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Between being screwed over by the various forces fucking up reality (whatever your demographic) and being angry about it.

And being 20 and having largely imaginary grievances that trip you up. Grievances about people you don’t know at all, who may sometimes within reason sympathize and agree even. Honest lefties dislike bullshitters as much as anyone does.

Though I am female and Indian, I was a military brat and at 20 had a type of conservative worldview though then as now I have largely unformed views about things I have no experience with. That is what makes the human brain fluid and able to adapt honestly. Not pay lip service, but stop and think once in a while.

I had never lived outside India and did not understand much.

I was as full of shit as these young men in
my way at 20. I do remember that. But I kept moving left motivated both by honest self interest and because I do care about stuff. I reject a lot of what is superficially labeled left. But the real left is as different as that as chalk from cheese. And hobbled by human contradictions.

Fortunately no one “rewarded” me ever for being full of shit and I continue to never be rewarded. In fact as I

As I fell into more and more corrupt systems as the better systems get priced out of range by the truly hateful people fucking us all over (the billionaire class in tech etc) life got and remains impossible.

At least never being rewarded for stupidity i
keeps me out of prison. And maybe the hateful systems using as all as scapegoats and fall guys will get their comeuppance.

But the people who have been “rewarded” for their shit locally at least will learn the hard way up top.

These young men are not local to me. And the way they are going people local to them will eventually handle their malfeasance, though really it is their false god Elon Musk they should be mad at. The way I reject the so called liberals of Google and Facebook who threw me to the dogs. At least I take out my own false friends.

I am generally suspicious of movies and entertainment (they are the devil’s tool! Only the scriptures for me!), but sometimes they convey things pictorially for those hampered by a lack of imagination. And Ed Norton’s character gets it finally in American History X that the people manipulating him and sending him to prison have no investment in his well-being. It is a good movie, as movies go..these days it is all theft and that cannot work as theft of human experience is not art.

If I were someone like this groomed to be the fall guy for some predatory and manipulative billionaire, I would be looking to make them accountable. In this case Elon Musk, not this kid. But if on the left eventually lefties lose patience enough to push back against pseudo woke douches like my former employer.. who keep muscling me out of the left as conservatives jumping ship muscle me out of the moderate left parts.

Greenwashing, girlbossing and an eternal grievance complex are not left anymore than spurious “hardcore” and brute force is libertarian meritocracy and piracy is just theft. This is a confused and non cohesive mix of views. Most honest people I find have templates for being that are not articulated but which make more sense than mechanical tribalism.

The only people I ever groveled to were my postdoctoral mentor because I was and am in the wrong in not working harder down to this day. Because he does his best as a scientist and as a family man. To my best friends (from grad school and my ex husband). My parents who have had to suffer a daughter like this. My medical MJ and doctor who offer an honest service, My last mentor (though not his annoying lab..they are cool, but I thought and continue to think they needed kicking back then), My colleagues from my main lab-coolest lab ever; My long suffering oncologist; one male scientist from my last job whom I think I misunderstood; my vegan lady friend locally; EarlG/elad who host me. And the few specific humans I follow as they have good judgement. Small is beautiful.

But I have been taken aback that the rest of these idiots are by now so broken that they go around taking liberties with me. Which really isn’t recommended. Because I didn’t go around puffing myself up and being entitled. I was and mostly just am dysfunctional.

Were I a conservative young man, I would be trying to be the best version of that not a grifter who is muscling out other people they perceive as grifters. At some point it loses credibility.

I do not need a grifter like Matt Walsh or a batshit crazy person like Curtis Yarvin or Nick Land to explain to me that Robin D’Angelo, race2dinner etc are grifters and nothing like Briahna Joy Gray or Alec Karakatsanis.
The wrong patterns are being inspected imo.
And once the net encroaches into reality this bullshit is not sustainable.
Whatever else is not both sided, we can all agree on grift, bullshit, cluelessness at some point.

It is why I avoid like the plague scripted and mechanical worldviews. There is no room there for the adaptation you need to survive.

Stephen Colbert said recently that he is more conservative than people think. I am not conservative for the most part. But I agree with someone like Matt Stoller that utopianism is not real. And finding the set of actions and communication from those like me stuck with this infuriating shit..I reserve all my resources (including the ones that were pirated and squandered and continue to be in all probability) to push back in the real world and make it stick as the specific human I am.
I expect it to be filled with moments when I look daft and realize that what I thought I was attacking was actually friendly fire and what I was saying could be perverted and portrayed as the parroting of some stance that I would find abhorrent.
That is the fun part of these opaque things in these glorious societies! But it is worth being wrong to learn from it and slowly work on being right some day over always being wrong.
And it is malicious forces that portray your antagonist as a caricature, not least because then you underestimate them.

