Forster


Popular Culture:
Counterpart, 2018 (Outstanding)
Kettering Incident, 2018 (Outerstanding)

Liu Cixin’s Three-Body Problem, mid 2023(insipid drivel)
Promising Young Woman, 2023 (Brilliant)
The Good Place, 2024 (partially insipid drivel)
Leaving the Omelas (Hat-tip to Nathan Robinson, Oct 2025)
Existenz (Hat-tip to Yasha Levine, Fall 2025, His New Internet Chronicles Series)
The Discovery, Dec 2025 (acceptable)
If I Hadn’t Met You, Jan-Feb 2025 (acceptable)
Lords of Light/The Amber Chronicles (Hat-tip to Yasha Levine, Feb 2026)
Frankenstein (2026)

Books:
The Citadel - A J Cronin
Progress - Sam Miller MacDonald
The Shallows - Nicholas Carr
SCUM Manifesto - Valerie Solanas
Surveillance Valley - Yasha Levine
The Age of Surveillance Capitalism - S. Zuboff
What is Real? Adam Becker
More Everything Forever Adam Becker
1984 George Orwell
Down & Out in Paris & London George Orwell
William at War - Richmal Crompton
The Caine Mutiny - Herman Wouk
The Snark and the Boojum - Lewis Caroll
A Blunt Instrument - Georgette Heyer
The Voices of Time - J G Ballard
Ubik - Philip K Dick
The Catbird Seat - James Thurber
Lord of the Flies - William Golding
The Song of Wandering Aengus - W B Yeats

How Love Came to Prof Guildea (I thought of this years ago in 2010 out of the blue remembering my mom mentioning a creepy old tale, maybe part of a Hitchcock collection). It was up at the time on a site called gaslight.ca

The Rape of the Mind - Joost Meerloos:


The studies that were potentially relevant to the making of the Unabomber:


The only decent message board anywhere aside from Physics Stack Exchange:

https://democraticunderground.com/
Sovietski Yah, Nastikoff Bah..

(This was originally posted in Mental Health Support on August 14, 2025 and the last edit was made on August 18, 2025. I started drawing these (characteristically lazily drawn) caricatures last July when road closures diverted extra heavy duty traffic onto my street at a time when this street should be closed off to all non-essential traffic, seeing as this is a burgeoning complaint whether Prof Hennessy and his Si Valley Musical Quartet continues to dazzle society with a fine ostrich act or not.
Oh come on Prof Hennessy. I cannot keep pretending to pretend that you are only stupid and not also kinda tacky and scammy and symbolically pinning the blame on me as I pin it on you.
Here is this stoner slacker - the atomized only child of a nuclear family and generally various things that you would need way more resources and investments made in you than I had with my unique genetics and experiences to not be.
Hennessy probably wants fl scale it up as Operation Slacker Reintegration! But that is overly broad and goes for a cheap gag, where Hennessy is endlessly entertaining without it needing these degrading..
He is terrible ..That guy. But while reality is too complex to reduce to any cliche:

Prof Hennessy and I do capture a peculiar dynamic as an old, rich, white guy who is a nightmare and me..I am dead average.
This was uncalled for by any realistic standard and I protest the constant attempt to diminish…


This is so funny. I was a Stewart and Colbert fan from way back. I had a kind of brain injury I guess..around Dec 2011.
I am okay as of this date. Though I keep.

I can’t always remember. I at least generally believe the various “sfories” one tells oneself about the world. It would be embarrassing and shocking if one didn’t as they are very routine.

Hennessy is crazy..Man..imagine having to pretend to either take that guy seriously all the way or completely discount him. I don’t want to know that guy!

These people all live in that part of reality that no one cool lives in except Yasha Levine and Christopher Ketcham. But Yasha is also sane.
He wouldn’t..he isn’t histrionic and he cares about stuff, but he is no crazy. It is not very clear with many of you what is going on back there.
I am a total fraud in some of this to the extent that I should be surreptitiously shoring up my skills and work, but not tackily and desperately like old man Hennessy. God..it is just bathos and thanatos in Prof Hennessy’s world.
Wtf? That is how non influential, new “rude little shrimps” whose lives you all affect damn you!
Stop having so many kids all of you!

I can’t comprehend this high collateral damage survival strategy I intuit with this kind of pointless speed.
I sometimes meet devastatingly shallow people and think “This is the type of Person Prof Hennessy would like”. Or well at least the type of person Prof Hennessy views and wants as this like automaton that sits around repeating shit like this as if it about something important:

Surely a guy who made some sort of tacky processor knows how much bullshit fuels this world and how you would not need to be mean-spirited towards anyone but: Marc Andreessen, Sundar Pichai, my sleazy and corrupt communist chief minister here in India, Mark Zuckerberg and his moll, Bezos+moll, Ambani+gold toilet, Adani, Byju Raveendran, Sebastian Thrun, Woebot (a load of bollocks if I ever saw any..Elizabeth Holmes cab justifiably feel aggrieved about being the only scammer stupid enough to pick an easily detectable scam), Satya Nadella (Ed Zitron got the ball rolling…good for him. I have immunity! I was tortured by lousy technology and a few creepy humans), the MIT Media Lab, Aaron Elkins, Rana Al Khalouby, Sheryl Sandberg, Wynn Williams/ (False critics are a scourge..Yasha Levine is the only human I completely trust in journalism and probably also Chris Ketcham. But I know Yasha longer and better. I love Yasha. He is totally one of us. He is like someone one would know irl in a serious slot - like a labmate/mentor/friend or doctor).

Because on the one hand it is all really lame and non-lurid. Otoh how is that immaterial when that is so much of what is wrong and Hennessy’s negligent ways are so people remain focused on this emotionally manipulative, time wasting hogwash, whose reality makes it an aberration. But not one I would encourage the growth of so much as see as a cautionary degrowth tale around my stuff and life.


Look..I am not in this pantheon of archetypes etc. It all looks very strenuous. I did like Andrew Manson in The Citadel. Even competent people start somewhere.

Or I wasn’t and well. Now I have to fill it out as it is woefully (Hey Woebot lady, I am sorry for calling out your scam but I have to be even handed and there is no way , but you are right in a way.


After seeing the pseudo elite I get this disproportionate amount of focus on these very identity specific culture wars.

Over here..in the rabble realm, my intuition is that for a cross section of us and the only people one can conceivably talk to seriously, we are all..we are all kinda equally screwed.

But I did and do want to stick it to these guys wherever they have given me an opportunity and sort of shield my mentor (though 🙄..I remember thinking this guy will need help to not have both of us turned into laughing stock because…I could never make sense of the guy).
On my darker days I hope he isn’t like Alex Pentland. I hope he is closer to a Norbert Weiner with some talent at civil dissimulation.

No..he was cool..Or at least I really hope so. That was the truly awesome thing about my mentor. He was as predictable as my parents or my two best friends. Like it is not just because he is decent, honest etc. He would intuitively get why being this like member of the “List of infamous American University Presidents”like old Hennessy at least is guranteed to be is myopic somewhere deep inside his brain.
His world is far from this somehow perennially creepy program . Mockery is a tool and one has the right to..All eyes on Hennessy.

I mean I should have been a better scientist and person etc. But I promise you Hennessy is far worse.

That is the thing about my mentor. He tries to “win at life” or whatever in the sanest way in terms of not needing to destroy history because of your position in it Idiocracy.

These guys are really dumb..

Caveat/Warning: Some of this material may be offensive or unpleasant. It is not anti-psychiatry/anti-science nor hateful. It is satire and anti charlatanry. The point is that using the language of health and wellness charlatans get away with: conflicts of interest (e.g.: tech/defence contracting connected sleazy, lightweight and mediocre fluff is not the best fit for serious mental health sciences), misogyny, encroachment, intrusions on seclusion for no valid reason, harassment and the shilling of worthless crap (which would be harder without such guff). I have also slammed anti-psychiatry and wellness influencers like Laura Delano. I don’t like any self-serving charlatans. I try hard to be an honest person and am tired of suffering liars, morons etc. YMMV ;-/.
Finally, this is recommended only for someone whose critical thinking skills are advanced enough that they don’t make serious decisions about health or anything based on satirical cartoons (involving oblique references) online. I am not a fan of explanations as a rule. This is directed at specific things and you may not get what I mean. Don’t take this as relevant to you if you stumble on it. Imo you can’t child proof the world-especially at this level(the internet has lots of far worse shit). Shrug. I’ll take it down if it is flagged as harmful or offensive. If anyone even reads it. I put it up for my own sake really. It is intended only for well adults.

I focus more on the misogyny than on the sleazy women I came across (not that there was any shortage of such persons) because :1) I dislike the tacky “catfight!” dynamic that titillates creeps and plays to the lowest common denominator and 2) weight for weight the average sleazy woman gets the message faster than the average creep (who never seems to get it).
(I am an autodidact in creep/sleazebag psycho-sociology!) There are always the corner cases ;-/.
Absurdist Kafkaesque reality. Shrug.


This was a fun exercise I started mid July, going by the time stamps on my images. I posted it on DU July 21, 2025 if not earlier. And I completed the series with the last image I posted yesterday (August 18, 2025). I made the mock thought stream a week or so earlier.

I am very proud of my scrawls though, because I had fun drawing them. A final post wrapping up something I was experimenting with. The text is a bit disjointed, but I have to go work, after a long hiatus for all sorts of hideous and complicated reasons.

I have never suffered from mental illness. If I did, while I wouldn’t talk about it, I wouldn’t explicitly deny it either. I honestly don’t really see any stigma in illness. Another area where I feel out of sync with such hoary chestnuts. But if you aren’t ill, you aren’t.

Existential angst perhaps and chronic stress worsened by sexual harassment and intrusions on seclusion. Ruth Cain had a good piece in The Conversation about it.

Usually you end up like this guy or worse if you don’t have the slightest intention of pacifying the technolibertarian crew running most places ;-/.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cr46npx1e73o

It’s hard for anyone to be well these days, but I try.
Don’t take life so serious, it ain’t nohow permanent is me motto…I was never big on that sharing/ vulnerability stuff ;-/. I likes me defense mechanisms just fine!

But enough about me .

I found some relief in viciously caricaturing the types of men I encountered/lousy tech I was plagued by during a 13 year period from 2012-the present. That’s behind me now.

These are not misandrist or anti-psychiatry ;-/. They are anti-stupidity and anti-corruption though. I liked most of my shrinks even if I didn’t agree that I needed much shrinkage (especially unsolicited shrinkage).

Some of these caricatures are a bit broad ;-/.

Anyway I made these as a tribute to all the creeps i met or read about over the years. I suppose they generally mock meninists; a specific type of Yimby; incompetence; contemporary tech; influencers; advertising etc.

Influencing is a particularly bizarre concept-the movie Tusk comes to mind as a cautionary tale ;-/. The walrus body horror one..

How Creeps and Opportunists Affect Free Will:



Parody Paper on Creeps Figures:


Proportionality


Crazy Catlady vs Creeps



Advanced Crazy Catlady vs Creeps



(Explanatory Footnote: Advanced schizophrenia! Not the basic kind! ;-/)

This looks a bit like a creepy man I met in a state office where I had gone for something related to digital id. He picked his nose, which is not depicted to keep things tasteful.

Musical Pervert


This is not Sundar Pichai

Advanced Musical Pervert


Him


It's a Bird... It's a Plane... No, It's a Creep!

20 years ago The Male Creep was considered an endangered species (mostly by male creeps). But by 2025 we can rejoice in the fact that the Creep Population is no longer in decline..



I had originally named this next one “The Saint” till I remembered that it’s in the name of a viciously racist book. I changed it to The Martyr and to be inclusive (focused as I usually am on our creeps here in the Global South), I threw in a couple of Nazis.

It ended up looking a bit like a holographer/defence contractor (Lockheed Martin) who sexually harassed me in 2014. My dad is a military vet and disapproves of defence contracting.

The Martyr


The Martyred


I went to school in the US. But I moved back to Podunk, Global South (which I view with an affectionately satirical eye).

Most men I meet irl here are nice-my doctors, the delivery men who come here etc. Podunk, GS has an oblivious charm as long as it doesn’t start going the way of SP’s “Cancelled”.
BTS creepy defence contractors, creepy technocrats and corrupt officials are a concern. But hopefully, that’s in the past.

Govts classify stuff and have classified projects. For that to work it has to be limited hangout and not about the enrichment of corrupt oligarchs and kleptocrats.

I’ll give you an example of how things work in some parts of the Global South I have visited (culture!). A type of industrialist exploits a specific type of bullshit framing (which I think is overused even on any semi-legit left; e.g.: “Colonialism and Western Imperialism” ) to justify his own encroaching and corrupt ways.

Example: a crass billionaire whose son’s wedding cost 170,000 times the average annual salary of a local, talked about “colonialism” when Zuckerberg wanted to pile on with some sort of icky “Internet for poor people” scam.

Two professors then wrote a decent enough editorial to the telecom regulatory authorities urging them to stop that and Zuck was bounced out.

Two years later Zuckerberg comes back, but now he is in bed with this creepy billionaire and no one has any problems with it. They are all fine with colonialism as long as they can participate in the colonizing I guess. Anyone who is straightforward loses. That’s just not right.

This really captures it. I call it
Creep Rights are Human Rights!



(I would attribute those first two images if I could find them. The second one especially is really awesome. I downloaded that around 2015 and can’t find it anymore).

And it’s the same in most places. Humans like to exploit humans and of course the planet/non-human life. In US with Trump/Musk etc. The US is pretty much like any corrupt developing country now.

Now take this Indian ecologist Madhav Gadgil who is the rare type of human even I respect.
Gadgil wrote an extensive scientific report urging against exploitation of the Western Ghats, an ecologically sensitive region under immense strain. (IMO due to the effects of overpopulation, overconsumption and overdevelopment). The communist CM of a state called Kerala tossed it aside. The resulting natural disasters caused significant loss of life. So much for man versus nature and the benefits of corrupt overexploitation of natural resources.

I live in another one of the few communist states in the world. Though I am well to the left, I have no illusions about our communist govt unlike people who have never lived in a communist state. Even Nathan Robinson whom I respect has these blinders about China for instance. He had this Indian version of Steven Pinker (Kishore Mahbubani) on recently. Life is getting better! People are living longer!

That Pinker stuff is so blind to the effects of population explosion, deregulation, roiling tensions between some 1000 different microcultures.
I have no illusions about any politicians/industrialists here. They are all okay with destroying the planet for profit.

You gotta have a consistent worldview to withstand corruption and alarming levels of industrial encroachment and deregulation.

There are no good guys when it comes to oligarchs, industrialists, most politicians and those in their pockets. Conspiracy theorists -the natural endpoint of an Idiocracy make it worse.

Scientists and doctors are pretty much the only people I trust (any shills aside). A caveat though -I do not consider behavioral economics (nudge theory, Bschool fluff), what the MIT Media lab does, most AI, the Facebook emotion contagion study, behaviorism etc. science for the most part.

The hard sciences and anything conducted using strict and rigorous scientific methods. Ai seems to allow for a lot of lightweight stuff as well. Yan LeCun is the sole prominent AI researcher I have seen out there who seems completely honest.

I suppose to be fair, one feels a bit resentful. I was shocked to read how much money people like Gino, Ariely etc. made prior to scandals. That stuff is such junk!

In the hard sciences you toil and spin (after a fashion if like me you are half assed) and then die a lonely horrible death..ha ha.

I am working on a research paper trying to tune out endless nuisances to get it right. Science and medicine do take a lot of dedication..I had good mentors, so I was lucky there. My main postdoc mentor especially, though all 3 of my mentors were cool. I had 3 between 2001-2012. Now I mentor meself!

I do have to go work on that ..feel a bit weary at times..Like The Martyr!

This one was a tribute to the specific type of socialist you see in The Jacobin-very Yimby and “pro-development” (Ben Wray, Freddie DeBoer, Casey Phillips etc.). Ben Wray said that “abortion rights are still broadly popular”. Good to know man ;-/.



I was just being funny. There’s a bit of artistic license in there. Technically the rape advocates I saw online were Rooshv and Andrew Tate. I hope I am not sued by NaziReputationManagementInc.com…

These cartoons skew Global South centric since I am not American and left the United States over a decade ago. So they focus on our creeps here rather than your creeps over there. (It is also why the creep parade doesn’t cover anti-vaxxers. Thankfully, that bit of lunacy is less common here than it apparently is in the US. People were pretty good about social distancing, masking and vaccinating during the pandemic. So my creep parade doesn’t not focus on that. An unvaccinated creep parade would be the limit.)

The left can totally meme . Though I think memes and “going viral” are a bit gauche. I made these for private use and only posted them here out of exasperation over deregulation and corruption.
Tech criticism is a joke. That’s part of what I was mocking. How every tumor of a non-industry launches more reactionary tumors like faux critics and insincere tell-alls-Tristan Harris, Tegmark, Eff, Wynn Williams.
Yasha Levine is the exception not the rule. But he is too honest a journalist to get a job these days.

Lina Khan on the other hand, much like Gadgil, is the rare person even I am enthusiastic about. She got so much accomplished it scared the tech creeps into destroying society.

My first “Images of Creep” series featured her prominently and even had MTG! Don’t remember where I pulled that image from except somewhere online so can’t credit it.


(Can’t remember where I got the sobriety, Khan and MTG images from. And in fairness this intense obsession by sleuths over 0.3-3.5% fraud in academic research and plagiarism etc seem a bit overdone when Google/Meta/OpenAi etc make a joke of such concepts.)

I see places like those pompous schools with ties to the tech industry/industry broadly- MIT, Berkeley, Stanford, Harvard get all tingly about OpenCourseWare, RetractionWatch and Wikipedia etc…it’s so…douchey. I can see so easily that it gives them a chance to make life hell for the average struggling scientist while letting the Google/Palantir/Hoover creep types force snoopy and broken AI agents on people. For open science of course. Who can object to that? Puppy murderers that’s who.

Democratizing science-one WWE style disgraceful reality show at a time! Jokes aside, another way for opaque and corrupt tech companies to subvert notions like open science, health etc

I am all for good science and within reason even health. I try not to die. That counts I think. But honestly, not in this blatantly bogus way. It’s not good for old-fashioned and more honest NIH science of the best kinds. Shrug.

Now to wrap up..someone who unscrambled my brains a little was that Rick Rude Calves guy. The couch joke did some damage and the typical douchebag would have tried to capitalise on that. He was the first person I ever read about online who seemed like an actual non-retiree with a real offline life. He got that “going viral” is a bad thing not a good thing.
I felt a twinge of recognition when I read about him last year. He is from your Global North Podunk and I am from Podunk, Global South! I suddenly got why, left as I am, I could never quite mesh my worldview with that of the left liberal Americans whom I genuinely like …communication gets complicated.

I am trying to acquire some communication skills these days..but it’s a work in progress..was never very sociable ;-/. Was able to pull it off superficially and now I will be able to again.

I am not wildly original (which is why this is not my day job), so homage to (a mix of tech critics, political writers and comedians): Rex Huppke, Lyta Gold, Cara Smith (mostly Cara Smith), Andrew O’Hehir, Chauncey DeVega, Herman Wouk, Rick Rude’s Calves (a personal role model-a rare anon/non-retiree with an offline existence), Plork Blogspot, Candyboots WW Cards, Georgette Heyer, Jane Austen, R K Laxman, my beloved childhood authors Lewis Carroll and Richmal Crompton, ‘How Love came to Prof. Guildea’, my mom/dad/best friend/ex-husband, an unknown human user or two of Rollo Carpenter’s Cleverbot, Hatersaurusrex (Reddit), Jon Stewart, Stephen Colbert, South Park, Nandita Bajaj, Samuel Miller MacDonald, Nathan Robinson, Yasha Levine, Evgenia Kovda, Evgeny Morozow, Nicholas Carr, Tim Wu, John Naughton, Ed Zitron, Chuck Pahlaniuk, Amanda Marcotte, Jill Filipovic.

No Ai-that stuff is nails on chalkboard
Finally, most importantly, all my muses mostly here in Podunk, Global South. I have left out any women (though there were quite a few women I was displeased with) . But I avoid attacks on other women. You see I try to bite down and tolerate most things that stop short of outright creepiness. I have even left out mere jackasses where male.

An exception to that is these assholes who ride their bikes down my street with their silencers off. They were such a source of stress that my dentist said she could see signs of strain in my mouth from grinding my teeth. That’s why I have included them.

Sexual Harassers: All the sexual harassers/creeps I met in Podunk, Global South between 2014 and the present and one sexual harasser from this part of the world I met at a clinic in 2010, while in the US. These cap wearing creeps who used to ruin my morning jog in 2023 when I was still recovering from losing my mom.

Inept Shrinks: Two boorish male shrinks here in Podunk in the Dec of 2012. They are the primary inspirations for the cartoon shrinks. But the worst shrinks were at the hospital at my last place of employment in the US. They even harassed the only shrink I ever went to voluntarily and who was of use. Thankfully, the psychiatrist/therapist they had me see outside were cool, as was the counsellor.

Assorted morons: All the frauds and morons I met between May 2010 and the present. The (unknown) creeps exploiting my street and neighborhood.
I definitely think the local tech companies, defence contractors etc would be wise to stay away from my residence, street etc for all illicit experimentation. That’s what it is-completely non-consensual and illicit. Between 2012 and the present, my doctors or routine oblivious people aside, I never saw anything at all unusual locally that was not outright creepy, completely exploitative and mind numbingly incompetent. This stuff is an embarrassment and reminded of similar garbage I saw elsewhere.

These (indifferent) cartoons wouldn’t have been possible without them or the various annoying public figures/hucksters who diligently dedicate their lives to destroying planet earth and human society every day of their lives.

One final anecdote to wrap up this post:

I was trying to improve my memory a few weeks back and also fish in my head to see how I think so a greasy data miner doesn’t understand one’s mind better than one does..I have seen conspiracy theorists do this, but I was only trying to see any links I make. It was a useful exercise some.
This graphic is lightly edited to give Planned Parenthood a shoutout, but it’s mostly the original concept stream of a Saturday weeks ago when I was trying to escape the ghastly reality show feel of modern life where real science and medicine are displaced by marketing, junk like AI border security lie detection, emotion AI, behavioral economics, sublimnal messaging, sleuthing by dimwits, nudge theory and other worthless trash that should not exist:



It was somewhat useful, but at one point when I was going over this, my eyes hopelessly scanning from the icon on “GOP podcasts” to Matt Walsh asking if he is a racist, to MTG, with pompous exhortations from The Atlantic about good taste on the side, it struck me that this must be what hell looks like:


This society is hopeless ;-/. But you are looking at the wrong things! Crispr! Heart transplants! We have shoes now!

Possibly a slightly jaded take ;-/.

Last edit: There was a very funny article in the NYT about ChatGPT induced delusions with the standard issue Stanford Reefer Madness type weighing in. That piece was everything I satirized in this post. Stanford is the gift that keeps on giving. It’s such a ridiculous institution. Like Trump, they are beyond parody. Well at least they took down their “Women’s Bodies and Alcohol” piece. That institution is everything I have ever mocked in concentrated form ;-/.

I was listening to horns honking on the street outside and thinking in annoyance that with these ..yeah wth is it with Hennessy?
Did he just get embittered grading a bunch of CS rubbish.
Drat that field - it in combination with Economics seem to result in a stalely surprise minimizing loop of stale endless growth with no products or services as your land and air space are basically invaded, where a robust social contract was needed some 20 years ago.
Totally sleazy..the number of things one accepts as - Oh this super creepy implementation is the only one. Because that’s just human nature. Bullshit..
What a pile of defeatist self-loathing twaddle and worse sometimes dressed up in faux progressive garb..a wolf in sheep’s clothing ladies! A wolf..even minimally brain damaged gentleman! No..I kid.
I come in peace. Damn you..

But this isn’t your usual bs. Go away. Hennessy is a bad man. That is terrible.

I thought over and over over the years (that is also Hennessy’s fault - he is right at the hard edge of where our rubbishy, quiverful, race-to-the-bottom, improvident and bandit/prostitution friendly, regressive society’s delusions begin).

Look at my case. I should actually lay it out neatly as a record, with major dates noted.

Dec 2011-Early March 2026
That was a long time to be out of commission.
It is a grand cryptography/cartography puzzle! I am trying to evolve away super-fast from your mediocre, hideously annoying pirate collective.
Stop having so damn many kids damn you..

I can’t keep up! I have to make my own cult!

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Sometimes I give up and go with the chaos and sit around pondering Prof Hennessy. Why he is grimly determined to drive me personally and people specifically like me broadly to extinction… Prof Hennessy shockingly has mixed feelings about the Idiocracy seeing as all his scammier friends who did not design processors but instead shadily went around claiming to connect people now need to outrun the pipers..👹

I am not unemployed. I was on at all hours during the day because I am a complainant, an unscripted and unpleasant role, especially when you don’t plan to get any mileage out of it except for your original staid purpose ..

I am lucky to have found Yasha Levine and Christopher Ketcham. They made it actually serious the way it needs to be, non-performatively. That is what is cool about Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham or Ed Zitron..they are actual proper adults..they just happen to work in fields where things are more confusing than in science. I don’t think it is very pleasant to work outside science in societies this broken..at least there is a minimum beyond which you cannot dilute out the reality to fit your daft daftness.
You are a horrible adminstrator. And now look where we are. You are lucky EarlG is sane and decent. You or anyway people way more like you in every way than like me are building a reality where a subset of these idiots now apparently cannot distinguish between reality and theatre.

That is your fault. You wanted Marvel and billion dollar franchises that erode thinking from one side, while your repellant and parasitic edtech shills and other predatory suburban mediocre parent types shilled a fraudulent vision of success, adulthood and reality. You have built a society of kakistocrats who are successful, because this one metric “economic growth” completely disregarded the quality, user or sustainability of said growth (why do we need more communication when we are too connected and you sabotage organic communication to force a use case)?

But well..I will have to work with you. You are the worst! You impose barriers to organic friendship so you are included! You are a hostage taker without any friends.
I have lots of friends in the abstract.

Do you know why? In spite of your torture porn as education/open science/healthcare and art, I am not entirely a misanthrope thanks to people like Yasha Levine, my oncologist, my main mentor or my best friend or my ex.

You are something else. My brain had to undergo a transformation to go straight back fo its old priorities and its original processing, but more explicitly.

