Mental Health Support

And I totally understand this: "I love her not from love but fear."

That isn't love. That is only fear disguised as love.

Here's how I HOPE you can get out from under that burden and cut your ties with her for the sake of your own health.

There are only two people you owe anything to at this point: yourself and your SON. For your son's sake, you need to relieve yourself of any guilt for the no-contact with your mother (and anyone else in that family who hurts you). You are doing exactly the right thing. And maybe you should extend the no contact to birthdays and holidays.

If you haven't already, let yourself feel the full force of your anger toward her, and your grief for the loving, stable mother you didn't have. The more you allow yourself to feel your own loss, the more you will be freeing yourself up to love your son.

I hope that your own finances are in good enough shape that you don't need to maintain a relationship with a toxic mother in order to receive an inheritance. I can understand why that could be a consideration, but I hope it doesn't have to be in your case.

All best wishes, debm55.