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Well Prof Hennessy as of March 22, 2026, I am as recovered from the effects of your nightmarish Google University as one can be.

The only reason I put up with this very unfair and mean-spirited deal was out of respect for my mentor and colleagues of a specific type or people I am sympathetic to. I can be sympathetic to a broader range of people than many with narrower loyalties. It is the gift and the curse of not really having any tribe so much as a non-histrionic understanding of reality and not being okay with bending the truth as I see it. I am a terrible liar and well..I am a complainant and desirous of extricating anyone or anything I would be explicitly genuinely sympathetic to. But with the deal I had-so ott..I was broken into this overnight in 2011. And I was isolated throughout because your people are assholes Prof Hennessy.


Look there is no way to dress this up and I am not going to. This is serious. I have never had to “cover” for NIH scientists (my main mentor is especially respectable and rare, but even my other two mentors were decent- I tend to think of my mentor as the classical educator or scientist. Yeah he is white, male and American and your country’s identity politics are going down the corrupt votebank politics of India that the corrupt and kinda sleazy Congress + the Chomsky/Arundhati Roy type of self centred narcissist who likes the sound of their own voice, bouncing off the similarly corrupt pro corporate parasitism neoliberals or hardcore religious nuts.. like those people are all garbage abd care about absolutely nothing. But the actual left-like say Jean Dreze or Medha Patkar-they are different. My mom never objected to the real left. These Chomsky and Jacobin types are ..I have been forced to be this abrasive and combative. They are like that and they radicalize the nicer conservatives. This totally entitled, self -centred moralizer of either type who.
I dont care about what people think about me. Why are they thinking about anyone as extravagantly dull as I am? The weed and the reefer madness thing plus I have a lot of cancer on my mom’s side of the family and a schizophrenic great grandmother. I am sane.

I have never had mental health issues. This wss thr sleaziest trashiest phoniest thing I ever saw. I deliberately drank excessively etc sometimes. But that is not addiction. It is a choice that conveys the message “fuck this trashy and improvident society that keeps on having bullshit jobs and shopping and breeding excessively based on those while lying about the worth of such pointless jobs-like a subset of your creepy and loud Google parasites Prof Hennessy.. Odds are I would like some people even at Google but way fewer than in an average “not a cult” environment”.
And I do not see how any of the people who I would mesh with in corporate environments could openly be friendly. They would be like my mom who left physics and went into banking and regretted it. She couldn’t go further in physics or she would have. But she despised neoliberalism and saw it as the fount of bullshit. She despised Aravind Panagariya..this sleazy Indian economist who sits around sniffing his own farts in the US and writing condescendingly about “freebies to the poor” in India and if this overrated, fatass piece of shit could pervert language and metaphors to make this invasion of my personal space and life a “freebie” rather than a vicious parasitic attack, that bloody second rate overrated narcissist would. I really hate parasites like those.

My mentor was one of the few very positive influences in my life a long time back. He has actual scientific muscle and he is a Bernie supporter and a humanist, not a bag of wind like Panagariya.

We are shaped by our experiences. I am not particularly insular so I am open to all people with some non compromising views on creeps, sleazebags, assorted dimwitted perverts and the types of people who tend to thrive in these creepy systems being built-which are creepy, extortionate and perverse.

These guys are destroying both India and the US and it is not immigrants. It is not white supremacy either. If you choose the worst politics possible it will either be majority group parasite as right with some flunkies or the most useless kind of “left” that mainly attacks the parts of the left that are not enabling the worst of these parasites like Panagariya or Milton Friedman etc. These people are overrated parasites not elites and except CS (which has devolved shamefully from people like Turing to a bunch of advertisers forcing worthless personal use technology and then coming up with bs narratives) no hard science is filled with these many douchebags.

I am salt of the earth! Extravagant common sense is me! You have no idea the shit I had to put up with. It has completely scrambled my brain.

But I have been forced to cover for corporations and corrupt people and really stupid people. Speaking of morons that sleazy and corrupt Vinod Khosla.that guy is a brainless flatulent parasite..I hope that part goes on the web. I doubt Vinod Khosla would sue du to prove that he doesn’t fart into gold toilets. He is stupid and trashy but not that stupid. That would be more Elon Musk’s style. So I will be respectful and humble!!! Fair and balanced!!!!

Aside from the bs of pretending that Twitter was not always garbage and the whole mom thing, I found that woman Alicia kinda funny. I cannot imagine being outraged by these overgrown toddlers. I am much angrier about fake sensible “adults” who have not pulled their weight and they won’t. Oh hi Prof Hennessy!
Didn’t see you there! I was talking about people with no overlap with you!