I get shut down so much by my own friends that I have overestimated my actual antagonists. Well..lol..I have rights!

These are hard won lessons not glib shit fueled by some junk ai.
This whole thing was worthless anti-sanity garbage.
More of this trash? Fuck no.

Yeah this kid should throw Elon Musk under the bus as I will throw Facebook and Google (solely excepting Prof John Hennessy and Prof Yan Lecun and the rare people I would truly buy) under various buses and trains along with my creepy local communist govt and anyone else who was a part of this disgraceful rollout.

This has become too personal for me to mess around. One person -my mom - who bore the brunt of this disgraceful mess and supported her only child - me throughout is dead.
I myself sometimes find the hectoring style of a type of left alienating..But what about the rights of hectoring alienating moralizers who frame things in completely unrealistic ways?!!!!

Well being an only child saved me from having to rely on state support. I am sympathetic when people need to do that..what did I say about hectoring a para back?
But I do resent having to shoulder the burden of various parasitic burgeoning surveillance complexes with no legitimate tie to any kind of security, who in fact via their support of various grifty bullshit jobs that rile up the population, make the lives of actual security professionals, who pick up after them, harder.
Those people will in turn take it out no doubt on whatever scapegoat is available. Oooo who would that be? Let me put on the thinking cap ascribed to me!

It is not that I am not a huge fan of all this. I may even be the only fan of these various onlyfans account shills at this point. But a life spent on one’s knees (vicious double entendre intended!) is no life.
If these day in and day out posts were inadequate to demonstrate that instead of focusing on gainful employment as a staid, mild, garrulous and ever so slightly daft old lady like me should be doing, I am engaged in low effort catharsis and a transformation! Like that nice man in Red Dragon, I could produce (! well I deleted them out of intense shame) various disclaimers from 2011-2026 in which I confessed to various petty offences and assured everyone everywhere that I would not sneak into their worlds and countries etc and steal everything that is not nailed down.

The nice and endearing thing about 14.5 years, totally voluntariy (!) spent in a blooming surveillance state that is such trash that it will not survive in my home is you know that as various snap recipients, people misguided by our garbage elites into a lot and now leading lives of needless humiliation as these parasites who lead them there continue to cavort in dens of vice with painted harlots! That is called a joke. Lol…
I would request the left wing hierarchy to allow me to be a jester if Chomsky and Arundhati Roy can go around hectoring and alienating honest humans like my parents who are very reasonable and would be left more than right and don’t go around befriending Epstein and saying “MeToo hysteria”. Petition denied! Why???
I grovel to the real community so I don’t have to grovel to billionaires. But I just gotta be me!
I really didn’t have a choice..
But this isn’t theatre and everything I can do to end this I will.

The difference (as you see with this message board where over time you start to know the lives of strangers and get a sense of who they are, absent some annoying endless thing unauthorized by EarlG/elad or DUers) between a cohesive human worldview and a bot that drones out a mix of shit which has unclear effects couldn’t be greater(!).
They work for a type of person. No prizes for guessing which!

It reminds me of my own very mechanical and rote learning driven thoughts often.
These are my perceptions and not binding. I disapprove of influence, were it even real. Ransomware..that I believe is real and yes Russian and Chinese with Americans, Indians etc of there ilk wondering “gee how can we get a cut of that”.

These are not nice people. They are a garbage elite and to borrow their own rubbish, they are engaged in a war on the human mind they are too stupid to understand.
I did support India’s “hum do hamare do” campaign. This country urgently needs to move to a smaller population so parasitic grift like this (my lights just went out) is not rewarded and a disgusting rationalization for pensions was and is not propped up.
If you live in a foreign country, you do not understand things on the ground here and even the better local things in collaboration with anything better outside will fail absent draconian pushback against grifting hospitals, grifting data scientists etc.
This has to be aborted and the post mortem can be done for once less utterly disgracefully.

That is ideal for the few honest humans in this over a growth signal or bullshit rationalisation. There is no use case and nothing honest except crowd manipulation and control for allpartisan grift. And I don’t mean a meanspirited crackdown at all.
That is why I need to see. Since I cannot joust with an opaque thing endlessly.

From what I convey constantly about my personality and views and rationalizations you should get some idea of my flawed but hopefully honest worldview. I would need to verify it with others. But which others this time I will choose.