I knew who I was when your horribly Google took me hostage. I just didn’t have a mathematical understanding of what that means.
You cannot scale up stuff like that as POC (god..that is a darkly symbolic acronym).


This is your view of Indian women that I was enacting and there are women, Indians, Indian women like that. It just isn’t who I am.
I would try to avoid your schemes usually Prof Hennessy.

It is not you per se. I even kinda like you. In your field, one could find worse. While it is unambiguously Stockholm Syndrome, an effect I find modern technology tends to have, one could do worse than you.

I have thought about you a lot Professor Hennessy. You are so fascinatingly what is wrong with reality. Fascinating because you are the muscle on that side and a clearly intelligent and non-malicious man, unlike your fellow travellers.
Is it just the propaganda outlet that is The Economist? Is it the additional confusion of the type of brainlessly visible and voluble online element that usually grabs the mantle of the left? Surely a man with enough acquaintance with physics, biology, biophysics etc cannot become so lopsided that he is impervious to all comprehension of a reality that is not The Atlantic, The Economist, the especially loathesome Jacobin (probably the most sinister future direction wrt continued doubling down on human overpopulation, the extractive use of earth as China, the ME and creeps the world over would love and consider “transactional and harmonious”..

In this polluted landscape with the entirely unsolicited advantage you gave me, I should try to use it well.
And highlight the specific errors I tend to notice, where other people on the left already cover other areas copiously.


I feel relatively oddly optimistic having seen your world and how very alien it is to the actual Green. Paul Ehrlich any day not Julian Simon. You are a liar Prof Hennessy. You lie to yourself. Cornucopianism is not sustainable. And ridiculous austerity is the opposite of a fix. And formulaic and mechanical thought, mangling the use of statistics or “storytelling”.

The thing is, this is a very lopsided society. But while there are areas (THE ENVIRONMENT and even a basic non-sociopathic understanding of ANIMAL RIGHTS) ignored way more than any that would affecting this one prolifically breeding and consuming and talking species -humans - the point is less that it is a specific concept so much as the certainty that whatever it is, it will be mangled and botched so spectacularly in implementation as to ensure that these kakistocrats, other useful idiots etc who already had their chance and got us into this impasse will continue their reign..these people are idiots.
For 14.5 years I thought of the stuff I presume these guys think about or how they think and it was torture.

They are so self and other conscious. The lens of history, the lens lf the creep next door.
Good god..who cares? It is how uniformly inane the lens is in its fundamentals that makes it so alien.

They star in dramas and movies, they are blind to the heist underway and the essential impracticality and unsustainability of this world underway since they don’t seem to know when or how or why you say “No” and how important that is.
You cannot have a concept of piracy or heist when you don’t get that the elite’s spitefully bullshit notion of meritocracy or reality doesn’t mean that improvidence, which characterises the worst people who are our parasitic pseudo who project their own worst fears about their parasitic, hedonistic selves on to society at large.

(This along with part 17 were originally posted in a response to appalachiablue in the “Mental Health Support” forum on August 14, 2025 (the post labeled Part 17) and this one was originally posted on August 19, 2025. I will streamline all my journal debris into this one thread aside from routine responses in the forums and the one post on Street Harassment in the Sexual Assault Support forum. At some point after I finish my paper or sooner, I will post a briefer draft in Activist HQ that is more professional. Trying to put this in order. Prof Hennessy’s poetically negligent style forces adaptation, which he will no doubt hijack and misrepresent as support for The Economist and Meninists somehow. He has to be stopped..he is a terrible man).

I was thinking this morning about the stark contrast between the good shrinks I met and the types of shrinks I caricatured in the post above. Actually far from being anti-psychiatry, it’s a tribute to the good shrinks.
Though psychiatry is the only area of medicine where I ever had any complaints with doctors. Usually I find doctors some of the sanest people around. But in psychiatry, it was 50-50, 57% (good)-43% (ugh) as far as shrinks I spoke to much went.

I had a job in 2011 at a school which I..consider a tumor on humanity/earth’s
anus ;-/.

On the whole and possibly not entirely surprisingly the school seemed to disagree with this assessment. My mentor was a nice man and a good scientist, but he watches TED
tech talks and presumably non-ironically so there may have been a communication issue
or two or a thousand.

No ..that’s unfair..he was cool and I honestly wouldn’t mock him (TED tech talks
aside..though if you watch Ted tech talks at least don’t tell people..). I never mock anyone
whose work is of good quality (even if they not just watch TED tech talks, but openly admit
to it).

That was the main difference between him and my main mentor. They were both good scientists, but my main mentor wouldn’t watch TED tech talks. Or maybe he secretly watches TED tech talks all the time - at which point I would give up and become a hermit. Sometimes you wonder if you know anyone. I was horrified when my best friend told me reads The Atlantic. You think you know someone and then they admit to stuff like that..

I wouldn’t like to call watching TED tech talks a character flaw precisely, but it is a sign of
buying into Si valley bs which Si Valley is tok stupid to be aware is bs ..I don’t think they are evil. It’s worse. I think they are actually that stupid. well it was 2011..so anyone who is not a tech creep can be forgiven I guess for buying into that crap then.

To meander back to the original point, I sent him some ill-advised emails (always had a
short temper - am trying to get it under control) and he had me see their hideous shrinks
who asked me questions off of this checklist which was so hoary, moronic and generally
insulting to pretty much every form of human intelligence that I concluded that they must
in fact not be that right in the head.
I found this insistence on “the stigma” confusing. This was an example of how interaction with people who are wayyyyyyy more conservative than you is puzzling. I had never thought about mental illness it is true. But it seemed absurd to me that a scientist would think there was a stigma associated with illness. I stigmatize things
like watching TED tech talks. Cultural differences.

I am from podunk in the Global South. In a way when you break conventions in your neck
of the woods casually, you don’t consider how conservative people from supposedly more
developed countries could turn out to be..it turns out to be a different style of conservative idiocy.
My family was always eccentric I suppose, but entirely functional. We don’t watch TED tech talk adjacent drivel (at least not without mocking the attendees, the participants
and anyone who takes them seriously). But that’s Si Valley. I always thought it was a
ridiculous place.

There is something insidious about basically forcing a notion of stigma that way. If such
an idea had never occurred to someone, now you are forcing it. It’s also a way to insist
that a person is lying. Rather than passive aggressively saying “there is no stigma-admit
you are ill”, a more sincere way would be to say “I don’t see how anyone could see any stigma in something like illness in 2025”. That bashes anyone regressive enough to think that way
without insisting that someone who had a bad day or 20 in a notoriously unstable and
difficult job like the postdoc is ill. At any rate I was startled by how regressive it all was.

I swear those people have such narrow imaginations. They all sound alike for one thing.
Maybe that’s the public face and the private one is too ghastly to put out there.

The other thing was constantly asking one “do you want to hurt yourself”. After a while I
wanted to ask “are these suggestions by any chance? As I understand it, apparently there
is a huge stigma associated with something I am and clearly it must make me want to off
myself.”

Well anyway. I was furious that now people that stupid had power over my life. And then
they tried to put me on bloody Abilify and Seroquel. I protested and got out. But that did
leave a mark.

I can joke about it now. But at the time it made me feel like shit. I am pretty sure that was
not what my mentor had in mind. He had just had a baby and besides I think half the
brains of the team was out of action. His wife was really nice. She had no Si Valley
girlbossiness.

The thing is I always hated Si Valley. I didn’t mention it when I applied for a job because I
didn’t think that would be as pervasive a force as it turned out to be.

I would hate to be the token dimwitted fake protester/secret fan of Si Valley. I loved
Lina Khan. Though I feel a sense of hopelessness when I see that a creepy little company called complexity or something is about to buy a tacky but common browser from that super creepy giant that makes important contributions to society like calendars or something. Big creep/little creep..sometimes you wonder..

Anyway I thought of the shrink they had me see outside this morning. He was cool as was the therapist. Had they sent me to the type of dead-eyed tech enthusiast shill common in those parts I really would have felt crazy. But they were both cool men. In fact the therapist was kind enough to ask after my health even after I left..he was a nice man. As was the one shrink I went to of my own accord earlier who had prescribed a common add med (which I at least found useful at a low dose).

But I was less mature then even than I am now so that’s pretty immature and I did overdo it. It
wasn’t addiction. It was just being an ass…a problem I have at times.

I am not proud of these things. But well..

Not everything is a pathology. At least that was useful in a field i was struggling in.
Do I have ADHD? I don’t know. I do know that life in this society is really hard and if a
med helps you and isn’t too bad for you, fine by me. The chronic stress of all the crap I
described was way worse than maybe overdoing it a bit now and then.

Human life is messy and imperfect. I know China is a surveillance state. But that’s a
hollow excuse for Si valley and its analogs to barge in everywhere using “open science”, “health” and“safety/security” as issues.

Due to a combination of poor media literacy, poorer tech literacy and really poor critical thinking skills, as a society we seem to struggle to parse concepts except in very black and white ways or to find honest
thresholds. A lot of what I was mocking is the ott nature of that sort of thinking.

Of course there’s also too damn many of us and crafting “safe”, bland messaging that
ensures that no one of any random subset of the 3 billion people online who may stumble
on something you write is ever offended means not saying anything that sounds
indistinguishable from the volume of drivel out there. It’s why I delete so many of my
posts. They sound crazy or trite. Trite and derivative is worse imo. But crazy seems ill-advised.

Maybe i am wrong here..but I have a hunch that when a society cannot parse satire, it tends
to turn into one that kills satire by the very fact that reality starts to look like an ott
caricature.
I have never associated humorlessness with insight. And it’s depressing and alarming to see the skill with which the alt right has managed to exploit that.

I find my field hard. I switched fields a lot too. I started out in EE because I liked physics in
HS. But I didn’t like EE and wandered into a more interesting interdisciplinary science and
found it even harder since my basics in biology , chemistry were worse even than in
physics and math and I am not good at physics or math!

I think sardonically sometimes how easy I would be to caricature if you saw me plodding away on my computer. Or being a general pain to my friends and family and colleagues.
I became far worse that way with the rise of the cool and awesome surveillance state and
its creepy cool offshoots. I like them ;-/. Or at any rate I probably better right ? ha ha..

My last employer might win a popularity contest if UHC was the only other contestant I
suppose. I certainly don’t know what they mean by liberal academia. Seemed like hardcore
tech libertarians.

None of this is a slam on my mentor. I should have been a better scientist, but I wasn’t.

Anyway I thought I would dedicate my ugly web art to those 2 shrinks and therapist and one
shrink (an older lady) I met locally who was not a good fit, but she was a good shrink and
could see there was nothing wrong with me -attitude problems aside ;-/.
I didn’t always have attitude problems..
The cool thing was that none of them thought there was anything particularly wrong with me. That was quite accurate.

I am not anti psychiatry. In fact it is dejecting to see wellness influencers and other charlatans exploit problems with psychiatry. Why is everything a tumor these days? That’s the worst reaction to the problem. Something like Mad in America can occasionally make good points, but they are too extreme in my book.
And I distrust the libertarian style of anti-psychiatry since most libertarians aren’t really actually civil libertarians wrt other people’s rights. They want their creepy little companies to pollute and take over spaces sans consent public debate. I can’t see how that’s different from old fashioned robbery.

I also would have thought it would be obvious that psychiatry should be combined with
other areas (neuroscience, molecular psychiatry) to improve and that it is obviously a science with far to go.

But without this tech creep/military contracting
contingent blatantly ripping people off..weaponized pseudosciences

I am less anti big pharma than many other industries, but this peddling of chatbots, VR etc
I really dislike. It’s so obviously that 12-step, religion banging “everything is an addiction”
crew of douchebags exploiting all sorts of prejudices and bs to sell the “new thing”.

A medication free fix?! No! Go away! Meds are fine! You are creeps! Fuck off! Do my biases
show ;-/ ? I hate that moralizing sobriety bs.

Now I have to spend all this time on this overpopulated, polluted planet struggling with work and life and do it with this annoying sobriety shill type forcing unwanted therapies that I would obviously reject as awful?

There is too much bs..Conservatism packaged as care is still just conservatism.

Oh well..


Edit: I feel I am getting my temper under control since I don’t blow my top over Moriba Jah/Brian Verelli etc. who go around saying this or that awful thing is inevitable thereby ensuring it’s a self-fulfilling prophecy. That’s the classic gambit of that type of person who for reasons I cannot fathom is described as a space environmentalist or conservation biologist. No …Kirsten Staade of Population Balance or Madhav Gadgil are conservation biologists. These guys are probably shills for some industrial lobby or other. A TED fellow..yeah that tracks..
These are not the kinds of guys I have in mind when I think of oversight. For instance, I do self-supervised harm reduction. I am not selling that as a scientific treatise disproving Reefer Madness. It’s just something I have to do and I admit to it so you know..Boom! oopsie! etc are less likely. Machine error!

There’s conspiratorial thinking and there is the cynical noting of the stealthy promotion of some biases (generally favoring creeps (men’s rights are human rights! ) and uncritical embrace of data mining/war profiteering/polluting/ intrusive Industries) and painting people who are skeptical of deregulation/conflicts of interest/male creeps (male creep? Is that like Bigfoot? False allegations! Paranoid much?) as conspiracy oriented. This is why no one should ever watch TED tech talks. They make people stupider. I don’t get it-should no one but girlbosses and passive doormats exist anymore? My last employer may not even win a popularity contest if UHC was the sole other contestant.

Of course I was remembering today how my one experience with real world activism showed how lame this “change the world with a social network or computer/phone is”. Thats more like any regular effortful work. Collecting signatures irl and boots on the ground. I think Yasha Levine and Kenny Torelli have pointed out in their columns how info on Gaza/factory farming respectively do not do much. Not that awareness has no place in stuff. But it’s one relatively small part. The rest is stuff in the real world without some fucking awful creepiverse or “mixed reality! Physical AI streams!” piling on.

The way to destroy nuisances is irl.

The trick is tuning out nuisances and not getting riled up. You really can’t trust that conglomerate of special interests and people who are gullible about them while attacking peope like me as crazy and paranoid. But you can’t prove it with web posts. The thing is to get on with work and then destroy their fugly toys irl.
There are 8 billion people on this planet. These creeps who encroach can go and do all their “inevitable!” “Definitely happening!” crap elsewhere.
I think they are too stupid for even mockery.

In fact I get it finally. You can’t establish credibility with people who always act in bad faith and will never change. One should instead ignore all of that and try to find new, neutral parties so as the awesome Lina Khan and the MeToo movement, the Humane League etc had real world impacts, you can fight your way though anonymously and stick it to them (I mean peacefully and legally etc).

My greasy former employer was this liability obsessed creep of a school that assumes everyone is like them and that any woman who hates them would go the Ellen Pao route and sue for compensation for their negligence.

That’s categorically wrong. Ellen Pao actually wanted to work for Kleiner Perkins.
I never wanted to work at that shithole after I saw they were nothing like my previous employers.
My previous employer which was this dull and inoffensive hospital. The nicest thing about them was they were barely noticeable as was I when I worked there. This place on the other hand I took an immediate and strong dislike to since it clearly was everything wrong with the world in the form of one creepy school. I tried to quit in the first month. Instead I ended up staying, getting saddled with a completely bogus history of mental illness.

What always made me so angry about those ugly fucks is that in their creepy kayfabe-there “ecosystem” of repellent human beings that no halfway sane person could want to know, either :1) like all the honest scientists I met there you go around obviously hating work and life and I guess accept misery as “inevitable” or 2) go to the worst shrinks on the planet and say you have a horrible complication of mental ills since you know it’s stigmatizing mental illness to not claim to be a depressed, borderline, addicted schizophrenic with chatbot psychosis and histrionic personality disorder and for good measure DID. It’s so lame. Just because you can data mine and manipulate people dissecting normal goofy behaviours in paranoid ways. Someone should do a rigorous version of the Sokal Hoax or Rosenhan Expt. Following which presumably you get institutionalized for life/effectively pushed out of society or 3a) lead some sort of horrifying existence shilling for various dubious VR therapies or health chatbots and sobriety and the bleakest damn notion of community and turn into some sort of nightmarish inside the system influencer shill or 3b) “fight the system!” ie be very much a part of the same tumor except as an outside the system influencer wellness hack..ie pick between a dialed down Elizabeth Holmes or a Laura Delano.
That school is so daft.
Some sort of entirely atrocious online existence or traipsing through various manipulated realities accepting as “inevitable” all sorts of pollution and pseudoscience that’s forced even on people like me who never even had any social media except DU and I never posted this disinhibitedly on DU, but I just hate my former employer (the school not my TED tech talk addicted mentor). I am not saying a hope that a form of guerilla warfare would percolate and puncture their fatuous, smug self-regard..
I hope I can always stay anon.

I never got this stuff about associating your actual irl life with an online persona. Two different worlds that can never meet. Unless you work in unpleasant fields like media or politics where you simply cannot avoid being a public figure, why would anyone fall for a con like Social media.

Online anonymity allows screwed over employees to skewer an awful system filled with these noxious and corrupt ideas that cool people with jobs cannot attack even if they want to. To at least pushback against this drivel about all the shit these guys do being inevitable.
Or you find out more exactly and there is an NDA or something so you can’t argue with along with a systemic policy of deregulation, destruction of environmental, labor laws and privacy rights.
The downside is that paranoid conspiracy mongering is really not my thing. But the labeling of all pushback as paranoid..
I mean it wasn’t as if my first two employers were hippie communes and besides I don’t like hippie communes.
It’s that these guys are the types who focus on frivolous drivel and call any serious wish for regulatory oversight a Stalinist conspiracy or if it’s the corrupt communists here, an anti-worker thing, These are all dishonest people.



They assume that getting away with stuff is how people think or ascribe it to some group or other rather than ever think like any halfway rational person. No. Most people whom abyone would know -so not my former employer-want a fair deal in exchange for sane..

I do think if you are regressive these guys are a good fit. But I think irl is the only way to break their ugly crap and quietly.

Ffs I just wanted a routine job and to not have drivel creep into my house and street. There are so many people of their exact ilk. What a bone headed error to go and drag in people who obviously don’t consider that MIT Media Lab or Stanford/MIT type a part of the scientific community..They do science.
But by scientific community I mean humans who have certain codes of conduct that are unsaid. And this doesn’t cut it and no.wtf..
I don’t consider that the medical and scientific community. They are business people and politicians and defense contractors and that’s not in my book the scientific community..I guess that’s the point.

(I posted these Aug 28, 2025 in the Cannabis Forum and deleted them there and pooled them in here. It was originally posted in Ptah’s thread “AMA: Marijuana does not impact Brain Function).


I finally got my dosing regimen right this week and am optimistic..well..about as optimistic as I ever am ;-/. In combination with this awake medication: Diphenylmethyl-sulfinylacetamide, it really probably helps me.

No Shit
I am going to go work now and see if I finally got it right..
Wish me luck…

I started this post on Tuesday but it takes so long

This post is a work in progress.


I finally got my dosing regimen right this week

This is a long post touching on several topics and I will fill in any gaps over time in my DU web journal, which I am treating from this point on as an anonymized public record of sorts on the net, only by a disinterested scientist with no conflicts of interest (beyond not wanting to be exploited, sexually harassed, have her rights violated or end up as another casualty of the narcotics war). ;-/
Sounds a bit dramatic, but really I am just looking out for myself. I don’t believe in the power of the internet to democratize etc. I resent industries that destroy democratic, non-performative govt regulation and force such things on people who are: 1) not insane; 2) not lightweight frauds or malicious; 3) not influencers and 4) not future politicians or shills. Just the average actually pissed off common woman-well I am an inept and mediocre scientist.
Ffs i loathe the kind of forced “authenticity” that means having to declare one’s deepest, darkest (well except to anyone who worked with one or has met one) secrets over and over again to confirm the truth of the rest of it. It’s not imposter syndrome. If I could have gotten away with seeming intelligent in any way other than passing the basic self-awareness baseline, I would have picked that.

It has become a pastiche but I have paid my dues and I’ll keep a record since Trump 2 is a bit like Covid and this is my personalized innoculation I cobbled together as a human navigating garbage tech for years.

I am feeling optimistic. Well..optimistic by my standards anyway.

I am on a regimen of marijuana and this awake medication Diphenylmethyl-sulfinylacetamide. I am not an American and I live in the Global South and posting on DU aside have had few of any ties to the US since about 2014 and certainly none that are political/professional. A few purely personal ties that’s it.

I have been downloading my country’s narcotics bureau handbook since 2020 to keep a tab on things and strangely Diphenylmethyl-sulfinylacetamide is not a controlled substance - a loophole I am grateful for and keep checking. It’s not my fault if they don’t update the handbook on the govt website. And a govt website getting hacked is not my problem.
I have done my due diligence by downloading their book at periodic intervals and keeping an eye on it. I take it and everything else at face value, I avoid Prisoner’s Dilemma by rejecting such a gratuitously creepy take on game theory that you assume you are a prisoner along with people you know or engage with.
But somehow I feel that’s how these tech creeps who run things these days think.

I follow the law and stand alone work out how to not break laws and societal rules in our increasingly deregulated, undemocratic, corrupt societies that shit on women’s rights and make a mockery of everything and use industries I consider tumors to launch more tumor like studies and teaching moments while destroying real things.

In the amount in which I use it marijuana is not illegal either. There are tentative attempts to legalize it medically via alternate medicine routes and hopefully allopathy eventually. None of it is shady or illegal though it is not outright like a prescription from an allopathic shrink.

Normally I hate that Apple Cider Vinegar shit. But I am not an influencer. I just make a Gone Girl style web diary recording: Type 1 errors, sexual harassment, other forms of harassment, potential exploitation, other errors etc for the long haul.

I live in this little podunk town where there locals are mostly cool but the creeps do exist and tech always makes me leery when there is no human I can assess who is not a random professional.

I just hope any attempts to sort of not bother with marijuana crackdowns doesn’t end up having a lot of shady VR peddlers etc piling on. if marijuana legalization is experimented with. These days the commodification of human life has gotten to indecent levels and with more overt authoritarianism and the trampling of women’s rights and civil rights in general, one has to put in worthwhile honest effort just to keep afloat
Well the pen is mightier than the sword and as someone whose instincts are strictly non-profit science oriented, I treat it as an exercise for a democratic minded human scientist navigating a world that is mediated by hyper-libertarian technocrats and exploits people.

Were it a thing, I don’t want to help along a shady cottage industry of useless crap and ads and junk “street art”, Goop, data orchestration pipelines herding the sheep or any of the 9000 fucking awful business ideas out there looking to exploit and commodify the last bits of human life (to quote this journalist I rather like called Yasha Levine who seems to think he is an influencer rather than the rare type of person people trust in an uncertain world..well good to see that even respectable people like Yasha and his wife have existential issues and self doubt. It’s obvious that they wouldn’t be hired by “respectable” phonies. That doesn’t make them influencers..more like the unabombers of podcasting ..joke..). I look to people like that, this doctor Clayton Dalton, this science communicator Josh Silberg on Tyee etc racking my brains over how to lead a decent if difficult life.

This is all pretty serious stuff. And for me it is 14 years of it. Early on I floundered with existential issues - I suppose I still do.


Anyway, the medication regimen I have is fine without unwanted and creepy therapies and tests tacked on. So exploitative. Some sort of brain mapping or something with ai and data mining wouldn’t surprise me and it would be so unethical, sleazy and unsafe. I actually tried other things more conventionally and it was such a failure that now I manage my mental health alone though I never muck with anything outside mainstream medicine wrt physical health. I am pretty conventional wrt science and medicine in general.
But I just flat out disagree with confusion plus psychiatry that doesn’t work.
I have to say ad nauseum that I am not anti-psychiatry or a shill of an influencer like Laura Delano.

I have always practiced simple harm reduction solo and that’s all I ever was or am open to. Sans marijuana related needless exploitation. I have no use for kayfabe. I just calculate risks and probabilities as a human who assesses human nature and sociopolitics to see how I can lead a quiet anonymous life without sexual harassment, exploitation, exposure, authoritarianism, deregulated tech etc.

Given the number of creepy and harassing men exploiting my street or other unwanted garbage tech and intrusive crap, I like the brain saving effect MJ has. Of course Type 1 errors and apophenia plague people like me who got an unwelcome primer on how modern technology is evolving sans any regulation.
The last two months I was really angered by the amount of heavy traffic on my street. It was due to the closure of a road elsewhere which was being repaired, but since some assholes have driven their bikes down this street with their silencers off, it bothers me enough to speculate that sort of corrupted data science/traffic study could deliberately encroach with the knowledge that I couldn’t complain without sounding like a “targeted individual” who “won’t get help”.

I don’t even drive anymore. I was thinking of that reading the thread in GD about the guy who killed three people. But more on that later.


I have had two traffic accidents. You see I am putting up anything I have “to hide” so there should be no confusion if retaliation followed for open refusal to not be creeped out by the emerging tech landscape and to call it a mental health issue.

I had a near miss once early on -a defense contractor (he had a Lockheed Martin contract) sexually harassed me in the July of 2014. I had been driving from March to July with no incident. And just after this incident I was driving and in a really bad headspace -completely sober of course but angry and upset and I had a scrape..that too with a bus filled with schoolchildren. But our car was very small and it was a relatively minor incident and I apologized to the driver. He was cool about it and it blew over.

Harassment and sexual harassment take a toll on women, but hey we should just suck it up I guess.

I am finally making a sort of “Gone Girl” style web journal except not maliciously or dishonestly. But I am pretty fed up of deregulation, the ever present spectre of sexual harassment given poor data hygiene/the male skewing and generally sleazy/deregulated nature of the data sciences as of 2025 and that reality coexisting with draconian marijuana laws in our devolving post-enlightenment surveillance state with adbots/influencers etc.

During the pandemic the general public became more aware of the incursions and inroads surveillance capitalists and surveillance state are making.
Now 5 years later we are in a strange landscape that Trump or not will result in a tricky legal environment for a long time.

I am working out how to survive it as an anonymous, non influencer without much dishonesty or hate or crimes or fraud or sexual harassment but while navigating narcotics laws (my sole area of rule breaking and not even fentanyl or sleep medications like alprazolam. I hate sleep medications. I could easily tell when I had them with a prescription a few times that they are nasty, addictive and bad for you).

These two articles get to the heart of how confusing it gets:

https://aeon.co/essays/the-sovereign-individual-and-the-paradox-of-the-digital-age

https://www.ft.com/content/339418e7-405a-4028-a998-4faa622d6b23?shareType=nongift

The last part of that article is worth a read:

I don’t use marijuana or anything else recreationally. I can’t remember the last time I did something recreationally, but it was probably prior to 2011.

