Buddhism

a hat. Today I have been meditating on and off but I usually leave it for right before bed when I really need it in the morning and throughout the day.

But I love Buddhism because it teaches you to be non-judgmental so after I meditated I feel now compassion and forgiveness for my brother and forgiveness for myself.

I think I need to work on the compassion for myself thing. Being harsh to myself is the same as being harsh to another. And it just makes me unhappy and robs me of opportunity to feel comfortable.

I have had a physical problem that has kept me away from the Buddhist center that I found in my town a couple months ago. Basically it is my sinuses and they will just run and I have to run and grab a tissue so I felt like I was bothering the meditations by getting up and running to the bathroom to blow my nose several times during the sessions. But I think they have isolated the problem, (please!) and I start with IV antibiotics tomorrow or shortly thereafter. Hopefully it will get better quickly. From what I have read my thoughts created this? I don't know. I have never been this sick for this long in my life. I was with another doctor who actually did surgery on my nose to try and fix it. It was only when I went for a second opinion that the new doctor found this particular bacteria that is hard to get rid of.

I don't know why I went off on that subject. If anyone knows if it means anything I would love to hear about it. I don't think it does because I heard the Dali Lama speak and he said that he had his gall bladder taken out so maybe we get physical problems as a way of learning lessons.

I know know but I will try to be nice and speak nicely and think of people with compassion today.