Addiction & Recovery

In terms of the alcohol yeah I've stopped self medicating. Still drank at Christmas parties but I'm not buying it myself to get wasted off of. Emotionally I'm not much better. I went off the meds I was on which never helped me much and it seems may have been worsening the alcohol cravings. Since I've been off them I'm on an emotional roller coaster. I go from despair to optimism many times a day, it's exhausting. I still don't have a job or go to school since the breakdown I had, I've had 5 or more of these breakdowns in my life now. Living off my parents still, but I've been doing this most of my life now at 31. I'm struggling with why life is worth living, not really actively suicidal. I am also struggling with trying to motivate myself to look for a job. Once I have one, ANY job, I'll look at moving out of the house into my own place. It's difficult to focus on any of this though. I sleep like 12, 15 hours a day due to depression and hyposomnia. I'm seeing a therapist who does talk therapy and there have been some improvements / progress there. Time will tell I guess.