Mental Health Support

I've had some horrific experiences with doctors. One lied to me, saying he thought I had a fungus infection when he actually thought I had lung cancer. One doctor called me ugly, to my face, when I was just a teenager because I had acne. Another caused an injury to me during a pelvic. I had a dermatologist once do an over the shirt 'breast exam'. OK, he groped me. Oh, and I woke up during eye surgery and the surgeon got mad at ME!!!

And don't get me started on my father's misdiagnosis. They said he had MS. He was 68. How many 68 year old men develop MS? It was actually a brain tumor and by the time they discovered their ultimate fuck up, it was too late.

So, on top of elevated BP, I have a hefty case of anxiety AND white coat hypertension that nobody seems to bother to understand except to say it's my fault.

I'm at the point of just giving up and waiting for the inevitable. Which might not happen if I get the right anxiety medication stay away from all other doctors.

Sorry - I am a total wreck, today. I feel sorry for my therapist. I'll probably blubber my way through the appointment. If he's lucky I won't throw up.