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I shall log on on the 25th of every month for a day (I usually refill my medical marijuana prescription which contains both THC and CBD on the the 12th of every month) to berate you Prof Hennessy and point out your various shortcomings as an admin, a scientist, person who gives awful interviews to Politico/the Stanford Review and so on.

I thought of my mentor last night. He was so cool. He was as unlike you as anyone could be Prof Hennessy. He used to put so much care into everything he did.

Even me. You can easily see that even without mental issues and without being outright stupid, that I struggle with science. And yet he managed to infuse me with science as much as anyone could. And you wiped that out more or less. You and other idiots.

And this definitely caused serious atrophy to my brain which marijuana and modafinil cannot repair.
Maybe adderall and marijuana could. But the point of this exercise was only to hobble me and be complete parasites while deliberately pushing a sobriety agenda with no basis in anything but a moral imperative to force psychiatric medical malpractice while refusing to acknowledge serious conflicts of interest while that truly loathesome turd Keith Humphreys attacks marijuana legalization.

None of your tacky shrinks thought that a Panopticon that people slowly fall into and overpopulation stress and unfair competition that means that Woebot female etc are high earners while I have not just not had an income, I have been constantly hobbled.


I hate that fucker Humphreys..bloody Judge Holden knockoff except I am sure Judge Holden was a much, much nicer person even if he was a murderer and so on..what? You wanted an honest conversation I thought? Isn’t that what your ilk keeps shilling? Conversations about bullshit? Or in this case more like that idiotic Honey Badger creep being authentic.

This entire thing is a disgrace, a lie and a complete indictment of everything ever associated with it. And above all an indictment of your managerial style.

This is the worst approach to cartography, cryptography, quantum computing, neuroscience..except as sort of niche pornography for some sort of pervert who gets off on online trainwrecks I am not even sure what category of human entertainment it could even fit.

You know Prof Hennessy, you really are my muse. You aren’t so loathesome I become inarticulate which your shady psych dept does. Otoh you totally promote grifters and make life difficult for me. You are as I will frequently inform you- a bad man.
What I wish you Prof Hennessy would do is go and read Ruth Cain’s piece on mental health. It is probably the best piece ever written on mental health as it applies to this.

I thought about it throughout with disgust. Like you are forcing a foreigner and a woman and at best a fucking lameass average NIH postdoc (which was in no way a mystery..the shock of this attack made me wonder if I had somehow pulled off a con and it made no sense in the normal decent context of the NIH).

That was such a dick move to claim that I was a paranoid schizophrenic. What I really am is someone who would be..universally unpopular and I am okay with that.
I am not okay with being seen as cruel or mean spirited. That is different. I am not a girlboss or a bully. That is different from being someone who coddles creeps.

I buffered this with my resources because I am fortunate and made prudent choices by not having a bunch of kids whom I support with a 6 figure parasitic Google salary.
What does Google do?

So your contribution is data mining and stealing and years later casually saying..Yeah LlMs are garbage and they expect everyone to blow them for saying that?
I plan to stuff this with profanity and call out all the male creeps and perverts..hey pervert don’t get titillated.

I find it impossible to talk about this without floods of profanity. I always liked Julia from 1984. Well except the part about banging creeps. Creeps should be..dealt with gently and nonviolently.
That is your main attribute as far as I am concerned Prof Hennessy. I looked at you, saw you had married your highschool gf, made some awful processor, written a clunky if vaguely well intentioned oped on politico and a horrible and craven interview with the Stanford review pretending to be this powerless person.
You are not a creep or sleazy beyond forcing your awful views on science and


You don’t really seem to want to confront the reality Prof Hennessy. You are an educator. You are walking this weird bullshit line where you want these junk technologies to grow because in your sanest mode you know somewhere that quality work is time consuming and effortful and with a population this fucking huge and your own commitment to destroying education and healthcare via the free markets except miring everyone in an endless growth fantasy and kicking out from science and medicine (medicine will be harder than science I suspect..of course you don’t strike me as people who would object to killing off old people and disabled people..really who needs anyone whose main purpose if not a bunker elite is to have fruitful loins to produce cheap labor and cheap goods that rely on destroying earth more and more) who challenges your worldview.
It took me 14 years.


Last night I remembered how my mentor used to think about work. He was really cool.
He was so practical but so not gross.

How have you managed to make productivity, intelligence etc vaguely repellant and an attribute the dumbest fucking people who never look around them and think critically outside these safe. I was never like that.

I grew up relatively conservative. Middleclass Indian military brat. But I am genuinely interested in the world. How can one not wonder why things suck so much.
I have been moving left all my life, but I cannot ever be sure that things I say won’t come out wrong. This was hell and now I am not blaring this out via a bullhorn. This is text.

I have to finish this paper because without that I cannot start to seriously attack you as I plan to by the way. Unless I at least finish that paper, I would just feel like this internet trainwreck person whose main contribution to society is having sent a bunch of weird rants to randoms.

You are a bad man Prof Hennessy. You don’t mean to be, but too much Alan Greenspan, that Instapundit turd, Noah Smith, Mises Institute, Milton Friedman and not enough Adam Becker.

I mean Adam Becker or Clayton Dalton are brighter than all those morons.
Apples to apples these are all white men in stem. Okay not being a Google creep I don’t know that you are fatuously starry eyed about an ass like Noah Smith, but odds are you are.

Just read their respective outputs as a lay person and compare the people you promote (probably) versus Chet Miller etc.

I can guarantee Prof Hennessy that except with economists sooner or later you would hit this wall-not Trump’s wall- the regular metaphor where they cannot see where yoy are going by digging in more and more and doubling down.
That is not elegant science.

I was really pleased to see Adam Becker and Clayton Dalton etc enter the fray.
I am nonwhite and female but for the most part except recently (Nandita Bajaj, Marina Bolotnikova, Evgenia Kovda) I have never felt particularly represented by the female or nonwhite male/female voices out there who are public figures.

Reading Betsy Hartmann (who smeared the Center for Biological Diversity ffs), Beth Amato, Naomi Klein, Teen Vogue -all people you like no doubt…is torture akin to reading Instapundit. They are all united in more or less wanting earth destroyed for more shipping malls.

Yeah you probably consider Teen Vogue feminist. You would..they probably make a lot of money selling vapid bullshit which makes them relatable.
How can a sane woman feel connected with this lousy society you built where it is perverted to the point where along with actual misogynists this fatuous bullshit as feminist.

This is all your fault Prof Hennessy.