Thats why we are in this mess. Abdication of responsibility by the faux sensible and utter crassness otherwise. I actually hate Vinod Khosla way more than Musk whose sheer self destructive profligacy will kill us faster than the slow deathgrip of the 1984 society which parasitic hucksters like Reid Hoffman, Mark Cuban and worst of all that bag of farts Vinod Khosla-a type of especially disgusting old Indian man-want to usher in. Hey fuck you fart ass.
Maybe that was a bit uncalled for. Who is he to call Lina Khan a dope and come to India-a country which a farting parasite like Vinod Khosla is not even a citizen of. Who is he to come in here imperiously? Hey ..we have our own homegrown indigenous perverts and fascists here. We don’t need this imported variety.

Unfuckingbelievable- you gtfo of one country that was clearly insane BTS from the Bush era and almost certainly earlier, where all these bullshit narratives float and …then 15 years later this same fucking crowd of parasitic bullshitters is encroaching overtly here.



You know Prof Hennessy- that is all anger that your reckless administerial style and some unknown perverts and lousy shrinks induced and now it is splashing on to admittedly loathesome people like Vinod Khosla, who in fairness is only an indirectly flatulent force. But he is scarier than you because you are at least mostly destroying America. That piece of shit Vinod Khosla (Khosla is a common name..I meant this idiotic and totally crass Indian billionaire who is called liberal..he is not liberal. He is garbage..who the fuck buys a beach? Or for that matter an island? I won’t say you should wake up, because you can’t probably. I “woke up” because I was rudely jerked away, which is different from jerkmate, a creepy porn thing. There is apparently a thing called a porn hub “community”. Isn’t it disgusting that some old creepy perverts in data science monitor web use and don’t admit to it when it is ..admittedly porn and sex are not a big part of my life..I am the frustrated one-time breeder helicopter parent type.. but were they rather than my actual vice-it would not mean that these disgusting old perverts can pretend it is paranoid women.
And bros who are not even in data sxience or ai or these creepy areas..it is not about you. You think they care about working class men? You are not stupid but you are wrong about women. One has no idea what the vast majority of people are like and the small repulsive vical crowd..I am trying to get back to being normal rabble. Some day this is a message for ypu out there after these creeps have broken everything and you blame those who went before you like me. I didn’t have an option. I tried as much as I could realistically as a normal flawed unglamorous female to push back but these are such corrupt and broken embedded systems that I know I am an utter failure on all levels. I know it more than I feel it. That is the cancer that is these parasites. These economists and CS data mining, social climbing, predatory hucksters..these shameless humans.

You know Prof Hennessy, I was serious about Stockholm Syndrome wrt you. I have seen your world and really you are the pick of the bunch. But you shouldn’t let that go to your head as a seal of approval from the specific type of angry peasant rabble I represent so much as a statement on how depleted that landscape is.
Prof Lecun and Prof Steve Chu are two other people who …people like you must not hear this often. But I don’t process most of them as malicious and fascistic even so much as too stupid to trust.
Like Prof Lecun and Prof Chu. They don’t just go around saying 🧟🧟‍♀️🧟‍♂️ “GDP Growth”. Does going to business school and learning to code somehow lobotomise other parts of the thinking centre.
When I crashed I automatically assumed, back then correctly, that I would be dealing uniformly with people who are stupid and sleazy and later with increasing anger and frustration, people who had been lied to as far as I was concerned.

I have never had to “cover” for my doctors (especially doctors like my oncologist) with tge exception of a handful of shrinks (who in fairness may not have known the underlying Rosenhan dynamic testing them or tests like not calling female complainants “bots” or crazy and not just going along with shit just because everyone else does).
I am woke left in the insane world of politics or the internet.

Irl I am pragmatic as the specific human I was and am. No one would buy that it is Christian concern for undocumented workers, open science or health.
You know Prof Hennessy, it is the tacky people who do shit like that who make all of society cynical about the concept that anyone can actually gjve a shit.
I don’t care if this is TL.
Who said it was for some random with no life who spends time reading this to then go “This woman is an insane loser without a life 😤.” Hey fuck you! At least I am only writing this rubbish not reading it! I don’t have a life because of Prof Hennessy. And I am not insane.


And just because a subset of the most repellant and lacking in self awareness people (including some really pathetic women-girlboss moms or whatever..I never met them, but a thing like this cannot move forward without them and however they vote, those women are clueless abd spend their time policing jokes and language while signing up for one of the creepiest crassest things I have ever seen which is ramping up now..That is not feminist. It is being extremely entitled. Maybe sometimes people dislike you..a subset of the types of women who would judge me for sitting around getting high in my damn room..but they are okay with this creepfest?

