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Mental Health Support

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BlueKota

(3,875 posts)
Wed Nov 6, 2024, 03:18 PM Nov 2024

I am trying to hang on here [View all]

and am not suicidal. Will wait until natural causes kick in.

I will admit though when an ambulance, sherrif's car, and a critical care team, unit, went by my house earlier, my first thought was if someone is dying they are a lucky bastard, because they won't have to see the horror show to come.

Oddly enough I am most mad at my late Mother. Due to doctor error I had a near death experience in 2007. For once I felt completely at peace, totally loved, and had a strong sensation of going home. Then I heard her calling to me begging me not to leave her. I was resuscitated. She died a year later.

Part of me thinks damn it, I had a chance at something amazing, but I gave it up to do the right thing for her, and now I get stuck behind in a nightmare world run by the f..king anti christ.

I know it's irrational and I shouldn't feel this way, but I can't seem to help it.

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I am trying to hang on here [View all] BlueKota Nov 2024 OP
I get it, FirstLight Nov 2024 #1
I am sending hugs across the miles to you and your child!. BlueKota Nov 2024 #3
I often think XanaDUer2 Nov 2024 #2
I am sorry about your headaches and dental issues. BlueKota Nov 2024 #4
Thank you XanaDUer2 Nov 2024 #5
Yeah I was hoping I had a few more good years left in me FirstLight Nov 2024 #6
I'm pretty done XanaDUer2 Nov 2024 #7
My Mom always said BlueKota Nov 2024 #8
If anyone can mess us up deeply it's our moms. hunter Nov 2024 #9
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