General Discussion

I feel that way all the time..I look at stuff I wrote a few weeks ago or last week and think “this person is an ass”. That’s not a humblebrag though i just realized it sounds like one. Like one is growing that fast. It isn’t. I can’t remember ever having written anything I look back at approvingly. But if I did it would probably be routine science. Though that is rubbish too it is less cringey.

It’s just hard to find humility in a hostile environment and without it one is doomed to be a bombastic ass. I am resigned to it. I figure my best bet is to reduce the amount of time I am embittered/angry and arrogant and increase the periods where I am more thoughtful, externally focused etc…it is all one can do

Public figures must be a different breed from us. We all have the grace that anonymity grants us. It is so hard to be human under the harsh light of scrutiny.

No Exit nailed it..who was that? Sartre? It’s what makes Jeremy Bentham’s Panopticon such a nightmarish notion. When I first heard about it I felt revulsion and thought Bentham must have been a total ass. He was an in fact a utilitarian..figures..those guys are jerks, although on the surface it sounds like a concept with some sense it’s usually awful in its execution.

(P.S. : out of curiosity NNadir, who is that in your profile icon? I have wondered. I always look at the unfamiliar icons. You would recognize mine ).