Elder-caregivers

I agree with you, it is a disgrace!

No one should be in this situation and it is pretty sad when two people do all they can in life to be independent and free from having to be owned by any institution.

I feel like some are just waiting for you to die so they can snatch up what little you may have.

Of course there must be another side to this.

I'm just not seeing it at the moment is the problem.

I have a horrific feeling of pending death soon. I don't know if it is me or him or someone else I have been around recently. This occurs with me periodically. I just wrote a friend about it in fact.

Right after I wrote him I found a tragic story about a local man that was living on the streets for the past 10 years that I'd seen many times. Seems he was murdered. I just saw him day before yesterday. Maybe that's the vibe I'm picking up, I do not know but is it very bothersome.

I don't know where all of this will end up going but I am wearing thin from all of it. I just finished cleaning house best I could and got the laundry done sort of. I failed to pick a few things up off of the floor that I did not see. It is almost midnight and I am exhausted. I really an extended rest of some sort.

I don't know how long I can last like this. Right now I can hear him screaming in the other room in his sleep, something he has done every since I've known him. What are these awful nightmares? I pray they will end for him and for me as well.

What a very sad world we are living in.

Thanks again for you very kind words. I appreciate them more than you'll ever know.

I ask God to step in and take control of this situation as I am quite powerless in my present condition.

How long can this go on? That's what I wonder, how long?