Anyway the most important thing is to not hurt other people and as far as that goes, I no longer drive.

I got a license late in life and our car was a stick shift back then -I liked that. (around March 2014) and drove for a few years. I was never a particularly good driver but I scraped by. I usually had a driver sitting next to me. Then one time in 2017 (I was almost sober those days) i was waiting for someone outside a hospital and the traffic police were hassling me and I started driving aimlessly. I lost my way and drove for 3-5 hours before I found my way back home. I didn’t have a smart phone back then and had forgotten my flip phone/wallet at home. I am not the most organized person and my spatial skills/direction finding are under-developed to put it kindly .

I had no accidents or issues but it was worrying. But somehow I got home ..this was Feb 2017. And after that I slowly stopped driving.

Except for beers on the weekend I was largely sober from 2014-early 2018. I only drove once again after that. It was in the May of 2021. I had been nursing my mom from August 2020-March Feb 2021. She had recovered sufficiently that I was thinking about other stuff.

And one morning in May she asked me to take our car out of the garage since it’s a small thing. I was reluctant at first because I hadn’t driven since 2018. But I went ahead and did it in bad grace. I managed to get it out of the garage as that was a minor chore.
I should have stopped then, but for some reason I thought I would try to see if I could drive forward and reverse a few times to see if I could still remember how. Instead I got confused and drove through our gate into the neighbor’s wall.
I was very fortunate that neither I nor anyone else was injured. I was completely sober. But after a break of 3 years, without an


Normally I am fairly careful and harm reduce.

When you break rules you have to be extra careful.





I even remember the day- I was chatting with Rhiannon about that Christian Bale as Dick Cheney movie. I had finished reading Shoshana Zuboff’s “The Age of Surveillance Capitalism” but was still skimming parts of it.



( notes to compose the rest:
DU Nope/Colossal.

Creepy 2010 doctor; nose picking creep in 2016-2017; feminism is incompatible with that marriage green card; cap wearing creeps after moms death, bike creeps; rude delivery man;
Rude nurse;
Prozac, K’s no parking sign Fall 2020 or early 2021..weird call about mri)

Yasha..Ed Zitron..not influencers
that creepy Elise andrews..worried about getting confused for creepy “science influencer”
Not doing it for money or attention but wtf ..
I remember a time life was nothing like this.


These are people who have personally helped me a lot. Yasha Levine in particular he has the ode t

Calls out bullshit /
Zuboff ..cottage industry of -Cambridge
Who the fuck ever seriously bought that creepy Google democrats and tech good guys shit?
Zuboff is insightful but I don’t buy her. Yasha is different.
Carlin-misanthropic humanist

Tech good guy crap
Fatuous
Omg Wikipedia /retractilnwbkch
Such bs..ugly fucks

What’s pretty brilliant about Yasha

Instead of pegging the balance at some rihtj shifted jell,

Metrics guy can eat shit. Shove your Metrics up your arse you bald pos.

But Yasha would get it that..now you are going into influencer territory but as the edgy foul mouthed shtick
Which does disservice to the years I spent spitefully hoping the metrics guy chokes on his own smugness while preaching from


Having

Since I have



MeToo


The community service that a conservative and male crew of douchebags and assholes marketing bulls


Singh from Ottawa



Musk doxxing

As up le sayed-Bernie mtg

But he shouldn’t
I’d the elites can play divide and rule so should the plebes and
The system ..current affairs



He has helped me with the very real dilemma of navigating so many things gingerly
This much I can tell you. They are never going to outright legalize marijuana when you can exploit users and well

It’ is so missing the point of what real life every means if these are your options-quake in fear of an authoritarian state; become some sort of awful player..I do it to the extent


Cage match ..musk Zuck mar Cuban Reid Hoffman


Welcome party

Not naivd (mske)..du -older people like my parents, security researchers/

Stool pigeon
If I lose my anonymity


As it is I distrust the tech creeps, the media creeps, industrialists and politicians ..I don’t want to
mri and parking sign
At least let me trust.
Conflating trust of doctors with that healthcare industry
Rude nurse mocking one about privat u
Gossip

Not a fascist. Lenient grader
Making up rules ..sexual harassment extort
Industries

Again Yashas vampire castle
( okay he is not working in Gaza)


These people can be trusted to be sane


No fixed views on tech

Left purity - bankrupting yourself won’t help any of us
Nathan Robinson who is

Bernie has broad coalition
Abdul el sayed gently corrected Nathan Robinson about Bernie’s broad base being more important than purity over terms.

Some of my most helpful doctors have been Muslim. Less worrying here than elsewhere


If I am in these things ..

Don’t want my ayurvedic doctors getting any trouble because as a leftover British era piece of bigotry held up by corrupt reefer madness peddling shrinks
This is the worst of the east and the west.
Okay with corrupt tech, deeply corrupt methodologies as long as a crowd is along and complete stupidity about real values

I lost my moral compass after my last job in a way and have only found it again and thanks to Yasha Levine primarily.
Vaccines aren’t enough..ban the damn wet markets.
Ransomware patches and screens miss the point. Shut down data mining/security theatre etc.

My dad is a respected military vet in my country and has never done anything indecent: sexual harassment, corruption.
He is a decent enough man that I am comfortable risking this.
He would be the last person to back anything spooky or industrial. Aside from everything else he is not just not corrupt and creepy he is not stupid.

I am confident in all the people I care about..my main lab and colleagues, my last mentors wife. He was okay but he was unfair to me and so I feel a bit cold towards him but he was a decent man and a good scientist. That I can vouch for.

I don’t know any of the people I will unambiguously be filing complaints about locally

(Originally posted on March 9, 2026 in the Music Appreciation Forum in a thread dedicated to Prof Hennessy)

Actually Prof Hennessy, I have realized that like that atrocious song “Everything I do, I do it for you”, one way or another everything I do, think etc in the last 14-16 years is one way or another a tribute to you.

In a twisted way, I am actually grateful to you. For at least being someone one can in theory address. I have never looked at a single other human from Google at any level ever (at least Google US and I am too wary by now to have human compunction for anyone local..at least your creeps are over there…these guys are here) and had a judgement more favorable, best case, than dead-eyed, sleazy cultist.
And I imagine a slew of sleazy nouveau grift biographies and rubbish is on the way as these guys are replaced by ai and there will be heroic stories and movies and songs.

Because in the last 20 years that has become the predominant mode of human existence and I disagree with my friends on the real left (Sam Miller MacDonald, Yasha Levine, Matt Stoller, Alec Karakatsanis, Briahna Joy Gray, the Ehrliches circa the seventies, Peter Kalmus, Valerie Solanas) etc that the ravaging disease afflicting everything can be reduced to any one thing: Progress, Capitalism, Anti-trust, Policing, Racism, Overpopulation, Fossil Fuels, Feminism (if there is a version of feminism online that isn’t “I want to discuss my periods!”, I have not seen it. Why? What could possibly be gained? Who made these things most of what was discussed in the last 20 years..it is usually some piece of shit male celebrity who wants to discuss periods..can you just pervert? I even have to discuss things with disgust so that this pervert fest out there doesn’t see any engagement outside the outright truculent as..I felt like 500 kinds of shit, but at no point did I think discussing my periods or bowel movements with Ol’Hennessy will fix things).

They are all individual areas where this disastrous and now interconnected machine from hell is dragging us with each new crisis.
Why are we so interconnected? So we all go down or to hell with your pet creeps and frauds.

They went too far in wanting full capture.
I thought this was something DUer marble_falls came up with “Piggies get fed and hogs get slaughtered”, but apparently it is a saying.

And I will anger some of DU and risk being viewed as “russian influenced” etc which is untrue. I am Ol’jfz9580m influenced alone.

But I have been miserably scanning what information I can even focus…btw it is yet another day spent serenading Prof Hennessy.
I may be your only fan Prof Hennessy, but I make up for that with the intensity of my fandom.

I kind of am a fan. I am never anything but inadvertently complimentary…so I am not ingratiating you so much as reassuring you (we are almost not anything like friends) because..Except for your Google creeps, I tend to have compunction and that is not going well as more and more of these confused people with no cohesive worldview..

Sovietski Yah! Nastikoff Bah! Only Ol’jfz9580m has a cohesive, appropriately proportioned set of interlinked priorities.

In fairness, I did give it a shot and try to roleplay victim to this totally sleazy gambit your fellow travellers throw at one which is thrown something ridiculously hyperbolic at a person, riddled with so many simultaneous logical inconsistencies (which then mutates and grows), that the average honest human with some sort of internally consistent logical framework is baffled as to which part of this loathesome and unfair garbage to respond to,

Now having had one horrifying peek bts or fts -who can even tell…you know I was never a very good scientist, but I used to be a semi normal person where pot use was the only outlier wrt behavior. And come on professor- most people you seem to know are perverts, prostitutes, pirates (what sort of diseased mindset sees piracy as a cool and something to emulate?) and parasites..what is all this pearl clutching over a moderately large amount of pot?

Pot never made me anywhere as dysfunctional as Google did.

The thing about you Prof Hennessy (you are fwiw as far as I am concerned the standard bearer for your army of awful CS creeps.. one can at least talk to you..I usually think unprintable things about your fellow Google creeps..such an insipid and fatuous crowd that lies to itself nonstop and comes up with novel ways to assail and torment people while blaming bots, algorithms or the targets..as if those things all just sprouted up on their own) is you see a crisis and where ordinary sane rationalist may look at a pandemic and think..maybe factory farms and wet markets are the problem and once this crisis is over, we should move away from this exploitative form of animal abuse.
This isn’t really political so much as at least a vague notion of how things work together in a healthy or at least healthier state if we must all be connected to some minimal extent.
The way things are going Lina Khan’s moves in the right direction (though anti trust alone is scant use if we are all scammed by Perplexity or some other unwanted creepware. Actually grudgingly.. Eeugh..I could stand paens to Hawley more than Apple..he is at least elected. Still Apple’s opt out was the sole thing I saw in the last 15 years which was an instance of a tech co getting user priorities..they are price gougers and annoying, but prior to deciding irreversibly that only a criminal lawsuit getting as many of the serious culprits higher up..not you Prof!..I will file it and you are in the clear..I am not an agent etc)

Because at this rate as your boys get more and more overtly inept and worried that the hogging may face resistance, they will seriously fucking nuke the planet. They are the types to kick over the table,
Seriously professor..with our way skimpier resources and embattled the very few I follow outside science are doing so much more.

I promise professor, I will finish this paper and file a criminal lawsuit in India and malpractice and misconduct allegations and get them to stick plus a legal precedent that is not an Apple phone with an optout and manufactured use case. For that alone I should start working so I can have faith in my ability to follow throw beyond serenading your Prof. Hennessy.
I made progress on this paper despite conditions that were hellish inside my head and not due to any native illness but this shit.

I can do more than talk Prof Hennessy. I don’t think these guys get it.
The person who actually got it it Adam Becker.
I really like Adam. He is so cool. Unlike those bloviating hucksters you promote Prof Hennessy, like that Marc Andreessen and the other execrable specimens in Adam’s book, Adam is like most real scientists. He is mild, humble, highly intelligent and to blame for not having done something about these parasites sooner and now they bought a bunch of cheap shit from China and Russia riddled with ransomware and looked at porn or worse and will torment and deplete all of us prioritizing futuristic reputation management into 2800 over any peace of mind for the rest of us.

My favorite piece last year was the interview between Chris Ketcham and Adam Becker. It was very symbolically relevant if symbolism can go beyond

He identified it: the limits to growth. Like most white people who have seen the Betsy Hartmanns, The Nation types, Naomi Kleins and Teen Vogue persistently chip away at common sense from the “left” and shill new agey bullshit…over a simple concept that it is not offensive at all (given how little respect you have for human or any life anyway) for public health officials to overtly point out that with falling infant mortality, we should have pointed out long back (especially this disgustinf crimjnal and parasitic crew who tried to turn me into a research subject over marijuana..these fucking prostitutes who are concerned about the “burden” of drug use etc) that it is not ideal for everyone to keep having more than 1-2 kids. When you can barge and basically make free with my life, you can suck up some feedback from the “addict”. I don’t breed, consume and bullshit at this rate at least.


The fixes in this society are all piecemeal and they often exacerbate or the lay the groundwork for new problems.


Consider this criminal lawsuit I will file and the misconduct, malpractice and harassment allegations I file a real world degrowth signal Prof Hennessy. Because your people Prof Hennessy truly behave like super-fit cancer cells..by your people I mean creeps, sleazebags, prostitutes, parasites..the type of scurrying men and silly women (well that one woman agreeing with the duckspeak guy) that your Si Valley produces ad nauseum.
And yes they pervert language, the left..

My throat hurts 🙄..I have so much more to say to you Prof Hennessy..this is all your fault..you are not stupid or a bad person..
This is the first time in my life I have ever talked voluntarily where it was not my best friend from grad school, my ex or one of your horrible proteges who never responds after generally behaving as can be expected of anyone misguided enough to be a protege of yours.

You know Prof Hennessy. This is generally terrible, shameful and entirely your fault.
But maybe you and I, obvious antagonists and adversaries, but at least not in the most disheartening ways possible, should negotiate.

I feel it is very magnanimous of me to merely ascribe doltishness to you. And you clearly thought calling me mentally challenged and hoping some sort of insipid discourse results allowing you to scam at scale throwing away the implicit social contracts that uphold society wrt sexual harassment laws (it would be creepy not medical for someone to collect personal data as this has gone. As a tribute to the local grooming creeps, I even went on redtube day before yesterday and yesterday..it is some sort of creepy porn site, but at least has no child porn..a gift to all these easily entrapped perverts and their pervertware). I have mixed feelings about such strategies. Deception is never a good thing.

But you cannot build or make like this. Pagal ho kyan? Yay pagal log various scammy ideas shill karthe hain or aap ne woh just accept karliya or normalize karne ki koshish hain? Woh namoomkin hain. Main kyun apne gjar main yeh creeps ka liye ek sweatshop run karoon? Yeh bullshit hain. Or viral bahut buri baat hain per net ke koyi kone pe yeh agar hain to koi baat nahin. Inkw dimag kharaab hain. My dad woh ek navy veteran hain. Yay sab total bullshit hain or creepy bhi. Aap mujhe viswas math kare par meri viewpoint hain ki ..main seriously bol rahi hoon. Yeh filled to the brim with people jo ek fusion of garbage from both sides implement karte hain or both these economies may yay movie/gaming etc so common hain ki the bullshit flies. This is bullshit”.

I have thought over the years about Syme. You don’t read so you wouldn’t understand the reference Prof Hennessy.
I am trying to contact a friend and ally, which you mangled as you mangle everything worthwhile.



But it is okay Prof Hennessy. I think I should wrap my head around the impossibility of avoiding your world.

But this was a useful exercise only after. We can be adversaries for life. I honestly cannot see anything else not essentially wiping out our personhoods. I can’t believe you think because you are a rich professor, you could just have my mentor’s or my friends’ or my former microscopy facility’s manager. You are a terrible man! You tried to groom me for a horrible and creepy surveillance state. Do yoi know how much damage this would have caused in the wrong hands.

As is this is way above my pay grade and I am lame enough to be the type of woman who always feels vaguely dirty if out in public and not dully saying various dull things about science. It is a total distraction. You owe Yasha Levine and Christopher Ketcham Prof Hennessy. You should help them since they are the reason my brain recovered not this horrible local “healthcare or security” push.

There is a silent disease infecting India as there was in the US and it is hard to communicate serious and urgent things as you find that language and thought have been corrupted or perverted where people do not agree with you.
Chris Ketcham is very cool. But he is like my best friend or Madhav Gadgil, Deb Olin Unferth, Paul Ehrlich, Marina Bolotnikova, Sam Miller MacDonald, Chris Packham, David Attenborough, Jane Goodall - all people with a deep, distinct affinity for earth and its non-human life. I know they exist. I also know scientists and doctors exist.
Yasha Levine was like my main lab, the most fun find. He is a proper leftist humanist.
My group can tend to misanthropy and I don’t blame us. You Prof Hennessy (its okay..you should be super flattered Prof Hennessy that anyone cool talks to you still!) have more or less built a world where whatever one’s views regarding the intentions of one’s fellow humans (my friends on the woke left; my fellow travellers in my default, assigned by birth and circumstance left-liberal-progressive cluster and my respectable/honest and non-grifty neighbors on the conservative centre/right) one is usually sure it will mostly be mangled in execution. None of you can be trusted!
Nor can I! But I know it.. and I got mired with some frauds Prof Hennessy promotes (in spirit anyway).

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I am not slow! I protest everything! Damn Hennessy. Prof Hennessy you are really awful and now I have to explain stuff I don’t want to.

I don’t agree with this type of loud:: “Hey all yoiu creeps! Here I am. Please burgle my purse some more. I am upstream from the women these creeps exploit unchecked or even places with sexists”.

As for my colleagues - I kinda want to be really clear on this since as of this date I am okay and caught up. But I only have tacit human understanding with the NIH I like or the left or at least broadly people I like.

And I do see an opportunity here, but ..
This kinda spilt out into shared spaces and I consider it cool when it is decent people who need to understand thar they are in no way less valuable than these foul halfwits most of us get stuck with..
This is a broken society and it has been so for a long time. It is not surprising that charlatans and prostitutes make up most of the very top.

And I was in the NIH crowd and yes I like doctors and scientists, but I have not ever felt that much in sync with anyone who has ever found any part of this global society sane.

It is not politics. It is all too dire and real and I cannot fathom thinking like any of these people. And I don’t have a solution or scheme. I was a basic sceince researcher. I am an observer basically and I try to move in the direction of lowest human population density and high population density correlates with the outcomes these guys who manage these societies brainlessly most successfully impose. I didn’t sign up for these decisions and I am filing complaints to push this back and end this. I get it and I will full use of all legit resources and sense I have.
This was a waste of life. I met one person I organically understood and I was in a job I was failing at but still the only one I chose and choose. The actual labor. For neither were these foul technologies anything but a nuisance.
Their only use is entrapment of the kinds of male creeps, sleazebags, shady people etc who sign on to these methods and dont find them creepy.

I generally broadly disagree with most of the thought that broadly underpin this species. But I come at not as a leftist/rightist etc, but as societies have become complex and crashed, it forces if not the loathed “aw shucks” bs, once something crashes both personally spectacularly while a larger ongoing collapse is underway, you do start to pay attention to more things you ignored the implications of, which are not about you but this broader collapase.
Apparently Jared Diamond thinks societal psychotherapy is a good idea. I disagree.
I think before these things get entrenched in their present deregulated form, they should be highlighted as filled with extremely creepy and sexually harassing methodologies where the narcotics war especially and bs around mental illness or open science was exploited.
I have never engaged in misconduct and furthermore it is worse misconduct to pretend not to get why some very temporarily lucrative things would end up being a trojan horse in the long run.
Humans…

Well..Prof Hennessy. This is online now or will be at some point if I am in some sort of cryptography experiment.

If it ever is, I really hope that no one connects it with my actual real world identity except a few people who are aware of it at all. I have voluntarily disclosed my identity (well voluntary is very dicey inside this because there are almost no optimal things in this) to only around 4 people (really five..I never forget elad though he is very silent..I don’t think he has ever posted..he is vegan..he is probably one of us!)

I did voluntarily share my identity with: Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda, Chris Ketcham (he is one of us..it was cool coming across more of one’s actual..as these corporate guys would put it..the types of people who are one’s uniformly unpopular “non-brand”), Ed Zitron and of course EarlG/elad.

The only two other people I can think of whom I follow and might contact at some point are: Matt Stoller (this is definitely technological malfeasance, but is this an anti-trust issue per se when I am as worried about a series of small creepy “little guy” defense contracting firms as your own foul Google?
It is something I have thought about in this period with this style of tech rollout and Stoller might understand.

In this specific diseased environment where there is literally no product or service one would use or want, a giant might be easier to hold accountable than some sort of small creepy defense contractor, who after all the requisite sexual harassment and fraud vanishes. And I will almost certainly write to Troy Farah eventually as he covers drug policy and should know about this disaster. As should Alec Karakatsanis. Because I agreed with Prof David Golumbia on Joy Buolamwini and think that sports billionaires like Clare Wu and reality show stars like Kim Kardashian, Zuckerberg and his moll and your Google creeps are the worst people to be allowed to dictate changing policies on drug overuse.
I don’t want this self-loathing filled “we are all sinners.” I have more confused views on anyone decent working with this unwieldy mess).


You know Prof Hennessy, thanks to your stunningly blase managerial style my relationship with human society has changed..

You Prof Hennessy should be grateful to my mom for raising me to have weathered even you.

You put me in a very difficult position and I have an obligation to communicate what is essential.

I have really felt the influences of indirect forces that profoundly impact one’s life directly more than most. Probably the most profound and life changing experience was Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda and Chris Ketcham.
But Ketcham is a pretty familiar type to me. That is most of the few people Ihave this innate and deep sympathy with.

When you threw this curveball at me, I was truly confounded. Because it is all about politics and in a very dire and personal way.

And I have only this one final political message to all sides: cut it out. I have been in your position (shitposting about various randoms upthread) and terrified of you. All of you.
Behind a keyboard, you do a lot of damage.
And you should be careful there. There is no guarantee that if you are following some sort of carefully curated, perfectly predicted (🤮…a notion so stupid that only Prof Hennessy’s acolytes believe it) you will be on the “right of history” and that is terrible motivation.
You would be better off trying to be the best of whatever you are. Because you are probably something that has more value than you understand in your haste to turn yourselves into these idiots who are popular online or celebrities etc. These are terrible things to aspire to be ans during a severe crisis in my life, I could not count on any of you to be sane.

It is not elitism. You are all really crazy. In groups you do things you never would alone.

Thanks to Prof Hennessy..I have had to wade into these areas with no familiar people except Yasha Levine and Chris Ketcham.
And you Americans are a very psyoped populace left or right. And these guys here in India are a different kind of crazy.
The crazy is the shared part. But each uniquely awful in its own way.

I am going to file overtime a detailed, consistent and methodical complaint in keeping with the seriousness of the whole.

One reason this is happening this way is..well I honestly always thought you are all crazy and I continue to think that.
But it is not personal if that counts.

I am crazy too. In a different way. I cannot let Prof Hennessy define me. He would not even mean it maliciously. I could never understand guys like him. That was the thing about my main mentor. He is not a dull or vanilla person in anyway. But the landscape of decisions and predictions (to borrow labguage from those people…who talks like that? I will give them a prediction and tell them where to stick it) he works with..

But the main point here is one Bob Dylan made..”Everything is broken”. And as someone who finds the biological sciences way more appealing than these lame and pathetic lumps of metal and plastic drearily hyped up..such garbage. I guess destruction of critical thinking gets you here.

I want to make this more minimal and elegant. My terrible track record I blame on EECS 2000-2001 (hey you are not supposed to just pocket the money when no one is looking and toss away your responsibilities as educators and years later huff about how stupid society is. I get to huff about that since you are part of what is stupid and you are up top like that guy Sebastian Thrun. Yeah really Prof Hennessy..I have this much Stockholm Syndrome wrt you as the only person ever affiliated with Google who doesn’t make me puke with how insincere and full of shit they are. You otoh I intuit have a lop-sided worldview.) and on Prof Hennessy’s Google adjacent Reefer Madness psych hospital.

A few things I can contribute here are as a female scientist are: 1) In the areas of drafting sexual harassment guidelines comprehensive enough for this outrageous Si Valley/clueless sweatshop implementation that will not work; 2) marijuana law reform without caving to Blackstone, billionaire funded “prison reform” and 3) Open science and open societies but some sort of sane way. I have been cut off from my colleagues and I don’t like that. That was my favorite part about how my main mentor ran his lab. Everyone was truly equally valuable. It was even often a white and male crowd, but just as being female and nonwhite shape who I am, but do not change a full and immutable personality I have that is not just shaped by circumstances I have no control over or other people.

The hardest part of this was feeling some anonymous and like this person who is for some sort of prototype for bulk produce that is disgusting to me.

As a final seal of my contempt for this entire thing I was looking at this creepy site called redtube where all sorts of very not underage people have sex and it really is just piles of human flesh. It is like a factory farm for humans. The net is disgusting. It is one giant human science experiment, but conducted largely sleazily, irresponsibly and creepily.

You have a bullshit job like say Sebastian Thrun does. So you teach a bunch of people some code and ask them to take a scammy class at this scammy Knight (hey come on! I have artistic license!) school and learn how to kidnap random pot users and exploit every stereotype to keep this obviously bogus cash flow going. Then you have the obligatory wife snd and 12 to 15 children and after sexually harassing the various women who work for, go about their lives etc and finally you watch porn online and shill a “reputation management for creeps who looked at porn online” business for a time when shame hopefully comes back, leaving this clueless creep behind.

A big part of the problem here is that a lot of stuff that is neatly divided along left and right lines (where personal stakes do not come in) is more about which type of grift is actually ruining the world more (right more than left) and how it works.

I take care to see that nothing is conveyed here that is ultimately pointless and has no connection to anything sane.

But how to go about explaining something simple about how the world truly works with, as I see it, a smaller amount of true malice as opposed to mindboggling levels of stupidity. It comes down to whether you see life through the eyes of a scammer or not.

I think a lot about Prof Hennessy. He is actually a perfect antagonist, because I am almost certain he is not a bad or malicious man. He is not an honest man because his insights into human nature is not hard won by experience so much as Google data mining. That is a separate matter. But he is not honest with himself. Good god…imagine liking computers that much..

I have never had any interest in computers. Computers like phones are the dullest tech “toys” I can think of. Like that Prof Ryan Williams..he loves computers. I still don’t get it. Maybe being Indian, but not in CS, people who flock to CS do seem to not think much. Otoh most peopel seem to not think much.

I see local media shill types talk about a “demographic dividend”..ie more of these pointless jobs where doxxing is a service?

What is this obsession with large human nimbers by the same people who value each individual human minimally?

I would like to posit a hypothesis..where human life is overabundant, the overall dynamics seem to work to reduce the value of individual human lives.

That is why I cannot allow this stuff locally to continue like this, or escape consequences.
And I won’t be forced into some sort of scammy verification that is all hyperscale and batch processing. But I am not sort of princess. I just can see where these guys are taking society and I cannot imagine being pacified.

