I'm on the shit list [View all]

So, todays my sisters bday. I did text her. No TY or word yet. Me complaing too much about my "partner" ( who's drinking wine today) caused a rift, also my sister is not a safe person to share with. I'm sad bc my cousin skipped my surgery and bday.

So, my cousin is wishing my sister a happy bd on her timeline. Didn't do that for me. Wishing others left and right. I feel like absolute shit. This on top of other problems. I wan't too keep my fb but social media is bad for my mental health.

I thought they had my back. When i said something about help if i bc homeless w my cousin, i didn't get a yes. She has a large house. According to my sister, my partner is just yelling at me and not beating me. But when i said i may enter a shelter my cousin just said yeah.

My life is very unpleasant. I told my therapist I'm ready to just leave earth just to get out off this morass. I'm so alone.