Ever wonder [View all]

Last edited Sat Sep 14, 2024, 11:55 AM - Edit history (2)

How your life got so stressful and shitty? My bday is coming up. My cousin usually visits me. Not sure she will this year. I seem to be on some sort of shitlist. Shes currently in AZ visiting her discovered-late-in-life half sister. She recently came back from Utah visiting another friend. I mentioned maybe going into a shelter, and wasnt told Hey, you could stay with me in my (large) house. *

My partner has a pre-cancerous esophageal condition and, for some reason his GI, out of the blue, wants him to have an endoscopy. I'm so worried its cancer. I am not up to nursing someone I'm barely able to take care of myself now.

My half sister was verbally aggressive to me via text again yesterday. She has a lot of her own problems. I didn't respond bc I'm exhausted. Just so tired. Tired of verbal aggression. Tired of thinking supposedly-close relatives have my back and finding out I'm on my own. I'm the unemployed drag of a relative with problems now. Everyone else is traveling around, visiting, having great lives. I'm sitting in a cramped old unit now having health concerns constantly.

My life went wrong badly, somewhere. Today I'm really depressed. I'm avoiding my sister, too. I know my relationship is not good.

* me considering entering a shelter due to my pita partner and becoming for all intents and purposes homeless. She just said "yeah" when I said this. Its obvious I'm on my own. ETA: Any help would be temporary until I got back on my feet. Not a lifetime commitment.

Thank you all.