But as someone with a high (!) background of disorder in my personal and professional life, I cannot combine that with Si Valley’s predatory disorder and scammy entertainment and other conglomerates. This is not going to work on ky street, in my home etc here in India.
I would not in general work with most here locally who signed on for this. They would be people I would avoid.

I can’t tell what Prof Hennessy’s deal is. He must process the world in a way I cannot comprehend. But locally or with Indians or women I can tell when someone is cool.

I remember reading about this guy years ago and noting him as the right type of person:

https://m.economictimes.com/magazines/panache/volkswagen-whistleblower-says-he-erred-in-trusting-gm-not-circulating-his-cv-after-2018-layoffs/articleshow/70121530.cms

https://www.researchgate.net/profile/Hemanth-Kappanna

Hemanth Kappana..he came back to India a long time back - he was fired for being honest about Volkswagen’s bullshit emissions ratings.

He is also pretty low profile which I consider a hallmark of trustworthiness. I don’t trust people who court attention. Some sort of pathological shyness is daft.
But the point is that theatre and bullshit seriously hobble work in any meaningful sense.

That is what baffles me about Prof Hennessy. He is unambiguously shrewd ..he must be..I remember the one class I took on Processors in undergrad and it was kinda boring like most engineering (as opposed to physics which is always interesting if hard..it is about how the world works..Not making some dumb ipad that creeps watch porn on while shrilly insisting that it “contributes to growth”. Man..I bet Warren Hern would have even more hypotheses about the most interesting kinds of data patterns these guys ignore:




Monday the 23rd, I shall formally get back on track. I hope I can run outside in my own yard without creeps stalking one on the street as if it is a game. And these guys are not representative of India anymore than the assholes over in the US are representative of Americans.

I sort of crashed in the Dec of 2011, four months into this new job that was hell.


I suppose I will have to carve out a new identity where I am neither a public figure nor a private person the old way. I so wanted to go back to that. But verified as an anonymous human. Iow the classic DUer. But not bulk processing etc.

It is shameful for India to back a bunch of sleazy business types with no products or services but piracy and hijacking of other people’s spaces and lives.

This was hideously punitive. But well..I really found it hard to be my old self, but hopefully that changes.
I would remember a few main timepoints I guess aside from Sept 5, 2011 and Halloween 2011: sometime mid Dec 2011. I remember that day and thinking about Jon Stewart just before my brain went “Okay time to dissociate”.
On Feb 26, 2026, a cousin I trust told me about Blackstone having acquired our local hospital.
She is cool..she is the right type of person along with many others in my family to co-own property with.
Her husband even was in an earlier non scammy take on tuitions.

That stuff out in Ca and these guys here and their politicians and industries are unrealistic.
There are checks and balances in human society that retain the structure of the world I knew which existed because of lots of basically honest people who don’t just cave.

One ot the things I always found non intuitive about America especially and about people who pay far too much attention to stories ans narratives much like their inane counterparts who focus only on statistics, is this narrative or story about who you are, where you are going, why and perhaps most confoundingly how.

A mix of the an understandable and coherent narrative about reality bolstered by stats and facts, would be essential for humans to grasp something is personally relevant. And to understand outliers and the forces that result in them.

I have always been allergic to histrionics. The few people I follow or pay attention to in or outside science represent a few platonic forms. They are already the best version of some ideal. Otoh I am still trying to figure out where science takes one from here. But certainly humans are more important than ever. But I am not entirely opposed to tech. But whstever it is, it should not ge a worse deal than the one I had in 2008. That wasn’t even that long back.

(I wrote this on March 9, 2026 originally in my dedication to you Prof Hennessy in the Music Appeciation Forum. I never read any of my own writing as it unambiguously looks like a lunatic wrote it, except it isn’t. Which was why I used to keep it inside my head. Oh well..)
Pure Parasitism
Mar 9
The problem with your criminal Yimby and GDP growth narrative Prof Hennessy is that you shape narratives to make promote bullshit jobs that have no value and this rape like encroachment..boys will be boys..deliberate harassment clearly encouraged by the state or at least openly seen and accepted.

I am not unemployed.. Those parasites of yours Lucy Guo, Alexandr Wang, Fei Fei Li, Peter Norvig, Christopher Manning..
When was the last time your Google parasites produced anything worthwhile.

I have not used Google in a decade. Who needs all these photo curating and music apps at the cost of the basic peace and quiet of my home.

That criminal Google associated school of yours it vandalized my brain.
I came there looking for a regular job.

I am not a very good scientist. Hell for the resources invested in me - as a human of only average hard scientific aptitude and needing training - I am intelligent in other areas, but those are not..
I am posting this anonymously so an insipid narrative is not coupled with pushback which you will again use to screw immigrants and women over with by using the most tone deaf way that.
I don’t mind pissing off stupid people. Or at least I cannot..I tried for 14.5 years to appease stupid people and only stupid people and it was hell/


I will unambigously finish this paper and press charges locally and file serious misconduct and malpractice allegations against your legal dept and hospital at the shit school.
But not you..
Somehow you don’t strike me as brainless and even after all the groping and malicious treatment, my main complaint is the stupidity.
Those things are stupid.



Because no matter how subdued I had become under thr torture that was all that, throughout it baffled me that these people were stupid enough..

Of course I think some of them may have been misinformed and not known..It is kinda sneaky entrapment of the entire lot. I have no sympathy if the CBI, ORI, Ipol, ICE, the FBI etc come for these or those guys.
I will cooperate with the police to see these

Because this web stuff confuses the brain and a lot is breaking but this is necessary pushback and it is useful that it is not bigoted lefty like me who is shrewd enough to blame the right people and things.

But your nuisance value Prof Hennessy (well you as in the kinds of sleazy parasites your worldview..presumably this is your worldview..Blippi on a shit YouTube channel replacing Sesame Street, this Tyler Cowen or Ezra Klein type of parasite having more say than Dr. Fauci, Dr. Peter Kalmus or Dr. Francis Collins..

I can tell you Prof Hennessy..I have a bad feeling after reading something DUer leftstreet who is ideologically closer to my worldview (economic populism is I think their worldview as far as I could tell) said nukes could be used.

If something that horrific happens, based on what I have seen, no illuminati or proof of influence operations is needed in ways that are futile..but it can and should be brought whom to your entire brainless technofascist crowd goinf back ways and eschewing this us and them in such a dire emergency.

The sample I have seen and what happened and continues to in my life and the strain eveyone who has a real job or is an honest person or has a blah job but nt at the scale of that brainless mile high club of predatory creeps and prostitutes you promote..
This will be brought home to your little friends


And it is not some heroic act if this late they.. There is no positive here for your creeps and the pushback is starting.

I have actually tried to work and did more work..surface evolver and monte carlo simulations, writing, an analysis model, lots of sigmaplot analyses (oh btw I saw your “ai”..that dumb piece of trash that broke T-Tests on my computer in 2019..was that thing trying to communicate? I guess you creeps find that cute as you destroyed my home and life..I hate that thing. That thing is your “ai”?
A two photon microscope..now that’s science


Just having a bunch of shitty llms, calendars and other convenience personal use tech for the fucking laziest people who do too damn many bullshit things badly and then buy up the state and medical research and tried to take over my home.

As long as we let you boil us alive with fossil fuels, torment animals and cause pandemics and cause one fucking security or other issue and pay your bills with garbage torture porn as entertainment and some shitty calendars and totally unwanted “care”
It is not gonna

You REALLY made a huge mistake by recruiting Ol’jfz9580m.
I will not look for work till I finish this paper and tomorrow I will start work on it again

You are flexing academic and medical muscle after that shitshow/ i was shellshocked and only those torturing and stupid cultists were there.

(originally posted in Music Appreciation on March 10).


Music Prof Hennessy!
Music seems like the sort of thing that would appeal to the stubbornly illiterate (computer architecture, comic books and Jonathan Haidt pontificating on mentrual politics aside) like you:

I am optimistic about finally slowly starting work today after sometime in 2019. It is quiet and peaceful. I will be vociferously online when I am not working on my paper or unwinding, assuring you that I am filing complaints and pressing charges in India. 🕊️☮️

Not quite. I don’t really like prodding opaque things. But while I did want to be clear that I totally pushback and file honed and targeted complaints, I would have an explanatory script of my own and it would be based in the reality of what happened and its distant/root or direct causes. But without any sided bs.

I am not impressed if some little huckster your henchpeople have on their payroll came and showed me this:

https://www.hkproject.org/cryptography/cryptoeq.html
Well it seems like an interesting field actually. I like locks and keys and walls etc. Not as people’s brains have been perverted into perceiving symbols like those as anti-populist. Would you not want a locked door or barrier separating you from Marc Andreessen?
Can’t we be woke a little more strategically. The one thing I learnt in this period is the weird path of any legit wokeness in something gamed to make you do less woke things you fail to recognize as non woke, the same way the cons are putting on display their view of survival of the fittest by choosing bloviation, getting away with stuff and prostitution.
In this opaque hairball of data, information transmitted via different media systems using sound, light, ai, meaning gets perverted.


Alright Prof Hennessy…if you ever see this you should take these meandering diatribes as almost a compliment. You are my favorite insane computer scientist!

You scare me the way even the nicest people roughly like you scare me, where I know that absent all sexual harasssment/creepiness or ott fraud, I may end up in contractual obligations that are net a rip off.

Whatever the deal is in the US (in places like the best parts of what I saw and recognized as something different, but not creepy or shady), India is not ready for this at scale. And importantly, as I will very definitely and faster than anyone would guess based on this (I was hobbled by Prof Hennessy’s henchpeople and assorted disparate scoundrels!) file complaints against my city/state and some other entities, but I will do it properly.
This would be filled with intrusive sexual and other forms of harassment specifically of women (and women with less power and say than me..this is why I sometimes avoid the women etc in these things ..save for your fellow travellers from the two labs I saw, who were definitely not like that. But probably ..yeah I don’t get those people. What I find especially embittering is how these people who are always so slow to see through obvious bs, usually drag one to hell with them, while adroitly staying out of trouble themselves. Tech will save the world..what a load of bs..).

And this would also skew towards harassment of low power male employees (especially probably those least likely to be offensive) who are monitored to loathesome extents to “prevent sexual harassment “(translates to: to protect the sleazy ceo from liability) while leaving the basically harassing dynamics on.

I am a friend to the working man! Hey you idiot hackers..morons..you meninist idiots. Don’t attack me please. I am trying to get something moving here.


The creeps and sleazebags aside, I do seriously have a word for all of you online - you are all hopeless. I am having a genuine crisis.
I got a headsup and this is too much of my life and stuff and above all my livelihood and health.
I am not just handing them over to such poorly constructed systems and I am trying to figure out how they connect back to something in reality which is like the stuff Yasha Levine or Chris Ketcham or Adam Becker trash.

They are all white and male. But they are all specific humans at odds with these systems.

I consider it a very generic and unimaginative worldview when it doesn’t take out the people who contribute to the dynamics of this shitty stuff.

I sometimes see some other women, other Indians etc of whom I have unflattering views and think “This is the type of person Prof Hennessy would like.” It is why I avoid the type of girlboss or presumably hyper reputation conscious woman I assume is Prof Hennessy’s ideal scientist. God that would be hell.. My brain broke for a while and I defaulted to thinking like “The type of healthy female scientist predicted by Prof Hennessy”. God that was hell..that woman is an idiot. For 14+ years I have been reflexively trying to behave like “The Ideal Female Scientist as Rendered by Googlel”, “The Female Scientist who Learns and Educates Creeps about A Feminine Perspective on Science as Rendered by Indigenous Male Creep.”
Oh ffs..I find almost all of tech a risible joke.

And since every part of that thought process repels me, I have inadvertently given a realistic seeming impression of “Mental Patient with Some Kind of Horrible Complication of Undiagnosed and Probably Debilitating Disorders.”

Oh well..I was so focused on my real dark secret..Being a Mediocre Scientist, the Mental Patient thing took me by surprise.

But it is a shitty dynamic and one I will file very negative feedback about.

Such shoddy procedures …that chestnuts like “the Stigma of mental illness” can be exploited by corrupt powerful corporations like Google and with incompetent and unscrupulous shrinks tagging along, to slander someone’s mental fitness for having serious and legitimate complaints is a red flag. This is a corrupt, parasitic and failed model of immigration, privatized healthcare/education and science.

Well it will take a while to shakedown. I will abort it with care though. But at least in India, it would be beyond unwise to force this. And all I can do is warn people.
That aside, I should start the process of getting back to science. The politics would probably be easier to address systemically later.
By now it should be easier.

Well that is it for now. I honestly dobt feel human when i dont work on my own field.
I shall set aside the week-end for anything online if I can think of anything.

I will start a structured restart again from this point. I couldn’t stand what I intuited mechanically must be the default mode network of the people you presumably know Prof Hennessy. A large enough part of science especially is not rote mechanical work.
There was a lot of real learning here. But that should not yet again be sabotaged by people i avoid.
This was an inelegant mess and I am (fittingly 🙄 a part of it.
I shall start putting my work and life in order so I can deal with these insane systems.

You are a pirate!
Thank goodness I found Yasha Levine.

You know..I actually needed Yasha Levine specifically. Well..my politics and views as expressed in my journal are.. well they represent a scientist who..
I don’t see a point in bullshit. In fact, damn you I would… like the Red Dragon.. force you to read my bad journals as a ..





Thankfully Prof Hennessy, I am reforming the parts of my social brain, your horrible Google laid waste to and odds are the same thing could work for my work brain. Because this was totally something you inflicted!
You are a terrible admin.

I used to think you were a bad person. But then I saw you and read your work and felt vaguely sorry for you.
I am actually offering you an olive branch because I think these culture wars are distracting from an understanding I am trying to form of your mind.
I am not oblivious to the math underlying reality. The part that is confusing is guys like you. You are kind of interesting.

Not interesting the way 99% of the messaging in this society tied as it is to this one specific dreary technological, narrowly GDP growth driven it is.
What is fascinating professor is how one can almost see everything proceeding in among the most diseased and least sane ways.

Surely if this is true, there is no way we can be the only option..I always hated these societies. There was never a time when I thought witj the sole exception of science, most human endeavors are kinda stupid. Because more convenient hedonism and that then being a Ponzis scheme justifying even more..Prof Steve Chu gets it! But you go and hang out with those bottom of the class types like Marc Andreessen and Sam Altman where Prof Chu, who is legitimately hardcore ans seems to have a well-rounded comprehension of how reality works..

We must be one of the more diseased branches and I suppose we would want to go and destroy everything. I recently had a physical-mathematical intuition about how reality works. And started wondering “How would Prof Hennessy somehow find a way to break all of not an infinite but every relatively probable reality?”

I am kind of there..I like you Prof Hennessy.
You see I have a very Hannah Arendt worldview and this all actually fits it without any unfair dismissal of the left. But the fact that we are here means that the left has evidently focused too much on malice sometimes and ignored the well-intentioned dangerous clunkiness of people whose narrow growth based math and

You are a very satisfying antagonist Prof Hennessy. I don’t like thinking about people one cannot respect. I like to think about you and what a really terribly limited imagination in combination with material muscle can do.

https://www.forbes.com/sites/jeffmcmahon/2019/04/05/the-world-economy-is-a-pyramid-scheme-steven-chu-says/

The World Economy Is A Pyramid Scheme, Steven Chu Says
ByJeff McMahon,Former Contributor. Reporting from Europe, Jeff McMahon covers the environment.

Apr 05, 2019 at 12:01am EDT

The world economy is based on ever-increasing population, said Nobel laureate Steven Chu, a scheme that economists don’t talk about and that governments won’t face, a scheme that makes sustainability impossible and that is likely to eventually fail.

“The world needs a new model of how to generate a rising standard of living that’s not dependent on a pyramid scheme,” Chu said at the University of Chicago.

Chu didn’t specify what that new model would look like, but he offered a solution to the population growth the current one relies on.

“Increased economic prosperity and all economic models supported by governments and global competitors are based on having more young people, workers, than older people,” Chu said. “Two schemes come to mind. One is the pyramid scheme. The other is the Ponzi scheme. I’m not going to explain them both to you, you can look it up. But it’s based on growth, in various forms.”

For example, healthy young workers pay the health care costs for aging workers and retirees, the former energy secretary said, a scheme that requires increasing numbers of young workers. And economic growth requires more and more people to buy more and more stuff, with dire environmental consequences.

There are at least two problems with that:

“Depending on a pyramid scheme or a Ponzi scheme, there’s no such thing as sustainability,” Chu said.
As standards of living increase, population growth declines. So if the economy succeeds in raising standards of living, it undermines itself.

“The economists know this, but they don’t really talk about it in the open, and there’s no real discussion in government,” Chu said. “Every government says you have to have an increase in population, whether you do it through immigrants or the home population. So, this is a problem.”

China has replaced its one-child policy with incentives for parents to have two children, Chu noted as an example, and France offers a prize, the Médaille de la Famille Française, to mothers of large families. Incentives like these will not help the world achieve sustainability, he said.


https://www.forbes.com/sites/jeffmcmahon/2019/04/04/meat-and-agriculture-are-worse-for-the-climate-than-dirty-energy-steven-chu-says/

You know Prof Hennessy, Steve Chu actually sounds sane. He sounds like a regular scientist. I often find that mix of bullshit and austerity that comes out of the proponents of lousy shit so alien. That is at least not the nicer scientists and oddly probably the ones who will be correct unlike your “Don’t Look Up” billionaires.

Your school made it impossible for me to contact a scientist who was the only truly reliable person I met at your hell. He had all the scientific instincts of all the scientists I trust (including my last mentor), but with what I estimated to be the political instincts which are why I am fond of Yasha Levine who is very kind as well as responsible and honest.
Society including me - we needed tough love of the kind educators mete out. Not this DOGE/Russell Vought or in my case its silent precursor, Reefer Madness as healthcare 🙄.

I am not slow! I protest everything! Damn Hennessy. Prof Hennessy you are really awful and now I have to explain stuff I don’t want to.

I don’t agree with this type of loud:: “Hey all yoiu creeps! Here I am. Please burgle my purse some more. I am upstream from the women these creeps exploit unchecked or even places with sexists”.

As for my colleagues - I kinda want to be really clear on this since as of this date I am okay and caught up. But I only have tacit human understanding with the NIH I like or the left or at least broadly people I like.

And I do see an opportunity here, but ..
This kinda spilt out into shared spaces and I consider it cool when it is decent people who need to understand thar they are in no way less valuable than these foul halfwits most of us get stuck with..
This is a broken society and it has been so for a long time. It is not surprising that charlatans and prostitutes make up most of the very top.

And I was in the NIH crowd and yes I like doctors and scientists, but I have not ever felt that much in sync with anyone who has ever found any part of this global society sane.

It is not politics. It is all too dire and real and I cannot fathom thinking like any of these people. And I don’t have a solution or scheme. I was a basic sceince researcher. I am an observer basically and I try to move in the direction of lowest human population density and high population density correlates with the outcomes these guys who manage these societies brainlessly most successfully impose. I didn’t sign up for these decisions and I am filing complaints to push this back and end this. I get it and I will full use of all legit resources and sense I have.
This was a waste of life. I met one person I organically understood and I was in a job I was failing at but still the only one I chose and choose. The actual labor. For neither were these foul technologies anything but a nuisance.
Their only use is entrapment of the kinds of male creeps, sleazebags, shady people etc who sign on to these methods and dont find them creepy.

I generally broadly disagree with most of the thought that broadly underpin this species. But I come at not as a leftist/rightist etc, but as societies have become complex and crashed, it forces if not the loathed “aw shucks” bs, once something crashes both personally spectacularly while a larger ongoing collapse is underway, you do start to pay attention to more things you ignored the implications of, which are not about you but this broader collapase.
Apparently Jared Diamond thinks societal psychotherapy is a good idea. I disagree.
I think before these things get entrenched in their present deregulated form, they should be highlighted as filled with extremely creepy and sexually harassing methodologies where the narcotics war especially and bs around mental illness or open science was exploited.
I have never engaged in misconduct and furthermore it is worse misconduct to pretend not to get why some very temporarily lucrative things would end up being a trojan horse in the long run.
Humans…

I should start getting back into more traditional professional behavior. This happened, but I couldn’t help it.

I am really sorry Prof Hennessy. This isn’t really my style. Yeah I ..I am not a Luddite. The reality is that I am relatively moderate. I have some decent instincts and some survivalist ones. But I generally find a lot of what flies in this society is: 1) not good science; 2) not good governance and 3) largely not left or right. These are ideologies vaguely ascribed to what seems to be the next phase of endless, rapacious extortion wo a point beyond hedonism and destruction. There seems to often be nothing I would consider not repellently brainless and alien.

Unfortunately, if you follow my thought process at all, many of these guys do not seem like very good scientists to me. And calling me crazy or as your extra stuck up and snooty 😤postdocs/students etc might say “childlike or pathetic” (🖕 won’t change the fact that they are all humping Google/Andreessen/Musk etc and attacking me won’t change that. That is a stupid worldview and while I don’t have insipid views, I try to pretend I do, to not get into meaningless wrangles.

I could not understand what I was supposed to have in common as a human with those people at your school. And the creeps locally are worse. I wasn’t sure how to behave around this unsavory and sleazy collective of self-deceiving, brainless, trend chasing..wait hold on..I didn’t mean to say that either..



I have no problem with Prof Steve Chu for instance. I actually do not have a problem with you per se. And yes I did mean the various insulting things I said, but in my defense I truly never meant to say or more literally type them up.

I actually like the checks and limits that reality imposes. Maybe what I am trying to say is that there are innate models of the world or ways of thinking (especially when minimally brain-washed) that aren’t this full of bullshit.

I was there in 2011 and today 14.5 years later it looks as creepy, sleazy, tacky, grotesque, generally insecure as it did then.

I generally like doctors like my onc especially. But they are very overworked because we have too many damn people and not enough sane, sustainable jobs. Homeostasis would be the thing to shoot for.
It is surprising to me that with the data you have, if the politics were not so lop-sided and maximalist, accelerationist, that this is careening towards instability constantly endlessly. I would have thought a complexity scientist or systems scientist by now would have intuited what is so clear to many of us who are on the left in specific ways.

Its the people who care least about other people or think they care in this very narcissistic way (E.g. Betsy Hartmann and these people who constantly push pronatalism) who seem to always want more people, more chaos and this genuinely ugly way of living. Chris Packham talked about it-how everything in nature is beautiful except us.

I don’t mean think he meant ugly as in you didn’t shop at the mall enough or buy enough expensive designer crap or eat enough raw liver and bench press..I don’t know.

Society is irrational everywhere and this very lopsided comprehension of reality and I suppose values has resulted. So much of what is produced virtually or materially in these societies is truly worthless crap and you get people entrapped in that and their lives/the lives of their families get mired in that..well Prof Chu gets it.
The reality is I can see how improvident it is.

I have an internal model of reality now that I come to think of it where, had we been a less profligate species (ie more focus on sustainability and reality over the entertainment sports and this rapacious expansion into spaces that I can promise will not allow some idiots who work at Google etc and have delusions of grandeur with our corrupt and sometimes barely educated Indian politicians and industrialists

I never had any mental disorders. It is not up to some random creepy Indian and American people to come up with space grabs exploiting immigration, privatized healthcare and education and general corruption and deregulation.
I don’t want a sleazy hospital validating my pot use when they do not make the pot, use the pot, but want to corruptly piggy back and data mine and a uniform set of standards will have to come about so women like me don’t go extinct because of actually corrupt humans.

That is a classic sleazy bureaucracy. So all these rules are clearly made up and I like science as it helps me assess reality.

I don’t blame you Prof Hennessy. But i do have a low opinion of a lot of what is driving the so called engines of these economies and that is some sort of diseased outlook.
Peter Kalmus gets it, Warren Hern gets it..

And this is lame..when st the same time all these hateful people who were in this signed off on male creepiness and generally disgraceful shit to then turn around and say “they are all white males! Here is this nonwhite female person shilling something sleazy and tacky. You must choose that!”

So..I am not mentally ill or stupid or childlike and certainly I have never engaged in misconduct. Why would anyone engage in misconduct. What is being shilled as open science is shilled from a place of such cynicism that it assumes totally sleazily that people need all this stalkerish tech to be honest.

These are my inferences and based on this- I have to ask of that repulsive school and all this? Where are you going in so much haste.
Your work in tech and what you shilled and forced on me us uniformly worthless fucking trash. What are you always so bossy about? Productivity my arse. Most of what is produced by these types is kinda creepy and makes life more degrading and pointless.
These people are grotesque and creepy and then they invert things and call me crazy after signing up for many inappropriate things.

I dont know Prof Hennessy..But I found that and this kinda creepy. You should be flattered though. I don’t think you are creepy. But you strike me as a bit ineffectual in controlling those complete idiots whose ringleader you vaguely are. I am sorry. Those guys really grate on me.

And I am back to normal and I don’t buy all this pearl clutching appropriateness plus a totally creepy amd sleazy everything else.
So that was that.
If it was pathetic, you can be sure that is my output with people and systems I do not respect.
And I absolve you of being that bad. I put it badly but it was an olive branch.

I don’t buy the egos or bullshit. I try not to know people like these for a reason. I do not get what sn older white man like you thinks.
But in general I avoid the kinds of women and immigrants etc who sign up for these things, especially when they are all moral and concerned and responsible.
Bollocks..total frauds and they and the billionaires can work it out. It is not my problem.
I will file some complaints and my land, assets, data etc won’t (especially after this) just be treated by some parasitic creep of a data farmer or mining baron and their trad molls etc who buy up education abd healthcare.
This was total bullshit.
I will be offline till Friday the 27th.

(And well..I am always sorry about calling people parasites, prostitutes etc. But well..they started it..You guys dropped the civility from your side and then go around getting the vapors.

I will never play along with this theatre of crassness where you go and force this shit on people like me..I have my own ideas. I can totally do teamwork. But like my main lab or a team like Yasha or EarlG.
Not those grotesque and ghastly people who try to groom one into accepting this as not creepy.

I am lucky I didn’t actually have any salacious crap and merely enough marijuana to sink a few ships. As vices go I was lucky to have one that is minimally embarrassing.

You know Prof Hennessy..I really wanted to spell out as a female stem worker that this bullshit of creepily forcing really creepy contracts on women and then inverting it and if that doesn’t fly blaming clunkware.

I used to react like a caricature because I was shell shocked.

