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Trump, catfood said delivered but not in mailbox. I'm not following up on that. I used to, but i don't have energy anymore.
I was used to good physical health until my injury set off a cascade of new painful symptoms every few days. Headaches are back. Side neck pain. Carotids feel weird. Jaw pain. Wondering if the tingling will move all over my face. Estranged from relatives whose problems I've had to hear, whom I've nursed after surgery, and sent money to.
I told my partner if i collapse just let me go. Now there's a snow ice warning and i have 2 can't miss dr appmnts this week. Part of me hopes for a single car fatal accident. I've never driven in snow.
I worry my health will never be the same. I didn't have anything but good health and that careless pos destroyed it for nothing. Oh, and the bad molar. That's bothering me today and i emailed my dr. Not seeing the surgeon soon either. Not covered by Medicare.
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I was experiencing similar to what you are going through. I wanted it all to end. But by sheer grace I made it through. Hang in there XanaDUer2 So many of us are pulling for you to get and feel better. 
But please don't give up on your health. I've been there so many times, where I thought I'd sustained an injury or developed a chronic illness that would take all joy away from my life, or stop me from doing the things I love to do--specifically exercise. From a very early age I had the thought that if I couldn't (run, row, lift weights, etc...) I wouldn't want to go on. But I just made myself do these things through the injury or chronic illness, and things would either get better, or the things that haven't gotten better I've learned to live with. This is my personal bias, but I think exercise and movement are so important. Our bodies want to heal. I think our minds give up on us before our bodies do.
I really hope you find your way through this and things start to look up.
For now at least, maybe block out domestic politics. That is a motivation killer. Recreate your life to the best of your ability, making it about the things you enjoy or used to enjoy. Pretend you enjoy them until you really enjoy them. It is hard but doable!
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