Mental Health Support

I'm not in exactly the same place, but close. If I lose health Care, I'm done.. and I won't wait for natural causes because the pain that will afflict me won't be too much.

I emailed my school advisor this morning and said what's the point? I had all these plans, even at 55 I was going to try to have a good rest of my life. Now, the only thing I can think of is staying alive long enough to make sure that my trans child is safe. But they are in North Carolina and I'm all the way here in California and I just had a huge domestic violence blow up that left me reeling in trauma. So I'm just not in a good place either right now. I've got a migraine from crying all day yesterday and today my trauma caught up to me yesterday and then the election hit...

I want to go outside and try to ground and be in nature but it's too damn cold. 37°. So, I took a Valium and I'm laying back down to cuddle with my cats. I give up. Maybe tomorrow I'll rally, maybe not, at this point I really don't know