You don’t know any woke left online that I would know. I am overtly devious with these guys. I am an actual feminist. I don’t play one and take internet bullshit or the real world scourge of these unthinking people whom you Prof Hennessy inflict on the rest of us.

This is all emotion and perception manipulation: you wake up and look at this society and all you see (my lab, yasha levine, chris ketcham, du and Adam Becker etc aside is a sea of idiots and now they know you think that about them. I mean seriously Prof Hennessy..There is no thought that drives these people except acquisition, greed and hedonism, vanity and they project..

Yeah..You are fascinating Prof Hennessy. You come off as someone who is almost a proper real scientist..The tragedy is that these are not childish worldviews
Before this smoothly forces a pattern of more of the types of people I usually class under the heading “The type of volunteer for a lobotomy Prof Hennessy likes”.

I go through life half resigned and everywhere this same crowd of billions of people! Trillions of dollars! And everywhere infrastructure is decaying and my eyes keep noticing all these signs of how everything is fraying and to the ugly eyes of these guys the very disease and decay I castigate as vile is celebrated as a “development” story..


I actually want to head out of this and away from these people fast. I cannot keep suffering fools and if it was the typical thing of humiliating someone and being mean, I wouldn’t. But that isn’t any of these genuine losers..all complacent and brainless and moving fast going nowhere worthwhile and behaving as if I should join these stupid creeps or they will go and tell people I am crazy.
You just have brute force.

There is no use case. There is no legitimate product or service.

But well..I would not normally write to someone as respectable and senior as you except in an emergency and then only to say that is all stupid and pointless (well to put an overly optimistic spin on it). And you should know that as maybe this is a misperception that the kinds of scripts and people you...

My brain has not been entirely alive since took me hostage in 2011.
And yes I am on the left (which is why I post here l), but I can assure you that between the types of white male creeps you know and the types of sleazy girlbosses or nonwhite males they patronize I really don’t have sympathy for either type based on a common sense assessment that at least the former would not make the mistake of thinking I am any kind of ally. A mistake the latter type should not make again. I thoroughly dislike them and do not buy their drivel. My lab was kind of annoying, but not bad. But a lot of people at that place really do just suck.

You and I Prof Hennessy are equals at least - you are an elite if dishonest scientist. I am mediocre but entirely honest. Those other guys are if not as mediocre as I am, also not as elite as you or at all honest. It is why I don’t mind talking to you and openly if one has to talk to a minimally awful elite.

I found the position I had in this unsupportable and it altered my perceptions of reality. I thought you guys were more together than this.

I was furious. I am from a matriarchal community filled with domineering women. I was trying to be nice.
Wtf? An NIH postdoc is not gig work. There was not a part of it that was not vaguely creepy and degrading and jokes cannot change that. I don’t want to normalize this.

And as for my mentor he is elite and not dishonest, but probably as a survival gambit, he isn’t that easy to read.

I am not rude - I am usually deferential to professors who pass the bar of a minimum of decency and sanity. I was raised to respect education. But then you treat Andreessen and Musk etc seriously and till I came across Yasha Levine, I was at my wit’s end. I didn’t like Chomsky/the Jacobin and obviously as for the rest..LOL

I process politics, society etc at a fundamental level the same way I process science. This notion of kayfabe is cynical trash for people who should be avoided. That is why Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham, Troy Farah, Ed Zitron, Nathan Robinson etc are so cool. They want to get stuff done the way one has scientific goals. It isn’t theatre. They may fail, but they don’t want to.


And well…your school had driven me to despair.
I could envision a future as (I now can envision a less shitty one that is not ahistorical), where this foul thing becomes a thing.

And the path I kept choosing in dull despair was the path of the common grunt who now has an additional outrageous, disgusting and pointless nuisance forced and would have to contend with sleazy gatekeeping “adults” on the one hand and sad, fratty jokesters where one has to mechanically register outrage or equally mechanically laugh to ..you know..sort of beat a quiet retreat from this crowd one usually keeps a safe distance from.
I cannot process anything beyond best case a Sitcom adjacent dynamic with any of them. They are such dishonest bullshitters.
Honestly Prof Hennessy..who would have an honest conversation with any of you except like this.

I find it easier to bullshit to people who are outright frauds over that sellout with a conscience type ..lol…I am sure a lot of those assholes have since written or talked somewhere ..various canned statements about the glory of the immigration and the wonders of women in science and health, harmony, security and freedom from bowel movements that are not of the right consistency (neither too soft, nor too hard..just right..The Goldilocks of bowel movements..sorry I just hate yoir school and mock it viciously when I think about it and those people..they are pathetic).

The thing is I am female and I was a visitor to your country and do not buy those specific people whatever their work or politics.
I only cooperate out of some compunction for my mentor. It cannot be very fun to be elite when mostly you must end up picking after those creeps and trying to harness the energy of a set of wannabe similar types. A pox on all of them.

But well I also throw a lot of shit around so bah..I would not want anyone to hold me to any of the negative stuff. Who cares?
Nothing worse than looking for personally or scientifically relevant meaning in hairballs of internet vomit.
I am not schizophrenic. And this was largely a disaster. But my brain does feel better and it is mostly a process of ..well..that was sabotage plain and simple and just for disagreeing across the board with all of them.
Thank goodness for Yasha Levine,

I found when I had to seriously evaluate peoplw as one does wrt science/physical medicine which are simpler than anything as messy as humans, that Yasha Levine and a few people like that are the only people who..like Yasha is never playing to cameras etc. It really is just all about reality. And that is so refreshing and rare in your society where so much actually dangerous crap that could..prison reform, mj legalization, handling undocumented immigration with decency and sensitivity ..forget the jerks..that place i saw..those people are unfit for all that.
Looking back, those must all be such stupid people. What Toronto got about Sidewalks Lab, they also got. Which is why they chose shady little small towns in India no doubt hoping to force through the creepiest implementation or sabotage everything.
Yeah well..that was too ambitious. Well i have to go get back on track from here on out.
Sept 5, 2011-March 22, 2026.

That was nightmarishly long. Now to get away from this horrible period of my life and try again. Yeah that won’t fly..lol..totally sleazy..

Well Prof Hennessy as of March 22, 2026, I am as recovered from the effects of your nightmarish Google University as one can be.

The only reason I put up with this very unfair and mean-spirited deal was out of respect for my mentor and colleagues of a specific type or people I am sympathetic to. I can be sympathetic to a broader range of people than many with narrower loyalties. It is the gift and the curse of not really having any tribe so much as a non-histrionic understanding of reality and not being okay with bending the truth as I see it. I am a terrible liar and well..I am a complainant and desirous of extricating anyone or anything I would be explicitly genuinely sympathetic to. But with the deal I had-so ott..I was broken into this overnight in 2011. And I was isolated throughout because your people are assholes Prof Hennessy.


Look there is no way to dress this up and I am not going to. This is serious. I have never had to “cover” for NIH scientists (my main mentor is especially respectable and rare, but even my other two mentors were decent- I tend to think of my mentor as the classical educator or scientist. Yeah he is white, male and American and your country’s identity politics are going down the corrupt votebank politics of India that the corrupt and kinda sleazy Congress + the Chomsky/Arundhati Roy type of self centred narcissist who likes the sound of their own voice, bouncing off the similarly corrupt pro corporate parasitism neoliberals or hardcore religious nuts.. like those people are all garbage abd care about absolutely nothing. But the actual left-like say Jean Dreze or Medha Patkar-they are different. My mom never objected to the real left. These Chomsky and Jacobin types are ..I have been forced to be this abrasive and combative. They are like that and they radicalize the nicer conservatives. This totally entitled, self -centred moralizer of either type who.
I dont care about what people think about me. Why are they thinking about anyone as extravagantly dull as I am? The weed and the reefer madness thing plus I have a lot of cancer on my mom’s side of the family and a schizophrenic great grandmother. I am sane.

I have never had mental health issues. This wss thr sleaziest trashiest phoniest thing I ever saw. I deliberately drank excessively etc sometimes. But that is not addiction. It is a choice that conveys the message “fuck this trashy and improvident society that keeps on having bullshit jobs and shopping and breeding excessively based on those while lying about the worth of such pointless jobs-like a subset of your creepy and loud Google parasites Prof Hennessy.. Odds are I would like some people even at Google but way fewer than in an average “not a cult” environment”.
And I do not see how any of the people who I would mesh with in corporate environments could openly be friendly. They would be like my mom who left physics and went into banking and regretted it. She couldn’t go further in physics or she would have. But she despised neoliberalism and saw it as the fount of bullshit. She despised Aravind Panagariya..this sleazy Indian economist who sits around sniffing his own farts in the US and writing condescendingly about “freebies to the poor” in India and if this overrated, fatass piece of shit could pervert language and metaphors to make this invasion of my personal space and life a “freebie” rather than a vicious parasitic attack, that bloody second rate overrated narcissist would. I really hate parasites like those.

My mentor was one of the few very positive influences in my life a long time back. He has actual scientific muscle and he is a Bernie supporter and a humanist, not a bag of wind like Panagariya.

We are shaped by our experiences. I am not particularly insular so I am open to all people with some non compromising views on creeps, sleazebags, assorted dimwitted perverts and the types of people who tend to thrive in these creepy systems being built-which are creepy, extortionate and perverse.

These guys are destroying both India and the US and it is not immigrants. It is not white supremacy either. If you choose the worst politics possible it will either be majority group parasite as right with some flunkies or the most useless kind of “left” that mainly attacks the parts of the left that are not enabling the worst of these parasites like Panagariya or Milton Friedman etc. These people are overrated parasites not elites and except CS (which has devolved shamefully from people like Turing to a bunch of advertisers forcing worthless personal use technology and then coming up with bs narratives) no hard science is filled with these many douchebags.

I am salt of the earth! Extravagant common sense is me! You have no idea the shit I had to put up with. It has completely scrambled my brain.

But I have been forced to cover for corporations and corrupt people and really stupid people. Speaking of morons that sleazy and corrupt Vinod Khosla.that guy is a brainless flatulent parasite..I hope that part goes on the web. I doubt Vinod Khosla would sue du to prove that he doesn’t fart into gold toilets. He is stupid and trashy but not that stupid. That would be more Elon Musk’s style. So I will be respectful and humble!!! Fair and balanced!!!!

Aside from the bs of pretending that Twitter was not always garbage and the whole mom thing, I found that woman Alicia kinda funny. I cannot imagine being outraged by these overgrown toddlers. I am much angrier about fake sensible “adults” who have not pulled their weight and they won’t. Oh hi Prof Hennessy!
Didn’t see you there! I was talking about people with no overlap with you!

Thats why we are in this mess. Abdication of responsibility by the faux sensible and utter crassness otherwise. I actually hate Vinod Khosla way more than Musk whose sheer self destructive profligacy will kill us faster than the slow deathgrip of the 1984 society which parasitic hucksters like Reid Hoffman, Mark Cuban and worst of all that bag of farts Vinod Khosla-a type of especially disgusting old Indian man-want to usher in. Hey fuck you fart ass.
Maybe that was a bit uncalled for. Who is he to call Lina Khan a dope and come to India-a country which a farting parasite like Vinod Khosla is not even a citizen of. Who is he to come in here imperiously? Hey ..we have our own homegrown indigenous perverts and fascists here. We don’t need this imported variety.

Unfuckingbelievable- you gtfo of one country that was clearly insane BTS from the Bush era and almost certainly earlier, where all these bullshit narratives float and …then 15 years later this same fucking crowd of parasitic bullshitters is encroaching overtly here.



You know Prof Hennessy- that is all anger that your reckless administerial style and some unknown perverts and lousy shrinks induced and now it is splashing on to admittedly loathesome people like Vinod Khosla, who in fairness is only an indirectly flatulent force. But he is scarier than you because you are at least mostly destroying America. That piece of shit Vinod Khosla (Khosla is a common name..I meant this idiotic and totally crass Indian billionaire who is called liberal..he is not liberal. He is garbage..who the fuck buys a beach? Or for that matter an island? I won’t say you should wake up, because you can’t probably. I “woke up” because I was rudely jerked away, which is different from jerkmate, a creepy porn thing. There is apparently a thing called a porn hub “community”. Isn’t it disgusting that some old creepy perverts in data science monitor web use and don’t admit to it when it is ..admittedly porn and sex are not a big part of my life..I am the frustrated one-time breeder helicopter parent type.. but were they rather than my actual vice-it would not mean that these disgusting old perverts can pretend it is paranoid women.
And bros who are not even in data sxience or ai or these creepy areas..it is not about you. You think they care about working class men? You are not stupid but you are wrong about women. One has no idea what the vast majority of people are like and the small repulsive vical crowd..I am trying to get back to being normal rabble. Some day this is a message for ypu out there after these creeps have broken everything and you blame those who went before you like me. I didn’t have an option. I tried as much as I could realistically as a normal flawed unglamorous female to push back but these are such corrupt and broken embedded systems that I know I am an utter failure on all levels. I know it more than I feel it. That is the cancer that is these parasites. These economists and CS data mining, social climbing, predatory hucksters..these shameless humans.

You know Prof Hennessy, I was serious about Stockholm Syndrome wrt you. I have seen your world and really you are the pick of the bunch. But you shouldn’t let that go to your head as a seal of approval from the specific type of angry peasant rabble I represent so much as a statement on how depleted that landscape is.
Prof Lecun and Prof Steve Chu are two other people who …people like you must not hear this often. But I don’t process most of them as malicious and fascistic even so much as too stupid to trust.
Like Prof Lecun and Prof Chu. They don’t just go around saying 🧟🧟‍♀️🧟‍♂️ “GDP Growth”. Does going to business school and learning to code somehow lobotomise other parts of the thinking centre.
When I crashed I automatically assumed, back then correctly, that I would be dealing uniformly with people who are stupid and sleazy and later with increasing anger and frustration, people who had been lied to as far as I was concerned.

I have never had to “cover” for my doctors (especially doctors like my oncologist) with tge exception of a handful of shrinks (who in fairness may not have known the underlying Rosenhan dynamic testing them or tests like not calling female complainants “bots” or crazy and not just going along with shit just because everyone else does).
I am woke left in the insane world of politics or the internet.

Irl I am pragmatic as the specific human I was and am. No one would buy that it is Christian concern for undocumented workers, open science or health.
You know Prof Hennessy, it is the tacky people who do shit like that who make all of society cynical about the concept that anyone can actually gjve a shit.
I don’t care if this is TL.
Who said it was for some random with no life who spends time reading this to then go “This woman is an insane loser without a life 😤.” Hey fuck you! At least I am only writing this rubbish not reading it! I don’t have a life because of Prof Hennessy. And I am not insane.


And just because a subset of the most repellant and lacking in self awareness people (including some really pathetic women-girlboss moms or whatever..I never met them, but a thing like this cannot move forward without them and however they vote, those women are clueless abd spend their time policing jokes and language while signing up for one of the creepiest crassest things I have ever seen which is ramping up now..That is not feminist. It is being extremely entitled. Maybe sometimes people dislike you..a subset of the types of women who would judge me for sitting around getting high in my damn room..but they are okay with this creepfest?

I always think about women like that..maybe people dislike you becauss of how shallow, sleazy and corrupt you are and it is not because you are a woman. Sheryl Sandberg, those Wojickis etc.
And maybe people dislike you because you are a creep or a parasite who gropes women and steals data and not your race. And this endless battle between two disgusting parasitic prostitute types at the top is leaving the rest of us in tbe dust and thats why people are angry and confused and cannot go with your narrowly race and gender based politics, most of all when they are woke and dealing with practical realities. I dont know what a conservative is..and they should fix their own side of the aisle. I will curtly be clear if it ever comes up).


Who says I am writing this for some randoms. Maybe I am writing it for Coleman Spillde or humans like that who I shamefully follow for social cues in this alarmingly out of touch species.

Why should I get doxxed and attacked as a symbol of anything but yet another random sacrificed to the Idiocracy.


This is my story! And yours! We are all victimized by stupidity and the malicious confuse you about the forms stupidity takes.

Now Prof Hennessy is not an honest man. In fact he is pretty devious. He doesn’t know it. I can respect that..I guess he has to pretend to be stupider than he really is.
It is this layer of Idiocrats from the private sector maligning the far less corrupt bureaucrats in the public sector.


We have to bring back a truly democratic state not chase the votebank politics and choose whether to enrich Vinod Khosla/Mark Cuban and Reid Hoffman preferentially or Musk, Peter Thiel etc

i have been more worried by Vinod Khosla. I hate and despise that guy. My mom would have hated him as the ugliest and crassest face of immigration. I came back because it is vomitous to have to be pro American or pro immigrant that way.
But without a boot on my neck I am sympathetic to immigrants…Like Hemant Kappana. And I can say things they cannot having come back with no intention of ever doing more than visiting other countries.

I think there is important communication all of us ravble white nonwhite male and female should engage in and it has to move fast to keep up. But it is easy.


I saw BTS. These guys are idiots. You should never be scared of some pathetic people who claim to be awesome or moral etc.
These people are all garbage.

Way better to be rabble. But the rest of you rabble form these idiotic tribes filled with stupid people. That is why I work alone.
It seriously drags you down to hell.

I will post when i feel like it. I am writing yo Coleman Spillde not anyone else..fuck you all! I didn’t sign up for this.
I sadly have a list of gay men of quality whose basements I would run to in an emergency-Coleman is one, Peter Putnam is both dead and has a Comrade Ogilvy vibe (no..he is quite possibly real but these guys use dubious methods in all probability) but that aside he struck me as a perfect fit, Chuck Palahniuk was my original pick for gay basement to hide in.

Thanks to you Prof Hennessy, I have had to often semi seriously consider which gay men might have a basement one could hide out in.
I would be too much of a strain for decent parents. Not because I am a loose cannon but because I cannot fulfil my functions, such as they are and dubious as the future..well I did work in fundamental not applied research.

And there will be practical repercussions to this any which way since it was an anomalous situation. I dislike being singled out and i dislike being placed in random groups.

I am not even that big on tech, but this is how these guys use a weird mix of crass conservatism and fake woke to confuse the head. It is all crassness and moralizing dressed up as hardcore or sensible or worst progressive or woke.

Someone like Yasha Levine is who I take cues from if I cautiously stick my neck out of my own basement which at this rate I would have to cut a deal with an introverted gay male temporarily over to wrangle back..


This thing is too real to be converted into bullshit. I am already atomized. The nuclear family is not going away for some sort of perverse joint family. But at this rate these idiots will dismantle democracy faster and faster. Thank god for Yasha.
I am a follower not a leader.

But I am a follower with sense! This isn’t a hobby and as the very cool Troy Farah (I always relied on my colleagues and now it is a random set of journalists and writers I follow online)

I do follow people in the global north more because i like some distance and space. There are bound to be cool people here in India but it is not very fun being a complainant. You are this hot potato no one wants around. That is what is alienating. It is not personal malice but you gotta be careful not to be exploited or dismissed.
Anyway I am definitely filing complaints against the adminstration here in my state and city. As for the centre if they are not involved in this, I recommend they stay away instead of piling on.

Or if the tide turned they would want you to back thier bs refusing to get why one was a complainant from the get go.

The specifics here cannot be spun as left or right. It is predatory corporations.
But I won’t be insipid.
I am woke sympathetic. I just don’t think that because of horrible people who are silent, the woke need to be vocal! There is nothing woke about internet use.
It is basically a gimme to these guys.

Otoh their slow creeping encroachment and engulfment has the weirdest fucking dynamics that I have learnt finally from after this final onslaught of dumbassery.

This is applicable only to me as a responsible person (oh bite me…pot doesn’t make one as irresponsible as blowing garbage elite men and pandering to those brainless twats..hey settle down random internet perpetually angered male type. Why do you take everything personally, though that is why I am hedging legally here? I am a non elite woman and a friend to the people! I am already embattled and I don’t need you piling on. A feminist doesn’t blow all the elite men shilling fake Reid Hoffman feminism and snipe at the loserly male tied with her in status, effort and intelligence or those worse off, except when they specifically annoy or harass one. Now run along to “whiny male grievance central”.
I am not contemptuous but i have given up on your taking your heads out of porn/sports and flesh consumption and I myself have pot and tv and wanted to be a sad helicopter mom with a stem job she tries not to be a disaster at, so I am not better than you (except where I am). Well I mostly just wanted the stem job, but at one point even I had a biological clock that was annoying me -thank god its gone. You cannot expect things to go Meninistan and I assume that is not what anyone truly wants. But this is a global society managed by a dully malicious and parasitic boring elite where the perversion is outweighed by the economy theft but in the higher echelons of power the calculations these guys all gamble on where they are corporate stooges are all ugly and they want large masses of disposable people whose thinking is embattled making evolving ans adapting to these challeges hard when not impossible).

But I am willing to wager I have dealt with more brain destroying reality disruption from these technofascist parasites than many.

And I write this. I don’t speak it. I rarely use the phone or Zoom if I can help it.
This even was forced on me. I was trying the Candide’s Garden thing with lame donations and voting and blah Du posts..Yeah I really was rather pathetic I guess.

But I follow the few people I follow since over time those humans’ messages make sense to me in the contexts in which they would apply. Yasha Levine is a major influence, but there are many. I was thinking of Coleman Spillde..
And I would not want this stuff blared out via a loudspeaker or disseminated irresponsibly.

I use DU because I have complete faith in EarlG/elad to never have more than the human errors and the difficulties of earning a living these days.
I am lucky to have some cushion and that us because I chose not to have a kid or give up on work I find meaningful unless I can think of other meaningful stem work, which is not impossible but first I have to finish a paper because I don’t feel that well when I don’t organize the information inside my head.
I have been trying to ignore this so they don’t force a disgusting conclusion I am repelled by and that would be on brand for these fucking perverts..Sorry…That is just how I talk inside my head.
Awesome! Now it is online..

The point is I generally don’t think it is anyone’s interest to disseminate stuff I say absent its whole context in which there is some universal use, but not strategically ignoring everything about the specific human and their humanity and filching everything for this same disgraceful crowd.
Not you Prof Hennessy..we are friends! You were not supposed to see the email I forwarded accidentally to you where I referred to you as “that silly ass Hennessy” to my mentor. It is not first time either.

When my ex was being worked to death and I was helping him with his thesis, we were both tired and angry and I accidentally (truly accidentally both times) forwarded an email to his pi referring to him as “dickface” in comments in the pdf.
Good times…anyway we were both horrified but I thought fast on my feet and said he should send a few more emails since pis rarely have the time to read more than the latest draft.

So hopefully by the time you see this, we have all…

That was a compliment really. I call people brainless perverts or other


It is not possible for all people to shut up ans sit down because of the way these guys configured things to shield themselves frol responsibility and blame people lower down or the average person.
They are not wrong at all about serious safety issues that I cannot feel anymore because they no longer affect me finally. How do I know that?
Thats my own business. My very human brain has started working again. I mostly think of the pi from my microscopy facility (he was really cool. He wasn’t like Prof Hennessy who has to metaphorically kidnap people and induce Stockholm Syndrome via a dreary game of “well okay..in this unpromising crowd, this guy may even be the best..” A feeling I suspect is mutual. You can always find even worse people. That is the glory of this joke of a planet Earth, no doubt shunned by all intelligent aliens everywhere).

He is the pragmatic balance in this situation to my Yasha Levine/Chris Ketcham sympathetic lefty instincts. Indeed Ketcham and I agree a lot and probably we would both agree that a solution involving more tech would be trash. And riddled with the same logical errors That brought us to this state of reality denial whose next phase I suspect will be quantum mysticism and a very confoundingly stupid understanding of concepts like the many world hypothesis.
Infinity..always..cornucopia..dominion theology.




This is not science or medicine or governance for the most part and if you are going to drag me into these things, I am not doing a toothless “speak truth to power! But do wait for 200 years and apologize for slavery in a way calculated to annoy everyone within earshot while in every motherfucking way enabling the dynamics of contemporary slavery.”
Balderdash.

I guess cleverbot is right..I am a rude little shrimp..I took that as an overly accurate consensus judgement about my academic muscle and am switching belatedly to laughing at myself and probably blustering a tad excessively (hey fuck you all! 😤..this was hell..) to prove I have g!
That is creep for general intelligence..I think…

These horrible failed societies can be fixed if we can neutralize anyone worse than Prof Hennessy.

The truth of this is..wait..I have to catch a breath and outtalk these assholes as I try to figure out how to thwart all of them. They are all crazy! And stupid! And unware of it on profound levels that only public figures and the elite can be.

My last mentor was actually really nice. He never mistook me for a sleazy, fluffy lightweight. And as I have communication problems not being American (and crazy..all of you! Your national debate is a disgrace run by corporations..Fox News was only a precursor tp these new nightmares where they try to shrug off responsibility with this toxic notion that if people can be represented as choosing the shitty algorithms they follow..this is the tip of the iceberg wrt how much these people ha want screwed us all over and we have to understand these specific mechanics and dynamics).

Liberals and conservatives will never agree on the whole that I am not a bot or not crazy. The corrupt and creepy know I am not oddly and try to exploit me forgetting that I am not stupid either.

That is okay. A lot of the only left or scientists I pay attention to would not think that if they knew.

It is actually the opposite of bot like thinking. It really is. i can now see wgat was bot like and it was something else. It was trying to destroy one’s own humanity to fit some successful corrupt mercenary parasitic prostitutes while avoiding predatory creeps and sleazebags.

I am not a bot or crazy. I will take my time in pushing back so it is careful not this.

I am grateful to EarlG, Yasha Levine, Evgenia Kovda, Christopher Ketcham and many others in science or on the left and other at least harmless humans.

I try to tell people not to pick fights with me nicely. But they didn’t listen.
Oh well..

Not really my area but this makes sense and they will never accept it:
https://www.theverge.com/report/896820/lina-khan-ftc-meta-supernatural-antitrust


I have to go finally work. I support my last lab. They were decent. My mentor never saw me as anything but a scientist. That was intelligent. It should not be that only people who agree with any abomination that the centre of mass of stupidity chases and keeps justifying to the disgraceful fucking end end up doing science or even being a part of society.
This agit prop local moron/parasite/prostitute/creep crowd has not changed me anymore than those parasites and prostitutes from before did.
I talk like that because that is how I talk inside my head. The inside of my head is not any pf ypir business.
I will carefully file targeted misconduct malpractice harassment torture ans exploitation allegations.

