Mental Health Support

I don't think I'm every going to be able to get rid of the anxiety entirely, it's too fundamental a part of my personality at this point. But if I can find some way of working WITH it, I may still be able to do these things in some fashion. There are many a rather successful software developer who work from home for example. You don't need to work in a stressful cubicle environment which I know realize I don't think I can do. Course that route takes luck and some networking but maybe I don't want to think of that right now. Don't feel guilty of your position for even a second! I know 1000% why you do, I feel IMMENSE guilt over the failures and set backs I have suffered over the past 10+ years. But feeling this way, although it's understandable and I can relate, does nothing but make us feel worse. It contributes nothing to the situation and has no positive effect whatsoever. Many many people out there, those who supposedly CAN hack it in life have a SHIT load more to be guilty about than we do and they feel nothing at all and no one expects them to. Instead we have little to feel guilty about in the bigger picture yet we destroy ourselves over it. I'm sure we will both continue to feel guilty but try to keep these things in mind, and so will I And BTW raising teenagers is a damn stressful job, don't put yourself down on that account!

Thanks for the reply, I'm going to try and relax over the next week or so and I'll talk with my psychiatrist and see where things go from there.