I don't feel there is any hope that I [View all]

Will ever feel okay about myself or be able to crawl out from under this mountain of humiliation and shame.

I have three times the lethal dose of opioids saved up, and every day I think about that bottle and how it would mean an end to the pain.

I know all the usual answers, go to counseling, call the suicide hotline. None of that can offer me any relief, any hope of ever feeling I can hold my head up in life ever again.

I just felt like talking about what I am living with. I keep wishing the cancer would come back so I could see a light at the end of the tunnel.