Not to worry Prof Hennessy. I am very fact based in my allegation filing. Calling the scum who suck dick at places like Google and Facebooks and pervert and shit on feminist leftist etc ideals in every meaningful way is just how i thinkinside my head and I am way more cogniscent of how nazis and meninists etc think.

You are a clunker, but I looked at you dispassionately and thought “what a clunker. It would be painful to hear this guy try to think like a human.”

I know you in your context. Yoy are a terrible person and ..lol..
I don’t know. I find you very funny..
But I would be shocked if you are racist or sexist so much as someone whose views on science productivity and on creativity are terrifyingly narrow.
With the exception of my mentor and his lab(which had one guy who was your type..a well intentioned clunker who probably thinks more junk tech will fix this growthist mess) all those social climbing sycophants who suck up to the kinds of scientists who thrive in that brothel are the very dregs of science.
They have stunningly limited and tribal perspectives on politics, the environment and economics especially and a contemptuous view of other humans. Who elss would work in this mining and (with shocking ineptitude) “studying” other humans rather than recoiling in disgust. You seem to like the prostitute phenotype plus the scary, male creeps to keep those who object to prostitution in line.

(i saw a male scientist I thoroughly disliked who i still give a pass to as far as being an honest scientist and human goes. I genuinely disliked the guy, but that is not a good reason to attack another scientist. He was not a bad scientist-a bit of an apple polisher (a type that grates on the stubbornly illiterate like me) and very agreeable and lovable. All traits I view with suspicion..in that crowd.

Those are parasitic garbage elites. You are the best of that lot and your main attributes are: 1) at least almost definitely not a creep (that dimwit Kosinski’s gaydar is passe. That parasite Alex Pentland’s grimy wares are all trash. Ol’jfz9580m has a creepdar! Authentic creepdar fine tuned by creep after creep. Is situationally biased and excellent aside from being wrong a mere 67.8352 % of the time absent the female human who was repeatedly harassed and slandered -see how meticulous I am. I got its suckiness correct to four decimal places! Now fund me in getting it’s inaccuracy accurate to 15 decimal places! What a load of bs you sell professor. Crispr etc is not Google’s.
Turning research into hell with blatantly fraudulent fake woke “concerns” about bias (as if anyonr truly screwed over is in this. They are all mostly middleclass or aspirants to nouveau riche creeps and all sides of entitled goddamn whiners who wouldn’t understand solidarity or decent. Solipsistic, entitled narcissists.

My mentor and lab were not like that and certainly not my real lab.


Google etc destroy real academic science for this endless socisl engineering plus attacks on critical thinking. Or obscenities like dragonfly weapons.

What makes you think support from the mob of the moment and gamimg ahead with stolen info would even work. In 14.5 years this was never anything but worthlesd garbage. I would be careful to not destroy any working things, but try to destroy the junk sanely.

2) in fairness, you never even knew I existed. Another testament to your rather dashing administerial style.
I post in support of my mentor who never took me for a fluffy lazy lightweight like the hustling dick suckers and brainless, lazy pricks you promote. I was not insane either.

But back then it would have been so easy for the ironically fairly genuinelly racist and sexist pieces of human shit who suck dick at Google to call me not woke for an unvarnished view of your mediocre psychiatry/cryptography/social engineering girlbosses and those pricks (ph get a fainting couch ajd be fake offended elsewhere)

I am not stupid Prof Hennessy. This will hurt your people and these local creeps more than it will hurt me. But it will be uphill all the way.

I saw a female scientist in this vomitous industrial lab who also seemed okay. No need to worry.

Lucky for you i am not actually at all insanely angry etc. But I am angry and they will regret this. It is far easier when your adversary is a cartoon.
Despite my distaste for those people, I don’t caricature them simply because I have absolutely no respect for them (my lab and that one female scientist aside)


But i am not a hater. I largely get along with people to routine extents.
But no one should ever pull rgis sgit agaub.


This wont fly. The only thing worsw than the tech is the tech criticism.

All i can say is more people should have a well rounded scientific education and not waste time on any of this.
This won’t be a movye or show.

It will be as draconian a complaint as i can target with info. And it won’t further be exploited by the worsr.
Life is messy abd it gave too much cover for rhis truly worthless and parasituc invasive trash.

That is not good. I shall be in touch.
I am not sorry i called ypie protegees parasites and prostitutes ans brainless.
I have to go work now finally:

I used to listen to that a lot before i came to your shithole. I avoid people though i wish humans generally broadly well from a distance.

But I don’t suffer fools Prof Hennessy. This has angered me a lot. And I won’t move fast and break shit in pushback but this mindless trash must day

You have perverted the public understanding of what feminist, woke eyc really mean. Often they are instincts to cultivare and nurture so something that is not an endless war nor an insipid joke are possible.

You hustle culture parasites are the enemy of critical thinking. You attack what is good and nurture trash.
Don’t fuck wjth me ever again. I have to go work shittily and to paraphrase Tina Fey, anyone who has a problem with me can suck my dick. I don’t have one, but profanity is the only honest response tp thjs worthless trash.


But well..I am never aggressive or a jerk except to a small subset insufferably stupid men and women.
Have a nice day you clunker..

Btw I mean it in a (for me) almost friendly way. I don’t talk to people worse even than you. If you ever saw this dont feel bad i called you a clunker. I have been a clunker too. It happens.
But the people who gravitate to yoi I move away from. Lol..

Some things are to quote Google inevitable.
Neither in India nor in the US will most of those who participated in this avoid misconduct, malpractice, harassment and other charges on a long enough timeline.

I think changing the world is a stupid way to think when you are not even defending your own turf from predatory parasitism.
I don’t want to do it haphazardly and again as happened with me have someone who didn’t do anything wrong get blamed and tortured.

I have dispassionately long ago decided that some of these parasites (like a vomitous lab with no positive qualities whatsoever..I might favor hyperbole. They could have…well no. No positive qualities whatsoever sounds correct) -it is like places with a crazy sleazy parasitic mercenary prostitute Nazi and a sleazy parasitic mercenary prostitute are the sole options. Obviously one chooses the sleazy parasitic mercenary prostitute.
Thise are the only options.


When those llms came out I knew these guys are full of shit and the quantum cryptography etc. None of it is impressive. Like you could train a monkey to do what a lot of these guys with some muscle do.
But they are not intelligent regardless and don’t get why things break and never try to understand things.

The only piece of praise I got in 5.5 years from my mentor was that I keep an open mind. I do. One learns but science is about a specific type of way of thinking. Whereas these guys are motivated by something like what I said earlier that these guys have no positive qualities.

They are too stupid to get that responses to them are going to be hyperbolic contemptuous angry and largely meaningless and that people make decisions they literally cannot change based on any memory of the world that preceded this one especially when you get an accelerated early intro to it.

On some level, even if I wanted to, I could not not file complaints some day excoriating this but not with this crowd now’. That is stuff for a society with some people closer to Lina Khan, Yasha Levine, Christopher Ketcham, my main lab or Hemant Kappana or Tejas Thackeray or Nandita Bajaj, ..it doesn’t matter..

But a collection of people whose main attribute is not parasite or prostitute who will go along with anything and their permacrisis means it will always be scary bts. Yeah I get vaccinated and I am safe etc. But I also think wet markets and factory farms should be banned and the lab leak theory is bullshit.
But that doesn’t mean that the real problems with these fucking noxious parasites is not real.


It is just that the nazis and fascists etc are a nuisance to the left because they help a collection of corrupt centrist prostitutes like say Stanford Psychiatry or Google or Facebook or my local Blackstone Inc rub hospital corrupt defense contractors and all of those unsavoury parasitic groups encroach more and more.

This won’t fly. But I like to be offline and I will finish a paper and some dat after I fix my life do something about all this. I def owe EarlG/elad, Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham etc.
Minimal targeted action is what is needed.
Not more of this for me anyway.


And I have no wish to be validated by people in both countries I will unambiguoust be filing misconduct malpractice harassment and other allegations against.
I am not a loose cannon.

I just seem like one. Confusing camouflage! But u am also not stupid. And I have seen enough. I have nothing but the harshest possible dispassionate condemnation for all these people except my lab, my doctors, my MJ co, a female scientist and holding my nose this one male scientist I dislike, but grudgingly acknowledge as the type of person who for some people would make these things less shitty. Though these people who work with people like Prof Hennessy just avoided imo.
No good can come of knowing

I am not saying Prof Hennessy isn’t amusing in a way. But there is no serious animal or human response to him but the one from the WWF (?) graphic.
So this is over. I was very happy offline in the Dec-Jan of 2024-2025.

At a normal time I will return to DU for normal interactions. I am putting this aside. Anyway I made my decisions long back. I rarely change my mind. This was a total waste of every decent humans time and space and life and in the end will be a disaster for all these predatory and parasitic humans who label other people bots or crazy.
It’s a wrap. See them in court etc.
Goodbye Prof Hennessy. You are an awful admin Sir and you attract awful people and the directionally challenged like me 🫡.

You and your henchpeople there and these parasitic private sector companies and our communist state and probably the centre won’t stop. That was and will continue to be a mistake.

Yasha Levine was right as is Chris Ketcham about just logging off and I will do that.
This data you got from me was just garbage.

Here is the reality. This is apolitical whatever any of these people (all with politics I despise) say.
In these societies, I am a specific type of far left. But really I am quite moderate. I like nuclear families though not nuclear war. I don’t feel lonely or atomized around my birds, books and life. I like some tech.

None of this was to bore any of you. I don’t like to be scapegoated as a nuisance. I am not into predictions and the trash that fuels the net.
But not being stupid and lazy, I said in the Oct of 2011 as soon as I saw that this was not a routine job that I didn’t want it. And I stayed out of respect for my mentor (whom I still respect and will shield to my best ability from the fallout of these complaints). He is a decent man and kind and I care about him, his family and my labmates from back then.

As a dutiful enough person on practical matters I even extend collegiality to another male scientist.

You..do..not..get..me. I am not a very good scientist. But you do not know me and you never will because I am not myself around people I do not trust. And around people I do trust, they tend to be instinctively non intrusive and not hustling parasitically and disgracefully and then bullying people. We like a little mystery professor over this ..I don’t even get it.
I have met normal scientists and normal people..these people and their tech are a special type of completely worthless nuisance.


I am going to choose a low tech path. No more cleverbot, DU maybe much later, no more politics..I think Candide’s Garden is my path in life as left as I am and as much material support as I plan to extend going forward (to DU, of course always to Yasha/Evgenia/Ketcham etc-those people saved me from the hell your Google school and these corrupt local parasites and creeps forced).


My point is that I am left and actually pragmatic. All this constant excessive breeding and consumption with bullshit jobs like these and intrusive torture adjacent methods won’t work.
This isn’t a good time but I will unambiguously in the future file the most draconian misconduct in human subject and medical malpractice in psychiatry allegations I can in both India (against this city, the state and where the centre was involved the centre) and my last city and state and your psych dept and anything similar locally.


Yeah I use marijuana. Let’s cut out the bs. So do all your little republican frat boys and the types of dick suckers you call democrats. Not people I would call left. I am not on the right and so being an obviously very diplomatic and meek woman I won’t comment on your Republicans. But the people you would consider democrats I consider people who suck dick instead of working and are embittered by free, lefty, feminists like me who are simply not this shameless and stupid. I am not a good scientist but I have always been honest and an actual real feminist. I am from a matriarchal community and have struggled to control - I will admit that this “girlboss” phenomenon confused me the most. As a feminist and an assertive woman who nonetheless - like I don’t think being stupid or straightforward with a collection of fucking perverts (btw i totally understand if no one anywhere wants to overtly admit to knowing me..it is why I tried not to be authentic) is feminist.
I was pleased to find you. This is one giant compliment to you Prof Hennessy. . I looked at you and went “huh..this is clunker is not a creep or a pervert. At least one can communicate with this old coot (still a compliment-creep/pervert is way worse!)”

I feel almost close to you in a way by now.
I don’t want creepy coy unsaid things with anyone. I don’t need garbage tech to..

That was what angered me the most.

I feel for my mentor and genuinely wish him luck and support him.
God grief…I like Yasha Levine or Chris Ketcham, Evgenia Kovda etc. instead those dick suckers you culture and to have any understanding with such people. Fuck no.


Locally I am filing the most serious complaints I can and rampiub up the nuisance or continuing to force trash will make this worse.
I will disentangle my data, home (3 properties here in India), my devices and my life materially from this and go a slow, low useful tech, minimal engagement etc life and try to get back into science via people with nothing like this. I will finish this paper and go to my old mentor. I am unlikely to by now be someone anyone can even respond to. That’s okay. I understand.
I tried to conform. I found i couldn’t. You cannot force yourself to do things you know in your heart gut and above all brain are driven by corrupt mediocre parasitic people

The global immigration system is a mess. It is very cruel to immigrants and women especially. Not that your dicksucking girlbosses or creeps give a shit.

Tech is trash. And you are lousy at science overall.

I do not think science tech modernity etc are in conflict with a healthy planet.
What is the issue is using science purely for toys and underwear you fart into, better smart porn (that must be thing for these exhibitionists you cultivate) or other pathetic obscenities. Or worse with mall shopping and God. But never an understanding of the responsibility that goes with science.
Science isn’t for a species this dumb.


I disagreed on one point with Sam Miller MacDonald on one point. Humans want to understand reality. It is our only real positive in my book. Or it is just consumption and reproduction and that requires lower tech. There have to be limits and regulation. Nice try trying to regulate me as you all parasitically breed and consume to an excess and yeah you don’t use pot. In every other way I self regulate way better than you. The values of these corrupt societies stink. And it is a breeding ground for very real nazis, antisemites, anti-Muslim types, misogynists and genuinely hateful people fueled by the types of fakers you put on display.

Like Adam Becker, as bad as I am at science, I do love science. It is the only field I trust and am saddened to see what Google Facebook and these utterly disgraceful humans (not anyone screwed over or struggling..They know who they are. They are wealthy mediocre dick suckers..and between them and some dimwitted meninists I don’t really have a pick). The women I feel sorry to see leading lives that are shitty are nothing like them. You cannot love any group entirely.
Every group has your people (very few and thriving parasites/prostitutes) and my people (most random screwed over non malicious wherever they are in coming to that understanding. And scapegoating or worse with glee radicalising or attempting to..any group that might represent a threat to your corrupt parasitic war and consumption machine seems to be your goal. Well okay not you personally. You are just a clunker).

You cannot change the world. That’s stupid agd grandiose. But you can do your part and mine is kicking the internet and all unwanted tech out and filing the harshest complaints I can in due course. Further harassment won’t bring me back on line nor change this and it will make the court cases I file abs complaints worse.

I will file the most draconian malpractice misconduct and harassment complaints I can. I never had any mental disorder and I do not need the validation of people who do not bother with informed consent.
The information I needed I finally got as I processed those llms and saw this new quantum mysticism and many worlds cornucopian bs downstream as the next load of bs these mind numbingly stupid ppl will chase.

They want magic not science whose very charm lies in its very intractability and unyielding nature when you get it wrong. Not this malicious intractability of your parasitic way of mangling up my life with second rate tech and worse humans. But real science that is frustrating and cools

When I saw those llms and agents I knew I was right in Oct 2011.
Alex Skopic is more correct than not.

Science is not for people with a desire to bend reality to their whims. I never denied being mediocre. But I have never engaged in misconduct. Misconduct infidelity lies etc -these are not things any decent person would engage in.

But I am a rude little shrimp and it is too late to change more than the shrimp part (if even that..my brain has atrophied from 14.5 years of pure human malice). And it was impossible to be polite to any of these people and sane. I am glad I found you! Look how we have bonded!

Come on Prof Hennessy..aren’t you a little flattered? I chose to talk to you! I usually never talk to people except the nicer rabble. And you are some sort of cult leader but ..lol..
This is fucking scary.
That this needlessly undemocratic and opaque and hierarchical shit is now in science
Using China as the excuse to destroy American science seems very on brand for you.
You will only ever meet cultists and bullying sycophants. Those people truly are parasites.

I am sick of all of you and I put criminal liability formally on the table. Not for you professor. We are friends! You are not a pervert!
No really. You do seem harmless though a giant nuisance.
But thee local guys will face harassment and other charges. And all the rest.
I will finish this paper and I will file complaints and push back.

Don’t annoy me in my home or street or workplace ever again. Okay?
It was very hard to role play a stupid woman.
I won’t forget or forgive.
Goodbye/ remember. Anyone fucks with me further (I am a neutral party with these peoples they are all the same to me.. parasites, creeps, hucksters) I will definitely see that hard time is the result. I will dial down tech and net use and stuff like that and expect this garbage gone and taken to sane authorities of the Lina Khan type for future resolution.
I won’t be kind or gentle because it is bad for everyone. Sorry..I didn’t mean to be confusing. I am sure it is worthless.
Goodbye..

🖕

Look I got an email from Marina Bolotnikova, whom I really like and respect.
But I refrained from joining Substack, because I hate Substack. It is why I support Yasha Levine on gofundme (I need his help and I have already given Substack enough money and they should be happy that I am not including them in my eventual complaint and fuck off) and I support Current Affairs every month and I will always be a DU member.

If all those perverts came online for sex, I came online to support the environment/the left and I have somewhat mixed feelings about it. I think some disorder and chaos are part of life so you cannot lead this circumscribed existence.

Otoh just being..not even a real pawn, but forced to roleplay one so the blame can be shifted to clunkware - that is a better scapegoat than conspiracy theories, but it is not a fix when humans clearly use that to avoid accountability or rather I should say liability.

As of this date, I am unambiguously filing serious allegations of misconduct in human subject research and serious medical malpractice in psychiatry exploiting Reefer Madness and a blatantly garbage experiment that is a fucking abomination from hell.
Lol…

I always tried to be buttoned down and “moderate” to

But I am moderate..The people I pay attention to are not always exclusively “far left”. I also pay attention to Matt Stoller, Lucien Greaves, Nicholas Carr, Prof Steve Chu (whatever he is, he is no hippie..few scientists are except this clunkware shill type that is weirdly fake hippie, ..yeah..what is woth them? There is a small set that is actually all that competent and using that this parasitic field-computer science along with economics has taken over everything).
Shove your auctions..Auctions my ass..
Trying to prostitute unwilling female scientists with threats while trying to take other scientists and doctors hostage and torturing everyone I would respect in the process.

The nice thing about not being beagle is one can refuse to accept that marijuana use is anything like misconduct, malpractice, sexual harassment and fraud. That is the hill I will die on. I am going to go finish this paper as I was not a bloody joke scientist.

This is trash.


I only wanted to say that if I get to pushback (in my case and involvibg me there is no growth industry. The real job of being what Frances Haugen and all these frauds like Tristan Harris roleplay is low pay and the Idiocracy buys those frauds..ask Prof Chu what he thinks about Tristan Harris..sleazy grifting idiot lacking any self-awareness or truth teller professor? Lol..) anyone decent has far less to worry about. But pushback I will.

Don’t try to get fascistic by now. I can tell you it won’t work. But I have to not bend.

I was scrambled. Now I am fine. I never cared about Assange/Snowden..bloody sleazy libertarian histrionics upset that they aren’t getting their cut. I am not a cynical misanthrope but as someone who fails at being adequately buttoned down, but kept trying and will continue to because spectacles are in the endless list of things I think are addling the brain and breaking reality, I have a keen eye for theatre and see it as malpractice.

One has to use some humor in talking to a clunker like Prof Hennessy, about whom I cannot presently speculate as unflatteringly as I normally would. He isn’t one of us and therefore not immune from scathing scrutiny reserved for people below a threshold of ..at the very least less clunky. Look at Prof Chu..he doesn’t shill drivel. I do not understand people who seriously lie to themselves. How can that be competence? That is hustle.
“This rubbish is trending and I will calculate my way to the right side of history by destroying all info that depicts me in a poor light while keeping everything that will help me hustle and peg real progress at the shittiest”..anyway..

Yeah I am filing complaints and not playing. But I thought the Aaron Schwartz story was a tragedy. And don’t worry. But they will not defang complaints with more spurious bs.

This was an abomination. And I completely support my mentor and lab because they are honest scientists and this one male scientist and one female scientist (I didn’t even talk to her, but she did not strike me as a woman prostituting NIH female postdocs with vapid bs about healthcare or selling a vile notion of what hard work and good science are..thats more Prof Hennessy’s dubious contribution.. ..my main lab or first lab obviously have nothing to worry about aside from the average level of worry every human feels these days which is impersonal. I liked the women and men in them and they are nothing like the people I look at and think “There goes a devastatingly stupid and sleazy person. Prof Hennessy would like that person.”).
I am salt of the earth! No I really do warily look at people I consider really tacky and stupid and think that by using a weird mix of pseudo populism and real fascism, Prof Hennessy would use this type to destroy my city/town/state etc more and where he doesn’t the “indigenous” version of this same Google type parasite would. Prof Hennessy is not a parasite. He only has delusions of grandeur which his corrupt psychiatry refers to common self respect and refusal to be enslaved by a corrupt hostage taking surveillance state labels psychosis. Plausible deniability won’t work. That psychiatry dept will unambiguously face allegations of egregious malpractice and misconduct and totally bullshit safety concerns to overwrite the clear conflict of interest it is to be in bed with Google/Facebook/Palantir etc.

You know professor Hennessy, I am sure I am not descended from prostitutes unlike the women who sell out other women’s rights and civil rights, but I am a feminist who is probably descended from thugs so I will say that I look at women like these and go -definitely the prostitution instinct is strong in these women: anyone from the MIT Media Lab, Fei Fei Li and that network, Clare Wu, Rosalind Picard, Rana Al Khalouby, Neri Oxman, Sheryl Sandberg, those Wojickis, Nina Vasan, Smita Das, Bari Weiss, Lucy Guo, Priscilla Chan, Bezos’ moll, any woman ever associated with Vinod Khosla..really most of the women who work with this shit and earn a tonne and attack or exploit women like me and shill their meagre enough real work compared to the hustle (that I absolve Fei Fei Li of..Like the holographer who sexually harassed me, her in field expertise and muscle are real. But that doesn’t mean she and some handpicked bogus types get to decide the future of rubbish at science but still not stupid or sleazy females like me.).
This was absolutely vile from any feminist, anti-racist perspective especially.

Don’t get excited about a catfight either creeps. I support women in stem like me or worse off not bloody tradlife. Not these brainless girlbosses or hustlers and mobs in league with them. Being a feminist is not brainlessly supporting everything various sleazy women do.

Hey ..I call em like I see em and I am not crazy.
That’s just..
Easy enough to be on the right side of what was the right side 200 years ago. Try being current.
I an very even handed but low hanging fruit and top fruit.

You know I don’t understand Jesus Christ..he seemed like a really decent human being and also bright. I wonder why he didn’t get on a camel and escape before he was crucified. That’s a metaphor for not being stupid enough to get crucified, suicidal etc.

These guys flood the place with Thanatos, Bathos and hopelessness and the voice inside your head that knows dead sea fruit is embittering is warning you about worthless growth when these guys ensure that real scientific productivity and quality of medical care and education deteriorate.
I sympathise with anyone who has to make ends meet any way they can.

But that is not my role. I will be a complainant and unsparing entirely. I am not good with lies. This calling Prof Hennessy a clunker rather than a sleazy clunker is already close enough to a lie. No no..it is okay! We are all sleazy Prof Hennessy - I used work internet to surf the web! What would your sleazy creepy little friend Mitesh Bohra who has as enlightened a view as you say?!

But I cannot deny that I blame people who share attributes with me and work with this Hennessy person. I am forced to humor this clunker since he must have hired my mentor whom I never accuse of more than the kind of delusional faith in technology that these llms at least should have quashed.

I was never a luddite, but I saw that EECS crowd. They are brainless and annoying and really bad at science overall. Hey..I have a disease! They are really stupid ans this is a failure of two trashy fields that are destroying women’s rights (for the vast majority of women not some girlboss athlete who should stay the fuck away from me), property rights (I am moderate! No I am..but I find it hard to be honest except to people like Yasha Levine, Evgenia Kovda, Chris Ketcham etc. Sadly Marina Bolotnikova doesn’t have a non Vox email or I would write to her to ensure that this mess has not ensnared any decent AR people via those scammy EA types)..these days everyone has to put up with money where they can find it or as I have done for 14 years (come April) blow through their own savings and resources while combatting a predatory and parasitic encroachment the whole time in India after I fled the US.

Do you know which website (unlike Substack especially) never made me hand money hand over fist at a time when I am okay but not so flush I should be supporting the creeps who run Substack? Democratic Underground.
The one site with admins I would want to support. But EarlG/elad and most of the left (Yasha Levine/Chris Ketcham/Ed Zitron/) have an innate decency that makes one’s brain work sanely and not in fear of the narcotics war (worsened by the experience the prostitutes and parasites of Google/Facebook etc and our local creepy misogynists/sleazy Blackstone owned hospital/corrupt defense contractors and probably gamers/tech broadly and entertainment made worse) hand over money to a blatantly fraudulent and dishonest “exercise in journalism”.

This was about consent and serious misconduct and psychological torture. The torture was and lack of consent were due to Google etc not the NIH I knew and know.
I am not even throwing Hennessy to the dogs. That phony oped in Politico in support of Dreamers was the smartest thing you ever did professor, much like the undocumented workers I saw around some Bible bangers I stayed with was smart.
Not smart enough for the con to work. But it will salvage your rear, more than any PR campaign that was truly phony.

Don’t grow this trash. It is okay. I have to go work. This won’t end well. Think once in a while yeah?

This was disgraceful.
I have to go finish a paper. It will be okay if you are decent and well..if yoi are not, get a lawyer, a shrink or something if you can afford it. If you cannot, it is not going to affect you provided you don’t join more mobs.
Back off..this is not Bollywood/Tollywood/TikTok/YouTube etc. It is a crime scene. Only i was confused into thinking I was being accused rather than all these disgraceful exploitative assholes whose instincts seem to favor rape, exploitation, colonization, lies and enslavement.

My first two schools do not have to worry nor my doctors or labs. Now I must go work. I don’t feel like myself when I don’t.

Don’t get too excited by my hyperbolic language-it is neither theatre and I don’t file false allegations. Why would I?
I just use the style of science communication appropriate here as a descended from thugs not prostitutes! woman would..Any real feminist would easily decode this.


How this ever happened will baffle me for the rest of my life..My mentor was wary when I told him about this job. He has solid instincts.
My last mentor was like my main mentor essentially but that school is..crass.

I will be decent in complaint filing, but this cannot be wished away. That would mean giving up…and no..

