Mental Health Support

This is the year I am breaking out of a funk I was in starting from late 2011.

I have never had any serious mental health issues, but I burnt out pretty badly in 2011. No one’s fault..it is just. This is pretty much the best article I have ever seen on mental health. It covers everything I can think of:

https://theconversation.com/how-neoliberalism-is-damaging-your-mental-health-90565

But now I finally feel energised and ready to work.

If I cannot work I feel very…well..it is the main thing in my life and if it doesn’t work then I don’t know what to really do with my time.

I think on the whole I love my work…it is a very one-sided love and my work rarely seems to love me back, but for all that I do think science is one of the few worthwhile pursuits still out there and very grounding.

Pretty much any time I remember being happy was tied to the mastering of some concept I didn’t get before. I still remember learning Stokes’ theorem in engineering school and it never clicking. I remember when it clicked years later I was so happy. Similarly I remember being happy when i read and understood Gillespie’s 1976 paper on Monte-Carlo simulations. I wish I could retain stuff better though..

It doesn’t always work, but it is pretty much the only path to sustainable happiness I have ever found.

I am looking forward to immersing myself in work and tuning out the world. I will donate to animal rights/environmental/lefty groups and help out any poor people I know when I can financially. But that aside I think I am happiest when I focus on work.

I also love reading (offline and proper books not a damn kindle). I am planning on re-reading The Citadel. It is one of my favorite books.

It is such a fun book. Very engrossing..reading about all the exams Andrew Manson has to take and his bleak life in a Welsh mining town…puts one’s own work woes in perspective ..

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Citadel_(novel)