I always think about women like that..maybe people dislike you becauss of how shallow, sleazy and corrupt you are and it is not because you are a woman. Sheryl Sandberg, those Wojickis etc.
And maybe people dislike you because you are a creep or a parasite who gropes women and steals data and not your race. And this endless battle between two disgusting parasitic prostitute types at the top is leaving the rest of us in tbe dust and thats why people are angry and confused and cannot go with your narrowly race and gender based politics, most of all when they are woke and dealing with practical realities. I dont know what a conservative is..and they should fix their own side of the aisle. I will curtly be clear if it ever comes up).


Who says I am writing this for some randoms. Maybe I am writing it for Coleman Spillde or humans like that who I shamefully follow for social cues in this alarmingly out of touch species.

Why should I get doxxed and attacked as a symbol of anything but yet another random sacrificed to the Idiocracy.


This is my story! And yours! We are all victimized by stupidity and the malicious confuse you about the forms stupidity takes.

Now Prof Hennessy is not an honest man. In fact he is pretty devious. He doesn’t know it. I can respect that..I guess he has to pretend to be stupider than he really is.
It is this layer of Idiocrats from the private sector maligning the far less corrupt bureaucrats in the public sector.


We have to bring back a truly democratic state not chase the votebank politics and choose whether to enrich Vinod Khosla/Mark Cuban and Reid Hoffman preferentially or Musk, Peter Thiel etc

i have been more worried by Vinod Khosla. I hate and despise that guy. My mom would have hated him as the ugliest and crassest face of immigration. I came back because it is vomitous to have to be pro American or pro immigrant that way.
But without a boot on my neck I am sympathetic to immigrants…Like Hemant Kappana. And I can say things they cannot having come back with no intention of ever doing more than visiting other countries.

I think there is important communication all of us ravble white nonwhite male and female should engage in and it has to move fast to keep up. But it is easy.


I saw BTS. These guys are idiots. You should never be scared of some pathetic people who claim to be awesome or moral etc.
These people are all garbage.

Way better to be rabble. But the rest of you rabble form these idiotic tribes filled with stupid people. That is why I work alone.
It seriously drags you down to hell.

I will post when i feel like it. I am writing yo Coleman Spillde not anyone else..fuck you all! I didn’t sign up for this.
I sadly have a list of gay men of quality whose basements I would run to in an emergency-Coleman is one, Peter Putnam is both dead and has a Comrade Ogilvy vibe (no..he is quite possibly real but these guys use dubious methods in all probability) but that aside he struck me as a perfect fit, Chuck Palahniuk was my original pick for gay basement to hide in.

Thanks to you Prof Hennessy, I have had to often semi seriously consider which gay men might have a basement one could hide out in.
I would be too much of a strain for decent parents. Not because I am a loose cannon but because I cannot fulfil my functions, such as they are and dubious as the future..well I did work in fundamental not applied research.

And there will be practical repercussions to this any which way since it was an anomalous situation. I dislike being singled out and i dislike being placed in random groups.

I am not even that big on tech, but this is how these guys use a weird mix of crass conservatism and fake woke to confuse the head. It is all crassness and moralizing dressed up as hardcore or sensible or worst progressive or woke.

Someone like Yasha Levine is who I take cues from if I cautiously stick my neck out of my own basement which at this rate I would have to cut a deal with an introverted gay male temporarily over to wrangle back..


This thing is too real to be converted into bullshit. I am already atomized. The nuclear family is not going away for some sort of perverse joint family. But at this rate these idiots will dismantle democracy faster and faster. Thank god for Yasha.
I am a follower not a leader.

But I am a follower with sense! This isn’t a hobby and as the very cool Troy Farah (I always relied on my colleagues and now it is a random set of journalists and writers I follow online)

I do follow people in the global north more because i like some distance and space. There are bound to be cool people here in India but it is not very fun being a complainant. You are this hot potato no one wants around. That is what is alienating. It is not personal malice but you gotta be careful not to be exploited or dismissed.
Anyway I am definitely filing complaints against the adminstration here in my state and city. As for the centre if they are not involved in this, I recommend they stay away instead of piling on.

Or if the tide turned they would want you to back thier bs refusing to get why one was a complainant from the get go.

The specifics here cannot be spun as left or right. It is predatory corporations.
But I won’t be insipid.
I am woke sympathetic. I just don’t think that because of horrible people who are silent, the woke need to be vocal! There is nothing woke about internet use.
It is basically a gimme to these guys.

Otoh their slow creeping encroachment and engulfment has the weirdest fucking dynamics that I have learnt finally from after this final onslaught of dumbassery.