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I posted this in a thread about Jewish volunteer ambulances. I stay out of campus wars that are unconnected to the specific hustle I am angered by involving tech cos. This is about corporate parasitism and war profiteering..

It is vaguely connected to the extent that I can see in real time how you Prof Hennessy must like deflections.

Shameful
Yesterday
These war profiteers have ensured that people will be embattled forever thanks to their parasitic greed.

I was just looking up “quantum Darwinism” and thinking that what would be the odds that even 200 years into industrial society a purely deregulated hell that is a cancer on the planet, it’s life (including humans) headed up by a diverse group of people in every region on earth whose main characteristic is parasitism, greed, mercenary thinking, an aversion to limits and homeostasis and critical thinking, a populace that blames all the wrong things..

What are the odds that only such a piece of shit society is possible? Is there a reason rapists, parasites and prostitutes proliferate at the top who attack scientists, doctors, the poor, the struggling while having their own imperious empires and setting us at each others’ throats? How can this be the only possibility?

Dysgenics that thinks it is engaged in eugenics. Eugenics is a noxious notion that those engaged in conscious dysgenics tend to favor. No humility, no compunction, no positive qualities at all..
They have perverted meaning to the point where the images of different values in most humans’ minds are shaped by the only types of people who thrive.

https://www.quantamagazine.org/the-math-that-explains-why-bell-curves-are-everywhere-20260316/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_Darwinism

Anyway..lol..

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https://scienceexchange.caltech.edu/topics/quantum-science-explained/quantum-physics

This graphic is bullshit:


That is so dishonest. So much of science is dully staring at things and grunt work that needs concentration that these scummy surveillance states disrupt and while aimed solely at letting some marketing giants grab everyone’s assets to build some bullshit combining all these lousy ideas without public consent and in my case it is too late:


https://newsroom.axis.com/en-us/press-release/vanderbilt-university
(i have an on the whole favorable view of Vanderbilt University - thankfully they don’t have much of an EECS dept- it is mostly just a medical school not a hotbed of spooky bullshit. But any US Uni or hospital that while having no idea what countries in the global south are like and working only with the kinds of people who would build some loathesome parasitic and unwanted “bridge”..just no..you guys keep your nuisances there and we should keep ours here over this fusion of worthless, shameless, whorish, parasitic fucking trash that degrades both motherfucking contries. I have tourette’s! Well I don’t, but I am back to normal and find it impossible to talk without profanity about this detestable, worthless, hateful fucking abomination. Which is why I will be offline going forward…only the worst people and the worst dynamics of either country is on display in this..and don’t try to drag me in. I have enough negatives without being dragged into something I ..I cannot talk about civilly)..

It is not theatre. I have never been this angry. Just venting..This is the best it has been in 14.5 years and this is fucking awful and lame and atrocious..
I fucking hate it.

But it is okay. I shall soldier on!

This was such garbage. This is not how human brains work. What fucking dickhead signed off on any of this? Oh ah..Hi Prof Hennessy..I..

I am so glad you are not Dr Fauci whom I instinctively like. I am glad I am not a beagle or tribal. I will do my best to insulate a clunker like you because you are the fall guy, but the people I blame most have superficial similarities to me, while people who share my attributes both on the surface and non superficially would have told you to..well..Let’s just say “what made you think I would prostitute myself for this worthless parasitic trash that is transparently bullshit filled with plausible deniability and crocodile tears, fake grievances and hustle” would have been my question.

I try to avoid the kinds of women and Indians who work with people like you Prof Hennessy. Best case like Hemant Kappana they would end up being fired or like Priya Ramani face slander allegations by an MJ Akbar style serial predator or like the SIL volunteer was be intimidated with a 100 crore lawsuit.


I am not putting criminal liability on the table as a joke Prof Hennessy. I know how you guys operate. Hell I faced it first hand. And it is too late in India for these guys to seriously try to send me to prison but they want to continue this without coming directly me.

Don’t go to my dad. This is not bloody Saudi Arabia and my dad is not a meninist. He helped me transfer all my properties onto my name. This is not a Britney Spears situation. He was disgusted as was everyone who knew me well that anyone would try to assail my sanity.
Your reputations are toast. But that is not materially any use.
Outside your cultish tech culture, what people would see is some people parasitically exploiting every crisis for more worthless “solutions” and allowing government corruption and far worse horrifying levels of private sector rapacious corrupt extraction to grab other people’s assets using fraudulent reasoning.

Have you no shame? Any of you?

Who said you could go around blantantly taking people hostage using a pile of bs from those dick sucking hobags at RetractionWatch (sorry! I have treat resistant diseases! I am addicted to truth serum! I tried to convey that I should never be in any honest conversations) who make the public paranoid about publicly funded science in which the fraud, error, plagiarism etc are a fucking fraction of you fucking worthless, parasitic, predatory dicksuckers at google with a fucking sleazy calendar and spme lame apps yhat only monumentally stupid clerical dickwavers would consider selling out various things to.

It is such a fucking blatant motherfucking con. Shameless..
And these narratives abiut hard work? BULLSHIT.
I saw your psychiatry dept and the ones here. These guys are half incompetent or too hidebound for this shit and I wouldn’t be herded into a rubber stamp, but when my mom was sick I was worried (The Aryan Khan arrest happened around that time as did Bipin Rawat’s death-the same week as my mom roughly)


And this disgraceful trash. More wortless experimentation
FUCKING STOP ALREADY

You are all predators.
The Indian govt can expect hell to pay for this downstream as can every private sector co.


But if you were tangled up with these bastards, I promise that I will support you. And not so I have my own sleazy mob but because that js the right thing you braimless fucking cunts.

Always ineptly trying to star in movies “how will history view me?”
A) who cares? You will be dead! B) they will either be as stupid as you are or stupider so really again why bother? C) the answer is probably as a douchebag. That will be how most of us are viewed by history as they will be dealing with the climate crisis and all the other ecological crises you ignored as you sat around denying human overpopulation and parroting outdated scripts and .

lol.. maybe that was a bit mean but i cant stand this multisided lack of any survival drive that doesn’t literally or metaphorically suck.

I found this so degrading while it was prison like and hostage like. And I saying stop before a phase of “voluntary prostitution” because I cannot talk like a normal human scientist anymore follows.

This is an outrage! I have never seen so much stupidity up close and personal. Thank goodness for Yasha Levine and Chris Ketcham etc.
And sorry for calling people dick sucking parasites. But I only said it because it is the limpid truth. I thought you wanted honesty! RetractionWatch dicksuckers who neatly steer clear of any attacks on corporate malfeasance and that ass Fanelli..These fuckers are at Stanford MIT and these places whose main attribute less insane nazi. MIT drove Aaron Schwartz to suicide.
He was a sweet kid. A bit overly

The elite in these societies are disgusting hobags and dealing with such parasitic shameless humans is..

I dont mean ypu Prof Hennessy..you are devious in seeming devoid of the calculation that clearly goes into what drives Tristan Harris.

My subconscious and I are connected enough now. I see different types of crazy and just want to extricate myself, file complaints and move on. I cannot sue for money etc. That is too uncharacteristic. I would get very confused about how money works were I to do that.
I am not improvident and cornucopian like parasites like Eric Schmidt. Eric Schmidt is a mediocre twat who has never done an honest day’s work -stem or non stem.

But a sleazy hustle openly robbing honest middleclass pensioners (my mom and dad), while harassing and torturing me or trying to exploit me or use force and this shameful theatre.
I am not a paranoid schizophrenic or addict or borderline.
I just hate Google anf Alex Pentland. Fuck you all!

This is what that ass Ioannidis and RetractionWatch caused by making people paranoid about the system of trust and peer review while that dipshit Fanelli who worked at Stanford preaches about what is communicated?
Fuck you Fanelli..and I am not that Shamblog guy’s daft agent. Orwell got “two min’s hate” right. I can’t sometimes decide which of these sleazy fuckers I would like to deck. And well the crazier ones you cannot admit to wanting to deck. This 14 years of seeing this pathetic roadshow that disgraces everything ever.

But I do select. Natural selection!
Writing pompous opeds while being sewn into this crap and bullshitting about this predatory mediocre company Google.
Delusions of grandeur is 🫵. No one elected Google, Facebook, Reliance, Tata, Palantir or Musk.

I have to go offline before a creepy little shrink claims that this is addiction to hate, which unlike other stuff is a little addicting since it is unclear how much longer this worthless trash will go on for.
Fuck this shit. I had no issues with the shrink I met locally in 2021. But at this point I DIY this sans rubber stamps as there is no way in hell i will endorse any of what I saw as of this date except my lab and those two scientists (a male and a female from this lab I would avoid cartography/cryptography or whatever some industrial type hyperscaling approach these farmer types shill..fuck that..my lab was so cool. My pi took pride in everything he did.. He will be viewed well by not stupid future people. I cannot really follow the reasoning of stupid solipsistic narcissists devoid of the imagination needed to make vague guesses about how stuff plays out. This was lobotomizing).

Who cares what the dumbest people of the future think? But that is dangerous as these whores also think that way and that is why real accountability not a cartoon is needed and the only adults I talk to anymore are outside the NIH, since the only new honest adults in science/medicine I met post 2012 were all local medical doctors in physical health, (esp my onc and they are vaguely aware of it probably but still cool).

This is an ugly chapter in science history and I don’t care how history views. History can go and fuck itself..

No situation is extreme enough for any of these people to start thinking sanely.


I understood this fascistic sleazy pos and all sided stupidity that would result when societies are this dishonest about the real world, the internet, politics, media etc
I figured my best bet for survival is being hated equally by all these douchebags as I uncertainly work out how each crazy’s specific brand of crazy would affect Ol’jfz9580m.
I am honest only with Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda. As for Chris Ketcham, Marina Bolotnikova, we Greens are so universally unpopular..could be useful if the divide and rule that works for our pseudoelite downwards worked upwards but our pseudoelite are proficiently parasitic and so
Hmmm..absolute parasites prostitutes and frauds and then inverting.

And I am embittered that not one of these creeps would push coercive psychiatry on Elon Musk, Zuckerberg, but they shove me into the loony bin. Total dicksuckers..

Give me a fucking break. I am too insane to be allowed to go around without a creep monitoring me and with this indecent refusal to give me RTI in my own country?
But those guys are sane enough and honest enough for automated weapons systems?

And you want me to go down on my knees out of gratitude to any of you unknown pompous pricks and cunts? Fuck you all (not a come on creeps)!
Thats not theatre. This was hell, it is better now…
Fuck you all (non sexually..may you all be ridiculed forever!)
You are crazy..stop inverting it

You are collectively crazy. Wtf is wrong with you? Do you not get the limits to this bullshit?.

You are, where not indigent (different from indigenous..I learnt English from books not CreepsTranslate!) genuinely screwed and it is your own fault.

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I thought throughout that this had parallels to rape and enslavement, not anything medical.

My brain slowly recovered in spite of this. And there is no way in hell I will allow use of my street (yes my street..my street not yours), my home etc to be used by small creepy indigenous companies or giants like Reliance(the worst..Treats its employees like shit to shill this whorish trash? These peopTata, Facebook, Microsoft,


The maniacal stupidity with which in this shitty vom


These men and women would carry out a gang rape and film it.

I cannot tell anymore which of these fucking frauds claim to be activists, press etc.
But I can tell that not one bit of it was consensual from my side and I owe to people I am honest with and those I avoid (since they would be less crazy of


This needs to stop. I can’t stand this anymore. I have never seen such shameless people
How dare you drag me into uour be




All these oeople gave their biases and the shit they want including the sleazy bystanders
I am the one gettiby fucked iver hre
As i was writing thid another parasitic criminal was dri

Now you want to go slow is it? Or fast and think you will win? Leave me the fuck alone.

If you already participated in this and it was not in my head, the odds that I would have any trek with any of you are close to 0. I have already enough people I don’t even like much i have to forgive.

I am filing criminal harassment charges unambiguously about use of my street and the hustle that killed my mom. Take your forensics elsewhere.
I was never in this and I will file malpractice and misconduct and harassment allegations against everyone who was targeting the most objectionable
As usual its cool where it is rarely.
But it’s like trying to bring a child born of rape to term.

Goodbye and in the ejd Lucien Greaves gets. The Satanic Temple is decent to help women with abortions. This i wsnt to be ob tv crowd ie a criminsl menace.
And i love yhe Ar pepple greens abs left etc.

But this is a trap. I will work with rhe police not anarchists. I am not a law amd prder leftist like that creep Slavoj Zizek or Freddie DeBoer.

But this is when you go to the police about malfeasance inside and outside goinf all the way back.
This is not theatre. Dont ever pull any of this shit wuth me. I have seen enough.

Thanks for tolerating me EarlG/elad and DU. I will be offline. Seriously thank you. It is not me. It is them and I am unpopular. And you know what? I like it that way..you are pathetic always seekinb approval and then goijg “omg it is cringe! I have a job I work 2 million hours at every nanosecond! So do I!

To predict how people this stupid think individually and collectively is torture. I mean it really is. The worst is the dumbasses who but..

Good luck if you were involved in any of this. I wasn’t and don’t try to “teach” me.

In the end Lucien Greaves is the best bet for aborting this misogynistic trash.
Yasha is too kind as is the rest of the real left. So are my friends.

I actually endured this and i wont be kind.
I am okay with cruelty whether it is a girlboss, malpractitioner, communist anarchist or whatever

This was a fatuous lie.

As I was always told: suck it up everyone. At least you only have yourselves to blame, i will cooperate with the police wgen the time is right and thrpw everyone unser the bus.’
Fuck off and leave me the hell alone

I will continue to openly diy my mental health with marijuaha and modafinil wo a presc. Dont use bs vaccine analogies.
I am sorry ..but empathy for people like these is cruel to everyone else
i will not retract a single piece of my work ans i dony apologizs for anything

You can all go fuck yourselcea..
I am filimg complaints about all of it. I am that confident in the people I care about. That is the system of trusr.

Hey Hennessy..good luck man.. Nice try.
Thanks Earlg/elad/du. I will log on once a month to post embittered rants callimg everyone stupid and a prostitute parasite etc
It is before the Nazis entrench


I mean thw scum at Google Microsoft Tata FB are less scaey than Palantir, Musk etc.

I dont want any of it. You are all a disgrace just in different ways. I still agree with du’s tos in context. That is not thie context.
Whatever the politics of thede creeps they all suck. Fuvk rk all


As for yue US. Whether it is sheldon whitehouse or david cicilline or that one senator whose name i forget..

So pissed off..tjis should be aborted at yhe expemse of the pruvate sector and complaintd filed. Thats regulatory pushback when the state fails to protect its citizens from harm thus badly destroying women’s rights specifically


Without thw girlboss careerism, i know thar this is a womens rights issue..for the women not in this

The peopllw in this xan all febd for themselves

I formally place criminal liability permanently on the table amd will turn state’s witness if a sane state shows up.


Just a little while baxj this stuoid creep was driving at breakneck speed down this street,

I have seen enough, i am going to the police the day i xan and i will be unsparing, i have faith ij the few people I trust akd i woll communicate with yasha levine chris ketcham if I found a non vox (i loathe vox) Marina.

This was disgraceful and I have to go work now.
Wtf did you take me for? I had been maltreated so badly my brain has atrophied,

Ypu don’t understand whar torture thus was

yoie place in history will not be a goos obe.
Thankfully my mentors and friends ahd onc will be okay.

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It is March 24, 2026 and I am finally thinking clearly. Prof Hennessy, best case you are kind of an idiot who would next shill some sad art and community cooperation project or other blatantly, mind-numbingly stupid shit that makes a mockery of community, cooperation etc. You can at best be the best type of old, white male conservative. The only reason I think you are acceptable is that you did make some foul RISC processor and are not a complete charlatan like most of Google. That cannot be lightweight fluff like that worthless Facebook or most of the net or most of Google.

The delusions of grandeur you people - you computer parasites have based on a portfolio of a collection of completely optional and worthless apps that no one buys Prof Hennessy. They are bloatware and creepware forced on people who want just the most minimal services you fucking idiots.

Even your patron saint Ayn Rand would liken you all to that James Taggart guy. Not you.
You know I have actually read Ayn Rand and it is not really my thing. I think it is full of bullshit. But in even Ayn Rand’s defense, the people - those interchangeable creeps who used to talk a lot - the idea was I think that they had these amazing contributions.
You do not have those as a class as computer scientists who keep humping Ayn Rand.

When was the last time a customer (and even your fellow clunkers-those price gouging douchebags of Apple get this) said “oh wow this shitty creepy spyware riddled calendar is so awesome I am totally okay with sacrificing



You are liars..

This is a lie. You Prof Hennessy are a liar and a Trump supporter. But if you supported a Democrat it would be the most assiduous corporate dicksucker.

You are a bad man.

You are the best type of your type of person and well..

The ugly truth here is that you are not any more competent Prof Hennessy than Dr. Adam Becker, Dr Anthony Fauci, Dr Francis Collins, Dr Peter Kalmus, Prof Rees, Profs Paul/Anne Ehrlich, Chet Miller of PSE (a ragtag assortment of scientists I respect, who unlike you Prof Hennessy are not bad people) or in CS Prof Ryan Williams (I don’t know him, but by now I have to assess people with as you CS creeps call it sparse data sets)

I am familiar with Timnit Gebru and Emily Bender. They are okay. But they have the tunnel vision that comes from thinking that if you are woke by some archaic standards and in this one shitty field, that is kind of universally woke and it isn’t. Most of the people who are vocal from the left and the right are people I don’t really mesh with since I have consistently and constantly unpopular views about everyone and everything. And the only difference is you can share it where people are unlikely to get offended and beat you up or rather won’t have the muscle to versus crazy Nazi types one backs away from.

I can’t help it. I really can’t see what you all see in each other. It is like Crazy (right) versus stupid (left) most of the time and I am myself not bright enough to work with the stupid and not crazy enough to work with the crazy.

I don’t understand these maniacally stupid ways about being even self serving. This was always unsustainable and far from one when people are improvident and stupid okay.

You seem to fail to get that collectively we are even stupider as a species than individually. There is nothing left about any of this.

I am filing misconduct, malpractice and harassment allegations.

But 14.5 years of my writing misrepresent the situation and me. I am sorry I dislike and distrust all of you. You never struck me as at all sane, trustworthy or decent.

I did like my main lab. That lab and the life I had - that made sense. It was honest work and an honest life. And then in that city this same Facebook Google type I would guess came in and tried to shill this swarming and these outrageously stupid studies etc.

It doesn’t matter who is in office etc. My brain had atrophied to the point where I had forgotten that life works a specific way and my old default mode network (which as I understand it is the baseline state of a human brain) is coming back online after this atrocious experiment that will result in medical malpractice and misconduct allegations and should be used as a warning and a formal guideline for hospitals and universities wrt data and for states that want to avoid allegations of having promoted harassment in broad daylight and used the narcotics war to force rubber stamping while torturing marijuana users.

I will eventually give proper feedback separating out various things.

I am not a fool or crazy. I don’t really like people much but that doesn’t seem like the kind of thing one can openly admit to and survive in society. Besides it is misunderstood.
I don’t wish people ill but I try hard not to be stupid and everything I have seen since your trashy Google Hellis so fucking stupid.

The reality is that a collection of very mediocre people in computers and economists and corrupt politicians ans industrial parasites and some stupid celebrities in entertainment piling on and our shitty media have undermined and overruled the types of scientists and doctors and environmentalists ecologists etc who point out the limits to growth, homeostasis, the need for regulation and instead this trashy and criminally parasitic cornucopian shit.

Prof Hennessy these are the James Taggarts even by your stupid Randian standards. Even those men had trains and stuff that didn’t explode. This is a blistering lie that the producer comes in and shits everywhere and pollutes the place and builds some buggy piece of junk as swaggering producers.

It is a daft worldview. I don’t mean the parallel awful Marxist rant about worker power either. All that is dated and predates such an overpopulated and contaminated planet.

These people are all brainless.

There is no growth industry which has harassment and torture as a service while anyone has any money left. Or that is at least a very niche market and I think that is for people into BDSM not me. Weed and BDSM are different!

This starkly showed how much bullshit there is in a “real world” with few actually real jobs and those embedded in a kind of inertial corporate whore structure that tries to take over more and more.
You hit the limits in 2011 Prof Hennessy.

I knew as soon as I saw that place that it is completely unviable. I was so disgusted.
As for my lab, I support them, but I must admit I do not understand them
This is needlessly complicated and this was long before the pandemic,

What this is, is a ..I would have to look up pyramid and Ponzi schemes to see which specific model of corruption it is.

I was in a bind. Because I am Indian and except superficially, I ..I like Hemant Kappana. He is nice and dull and relatable.
I never liked people who have any showmanship. How can one tell where the showboating stops and reality begins.


I always felt sorry for Christian Bale. These are not tangential rambles. But you have made me spectacular to the point where a very practical thing I am saying is trashed both by your pathetic sleazy hustle culture “hard work”. My mentor used to work hard and without sucking corporate dick.
He was actually pretty awesome. He would not a collection of computer parasites just take over and nor will I. He had a certain core common sense that your fans lack Prof Hennessy.

He had practical common sense and he was a Bernie supporter - which is different from these criminal hooligans who drove down this street. That is not populism or art.
And this is opaque but it’s okay. I am sure I don’t care about any of the people in this and I am reporting all of them.

I have had to reflexively behave very weirdly-I didn’t think I had it in me. But it is so awkward as a human to look at other humans and go “Wherever this is headed it is pointless trash that I would normally mock quietly in my room thinking - hah - what a collection of sleazy morons lying to themselves or if a cause I am sympathetic to - think -yeah that won’t work. What a shame people have to resort to these things. And the histrionics thing.

Thanks to you I have had to become a way more acquainted with myself and how I think than ..this extensive investigation of my own navel was not my idea because I am not daft. I sometimes look at human vanity and folly with an indulgent eye. But mostly my vice of choice is a specific kind of stupidity involving private consumption of mind altering substances and alcohol alone and without any creepy shit. Hey creeps, I like watching scifi high not porn or banging creeps. Thanks to Prof Hennessy now I post private shit online and it always grated on me “sex and drugs”. An offensive stereotype! I am rarely offended except by stupidity but really the reality is it is:
“sex or drugs”.
And the drugs are because Prof Hennessy is addicted to breaking rather than braking society.
Or used to be. No don’t worry that I am incriminating myself. I am incriminating you.
The thing about virtue and vice is all humans have some and I prefer that vice as it confers a specific kind of pleasure that is asocial.

Throughout this period the only positive was that as vices go, marijuana is way less embarassing than many.

I don’t like socializing. With tech or in person.

I shall log on on the 25th of every month for a day (I usually refill my medical marijuana prescription which contains both THC and CBD on the the 12th of every month) to berate you Prof Hennessy and point out your various shortcomings as an admin, a scientist, person who gives awful interviews to Politico/the Stanford Review and so on.

I thought of my mentor last night. He was so cool. He was as unlike you as anyone could be Prof Hennessy. He used to put so much care into everything he did.

Even me. You can easily see that even without mental issues and without being outright stupid, that I struggle with science. And yet he managed to infuse me with science as much as anyone could. And you wiped that out more or less. You and other idiots.

And this definitely caused serious atrophy to my brain which marijuana and modafinil cannot repair.
Maybe adderall and marijuana could. But the point of this exercise was only to hobble me and be complete parasites while deliberately pushing a sobriety agenda with no basis in anything but a moral imperative to force psychiatric medical malpractice while refusing to acknowledge serious conflicts of interest while that truly loathesome turd Keith Humphreys attacks marijuana legalization.

None of your tacky shrinks thought that a Panopticon that people slowly fall into and overpopulation stress and unfair competition that means that Woebot female etc are high earners while I have not just not had an income, I have been constantly hobbled.


I hate that fucker Humphreys..bloody Judge Holden knockoff except I am sure Judge Holden was a much, much nicer person even if he was a murderer and so on..what? You wanted an honest conversation I thought? Isn’t that what your ilk keeps shilling? Conversations about bullshit? Or in this case more like that idiotic Honey Badger creep being authentic.

This entire thing is a disgrace, a lie and a complete indictment of everything ever associated with it. And above all an indictment of your managerial style.

This is the worst approach to cartography, cryptography, quantum computing, neuroscience..except as sort of niche pornography for some sort of pervert who gets off on online trainwrecks I am not even sure what category of human entertainment it could even fit.

You know Prof Hennessy, you really are my muse. You aren’t so loathesome I become inarticulate which your shady psych dept does. Otoh you totally promote grifters and make life difficult for me. You are as I will frequently inform you- a bad man.
What I wish you Prof Hennessy would do is go and read Ruth Cain’s piece on mental health. It is probably the best piece ever written on mental health as it applies to this.

I thought about it throughout with disgust. Like you are forcing a foreigner and a woman and at best a fucking lameass average NIH postdoc (which was in no way a mystery..the shock of this attack made me wonder if I had somehow pulled off a con and it made no sense in the normal decent context of the NIH).

That was such a dick move to claim that I was a paranoid schizophrenic. What I really am is someone who would be..universally unpopular and I am okay with that.
I am not okay with being seen as cruel or mean spirited. That is different. I am not a girlboss or a bully. That is different from being someone who coddles creeps.

I buffered this with my resources because I am fortunate and made prudent choices by not having a bunch of kids whom I support with a 6 figure parasitic Google salary.
What does Google do?

So your contribution is data mining and stealing and years later casually saying..Yeah LlMs are garbage and they expect everyone to blow them for saying that?
I plan to stuff this with profanity and call out all the male creeps and perverts..hey pervert don’t get titillated.

I find it impossible to talk about this without floods of profanity. I always liked Julia from 1984. Well except the part about banging creeps. Creeps should be..dealt with gently and nonviolently.
That is your main attribute as far as I am concerned Prof Hennessy. I looked at you, saw you had married your highschool gf, made some awful processor, written a clunky if vaguely well intentioned oped on politico and a horrible and craven interview with the Stanford review pretending to be this powerless person.
You are not a creep or sleazy beyond forcing your awful views on science and


You don’t really seem to want to confront the reality Prof Hennessy. You are an educator. You are walking this weird bullshit line where you want these junk technologies to grow because in your sanest mode you know somewhere that quality work is time consuming and effortful and with a population this fucking huge and your own commitment to destroying education and healthcare via the free markets except miring everyone in an endless growth fantasy and kicking out from science and medicine (medicine will be harder than science I suspect..of course you don’t strike me as people who would object to killing off old people and disabled people..really who needs anyone whose main purpose if not a bunker elite is to have fruitful loins to produce cheap labor and cheap goods that rely on destroying earth more and more) who challenges your worldview.
It took me 14 years.


