I saw a therapist for the first time a week ago. For depression episodes I've had all my adult life. [View all]

The depression I think is mostly caused by a few traumatic events. A couple of things I never told anyone about for 40 years. I just ended a 12 year relationship as well, and never even opened up to her.

I had this in mind for quite some time. I knew something would come along that would disturb me, and when it does, it brings up a lot of bad memories and sets me off. That's what seems like happened anyway, maybe my therapist will have other ideas. That's why I'm going.

I told her part of my inspiration was The Sopranos. I loved those scenes with Dr. Melfi. She said she's heard that inspired people before.

Overall, I'm doing pretty well. I've lost a lot of weight and am in better shape that I have been in 15 years. I'd like to meet someone nice and start another relationship. I thought the therapy might help ensure I handle any disappointments that may come.

I liked the first session. She didn't think I needed a complete evaluation or medication. I'm not opposed to that, but think my weed is quite sufficient.