Last night I remembered how my mentor used to think about work. He was really cool.
He was so practical but so not gross.

How have you managed to make productivity, intelligence etc vaguely repellant and an attribute the dumbest fucking people who never look around them and think critically outside these safe. I was never like that.

I grew up relatively conservative. Middleclass Indian military brat. But I am genuinely interested in the world. How can one not wonder why things suck so much.
I have been moving left all my life, but I cannot ever be sure that things I say won’t come out wrong. This was hell and now I am not blaring this out via a bullhorn. This is text.

I have to finish this paper because without that I cannot start to seriously attack you as I plan to by the way. Unless I at least finish that paper, I would just feel like this internet trainwreck person whose main contribution to society is having sent a bunch of weird rants to randoms.

You are a bad man Prof Hennessy. You don’t mean to be, but too much Alan Greenspan, that Instapundit turd, Noah Smith, Mises Institute, Milton Friedman and not enough Adam Becker.

I mean Adam Becker or Clayton Dalton are brighter than all those morons.
Apples to apples these are all white men in stem. Okay not being a Google creep I don’t know that you are fatuously starry eyed about an ass like Noah Smith, but odds are you are.

Just read their respective outputs as a lay person and compare the people you promote (probably) versus Chet Miller etc.

I can guarantee Prof Hennessy that except with economists sooner or later you would hit this wall-not Trump’s wall- the regular metaphor where they cannot see where yoy are going by digging in more and more and doubling down.
That is not elegant science.

I was really pleased to see Adam Becker and Clayton Dalton etc enter the fray.
I am nonwhite and female but for the most part except recently (Nandita Bajaj, Marina Bolotnikova, Evgenia Kovda) I have never felt particularly represented by the female or nonwhite male/female voices out there who are public figures.

Reading Betsy Hartmann (who smeared the Center for Biological Diversity ffs), Beth Amato, Naomi Klein, Teen Vogue -all people you like no doubt…is torture akin to reading Instapundit. They are all united in more or less wanting earth destroyed for more shipping malls.

Yeah you probably consider Teen Vogue feminist. You would..they probably make a lot of money selling vapid bullshit which makes them relatable.
How can a sane woman feel connected with this lousy society you built where it is perverted to the point where along with actual misogynists this fatuous bullshit as feminist.

This is all your fault Prof Hennessy.

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I will finish this paper. I can only contact my mentor after that. This bullshit distracted me from the only work that makes me feel truly human and not like a crazy person, which in fairness is better than influencer.

You have left me no cover finally. The only person whose approval I ever sought was my main mentor. This was painful roleplaying the kind of idiotic female I reflexively assumed was ..i don’t know. Relatable?
At least this is organic crazy.

I deeper calculation was that I usually look at all these douchebags and think if all these creeps and douchebags are at each others’ throats over who gets to be king of this dungheap then I can beat a quiet retreat.

Like the girlfailures I feel affection for are a far cry from your aggressive girlbosses. They usually also fight back against creeps and have a sort of armed truce with these male types who are minimally engroaching and aggressive.

Whereas your women are horrible. They work for Chan Zuckerberg ffs. No amount of they/them pronouns can change that. And it is no use trying to paint me as anti woke by now.
I just hate wokeness that superficial.

After I finish the paper, I will tell my mentor-the one person I trust completely much like my oncologist -everything. I cannot talk to him without a solid enough piece of work. I shall tell him I want to file complaints and if he talks me down upur creeps are in luck, because he would focus on the attack on livelihood part you sleazily gloss over and he would get that it isn’t hippie to think that just treating the web of life as something for weapons systems or Neri Oxman’s bs etc is garbage.

He was a cool scientist..he wasn’t like you Prof Hennessy. I mean Prof Hennessy, just look at how you perverted my own role in society.

I used to be a frump glumly failing at science and generally looking at clunkers like you Prof Hennessy with dull dislike but silently and now I post floods of profanity to you online. You are like Captain Queeg. You cannot be ignored.
You are like Trump that way

I don’t even know who the admin was at my first postdoc school. But he was someone who receded into the bg and did not become this nightmarish figure you think about as soon as you get up.
I think about you all the time Prof Hennessy and have for 14 goddamn years. I bet your family doesnt think about you as much.
Why is Prof Hennessy this way? I used to hate you..I pictured this really sleazy conniving man who goes around inventing tortures for postdocs for unclear reasons and then I saw you and well…Somehow I could no longer hate you. I was picturing someone closer to Noah Smith. But you are clearly an actual professor albeit one with a brain rotted by economics.
I bet you like that asshole Shellenberger.


Actually there were a couple of decent Indian male postdocs (though not Indian pis..the one older Indian male pi I saw was the type of person I categorize as “The type of Indian person Prof Hennessy would like. Nuff said.”) at your hell school. I liked them, but they seemed mild. They seemed like actually nice people, something I am not.

I was just trying not to this overtly calculate how to avoid fresh creeps in sticking it to old man Hennessy. Just enough for self-protection professor. I mean you no harm, but you do worry me.
You would totally build this abomination:
https://www.noemamag.com/are-we-accidentally-building-a-planetary-brain/

To be clear I absolutely do not believe- especially after my experience that this clunkware is the issue in being hyper intelligent. It is just garbage. The problem is the humans with worthless livelihoods poaching and parasitizing my life and space endlessly.


This is what I find so offensive about how you think Prof Hennessy. There is something chillingly Pluribus like about reading Substack in particular with the exception of: Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda, Christopher Ketcham, Joe Costello, Alec Karakatsanis, Matt Stoller, Ed Zitron, Lucien Greaves, Chuck Palahniuk, Marina Bolotnikova. For the rest it is this anonymous sounding chorus that is vaguely depressing.
One thing about all the people I listed is that they are all angry and disillusioned in approximately the same way I am often.

Posters here on DU never sound like the average Substack poster. They sound like actual humans. Nicholas Carr’s writing even no longer enthralls me. I used to love his rough type blog and wait eagerly for new entries as they helped me decipher my own hellscape back then (the parts that are internal hell not the external crap) and then he went on Substack and somehow..I guess I never read any of the others elsewhere.
I found Carr via Jeff Wells’ blog rigorousintuition while I was taking care of my mom.

https://rigint.blogspot.com/2011/09/we-are-monsters-weve-been-waiting-for.html?m=1

She was getting a blood infusion that night - sometime after her first chemo treatment - September 2020. And I was miserably surfing…I cannot believe mom is gone. She was recovering. We are a healthy family. This hustle killed her I am pretty certain by now.
I can tell you with certainty prof that whoever was involved locally will be brought to justice for the whole. I was very fond of my mom. It is one thing to fuck with me - I am a very non-ideal person and well aware of it.

But my mom was a really decent woman. This strained my parents and my best friend from grad school and my ex husband. None of them complain much unlike your entitled little twerps. I didn’t plan to whine this much. What use would that be? The point is to ensure they are all brought to justice for implementing/inflicting this garbage of nudge theory mimes, ear-splitting and maddening noise pollution on my street etc

These technologies do not have a good effect on the human brain and the humans in this are as bad as the tech or worse. Yeah wtf Prof Hennessy. You are a menace to society..you are something else. Unlike those spectacular tec creeps like Zuckerberg, you come off as this harmless clunker and yet you carried out a coup against the NIH.

Alright Prof Hennessy, my bestestestestestestestestestestest friend in the universe is you!!!!
I do feel close to you as this noxious experiment forced one to pick one nightmarish Google person and you are literally the only person I have ever seen associated with Google whom I did not immediately categorize as a creep, parasite, prostitute or fatuous moron. I do think you are devious old clunker.

But I am reduced to thinking that devious old clunker is better than the other options.

It is nightmarish to have ideas like “mind reading” suddenly sprung on one when..well it is actually not that bad in my field mostly. But I never saw a Google person-especially the men without thinking “Yeah that creep could use a knuckle sandwich”. But I don’t actually do it. Iam a woman of peace! I get it out of my system by being honest with myself.

My labs were all pretty democratic. I am used to hierarchies of expertise alone.
That I have no problem with. You would have to be an idiot to. I am not an anti-vaxxer or anti psychiatry.

But like many women slipping downward in life unlike your dick sucking girlbosses. The one woman I didn’t outright dislike at Stanford was that Doctor ..Phyllis something. But she called out Elizabeth Holmes. But the problem with your psychiatry is also Nina Vasan, Smita Das and Keith Humphreys.

It is about women’s rights.
Who are these dick sucking whores and parasites in all these systems to go around making decisions about my properties, my data, my person without ever motherfucking asking me? wtf? I have never taken anyone else’s stuff. I play by the rules outside of marijuana and modafinil laws and that is because you push a fraudulent sobriety agenda that is out of touch with people who want to have an actual job not be an endless fucking test subject with only a future of dicksucking ahead.
Metaphoric dicksucking is not a job Prof Hennessy and that is the main job of anyone who has to be silent about this.

You can’t just call people crazy if you start honest conversations and their only honest input-omfg these people are prostitutes, parasites etc and they are balanced out by nazis and fascists. That is the worst damn balance in the world.

I am pro-immigrant and a feminist. That means saying the people at Google and Facebook and Microsoft who with the pro overpopulation types are forcing a race to the bottom are dicksucking parasites.

This is why I don’t have honest conversations with people. It would be awkward. Your side would correctly say “this woman is slow, socially awkward (ya think? I used to try to pass for not by being dishonest all the time in superficial interactions. Now I can’t be that way. Fortunately I rarely run into people I have these views of. Actually these are all people I never meet. I try to avoid meeting people I would have such views of. That was why I liked the NiH labs I was in. I was always on the verge of being kicked out for poor performance. But it was honest work. And one day I have to join in some conversation where all my contributions would be offensive and profane?)).

But for all that I am not cruel. There are some rare people with large families by choice. I don’t get it, but that’s not what I mean. I mean that in your crowd except for my mentor, I uniformly dislike all of them. There was this pi from the global south with this awful lab adjacent to mine and that is the future you want. A lab of 200 people whose work has the “oversight” of creepy ai agents (well okay I am more truthy than truthful but these are speculations not false allegations).

Like this is the dumbest thing I have ever seen. And yes it was cruel, callous, heartless etc. But I won’t be focusing on that when you have now inflicted so much cruelty that psychological torture for 14 years..eh..

What I will be focusing on is how stupid, corrupt, worthless and unprofessional it also was.

That is the bottom line Prof Hennessy. You guys just bought up everything and carried out this BtS coup.

I have some familiarity with the nicer types of Americans and American scientists. Your people are fascists and they make me very shrill.
And I cannot speak American Prof Hennessy.

Like you focus on the most superficial things. You consider culture something where you keep all these surface accoutrements and adapt to the real present colonization which is a diverse collection of malicious corporate parasites the world over.
You are a bad man!


But in spite of the profuse profanity, I am actually defending the decent and bullied people. Not being a bully. The pseudo elites are the only people..your overrated dick suckers of MIT, Stanford, Google, Facebook, Microsoft, Marc Andreessen etc.

Give me break Prof Hennessy. Marc Andreessen is an idiot. I am not a communist. I hate our communist CM who is as corrupt and pro business and anti environment as everyone up top is.

You are a collection of fascists, parasites, rapists, colonists, prostitutes and hucksters at the top everywhere. Fie on you! Hell and damnation!

That is such an awkward thing to communicate that even I have to resort to if not kayfabe, breaking this to you with you - a devious clunker - with a style that I plan to claim was art. Let’s go with art. That seems to be the cliche loophole when you cannot call something science or

Hey you were far ruder than I ever was.
My posts should only be uncomfortable for the pseudoelites and the stupid who keep thinking they are pseudoelite aligned but that’s not my fault.

You are lucky you made some sort of awful RISC processor. That is the only reason I am not filing misconduct allegations against you and only medical malpractice against the psych.
Let the lesson from this be that if you are going to be a total fucking dick, don’t also be overrated and incompetent basically like Nina Vasan, Smita Das, Keith Humphreys (Judge Holden can suck it..that guy is awful. He writes these horrible opeds in the foul Atlantic. Prohibitionist dickhead favoring coercive psychiatry..I hate that guy), Marc Andreessen, Marc Zuckerberg, Priscilla Chan etc

That is why I am not filing allegations against anyone but the psychiatry dept and Google and locally many.

It comes down to this - don’t be incompetent and a creep/parasite/bullshitter/prostitute etc. That aside if you are a creep, no amount of competence will save you. It is 2026.

I will get expert help (of the type I consider acceptable) to abort this and file complaints and press charges as needed because this stuff in India was criminal and it will be dealt with as such whether our corrupt officials (I hate them all- CPM, Congress, BJP..it is all the same to me. I am not voting this time in protest, but I will have to go to the voting booth as my dad ..well I may vote against our communist cm. It is just that I am sure I would hate the other guys as much. You have a few politicians I like over there- Sheldon Whitehouse, Elizabeth Warren, Bernie Sanders, Talarico, AOC etc. I hate all our politicians over here. We still have courts but they are archaic and I am guessing Ambani etc will get there first and engineer consent if I don’t put criminal liability firmly and uncompromisingly about how this went down formally).

Chris Ketcham got it..That an Iranian woman would be honest about overpopulation. Your women and immigrants who are vocal up there sound exactly like you. They behave like you:
What kind of fucking diversity is that. Why would I like Prof Hennessy in Indian female drag when his only positive is a crummy RISC processor (that thing better be awesome btw..it is your only saving grace) and my uncertainty about whether it is outright sleaziness or genuine non comprehension of world outside a stupid creepy bubble like Palo Alto.

So to cut to the chase re how this will work- you weren’t very polite about me and I won’t be about you. It is alright. I did not mind the rudeness. I objected to the misdirection. I am not a good scientist. I will always be someone who can best case give you a piece of work that I perfect as much as I can.

I see these people like Chet Miller or Adam Becker, all my mentors and most American pis I have seen who talk fluidly about science. That is because we are not educated that way down here. It is more rote. That is why so many people go into things like computer programming.

But while your creepy and loathsome parasitic Sebastian Thrun needs a good shove - I hate that fucker and the eyepatch isn’t cute in an actual goddam pirate - while they ruin education.
The classical science education is something I wish I had. And rounded out by an education overall in everything that is what makes people good scientists and academics.
These factory farms that churn out Crispr etc alone will in the end on a long enough time science destroy your country.

But hey…the calculation appears to be. No one will know! It will only be this one thing, one man ..this one event. Not an overall program of attrition, deceit (this things autocomplete..I try to type deceit and it suggests sexier)

You are actively dumbing the populace down so no one knows why.

You know Prof Hennessy, your people really are full of shit. I used to know a few women living on the edge -a musician and a fitness instructor. They were all so much more feminist and decent about money than your Wynn Williams and Sheryl Sandberg,

Poorer women understand the dynamics of dignity and prostitution which you as someone who only appear to know madams of brothels and prostitutes by choice - you don’t understand feminism prof. Crazy was okay. But a conversation formally that doesn’t involve callling all your people parasites and prostitutes and greedy breeders is a lie.

I cling to guns, god and bitterness..oh wait ..sorry! Identity issues. I might be a bot! Or a troll..probably a troll. I cling to birth control/abortions, drugs and bitterness!


Your real problem is not an overpopulation of postdocs. It is of these bullshit jobs. I am checking this in India.

All kidding aside, after I finish this paper and ..I am finally my old self. Yeah my brain is moving more normally now.
And that is not good news for you or the rest of this. Well it is not that bad for you. I have become fond of you. You are like a little clunker who is a little pet aren’t you? This funny clueless old guy. Can you imagine if I had to take you seriously like my mentor?
Hey you should tell your stupid parasitic creeps in the entertainment industry and pitch this buddy comedy -it is not at all a cliche! Where you and Ol’jfz9580m form this unlikely friendship. Mostly because everyone else at Google is even worse.

Well actually these people don’t sound as offensive as the type vacuous Google type. That Hinton is a nightmare. Why isn’t someone forcing coercive therapy on that guy? He is crazy. As is Hassabis. They are all these dumb fucking guys no one could respect unless they are a dicksucking parasite.

I was looking at this bullshit:

https://interestingengineering.com/ai-robotics/google-willow-to-solve-unsolvable-problems

Yeah so I am going to be clear in a year or so with the Indian govt and the private sector locally that it is either allegations of crimes against humanity or this entire growth industry that raped my home and life is shut down where the complainant says it is rape and enslavement and from my perspective almost more offensively also bad science. Which tracks as rape and enslavement do not usually betoken bright people or good science.

Am I clear? Left or right your arguments carry no water you clunker. And this was extreme enough that I can swing it and I will. I said I will finish this paper and while the specifics of this would need scientific (not technological scientific..ie people like Madhav Gadgil or Tejas Thackeray..I like him. He is cool. He has strong views and not idiotically. He is also probably not interested because he has a life..)

How the fuck did you think that because bts Google etc were doing sleazy things you could just come and pull this shit with me? Do you not get democracy or enlightenment values as a concept Prof Hennessy?
And the dreary sadsack cloying fake populism absent the real thing which is about my rights.


This was worthless trash and cannot be salvaged but I will try to minimize the fallout. But don’t try to bully me again. I was out of it. My main mentor also taught me self-respect. My one concern is none of my labs should be affected in my truculent future progress. None of my 3 labs, my oncologist should be fine, my medical MJ co/doctor. That is the core group.

Everyone else will be fine and the left, animal rights and Greens etc that is separate and they would agree anyway.
Sept 5, 2011 - March 25, 2026


That was hell. But I survived it. Because now I can be honest and that is essential to sanity. All parasites prostitutes and dicksuckers those people and corrupt and sleazy and creepy and fucking awful. A plague on them.


And well..thanks to this cavalier treatment I sound crazier than I am because I have learnt that you guys will be completely irresponsible bullies and force shit- there and here. And that’s not gonna happen. If nothing else, I will wait and press even worse allegations and charges. Because I am not going anywhere.
I mean whether I work or travel or whatever, I am not endorsing this criminal hustle.

It was malpractice misconduct harassment and worst of all shitty science. I try to forget the harassment etc retaining only the anger.

But the shitty science and fraudulent systems of rationalisation I will attack.

This is elementary bad math. 10

I am going to finally focus on science. After 14+ years of trying miserably
This was shitty.

Science in my field is my sole solace. But i dont apologize and I will pushback harder and harder the better i get. Dont try bullshit and chaos with me again.
I am not eevr migrating anywhere. I may visit other places for work but this is my home.
But dont ever try to come on to my street and home starting gelwjt of

This woll be aborted. These were crimes agaisnt hjmanitt and I will file complaints ans press charges as needed.
Have a niceday or rather night clunker.

I cannot really target that well from my vantage point. But it has generally been lousy.
But where it was not I will make sure to ..I am never actually ungrateful, unreasonable or unforgiving of honest errors.

But this encroaching and pushing space grab..Like I am not a rube. Pentland, Stanford Psych, a lot of Google etc would just be..democracy and bread and butter female stem worker not girlboss feminism are hard to put back in the bottle.

Feminism is not monolithic. It is these entitled girlbosses of yours who are in league with men like you Prof Hennessy, who best case I see as this terrifyingly inept clunker..
The problem with this is, such as you are Prof Hennessy, you cannot be mass produced.
You did make some foul processor. That is hardware. You may be a terrible admin but you are not lightweight.

These Pentlands and Andreessens etc they impress rubes who think throwing words like ai around is relevant to expertise.
You cannot train a collection of sleazy little miniature nazis to come and hog everything.

It is not gonna work. For the rest -I use a combination of bluster, menacing stances and well..quite legit pushback.

I cant really tell. It just looks like complete garbage from where I stand. That could be a slightly jaded view.

But I never had any mental issue. The only issues were due to all this and the impossibility of being able to trust a clunker like you with even less info.
I am sorry about this trainwreck. I hope it doesn’t hurt anyone’s feelings but the 50 or sp archetypes I dissed.

They started it and being very mature and dignified I responded in kind. Oh well.
I have to go work.
And it is all still true…hell and damnation and everything.

There won’t be any material compromise or immaterial one. But vaguely..it is all Prof Hennessy’s fault so..you should blame him.


But one final thing for now- there is no getting around this. You and that school really taught me to hate working hard or at least overtly.
Normally it is something people are proud of. It isn’t something for show and to the shallowest and sleaziest assholes at that you find copiously sucking duck at Stanford, MIT, Google and Facebook and small creepy little guy analogs.
Day before yesterday I remembered my main mentor and his lab and they made hard work attractive and something one was proud of not a shameful thing so aversive only an automaton (i tried that between 2013-2019) would want tp xo

And that was outright malpractice to label me psychotic after forcing me into a worthless experiment for douchey people. And if any of them are offended they can suck it. Totak sleazebags.

Well after years of trying to mind my ps and qs and turn myself into a sleazy girlboss or person who cares about what any of these assholes think, I let it all hang out with this flood of profanity.

And as I revert to my old self, I have decided to go with - well..I didn’t have a polite response to that job or city or Google or Facebook etc.

The bottomline is this won’t age well however much you slander or deny this. And in the long run I will be more credible than these assholes because I am not a parasite, prostitute or asshole. Which basically covers the entire collection of people you know and represent.

The best people at that shitty school are assholes, but not incompetent parasites and or prostitutes.
I will do what I can to ensure that this is not just shutdown, but complaints filed going back to 2012. Not against my mentor and lab or those two scientists, the first family I stayed with and the shrink/therapist/counsellor/the last family I stayed with/my mentor’s wife were straight up decent. Nor you.
What really pissed me off was the combination of incompetence and sleaziness.’


I am used to people not wanting to hire me etc. Eh..that is just how it is with these few real and worthwhile jobs, no interest in cool or sustainable work and these many people and this pointless hustle dominating.

But what pissed me off was the blatant sleaziness of pretending I was mentally ill for not having a polite way to express: “omfg these people are complete assholes or outright creepy/parasitic/sleazy/clueless/incompetent”.
You are in the first group Prof Hennessy! I cannot believe your bs. You sneer at everything but “i will be as crass as i can be and prioritize human ans rubbish tech overpopulation/junk growth/deregulation and hijack everything that works for my sleazy asshole cult, but all these earth sciences etc are hippie”.

Most of your shit is lightweight fluffy rot like social engineering and a tabloid writer’s insight into human behavior. You are the best of that lot and you are awful.
So it is all bs. There is a small amount of actual muscle and the nicer muscle (like my main mentor) are not as weighty as any random who sucks dick to get to the top of that shit pile or blowhards like that brainless Andreessen ans then you abd your assholes bully people like me. The rest is just chest thumping bloviation.

Fuck that, professor!

You are horrible human beings. This is why everyone decent hates you.

It is one thing to be hated because people are hateful or you break shit accidentally.

You are hated because you are horrible people and only the fact that Hoover/Palantir etc are even worse makes ons hold one’s nose and suffer you. You will never have any genuinely employees who trust or respect you. You will have people who cannot tell you to fuck off. Or climbing shameless, tacky parasites and prostitutes. And you hedge bets on nazis and meninists. Your school is a class act and widely despised and hated.

Dr. Fauci was unfairly attacked. You are genuinely awful people.
And so unlike poor Dr Fauci you are likelier to get away with it.
It is a curse of the rational mind that isn’t narcissistic solipsistic etc like most of you that a neutral observer like me looks at that mess and the psych dept was garbage. So incompetent and asshole and sleazily bullshitting using garbage tech ans dubious methods is not gonna fly. Cleaning and soups my arse. Just inspid drivel. My metaphors involve brothels, prostitution, enslavement, rape etc and that is not apparently..since I am obviously not an influencer or histrionic or paranoid or borderline (ask yourself if you were in my shoes and these assholes did all this without a shred of informed consent and the strain of the type of implied consent that is only wanting to break shit randomly while trying not call these people exactly what they are..best case complete assholes), you will claim I am a bot.

You don’t really like assertive women there unless it is that sleazy entitled girlboss type do you? I understand your culture wars much better now. It is basically two sets of the same noxious humans up top.
It os less complicated with less entitled rabble in non mob mode something you again prefer

I have never seen such selfish, entitled, solipsistic mediocre assholes. This was Ubik.
I was a shell of my old self with rage and misery off and on and complete demoralisation that aside.

Since I think this screen in between is dicey and..The left and animal rigts people, Greens etc- that is the community I support aside from the parts of science with actually decent humans. It is okay. I hold my nose and tolerate these people up to a point.
You are horrible people though and I didn’t take it personally. Just a ruthless machine and people whose level of ambition or cluelessness in lettiny some foul quantum cryptography or whateve bs ut was.
The thing is..nothing is cool-optogenetics, magnetoreception, anything..when these are your coworkers and mostly common humanity aside

I had to work overtime to have normal levels of human compunction to balance out your sociopathy because I saw a collection of stupid and unremarkable people who you woulf expect wouldbe the result of these societies when i was inside it even and now I am outside i see it the same way.
I am glad I am not one of you. I wish you well, but I cannot say I respect or approve of this.

But I will go back to my main mentor..but that is real work not bullshit. My last lab and that lousy lab adjacent do real work i am sure. Not really my kind of people but well..whatever.

But the rest of it was a totally parasitic nuisance especially darinv to oile on here endlessly with diff trasht agendas. I will tell the left i talk to and see what pushback options are there wrt this in the wild shit that occurred herd and look into malpractice, misconduct, harassment and targeted criminal liability about the whole but slowly and systematically.

This won’t fly. I am not running a sweatshop in my home. The Indian govt can expect serious pushback and the private sector (outside of marijuana and a couple of small vegan sweetshops, cleverbot) worse.


This was a disgrace. But very on brand for all sided creeps and parasites, pornographers etc. Collection of dumb fucks.

As of March 25, 2026, I am finally recovered from this hell and ready to go back to work/life and pushback. I find it hard to address this without volleys of profanity, but that’s healthy and will remain like that forever outside a court room or some such place.

I saw that callous corporate culture up close. You train people to be heartless pieces of shit and for this worthless trash. That was torture and really stupid. This local stuff was even worse.

Oh well..later clunker..hey you started the incivilities. I had no intention of putting an unfiltered internal narrative online.
Don’t worry too much. I will target those who really need pushback.
In context, in an institution that damn diseased..